cold lover

"Brother!" Tan Qingchen chased out the door, panic flashing in his eyes.

Dad was very angry this time.

"Xiaochen, I'm going back first, I'll visit you when I have time."

"Brother..." Tan Qingchen grabbed him.

Tan Jizhong turned around and smiled softly at him, "Don't be afraid, brother hasn't left you."

"…Um."

Tan Jizhong quickly left the mansion, he didn't want to stay in that place any longer.

The car sped past on the road and stopped suddenly in a suburban area.

Tan Jizhong pressed his forehead against the steering wheel, his eyes were closed, and the veins on the back of his hands were bulging.

The sad and begging eyes flashed frequently in his mind. For so many years, he had never understood why his mother had borne all the pain alone, but still did not forgive herself.

After a long time, Tan Jizhong raised his head, straightened his breathing, backed the car calmly and went back to the home where Xiao Nuo was.

Fang Zian is going to take the Mathematical Olympiad exam tomorrow, and it is already eleven o'clock after finishing his extra lessons at night, Xiao Nuo sent him back.

Although it was an exam that had nothing to do with high school courses, Xiao Nuo could see that Fang Zian was very nervous.

I can't help but think of what Tan Jizhong once said to him, "Children need more encouragement."

When they arrived at the downstairs of Fang's house, Xiao Nuo finally said, "Fang Zian, believe in yourself."

Although it was just a stiff sentence, Fang Zian's tense face relaxed a lot, "Hmph, of course I believe in myself."

After speaking, he ran into the corridor.

Xiao Nuo looked at it and smiled lightly, it was really as he said.

Turning around, he looked forward and upward unconsciously, but only saw a few tall buildings nearby.

Xiao Nuo raised his eyebrows, wondering if he's back or not.

In fact, even if Tan Jizhong was at home, they would have nothing to say.It wasn't that Xiao Nuo was escaping, it was just that his mind was disturbed, and he wanted to find an answer for himself, so as to determine whether they could take the next step.

When Tan Jizhong got home and opened the door, the room was pitch black.He stood at the door for a while before realizing that there was no one.

Heh, his warmth...is not there.

All of a sudden, a boundless sense of fatigue gathered.

Tan Jizhong lay down on the sofa with heavy steps, staring at the ceiling with his eyes open, allowing himself to be swallowed up by the silent emptiness.

He thought of the first time he found out that he was being watched. At that time, he was only ten years old, clamoring for his mother to take them to play outside the village, but was forcibly brought back two hours after going out, looking at the man When he looked into angry and panicked eyes, he knew that, like his mother, he was tightly controlled by that person in the name of love...

Tan Jizhong suddenly felt that it was funny, and he let go of his throat and laughed dryly. For a moment, a strange desolation filled the darkness of the room.

Xiao Nuo went downstairs to see that the lights in the room were not turned on, thinking that he hadn't returned yet.

After getting out of the elevator, seeing the half-closed door, I was a little puzzled.

"Jizhong?" After entering the door, Xiao Nuo called softly, but no one responded.

Xiao Nuo frowned, closed the door casually, and was about to turn on the light when he vaguely noticed a slight breathing sound on the sofa.If you look closely, there is a real person.

Xiao Nuo came to him and squatted down, hesitated for a while, but still didn't call him.

Tan Jizhong was in a deep sleep, with one leg half bent, as if it wasn't dark enough, he covered his eyes with the back of his hand.

Xiao Nuo hadn't adapted to the darkness in the room, so he couldn't see his whole picture clearly for a while, but his face and expression became more and more clear in his heart.

It is undeniable that I have already engraved him deep in my heart.

Looking at the face that gradually merged into his mind, Xiao Nuo suddenly felt a little powerless, not only for him, but also for himself.

He has destroyed too much, but he can still do it, but he still has the right to have it again...

Close your eyes lightly, letting the loss overflow your chest.

Tan Jizhong dreamed that he had turned into a kite, and he was almost able to reach the freedom above, but the other end of the thread was retracted bit by bit. He couldn't get rid of it, and he didn't dare to get rid of it, because it was the only one he had. vesting line.

Just when he was struggling to suffocate, Xiao Nuo's breath quietly entered his world, calling him back to reality.

"Xiao Nuo?"

Tan Jizhong opened his eyes, saw those clear pupils in the dark, thought he was still in a dream.

Xiao Nuo didn't expect him to wake up, and was flustered for a while.She turned her face slightly, "Go to sleep in the room when you're tired, it's uncomfortable to sleep on the sofa."

Oh, he is talking, not a dream.

Tan Jizhong thought for a moment, followed his words, "Xiao Nuo, I'm really uncomfortable..."

