Sick big guy's little flirt is so sweet

"I was abnormal since I was a child!"

Swellen took a breath and decided to tell Wei Fang the truth. "Although I am very grateful to my mother, I am very touched by what my mother has done to me, but I can't develop feelings for her."

Hearing this, Wei Fang was stunned.

"Not only can I not have feelings for my mother, I can't have feelings for others. Simply put, I am cold-blooded and ruthless, without the emotions and desires that normal people should have..."

S Weilun noticed Wei Fang's shocked expression and saw the disbelief in his eyes, but he continued: "I'm afraid that my mother will find out, I'm afraid she will think I'm a monster, and I'm even more afraid that she will be sad, she Treat me so well, love me so much, but I have no feelings for her at all...

I tried my best to show that I loved my mother very much, had a good relationship with her, and desperately wanted to repay her kindness. "

"I know that if I want to repay my mother's kindness, I have to be promising. Only in this way can she live a good life, let her feel proud, and no longer be looked down upon or bullied. So I worked harder after I joined the army than when I was in school. !

Unexpectedly, my lack of emotion that a normal person should have made me feel like a fish in water in the army.

There is a saying that soldiers should be machines without emotions, so that they can be invincible.

My excellent performance in the army quickly attracted the attention of the upper management, and was appreciated by the upper management, who focused on training me.

I knew that I had to cherish the opportunity and perform well. I worked hard to be the first in everything like I was in school, and was selected into the special forces.

In the special forces, I met the grandson of a big man. I saved him and became brothers with him. Because of his relationship, I was promoted many times by the big man. With my own efforts, I was 25 years old. Made it head.

I have finally achieved something, let my mother live a good life, and feel proud. No one dares to look down on her anymore, let alone bully her.

But my mother got cancer not long after I became the head of the group, but she has been hiding it from me, not letting me know, for fear of affecting my mood and work...

I didn’t know until more than a month before she died. The doctor in the hospital called and told me that she passed out from the pain at home, and was found by neighbors and sent to the hospital...

I hastily asked for leave from the higher authorities and left the army to take care of her.She was already lying on the bed and couldn't get up, she couldn't eat much, and she was so thin that she lost her shape, but seeing her like that, I didn't feel anything at all! "

Speaking of this, Sweilun looked at Wei Fang and found that his purple eyes were still wide open. He was still shocked and still a little unbelievable.

Swellen secretly sighed that it was alright, just shocked, just unbelievable, no disgust or anger yet, but probably soon.

Although he saw his inner world from his paintings and knew his true face, he would still be frightened when he heard what he said, and found it difficult to accept.

He should soon show a disgusted and angry expression, feel that he is really a scum, a beast, become disgusted, disgusted with himself, and very angry with himself...

I don't know if he feels that he has overestimated himself, thinking that he already understands himself, but his darkness and coldness are still beyond his imagination.Would he regret having that fish in his painting?

Swellen was full of thoughts and worries, but his face was still calm, and he continued: "I should be very distressed, very sad, very sad, but I don't feel anything... I really A beast!"

"I was afraid that my mother would find out that I could only act. Acting made me feel distressed, sad, and sad. I forced myself to cry, to cry, but the tears couldn't be squeezed out. I could only take eye drops... ..."

"Although I have no feelings for my mother at all, my rationality tells me that I want to be a filial son. Repaying her kindness to me is as heavy as a mountain, and my mother's love is like an ocean. I spend day and night taking care of my mother in front of her hospital bed. Everyone praises me as a rare dutiful son...

My mother was already in the terminal stage of cancer. Although I called a specialist to show her, hoping to save her, it was useless and she died.

She was still worrying about me before she died, thinking about my future, and planning for my future, I feel very guilty.

She loves me so much, but I don't love her at all, I have no feelings for her at all...

I once wanted to take the initiative to confess everything to her, but I couldn't. It was too cruel, and I was afraid she wouldn't be able to accept it.

I finally decided to lie to her to death, let her think that I am a good son until she closes her eyes, and she has a good son.

But who would have thought that her attending doctor saw that I was acting, and he told her...

I thought my mom would be sad and angry, but she didn't.After a brief shock, she was only worried. She worried that I would never be happy because I had no heart.

Without a heart, one cannot love, nor can one respond to the love of others. Living like this is like walking dead. Although there will be no pain, there will be no joy, let alone happiness.

She told me to find my heart and learn to love. As long as I can love one day, I will find my heart, I will have emotions, and I will have a chance to be happy.

She said that staying in the army will make me more and more ruthless, and there is no chance to learn love, and the army is too dangerous, so I will be discharged.

She asked me to study medicine and become a doctor. Doctors are the most caring people in the world. As a doctor, I will treat more diseases and save more people. Gradually, I will have compassion and love...

She also told me to work hard to be a very kind and good person, to treat everything in this world with tenderness, so that I will be liked by many people, and it is easy to be loved by others. If there are many people who love me, there will always be someone who will attract me. , makes me want to respond, to love someone. "

"Your mother is so kind... woo woo... She is simply the reincarnation of a Bodhisattva... woo woo..."

Wei Fang was moved, and cried again, with tears streaming down his face and snot coming out of his nose.

"Your mother really loves you! She made me truly appreciate the greatness of a mother's love... Woooo..."

"Yeah! She really loves me and is the greatest mother in the world, but watching her close her eyes and die in front of me, I still don't feel anything, and I can't shed a single tear...I let her Crying by myself, but I can't cry no matter what... I'm really not as good as a beast!" Swellen's face was full of guilt.

"The only thing I can do for my mother is to fulfill her last wish, retire from the army to study medicine, become a doctor, try to be a very kind and good person, and treat everything in this world with tenderness...

Fang Fang, I'm sorry, the real me is not kind or gentle at all, I have no heart, I don't understand love, my heart is cold and dark... and I am very twisted and evil.

I don't know if it's because of my previous job that I often kill and see blood. I always want to destroy and destroy... You must be very disappointed in me and find it unacceptable. I'm sorry! "