cold lover

"Tan Yucheng, let go if you can't do it!" Tan Jizhong in the study almost yelled, and Xiao Nuo in the guest room could hear it clearly.

"One month." Tan Yucheng at the other end was silent for a long time before speaking out, "I will take him away in a month, so be optimistic about him."

Tan Jizhong took a deep breath, "I'll ask again, are you sure you can give Xiaochen happiness?"

The old man is obviously peeling off everything from Tan Yucheng little by little, from Aunt Xue to the Tan family's authority to Tan Qingchen...

If Tan Yucheng can't survive this test, then Xiaochen will not only lose the Tan family.

"No one can but me."

The other party's extremely hard and cold voice came, and Tan Jizhong knew that Tan Yucheng must have reached his limit, and the anger in his heart calmed down a little.

"Did you let Xiaochen leave on purpose?"

"The damage is the least." Tan Yucheng responded without hesitation.

Tan Jizhong was surprised for a moment before saying, "...you and Xiaochen have both grown up."

"Hmph, I never thought of going the same way as the old man." He couldn't afford to lose his beloved.

Tan Jizhong smiled slightly, feeling much relieved, "I will take good care of him. But if Xiao Chen wants to go back to your side, I will not stop him."

Tan Yucheng fell into silence again.

"Xiaochen has the right to choose how to keep love." Tan Jizhong said slowly.

"Well, thank you."

When Tan Jizhong hung up the phone and opened the door to come in, Tan Qingchen was already sound asleep, Xiao Nuo sat by the bed and lightly wiped the tears on his face.

Tan Jizhong just stood at the door thinking, Xiao Nuo turned his head and smiled at him, indicating that Tan Qingchen has calmed down and there is no need to worry.

Tan Jizhong nodded, looked at Tan Qingchen, who had lost a lot of weight, and walked out the door.

He can only say that the current situation of the Tan family is very chaotic, and the biggest victim in this chaos is Tan Qingchen.To make a choice between two equally important family members who robbed him in different ways, it is wrong and painful for him to do anything.

That's why Tan Yucheng allowed Xiaochen to come here. He and Xiao Nuo are indeed Xiaochen's best refuge now.

It's just that the father used the same method to prove his right and wrong again. He didn't hesitate to betray his relatives and ruin the Tan family. How much is he attached to his mother...

"If you don't like it, don't smoke it." Xiao Nuo came out of the guest room, looked at Humanity who lit a cigarette and sat on the sofa, lost in thought.

Tan Jizhong came back to his senses and smiled at him, twisted out half of the cigarette in his hand, patted the seat beside him and said, "Xiao Nuo, come here."

Xiao Nuo put down the items in his hands, walked over and sat down next to him, and put his arms around his waist proactively.

Tan Jizhong smiled lightly and hugged him, Xiao Nuo's way of comforting him was always so healing.

"Xiao Nuo, do you want to know about my mother?" Tan Jizhong stroked his hair and said gently.

"Well, I think so." Xiao Nuo didn't raise his head, but just pressed against his chest quietly.

He has been with Tan Jizhong for so long, but he never heard him mention his mother, Xiao Nuo knew that it wasn't because Tan Jizhong wanted to hide something from him, but because he was too heavy.

"...My mother is a painter in Muxi Village. She once said that her ideal is to dedicate her life to painting. Perhaps this is also her belief in life." Tan Jizhong vaguely remembers that quiet afternoon when his mother sat in front of the easel and painted. As the pen was written, the corners of the lips were filled with a satisfied smile that can only be seen when painting.

"It's just that her father robbed her of everything, dreams, freedom... life. Before, I didn't understand why the outside world commented on my mother as a dying epiphyllum in the painting world. She has been painting all the time, and each painting is more delicate and beautiful than the last, but the studio But there is not a single new work in it... I don't know what kind of mood my father loves my mother. When I saw him throwing the painting into the furnace with no expression on his face, I just felt panic... It turned out that his mother's dreams and beliefs were important to him. It's just a pile of ashes..."

Tan Jizhong said it very calmly, but Xiao Nuo knew that it was only after countless times of precipitation in his heart that he could no longer fluctuate in his mood, which also meant that he had been hurt countless times.

"It's just that my mother's life is still alive, and the painting has not stopped. The house is getting quieter and quieter, and the mother is immersed in painting for longer and longer. Later, my father finally realized his self-deception, but chose to cover up his fault. He wanted to take his mother After leaving Twilight Village, my mother rejected him forcefully for the first time, because she knew that my father wanted to completely forge and control her life..."

No matter how the father went too far before, the mother never changed her face, but that day Tan Jizhong saw the panicked side of her mother, how to let go of true love and love...

"But in the end, my father still insisted on going his own way. He knew that his mother had two choices, leave or follow him. In order to get a complete mother, he chose to block it, and at the same time he was ready to lose his mother. It's just that he didn't Knowing that when she lost her mother, she also lost him."

"I once asked my mother to take me away, but she smiled and said to me that after she left, I could enjoy the warmth of home. I knew that my mother had made a decision, and she would rather destroy her own life than let her father bear the burden of distorting her life. remorse. If someone has to bear the consequences of wrong love, she hopes it will be herself."

On the day Aunt Xue and Tan Yucheng moved into the mansion, he found his mother, with a thin body and a bloodless face. After her father robbed her of everything, her mother quietly dried up alone.

"My mother said that she was the one who was really robbing her. Her father devoted all his love and affection to her, but she only had paintings in her heart. In that unpaid emotion, she could only choose to accept with guilt, but took her father's Feelings pushed into the abyss of helplessness..."

It wasn't until that day that Tan Jizhong realized that it wasn't his father that his mother was running away from, but his feelings and life that he couldn't respond to.

"My mother said that she didn't know how to love, but she didn't know that her affection and love were separate, and she left her love to her father in the end. But what my father wanted from the beginning was her affection. When the situation comes, I use love to force my mother to abandon love..."

Tan Jizhong's calm voice was mixed with light sighs, like... like confession, he remembered that day on the hospital bed, his mother held him with a thin and cold hand, begging him to learn to love others...

"Xiao Nuo, just like my father asked my mother to be reborn for him, you have also been reborn for me once. I have never been sure whether it is reluctant for you..." Let him erase the existence of Xu Hannuo, such an incomplete life Whether Xiao Nuo is willing to accept it.

Tan Jizhong's steady heart beat suddenly quickened, Xiao Nuo reluctantly hugged him even tighter, it turned out that there was always a panic hidden in his heart.

"Jizhong, you are different from your father, and there is only happiness with you."

"Xiao Nuo..." Tan Jizhong whispered and hugged him tightly, the self-doubt that had haunted his heart for more than 20 years disappeared in Xiao Nuo's words.

Xiao Nuo patted him on the back, "Jizhong, my life is complete because of you, so even if it's for me in the future, don't push me away."

Tan Jizhong kissed the top of his hair, "Yes."

In the living room, the two hugged each other quietly, gradually becoming one with each other's body temperature and heartbeat.

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