cold lover

Tan Jizhong was washing the vegetables in the kitchen, with a smile on his face that hadn't been removed in the past few days.

Hearing the front door lock, he looked up and saw Xiao Nuo quietly leaning against the entrance without moving.

Tan Jizhong called out, but Xiao Nuo didn't respond.

"What's the matter, Xiao Nuo?"

Tan Jizhong hurried over while wiping his hands.

Xiao Nuo came back to his senses, stood up straight and looked at him, "...it's all right."

"You don't look very good, are you sick?"

While speaking, Tan Jizhong stretched out his hand to feel his forehead temperature.

Xiao Nuo was a little distracted at the moment when it was covered, Tan Jizhong's palm was wide and warm, and the touching skin gave him a warm sense of stability, smoothing most of the fluctuations in his heart.

"No fever. Do you feel unwell?"

Seeing Tan Jizhong's increasingly concerned expression, Xiao Nuo found himself having an urge to rely on him.

She couldn't help turning her face away, "No, I'm just a little tired."

"Then sit and rest for a while, and I'll get you a glass of water."

"Ah."

Tan Jizhong turned around, Xiao Nuo looked at his broad back, unable to look away for a moment.

At night Tan Jizhong was tossing and turning in bed, for some reason, he felt Xiao Nuo was a little silent today, to be precise, a little heavy.

It's just that Xiao Nuo didn't say anything, and he didn't know how to ask.

Tan Jizhong sighed softly, Xiao Nuo's temperament was passive, and if he wanted him to take the initiative to tell others what was on his mind, it might take a long time.

Tan Jizhong's mind was sober, he simply sat up from the bed, went to the living room, was about to take the water glass from the dining table, and caught a glimpse of a familiar thin figure on the balcony out of the corner of his eye.

Xiao Nuo?

Xiao Nuo leaned sideways on the railing, his slender figure set off by the quiet moonlight, giving him an ethereal sense of emptiness.

The night breeze brushed his slightly long hair, and the cigarette held between his slender fingers scattered a smoky mist, with a sad and sad atmosphere in the faint haze.

At this moment, Xiao Nuo looked like a midnight elf remembering alone.

Tan Jizhong looked at that strange and charming figure, his heart was beating wildly but he couldn't hide his heartache, why did he feel that Xiao Nuo was extremely lonely at this time.

Tan Jizhong approached him unconsciously.

He couldn't bear it, he couldn't bear to let Xiao Nuo suffer alone.Even if I can't give him comfort, I can pass on my breath to him.

Xiao Nuo stared into the distance, his eyes seemed to blend into the quiet night.

The young man's last words echoed faintly in his ears.

The answer from ten years ago...he has been somewhat vague.

Slowly exhaling white smoke, faces flashed in front of his eyes that he hadn't dared to miss in the past ten years.

Because as early as when they fell beside him, he was no longer entitled to have any memories related to them.

When a slight sound came, Xiao Nuo's eyes turned slightly, seeing Tan Jizhong in the darkness, he couldn't help withdrawing his thoughts from all over the world.

"You haven't slept yet?"

The clear and calm voice almost made Tan Jizhong think that the feeling just now was just an illusion.

Tan Jizhong smiled wryly, he really wanted to bear Xiao Nuo's grief, but Xiao Nuo turned him away.

"I'm used to staying up late, this time is still early. You didn't sleep either."

Xiao Nuo smiled lightly, and twisted out the cigarette in his hand.

Tan Jizhong looked at his skillful movements, "I've never seen you smoke before."

"...Um."

Although there was only one sound, Tan Jizhong could hear a slight sadness in it.

The two fell silent.

Although Xiao Nuo deliberately put away his sadness, his emotions still haven't recovered, and the current casual state makes Tan Jizhong even more unbearable.

Tan Jizhong walked up to him, "Xiao Nuo, you forgot a very important thing."

Hearing this, Xiao Nuo raised his eyes, not understanding what he was referring to.

Tan Jizhong smiled softly, "You forgot that you are not alone."

Xiao Nuo looked at his gentle and clear eyes, the corners of his mouth moved slightly, but finally turned his face away without saying a word.

With such stubbornness, Tan Jizhong almost lamented, "Xiao Nuo, you are... so unfair to yourself."

Tan Jizhong looked at his side face, "You have been giving, but you have been denying your own giving, and you have never been willing to accept other people's rewards for you. Let yourself live a little easier, try to let others share your... "

"Mr. Tan," Xiao Nuo suddenly interrupted his words, and looked at him quietly, "Have you ever lost it completely?"

Tan Jizhong was taken aback, "Xiao Nuo..."

Xiao Nuo smiled lightly at him, "I'm not worthy."

That smile was so glamorous that Tan Jizhong couldn't breathe, but it also made him see Xiao Nuo's infinite sadness and loneliness.

Tan Jizhong forced himself to laugh in pain, "Although it wasn't very thorough, I have lost important things. It is precisely because of this that I cherish what I still have now."

"Xiao Nuo, I don't know how thorough you are, but you still exist in real life, don't you, so give yourself a chance to regain possession and protection, so that you can make up for what you lost before. "

Re-own, re-protect, make up?

Xiao Nuo suddenly felt that these words were very ironic, if he knew how unbearable he was in the past, he could still say these words calmly like now.

