A thousand years

He opened his eyes, and there was a biting coldness in his cold pupils.Looking at Gu Ruofan, the light in the room was bright enough for him to clearly see every subtle expression on the young man's face.

"Know what you're talking about now?"

Gu Huai took a deep breath, only feeling the part on the left side of his chest throbbing violently. While clearly knowing that it was impossible, he struggled to sink.

Gu Ruofan met Gu Huai's cold eyes that could almost turn into reality without giving an inch. The young man's eyes were clear and transparent, burning with a kind of stubbornness that had nothing to do with violence, with a desperate madness, almost red Eye.

"Gu Huai, I'm awake."

I've never been more awake than I am now.

Gu Ruofan's eyes softened, staring at Gu Huai, flashed a touch of affection and reckless persistence.

Gu Huai felt a pain in his heart, as if there was a hand hiding in his chest, holding his heart fiercely.Looking at Gu Ruofan in front of him, the longing in his heart became higher and higher, and he even wanted to directly pull the boy into his arms, hug him, and kiss him fiercely.

But not.

Gu Huai gritted his teeth, his powerful self-control was finally brought into full play at this moment.

He couldn't use his selfishness to ruin Gu Ruofan's life.

"I'm your brother, you call me Gu Huai?"

Gu Ruofan nodded, his hands were already full of sweat, but there was no regret in his eyes.Now that it has been said today, there is no need to hide it anymore.

"Brother, you obviously have feelings for me, didn't you? I fell asleep before, and you responded to that kiss in the room, didn't you?"

As soon as Gu Ruofan said this, Gu Huai's pupils suddenly shrank, and he stared at Gu Ruofan closely, "You were awake at the time and you came here to kiss me on purpose?"

"Yes!"

"You obviously have feelings for me, and the last time in City S, do you dare to say that I didn't react?"

A smug flash of pride flashed in Gu Ruofan's eyes, whether it was in the previous life or in this life, no matter whether he had memories or not, the one Gu Huai could never refuse was himself.

Gu Huai stared at Gu Ruofan closely, said every word, took a deep breath, and said, "You're crazy."

Gu Ruofan met Gu Huai's eyes without any fear, and clenched his fists, "I'm not crazy. Brother, you have been firmly engraved here since I started to understand what love is." Raising his hand, Comparing the position of the heart, Gu Ruofan smiled brightly.

Gu Huai grabbed the boy's arm and looked down at him from above.

His temples were throbbing and painful.

He didn't know when Gu Ruofan actually fell in love with himself.

There was bitterness in his chest, Gu Huai wished he could slap himself to death.

That's right, he likes Gu Ruofan, and he can't wait to devour him and rub him into the bone marrow when he sees him.but so what

He is his most beloved brother.

It's okay to fall into the quagmire and struggle out by yourself. How can a person like him do it?

Gu Huai raised his hand and rubbed his temples, hiding the sea-like bitterness and pain in his eyes.

He wants to see this child get married and have children, see him have a beautiful, splendid and bright future, and see his life complete and happy.

Gu Huai bit his tongue, allowing the salty taste to spread wantonly in his mouth, but the pain made him even more sober.

A deep sorrow gripped his throat tightly.

Ever since he discovered his unspeakable feelings for Gu Ruofan, Gu Huai had made a complete decision to cut it off.

The love of others is to hope that love will be together, even if it is to torture each other, until death.

As for Gu Huai's love, he would rather bear the pain alone, and try his best to give Gu Ruofan a fulfillment.

Fall in love, get married, have children.This is the most fulfilling life, isn't it?

Holding it in the palm of his hand and loving it for so many years, how can he be willing to drag Gu Ruofan, who is not yet fully sensible and immature, into such a bottomless quagmire?

That's right.

Gu Huai was afraid.

Even if Gu Ruofan said today, I like you, Gu Huai couldn't believe it.

what.

How can he guarantee that in the future, when he sees other people getting married and having children, but he can only tie himself to a man like himself, he won't regret it?

"Today I will go to the guest room to sleep, you sleep, and tomorrow, I will pretend that nothing...has happened."

Gu Huai let go of Gu Ruofan's grip on his hand, turned his head away, and went straight out of the room without looking at him.

Gu Ruofan stood where he was and didn't chase after him.

There was a trace of loss involuntarily in his eyes, but not too much sadness.How could he not see Gu Huai's hesitation and struggle?

Now that I have explained everything, what I need to do in the future is to convince Gu Huai that what I said today is not the result of impulsiveness or ignorance.

Gu Ruofan slowly raised his hand and stroked his chest.

Looking at the direction Gu Huai left, he opened his mouth and silently called out the man's name.

Ah Huai.

I didn't believe you in the last life.

In this life, no matter what, I will be with you.

I am not sleeply.

With others, that is Yu Sheng.

Only with you is the future.

"Come out for a drink."

After only saying four words, he hung up the phone. Gu Huai sat alone on Mei Ye's bar. Although there were countless women in bright clothes casting ambiguous glances at him, Gu Huai raised his head so gloomy that he could almost The eyes that dripped out of the water glanced, and there was no one around who dared to approach.

When Mo Zhixu arrived, there were already many empty wine bottles piled up in front of Gu Huai.

The man occasionally raised his head, his eyes were scarlet red, filled with complicated and indescribable, extremely painful emotions.Just looking at his appearance, it seemed that he was too sober to be sober again.

Seeing Mo Zhixu coming, Gu Huai raised his hand and threw him a bottle of wine, his voice was low and deep, already a little hoarse.

