In the same boat with the son

Zhang Rang personally went to Sili Xiaowei's mansion to collect the body with his younger brother, a little bit lost all the way, there were two black iron monsters standing at the gate of the mansion, it was very scary.Zhang Rang didn't want to pay too much attention all the way, and when he didn't want to carry Zhang Shuo's corpse out of the main gate, a man who was described as embarrassed suddenly rushed over and threw himself on the corpse.The man was trembling all over, but he didn't make a sound, and his eyes were bloodshot.

Everyone was stunned by this man's appearance, before he could stop him, the man lifted the white cloth and stared at Zhang Shuo's corpse.Zhang Shuo didn't have any scars on his body, but his dead face was pale with fear, and there was still some death air after his physical body died.The man stroked Zhang Shuo with his hand, his lips moved, as if to say something, but he still didn't say it.

When Zhang Rang saw this man's appearance, he knew who he was.Although he still had the impression of that dream, Zhang Rang still couldn't treat this person as his younger brother hoped.Zhang Shuo thought, if it wasn't for him, how could his brother do such a thing? Although he is also a victim, and it seems that he has no fault, but no fault does not mean that there is no cause and effect, and there is no relationship.

The little fat man traveled from Yewang County to Luoyang alone, but what he waited for was the news of Zhang Shuo's execution. In an instant, the pain of the past, the so-called heart ashes, was meaningless.The heart, which seemed to be covered with a layer of gray shadows, seemed to be constantly stirred by a sharp knife. The shadows that had been thought to have formed had already been pierced, and they were mixed with fresh flesh and blood.

Zhang Rang's face showed a bit of impatience, and the attendants around him coaxed the little fat man away when they saw this.The little fat man stood there in a daze, looking at the backs of the group of people carrying the corpse away, feeling like a hollowed-out piece of wood, not knowing where to go.

Maybe I should go home and have a look. It should be considered my own home. I grew up there. Although I didn’t enjoy all the love and carefree childhood, my mother was still there, and my mother was always good to me. .Even if people in the world laugh at themselves and blame themselves, my mother is always the one who will stand by my side.The little fat man feels that he can no longer find another person to give him the strength and comfort to support him. He can only think of his mother. Maybe the mother will be worried and can't do anything, but just by looking at it, the little fat man will also feel that this is a good thing. Well, so I'm not alone.

He didn't want to go to the entrance of Huang's mansion, but was stopped by the servant at the entrance. The servant said forcefully and politely that this was the master's order.The little fat man felt as if he had fallen into an ice cave. Thinking of his father's kind attitude towards him before he left, the little fat man seemed to have become smarter in an instant, and he felt a very ridiculous feeling.In order to cling to and curry favor, a father can send his son out like a plaything, and he can also pretend to be kind to a son who despises or even loathes him.Seeing himself causing a catastrophe now, and not accepting him behind closed doors, the little fat man felt a little ridiculous.But what about the absurdity, it still happened so absurdly, and it was just that I was too naive to think it was absurd.The little fat man lingered in front of the door, but felt a little dazed, and stumbled out of Huang's mansion.

Many times, people feel that mother's love is more pure, and that mother's love can inspire all the power of a woman.There was once an experiment in which the stress response of mice was tested in three ways: hunger, estrus, and maternal love. In two glass-partitioned spaces, there were mice on one side and objects to be tested on the other.When the female white mouse was hungry, the other side was tempting food, and the little white mouse would hit the glass, but gave up after the impact was fruitless.When the female white mouse was in heat, the other side was a mating partner, and the mice on both sides kept bumping, and gave up after being tired after a dozen bumps.In the last case, there was a mother rat on one side, and her own child in a dangerous situation on the other. The result of the test was that the rat kept hitting until it died.

This is a story I heard before. It may be somewhat different from the original experiment, or the standard of quantitative analysis may be unreasonable, such as the state of the rat’s desire for things at that time, but these are irrelevant, at least, the biggest impression I heard at the time That is, maternal love is pure and great.

The current little fat man thinks the same way, his mother can love him unconditionally, and doesn't demand anything from him that he can't do. Just because he is her son is enough to be all the reasons for her to love him.However, his father is not like this at all. He is just a cowardly son who has blood relationship with him and cannot contribute to his family and his descendants. To him, he is just his son, who is still humble and not good enough His bastard is not enough to be a reason for him to pay attention to him and love him.

However, this is only because the little fat man's mother is just a humble concubine, and a woman who does not occupy power and distribute resources. When a person has nothing, he will pay the most attention to what he owns.Perhaps it is not accurate to say that, fatherly love and motherly love are instincts and instincts for most people, but power, status, money, honor, and too many children, it is undeniable that they will become additions and subtractions to instincts in reality. alienation.

Maybe this is the process of growing up and maturing, learning to accept and understand those things that used to be so ridiculous to me, age and time will tell all the reasons, after understanding, everything becomes so natural.

