I smashed the CP of me and the villain school grass

Dear Jiang Ye, how are you doing recently?

Since I left you for a month, I can't sleep every night.In my dreams, I always see you holding my hand and asking me why I want to leave.

I can't give a perfect answer to this question.

It was my fault that I didn't confess my identity to you at the beginning, and I was tempted without authorization.

When I had to leave later, I still kept it from you.

Lovers should be honest, but I am worried that after telling you the truth, you will worry about me.

Your situation in that world is not good. On the surface, you are glamorous, but in fact, no one can understand the loneliness in your heart. I don't want to add to your worries.

I love you very much, and I wish you could be considerate for the rest of your life, so I can only choose to hide the things that make you sad.

Jiang Ye, I really love you.

I know that I have lied to you more than once, and I am no longer qualified to beg for forgiveness, but I have never lied about loving you.

Just because I love you to the extreme, I hope you can be happy, even if the person who is by your side is no longer me.

Actually, why don't I want to live with you?

Even just taking a walk under the sunset together, or cooking my best Dandan noodles for you again, is a great happiness to me, and I believe you will think so too.

Yes, I believe you love me very much.

You can feel affection from the look in your eyes every time you look at me, and I still feel lucky to have your love.

Remember you once said that if I lie to you again, you will never forgive me.

But I still want to explain again, I really didn't mean to leave you, I didn't mean to lie to you...

Well, I suddenly found out that there is one more thing I'm hiding from you.

I'm actually 26 years old now.

When I first met you, I had a 19-year-old body but a 25-year-old soul.

We are 6 years apart, and it's unbelievable that we can't help falling in love with you.

Jiang Ye, you must have thought we were young, right?

I'm so sorry, I seem to be a really big liar, and I have hidden so many things from you without knowing it.

Alas... let's not talk about these sad things, let me tell you some happy things.

I moved to a new home, which is a small garden with a quiet environment.

Although it is not as luxurious as our previous home, but fortunately, it is quiet and there is no disturbance from outsiders, so I can calm down and write to you.

Maybe it's not a letter, because you'll never receive it.

It is more like a diary, recording my mood every day.

Jiang Ye, without your permission, I decorated my new home to look like your bedroom. I really hope that when I wake up one morning, I will be pleasantly surprised to find that you are beside me.

Alas... I began to expect extravagantly again.

In fact, this new home is somewhat different from your bedroom, it is not so high, it is only on the second floor.

I still remember that I used to sneak into your bedroom from the fifth floor, but now I think about it, I feel a little scared.

Let me tell you quietly, when I climbed up from the fifth floor for the first time, I was so scared that my calves were shaking.

And it was raining heavily that day, and the ladder was even more slippery, and if you were not careful, you would fall down.

But I remember that day was your birthday, and I didn't know what to do to make you angry. I was in a hurry to see you, so I thought of building a ladder from the fifth floor.

You were really domineering at that time, you always bullied me...so you bullied me so many times, can you forgive me for deceiving you a few times?

Well, it's okay if you don't forgive.

As long as you are happy.

Jiang Ye, I miss you so much, I miss you so much.I don't know how you get along with him?

Will he understand your likes and sorrows, will he praise you when you are happy, and hug you when you are down?

Jiang Ye, I'm worried about you again.

You have suffered a lot since childhood, but none of that is material.Now that you leave the Jiang family, where will you live?

I asked my mother to take good care of you.

But I am afraid that according to your temperament, you will refuse her help.

Sometimes I really hope you show weakness, don't be so brave...

——An'an very much;

-June 2018, 5