"Everyone says this wine is a good thing." Gu Huai's thin lips hooked slightly, and Gu Huai smiled extremely handsomely, but the smile didn't reach his eyes, it was cold and frightening.

"But why did I drink so much today, here..." Pointing at his head, Gu Huai said every word, almost gnashing his teeth, "It's scary to be sober here."

Mo Zhixu had never been a talkative person, so he took the bottle, took a sip casually, and remained silent.

"How did you and Mo Xiangnan get together?"

Hearing Gu Huai's question, Mo Zhixu raised his brows, recalling that time, even for a person like him, it was a bit miserable.

"At that time, I was really tired. I wished I could strangle him to death, and then I would commit suicide." Speaking of it now, Mo Zhixu was already able to calm down, but the trance in his eyes could be clearly seen.

Gu Huai raised his head and laughed.

After a long silence, the man slightly closed his eyelids.

"I like Xiaofan."

Without waiting for Mo Zhixu to react, Gu Huai still closed his eyes, and that delicate and clean face appeared in his mind, and then said: "I don't know when it started."

"At first, I just felt that I want to give him everything I have, everything." Looking up, taking a sip of wine, Gu Huai smiled, his black eyes were deep, and he couldn't see what he was thinking.

"Later, when I saw him, I wished I could chew him up and eat it in my stomach, or rub it into my body and take it with me so that no one could see it."

"Are you saying it's funny, a person like me would actually act like a brat."

Gu Huai closed his eyes, and the light above his head was blurred, shining on his face, half of his face was sharp and handsome, but the man's brows were furrowed, as if he was enduring great pain.

Gu Huai only felt that every word he uttered was like a knife cutting his tongue.

"He's different from me. For so many years, I've taken good care of him and watched him grow into what he is now. Sometimes when I see him, I feel like, say, like me," Gu Huai looked up and laughed. , opened his eyes, stretched out his hand, and pointed to the chest.

"I don't know how many people's blood is stained on my hands, and these wounds on my body, sometimes when I see him, I will feel that just looking at him is defiled, you know?"

"In the past, I always thought that if I did everything by myself, Gu Ruofan should be happy and clean, be his young master of the Gu family, find a worthy girl, fall in love and get married, Then give birth to a child and live a happy life.”

"How can you say that I violated the original oath, and then dragged him with my own hands to bear the unpredictable future with me?"

Looking at it from Mo Zhixu's angle, Gu Huai had a murderous look on his face that couldn't be erased.He is obviously a person who is more indifferent than anyone else, but only when facing Gu Ruofan, will he show a gentle look that surprises everyone.

Mo Zhixu sighed, holding the wine glass in his hand, looking at the dark red liquid swaying in the glass.

"Xiaofan likes you. I knew it a long time ago."

As soon as these words came out, Gu Huai's expression changed suddenly, he raised his head suddenly, and stared at Mo Zhixu closely, "How do you know?"

Patting Gu Huai's shoulder, Mo Zhixu's expression was light, "Perhaps, Xiao Fan is much stronger than you imagined."

"At the beginning, Xiangnan and I were two people. He was willful and never bowed to me. Even when I told him that I liked him, he would only sneer and mock me."

"Kick me out of Mo's house, he wants to take away everything I own." Mo Zhixu chuckled, as if he saw Mo Xiangnan's wayward and mean way back then, "At that time, I didn't know how much hate him."

He raised his head to meet Gu Huai's eyes, "What I hated was never why he drove me out of Mo's house and took away everything I owned. In fact, as long as he said he wanted those things, no matter what they were, I would It will all be given to him."

"I just hate him, even if he doesn't love me, why must he trample on my heart?"

Looking at Gu Huai, a trace of pain flashed across Mo Zhixu's eyes.

"Ah Huai, maybe Xiaofan is not as fragile as you imagined, maybe he is willing to accept these incompleteness with you. Or, have you ever thought that you will always consider everything, put everything The risks are all kept out for him, or borne for him."

"If what Xiaofan hopes for is not a peaceful and fulfilling life, wouldn't what you have done make both of you miserable?"

Seeing Gu Huai's silence, Mo Zhixu sighed.

"Even I can tell that Xiaofan likes you, how deeply do you think he likes you?"

"Before I transferred all the assets under my name to Xiang Nan, and then asked him if he was satisfied. I thought that by doing this, I would cut off all his thoughts and leave me completely. I thought I was right, but in the end I realized that many things, It’s not something we can decide on our own.”

"If you love him, just listen to his opinion. Maybe he is willing to share the wind and rain with you instead of being protected and blessed by you. Wouldn't he be happy all his life?"

Shocked all over, the image of Gu Ruofan standing in front of him reappeared in Gu Huai's mind, desperately saying, Gu Huai, I like you, I want you to love me, whether you will give me or not.

i want you to love me.

Will you give it to me!

One cup after another, Mo Zhixu sat by the side watching and couldn't even remember how many cups Gu Huai drank, but the man never spoke again.

A pair of cold black eyes were red, flashing with complicated and indescribable struggles.

Mo Zhixu didn't speak, he could tell that Gu Huai was struggling, hesitating, and making a choice.

No matter what the result is, I am afraid that after this night, he will eventually have a choice.

Gu Huai was woken up by the sharp and ear-piercing ringtone of his mobile phone, and when he opened his eyes, he found that he was sleeping in the room above Mei Ye.

Feeling for the phone, seeing the call from An Yarong, he hesitated for a moment, and finally picked it up.

As everyone knows, An Yarong's first words made Gu Huai wake up in an instant, and his expression completely changed.