Pear Blossoms Are Blooming Again GL

Liang Nuanqing was stunned by my question, she turned her head, a little afraid to meet my eyes, but there was a trace of irritability between her brows: "Yinuo, can you not speak so harshly? I said I love you." you!"

"Love?" I repeated in a low voice with a slightly mocking expression.

She softened again, and her tone softened: "Yinuo, don't be so naive."

"Oh? How naive am I?"

She looked at me, was silent for a long time, and said softly: "We are no longer teenagers. At that time, our love was protected by the big tree of the school, but after entering the society, everything is different."

My chest was throbbing with pain, I nodded and said, "Yes, you are indeed different."

"Yinuo, my parents are competitive people, and they have to compare everything with others, even this kind of thing is the same. At that time, I was 25 and [-], and my friends and peers around me were all married one by one. But I don't even have a boyfriend, you know how much pressure I was under at that time!"

"Of course I understand, I understand much more than you."

"The situation of our two families is different, you at least have a younger brother!" She looked a little anxious and spoke urgently and quickly.

This kind of conversation is meaningless, I don't understand why I stand here and listen to her defending herself, anyway, it comes and goes, it's nothing more than those few reasons, I suddenly feel a deep sense of fatigue.

Seeing that I didn't speak, she sighed softly: "Yinuo, if we hadn't broken up and been together, what do you think would happen to us now?"

"That's hard to say. I guess we will be miserable. Maybe we don't have enough clothes and food, because I can't give you anything but childish and ridiculous feelings."

She turned a deaf ear to the sarcasm in my words and continued: "I know you have been preparing for our future. You gave up your job at home and chose to take the civil service exam here because of me. But Yinuo, even if we So what if we stay in D city, can we really escape from our parents and relatives, and then live a sweet little life for the two of us selfishly? I know, of course you won’t let me suffer, and I can afford it Myself, but life is not just about food and clothing. This society, after all, is still a patriarchal society, and it is not so tolerant of same-sex love. Two women living together is not as easy as imagined of......"

"It may not be as difficult as you think."

"Also, I really needed money at that time."

I smiled, sat down on the bed, propped my body back with my hands: "Okay, here comes the important point."

It was super quiet in the room for a while, one of us was sitting and the other was standing, and we were only a few steps apart, but I felt that there was a long distance between me and her. When we broke up two years ago, I never felt this way. There is a certain change in her body, a subtle change from the inside out, and something in her eyes makes me feel very strange.

After a while, her sad voice broke the silence in the air: "Yinuo, at that time my father had stomach cancer and had to undergo surgery, and he needed money very much. He was courteous all day long, and my family liked him very much and wanted me to marry him." give him."

"The important thing is that you are willing to marry."

"I just had to bow to reality."

"You keep your head down very well. Didn't you say that life is one multiple-choice question after another? The one you choose is obviously the most correct answer. The greatest success of a woman is to marry a successful man. Now you have money, status, Now that you have a reputation, your parents have brilliant faces, and if you feel proud among your relatives and friends, this means that you have done your utmost filial piety to them." When I said this, I was actually very sad, but I didn't want to show it On the face: "It's just Nuan Qing, you can just walk your beautiful and sunny avenue now, why are you looking for me?"

She sighed softly, her expression looked a little sad: "Yinuo, you know why, why bother to ask."

I looked at her weak and innocent look, and suddenly became angry: "I'm sorry, I really don't know about this."

"Yinuo, don't speak like that, is this attitude good for me?" She looked at me helplessly, sparks seemed to flicker in her eyes: "I've been thinking about you and the time we were together."

What she said didn't bring me any joy, it only made me feel ironic, and it only made me feel more uncomfortable. My chest was very stuffy, and I felt like I couldn't breathe.

She waited for a while, but she didn't see me talking, and said in a low voice: "Yinuo, do you still remember Jia Wei? You had a good relationship with him in high school. He married the earliest, but now he has a very close relationship with his wife." Too bad, they each have lovers outside, basically you play yours, I play mine, just for the sake of their daughter, they managed to maintain their marriage..."