He had just woken up, his voice was hoarse, and it sounded really uncomfortable.

Xiao Nuo couldn't help leaning forward, "What's wrong?"

Tan Jizhong shook his head and remained silent.

Xiao Nuo frowned, stretched out his hand to feel the temperature of his forehead, it was normal.

"Talk. Where is it uncomfortable?"

Xiao Nuo's voice was so gentle that Tan Jizhong's heart was drunk, and the laughter flowed out unconsciously.

Xiao Nuo frowned, his face paled in an instant, and he stood up, "Mr. Tan, please respect yourself!"

"Oh, Xiao Nuo, don't be angry, I'm really uncomfortable, but I dare not tell you where it is."

Xiao Nuo's eyes flickered when he spoke so plainly, "...then don't talk about it, go to rest early."

Seeing that he was about to leave, Tan Jizhong hurriedly held him back, "Stay with me for a while, okay?"

Xiao Nuo didn't turn around, and didn't say anything.

Tan Jizhong let go of his hand, and deliberately said in a sad voice, "Oh, Xiao Nuo, do you think it's shameful to be friends with gays?"

"..."

"I see…"

Xiao Nuo turned around slightly, seeing his self-pitying expression, couldn't help frowning, "You know that I didn't underestimate you."

"Really, then why haven't you looked at me these days?"

"..."

Xiao Nuo was at a loss for words again, and turned his face away unnaturally.

Seeing the corners of his lips pursed lightly, Tan Jizhong knew that the suspicion in his heart these days had been confirmed.

The surprise and helplessness surging in my heart finally turned into a soft sigh, "Xiao Nuo, can you speak your mind?"

"... Mr. Tan..."

"It's called cum."

In the darkness, Tan Jizhong's eyes shone fiercely, like the brightest stars in the sky, so beautiful that he couldn't look away.

Yes, he admits that he has fallen, but the price in the later stage is too high, he is reluctant...doesn't want him to bear it.

Xiao Nuo grasped the last sliver of reason, and took a step back.

Tan Jizhong smiled wryly, "Xiao Nuo, why don't you face your own heart?"

"My heart . . . is what it is."

"Xiao Nuo, don't embarrass yourself too much." How could he not see the wavering of his determination.

"...cum in, let's just do it... ok?"

Tan Jizhong looked at him, "What if I say no?"

Xiao Nuo breathed in, and he had planned to say harsh words, but at this moment he couldn't say a word.

Seeing him biting his lip tightly, Tan Jixin was in pain, and he didn't want to force him like this, but he really couldn't control it.

After a long silence, Tan Jizhong said, "Xiao Nuo, shall we try again?"

"...what?"

Tan Jizhong smiled and gently hugged him into his arms.

"Let... let go!" Xiao Nuo struggled in a panic.

"Don't let it go!"

"Tan Jizhong!" Xiao Nuo shouted sharply, but with a hidden tremolo.

Tan Jizhong circled him tighter, "If you don't want me to hug you, beat me up."

"..."

Tan Jizhong chuckled and rested his chin on his shoulder.

Well, my heart is very warm.

"Listen, our hearts are beating in unison. Boom, boom..."

"..."

"Oh, I dance so fast because I'm hugging the one I love. How about you, Xiao Nuo?"

Xiao Nuo's Adam's apple rolled, he didn't dare to speak, he knew that as soon as he opened his mouth, he would be completely lost.

Still getting no response, Tan Jizhong lamented, "Xiao Nuo, don't lie to me again, okay, it hurts."

This light and fluffy sentence directly hit Xiao Nuo's heart.

"I'm sorry..." a barely audible voice.

Tan Jizhong slightly pushed him away, looked into his eyes, "I don't want to be sorry."

The corners of Xiao Nuo's mouth twitched, and finally he closed his eyes, his voice trembling, "Don't do this."

Still can't, Xiao Nuo... I'm afraid.

Tan Jizhong took a deep breath, let go of his hand, and took a step back.

"Okay, the temptation is over, I failed. We can only be friends after all."

Tan Jizhong smiled softly at him, Xiao Nuo's heart ached even more.

"Oh, it's getting late, let's go to rest."

After Tan Jizhong finished speaking, he already clenched his fists, brushed against him and walked towards the room.

My heart really hurts.

"Give me some time?" Xiao Nuo said suddenly.

Tan Jizhong held the doorknob stiffly, and he heard a beautiful sentence.

"give me sometime..."

"Even if you don't say it, I will wait until all the panic in your heart is eliminated."

Tan Jizhong smiled softly, his eyes were shining and firm, as if he was telling Xiao Nuo his eternal oath in this life.

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