Soon, Zhang Rang's father also knew the news of his youngest son's death. Thinking that Zhang Shuo died at such a young age, the white-haired man sent the black-haired man, and Zhang's family had to cut off the incense. just go.Zhang Shuo was also raised by Zhang's father. When did he learn to walk, when did he learn to speak, act like a baby to himself, be self-willed to himself, and send a white-haired person to a black-haired person. It is not only the distance between life and death, but also the impermanence of the world. The severing of violence.The young part is gone, and the old part is hard to maintain.

Zhang Rang lost his younger brother and father one after another, and he couldn't help feeling resentment towards Emperor Huan and hatred towards Li Wei.From Zhang Rang's point of view, Li Wei simply wanted to execute his younger brother, and he acted so decisively that there was no room for retirement.To some extent, Zhang Rang felt that Li Huang had just taken Zhang Shuo's life away.If normal criminal law procedures were followed, Zhang Shuo could live longer, and he and his father could see him off, although what Zhang Rang thought in his heart was that Zhang Shuo would never die if Li Huang didn't act like this. .

As for the resentment towards Emperor Huan, it was like peeling off cocoons, as long as a small gap was found, it would continue endlessly.In Zhang Rang's heart, those unseen and unexplained grievances had already formed a transparent thread, bound in his heart.Maybe it started when he ran into the affair between Emperor Huan and Deng Mengnv when he stood outside the door many years ago, maybe since Emperor Huan sent himself to Chang'an to be shaken, maybe until now, Emperor Huan's evasion and Zhang Shuo's death made Zhang Rang feel from the bottom of his heart. , My own thought is just an illusion, how much affection can an emperor give for himself, an eunuch?

Zhang Rang found out that after clarifying the positions of the two parties, things seemed to become much clearer and crueler. The innocence was just a play on himself.Zhang Rang felt that he was lonely again, and this time he was really alone, even his father and younger brother who supported him were gone now.

But Hou Yu had been waiting for the opportunity to trip Li Huang, and now Li Huang has offended Zhang Rang. Since Zhang Rang was welcomed back from Chang'an by Emperor Huan, Zhang Rang has become the head of the eunuchs and won the favor of the emperor. Hou Yu was thinking on the one hand On the other hand, if you can instigate Zhang Rang to punish Li Wei, you can kill two birds with one stone.

The next day, a report on Li Huang's friendship with imperial scholars, forming gangs and parties, and suspicious customs appeared on Emperor Huan's desk.Since Li Jun was appointed Henan Yin, there have been incidents similar to the unauthorized execution of Zhang Shuo.At that time, there was a man named Zhang Cheng who was good at talking about Fengjiao and made friends with eunuchs with his alchemy. Even Emperor Huan had some trust in him. Will bluff.

Ever since Emperor Huan took the throne, every catastrophe has been pardoned by prisons and prisons. When Li Jun was appointed Yin of Henan Province, it happened that the capital was plagued by natural disasters. Zhang Cheng thought that Emperor Huan would definitely pardon him, so he ordered his son to kill people. The specific reason is not very clear, probably It is to get rid of enemies and the like.Li Huang urged his son to be arrested, but when he was granted amnesty, Li Huang was very angry and executed Zhang Cheng's son.

At that time, Li Wei argued to Emperor Huan that since Dong Zhongshu, he proposed to execute the Spring and Autumn Prison to seek his original intentions. Zhang Cheng's son knew that murder was a great evil, but he wanted to use amnesty to escape punishment. The laws of heaven are clear, how to be compatible.And Zhang Cheng was not a very big person at the time. Emperor Huan thought that what Li Wei said was very reasonable. If this kind of behavior was not curbed, it would definitely lead to disaster.

However, now that the case of Li Huang's execution of Zhang Shuo happened without authorization, although Emperor Huan still approved of Li Huang on the face, he was also a little impatient with him in his heart. Power over distance.All things are based on different positions and different appearances. Now that he has received a letter claiming that Li Huang has formed a party, he wants to be punished. There is nothing wrong with it. This just provides him with a good excuse.

Things in the world are viewed horizontally as mountains and peaks, true and false, false and false, and chasing rumors is not groundless.Li Huang has tried his best to avoid accepting many disciples, but he was born in a family, so he is naturally just a knot in the power group.Li Wei and Feng Dai made good friends, with Xun Shu as their teacher, the Xun family brothers as fellow disciples, and the Yuan family and Zhong family as cousins. Because Lin Xiu had close contacts, he was in the net, and he used the net as a disaster, not because he was pregnant. Sin is just unpredictable.Soon, Li Huang was sent to prison on the charge of forming a party and slandering the court.

Emperor Huan originally felt a little guilty towards Zhang Rang because of Zhang Shuo's incident, and wanted to show his favor to Zhang Rang because of this, but what he didn't understand was that if he didn't really deal with Li Wei in a bloody way, he would just weigh the pros and cons and intimidate Zhang Rang. It's just innocuous, and it's not much different from Zhang Rang's abdication and sacrifice at the critical moment.