I interrupted her: "I'm not interested in other people's affairs!"

She ignored me, and continued on by herself: "There is also Xu Yuerong, you talked about it at the class reunion, she married a husband, is very rich, and there are many hotels in the city, in the eyes of outsiders, she She is very affectionate with her husband, but in fact, she has always maintained a lover relationship with her first love, and she even brought him to me to meet..."

When I heard this, I felt alert in my heart: "Nuan Qing, what exactly are you trying to say?"

"Yinuo." She glanced at me, paused slightly, and continued: "This world is not the black and white world in your mind. There is nothing right or wrong, only what you think, or what you think. Unexpectedly, everyone is obeying their own desires and chasing their own happiness. Many times, the moral code is just something that is talked about, and people talk about it, just selfishly wanting to use this to restrain others, rather than myself."

An angry and unbelievable emotion came to my heart, I squinted my eyes and looked at her: "Nuan Qing, are you implying that I can be your lover by saying this?"

"I want to tell you that there is nothing wrong with us being together." She approached me slowly, looking into my eyes deeply: "Yinuo, I love you, I know you love me too, I know You haven't found anyone else in the past few years, and I know you hate me, but you can't help but love me."

The next few words of her hit me easily, and the infinite tenderness and guilt in her eyes seemed more like a kind of magical power, which made it impossible for me to display the anger in my heart. I gritted my teeth secretly and almost squeezed out In a few words: "I'm leaving."

She leaned over and supported the bed with her hands from both sides, and I couldn't get up. I subconsciously leaned back and said angrily, "Liang Nuanqing, I said I'm leaving!"

"Yinuo, in the days when you avoided seeing each other, I always thought of you, do you believe it? I remember the many things you did for me, I remember you used to get up many times every morning , I took a taxi to a place a few kilometers away, and then I took a taxi back, just to buy a breakfast I like for me who is sleeping. I remember that in winter, I was very afraid of the cold, and you always put my feet on my feet at night. Hugged in my arms. I remember that you were always reluctant to spend money except for books, just to buy me things I like. I remember that as long as I call, as long as I say I want to see you, even if it is thousands of miles away, you will still be there. Come to me as quickly as possible... Yinuo, I wish we were the same as before..."

As she murmured, she lowered her body gradually, and her warm breath hit my cheek lightly. The ambiguous and dangerous breath set off alarm bells in my heart. I had no choice but to back away and almost lay on my back on the bed. I felt my cheeks were hot, and a thin layer of sweat broke out on my forehead, and I even lost the strength to get angry.

"Yinuo, I can't miss you. I miss your kindness, your hug, your love for me, and the way you dote on me. Don't tell me, these days and nights, aren't you also thinking about it? Me, Yinuo, you can hate me, you can punish me, but please don’t stay away from me, I want you in my world, I want you in a place where I can see.”

Her voice gradually choked up, sounding extremely aggrieved and sad, just like when we were in a relationship before, when we two had an argument, my chest began to hurt again, I closed my eyes, and said in pain: "Nuanqing, I can't do it with you Go back to the past, please don't do this."

"Yinuo, do you remember our first night?"

Her voice suddenly left my ears, she seemed to stand upright, my breathing seemed to be a little easier, and I opened my eyes, only to see that she was unbuttoning her clothes and throwing them aside, only wearing a piece of underwear, I was lying there , staring at her dumbfounded, his brain suddenly went blank, and his thinking ability and language ability were lost at the same time.

Her eyes looked at me for a moment, but her hands were stretched behind her back to unbutton her underwear. Then, I saw her body, which was the most familiar curve to me. She came over and knelt down on the bed, bowing her head. Said: "That night, you kept calling my name in my ear, Nuan Nuan, Nuan Nuan, Nuan Nuan... I like it when you call me that way, your voice is so gentle, your eyes look like you are willing to I give everything. Yinuo, I remember how you were obsessed with my body, and later, do you often think about it..."