He will hate himself for ten years, or even this life, how could it be caused by a negligence that can be made up.

"Mr. Tan, thank you, I'm tired."

Tan Jizhong frowned helplessly, Xiao Nuo chose to avoid the topic again, why was he tolerant to everyone but so cruel to himself.

Seeing Xiao Nuo's figure disappearing into the darkness, "Xiao Nuo, can I still be your friend?"

Xiao Nuo stopped in his tracks and did not speak.

"You don't seem to know the meaning of a friend. Or...you don't really want to treat me as a friend."

Tan Jizhong's heart seemed to be twisted, he had been looking forward to entering into a friendship with him all along, but now that it was established, he had to deny it himself.

Xiao Nuo frowned, he didn't question the relationship between them, he just got used to being alone for a long time.

"Mr. Tan, you think too much..."

Tan Jizhong chuckled, "It's okay, you don't have to restrain yourself."

He didn't want to put pressure on Xiao Nuo, the burden in Xiao Nuo's heart was already heavy enough.

Xiao Nuo turned to look at Tan Jizhong, although he had a gentle smile on his face, but his eyes were full of disappointment and sadness.

Did you... hurt him...

Xiao Nuo faintly felt distressed and guilty, and whispered, "Mr. Tan..."

"Oh, don't force it, I respect your choice."

Xiao Nuo raised his eyebrows, this man...

Walking towards him involuntarily, looking into his eyes quietly, "I'm not forced, I'm just not used to it yet...give me some more time, please?"

"you…"

"I haven't made friends for a long time, and I've already forgotten about it. I didn't do well in many places... Please forgive me." Xiao Nuo looked away unnaturally, "I cherish the relationship with you now, so please don't give up."

Tan Jizhong's Adam's apple rolled, his voice was almost trembling, "Okay!"

Xiao Nuo said that he wanted to cherish it, which proves that he is willing to try to rely on himself as a friend.

Ever since Fang Zian came back from his travels, his rejection of Xiao Nuo became more obvious.

He was fed up with Xiao Nuo's harmless and indifferent look.It just makes him feel hypocritical.

Xiao Nuo was lecturing as usual, maybe Fang Zian was tired of teasing him, so he didn't do anything small today.

In the middle of the teaching time, there is a customary 10-minute break.

Fang Zian did not leave the study as usual, but sat quietly with his head down.

Xiao Nuo looked at the tutorial and didn't pay attention to him.

Suddenly Fang Zian's breathing became heavy, as if he was holding back something.

Xiao Nuo put down the tutorial and saw that his face was flushed.

Can't help frowning, "Fang Zian."

Fang Zian heard him shout, squinted at him, and coughed violently after a while.

"Fang Zian!"

Xiao Nuo hurriedly stretched out his hand to explore, but was slapped away by Fang Zian, "Go away!"

Xiao Nuo frowned at him.

"Cough... cough... pretending to be a good person... cough"

Xiao Nuo lowered his face, "Even if I pretend to be a good person, you have to bear it now!"

After speaking, he pulled him up and dragged him into the room.

"Let go...cough...who the hell do you think you are!"

Xiao Nuo stared at him coldly, "I'm your fucking teacher, am I qualified enough?"

Fang Zian's eyes widened, and he forgot to cough for a moment. How could this indifferent person be so angry that he cursed?

"Go and lie down!"

Fang Zian was stunned by his yelling, stared at him for a while, and then lay down.

"Where is the medicine box?" Xiao Nuo covered him with a quilt and asked.

"No. Hmph, a little cold will pass after a while...cough..."

Xiao Nuo frowned and looked at him for a while, "Where is your father, do you know that you are sick?"

Fang Zian was silent.

"How can one be so strong?"

Hearing what he said, Fang Zian became furious, "So what if I tell him, what else can he do other than say a word and go to the hospital!"

He also wanted to have relatives by his side to rely on and act like a baby when he was sick, but they didn't!

Xiao Nuo lowered his eyebrows, it turned out that Fang Zian's rebellion all along was forced to be brave.

"Sleep well, I'll go buy some medicine for you."

Fang Zian didn't speak, and turned his back to look at him.

It was already two o'clock in the afternoon when Fang Zian woke up.

He had a fever and fell into a deep sleep this time. He didn't know when Xiao Nuo left. He only vaguely remembered that when he was half awake, a thin figure stopped beside him for a while. He seemed to be concerned about him.

Fang Zian snorted softly, Xiao Nuo would only ignore himself and not care about himself!

He turned his head angrily, but was a little stunned.

He saw several medicines on the bedside table.The dosage and duration of medication are clearly stated on each medication.There is also a piece of paper next to it, with two lines of beautiful characters on it.

There is porridge in the incubator, drink it before taking medicine.

If there is anything to contact, followed by a string of phone numbers.

Fang Zian twitched the corner of his mouth, lifted the quilt, ran into the kitchen, opened the incubator, and there was really a porridge casserole inside, exuding a faint fragrance of rice.

Fang Zian gritted his teeth, breathed rapidly, and suddenly stomped his feet and cursed, "Bastard! Bastard! Fucking bastards!"

Wiping away tears angrily, he ran into the room again, grabbed the piece of paper and held it tightly in his hand.

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