With tears in her eyes, she looked at me, and there seemed to be a thousand tenderness and pity between her brows. Then, she took my right hand and put it on her chest, and the full and soft touch came from between her fingers, All the strength in my body was sucked away, and my heart seemed to jump out of my chest, but my body was limp like a puddle of mud, without any strength to resist.

She lowered her head, her face was getting closer and closer to me, I suddenly tilted my head, gasped and smiled softly: "Nuan Qing, yes, I am very obsessed with your body, but that was before. Now that I see you stripped naked, I don't feel the slightest. Imagine a man who has pressed it under my body countless times. I just feel sick when I think that it has been stained with another man's breath. . ..."

The last sliver of reason in my heart grabbed me and forced me to say vicious words. Liang Nuanqing pressed my body and became obviously stiff. Then, I felt her slowly straighten up.For a moment, the air became condensed, and the silence in the room made people feel suffocating. I mustered up the courage and turned my head to look at her, but saw her staring at me blankly like a puppet, tears seemed to be broken Pearls gush out from the sockets of her eyes, dripping down silently, and her face is as white as snow under the light.

I hated the regret and pity that surged up in my heart at this moment, and bit my lips tightly, for fear that I would say something irreversible, and then, I saw her slowly raise her hand.

"If you want to hit me, you can hit me, as long as you feel qualified."

I met her angry eyes full of hatred without fear. She looked at me for a while, then suddenly put her face in her hands and burst into tears.

I didn't know how I got out of the room, how I got in the elevator, I stumbled out of the hotel, I didn't know the direction, and I didn't know where I wanted to go. I ran along a road and ran a road. He turned and ran the other way.

I couldn't see the few pedestrians on the road, and I couldn't hear the horns of the cars around me. I just wanted to run, and kept running, as if there was something chasing me desperately behind.

I don’t know how long I’ve been running. I felt my legs were weak and I was about to stand unsteadily, so I stopped. I leaned against a big tree by the roadside, gasping for breath. The evening wind was blowing on my face. , I stretched out my hand to touch my face, and I felt a piece of icy wetness. I was stunned for a moment, and suddenly started crying again.

I don't know what I'm crying about, about the lost youth and love?Unrecognizable lover?It's like burying some precious things in my heart, and setting up a monument for it, paying homage to it and remembering it all the time, but one day, I suddenly discovered that the epitaph on it turned into a great mockery .

Liang Nuanqing let me down, almost chilling disappointment, but why don't I let myself down, she is right, I love her, I am obsessed with her body, I can't resist her, when she is close to me, When she tempted me, I really wanted to, I longed for her body, I wanted to tear off her clothes, tell her that she was mine, I wanted to take her hard, and punish her for betraying me, I wanted to Hold her, love her as you always have, and tell her, it's okay, as long as she's by my side, nothing matters, I'm willing to forgive. . . . . .

The past, the scenes were replayed in my mind, I held the tree with my hand, and wept until my liver hurt my lungs, my voice was hoarse, I didn't care, I didn't care if anyone passed by and thought I was a lunatic, I didn't care about anything. not give a damn about!I wish I could become dust on the side of the road at this moment, ignorant, without sadness, without pain.

In the quiet night, my crying finally gradually subsided. I pressed my aching temple, leaned against the tree to rest for a while, and then went to touch my mobile phone, but it was empty. I recalled it with difficulty. , When I thought it might be in the hotel, it slipped out of the trouser pocket and landed on the bed.

While pressing my head, I staggered forward and walked to the nearest phone booth. I took out a coin from my wallet and put it in. Then I dialed Huamao's number. The phone rang several times. Finally, Huamao's sleepy voice came from the microphone: "Hello, who is it?"

I held back the tears that were about to well up in my eyes, sniffed my nose, my voice was low and tired: "Amao, it's me, I've made up my mind, I want to come to S city."