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Zhao Liao didn't go in to catch the rape in the end, and frantically swiped the screen in his heart to persuade himself to endure for a while, then turned and went back to his dormitory room, kicked down the chair vigorously, collapsed on the bed, grabbed his mobile phone to read, but his blood was still there. Going straight to the forehead, he threw the phone out forcefully.

After doing this series of actions, he still couldn't calm down, and his mind was buzzing.

He wanted to kill Zheng Xuan and Jiang Mingchen.

In this world, there are no reliable feelings, and there will be no trustworthy people. Zhao Liao thought like this, his heart was like a hole in the ice, and the cold wind was blowing.

After a while, he was still lying on the bed, staring coldly at the ceiling in a daze, when suddenly the cell phone dropped on the ground by the door rang.Zhao Liao didn't intend to pick it up, he was still in a daze.

The phone stopped ringing, stopped ringing, and finally returned to calm.

Zhao Liao also calmed down a little during this long time, but still didn't bother to move.It is a kind of "laziness" from the bottom of his heart. He doesn't want to move or live, he just wants to lie down like this until he dies.

Nobody wanted him alive anyway, did they.

Everyone hated him and wished he was dead.

Zhao Liao suddenly became cold, struggled for a long time before stretching out his hand lazily, and pulled the quilt beside him to cover his body.

Jiang Mingchen was intimate with Zheng Xuan for a while in the training room, sat together to read the documents carefully, and occasionally exchanged a few words in a low voice. He felt that this kind of life was really comfortable, and it would be great if it could continue like this.

He was slightly distracted thinking about this, and suddenly his phone rang: "Zhao Liao? What's wrong?"

Zhao Liao's voice on the phone was very strange, it was just a little depressed, and it was crying: "Come here."

"What's wrong?" Jiang Mingchen asked again.

Zhao Liao didn't know what he was doing, so he said after a long time, "I'm so uncomfortable, come here, I'm very uncomfortable."

Jiang Mingchen was stunned, and instantly remembered Zhao Liao before he lost his memory. At that time, Zhao Liao would occasionally do this thing, and told Jiang Mingchen in the middle of the night that he was so uncomfortable that he needed Jiang Mingchen.Of course, Jiang Mingchen thought that Zhao Liao was losing his nerve again from the beginning to the end. He never believed it, and felt that he was a moth whose sole purpose was to deceive himself.

Now Zhao Liao is doing this again?Did he regain his memory?

Jiang Mingchen felt a little suspicious in his heart, thought for a while, and said, "Okay, I'll go there."

He hung up the phone, glanced at Zheng Xuan, originally wanted to say "Can you come with me", but when the words came to his lips, it became: "I have something to go back to the dormitory."

Zheng Xuan asked casually, "What happened to Zhao Liao?"

"He went back and forth about those things," Jiang Mingchen perfunctory, "I'll come back later."

"Okay." Zheng Xuan said, "Call me if you have anything to do. If there is nothing else, you can wait to rest. There is not much here."

Jiang Mingchen nodded, then left the training room with a complicated mood, and went back to the dormitory.

Jiang Mingchen returned to the dormitory, knocked on the door of Zhao Liao's room, but no one came to open it for a long time, he sighed silently, took out the spare key of Zhao Liao's room to open the door, and was startled: "Zhao Liao?"

Zhao Liao was sitting on the ground, leaning against the foot of the bed. The tall man was curled up in a ball, wrapped in a quilt. On the ground in front of him was an overturned cup, and various pills were still soaked in the water that flowed all over the floor.

Jiang Mingchen's heart tightened when he saw the pill.Zhao Liao's pills probably weren't cold medicine or something like that, could they be those messy ones again?Then Zhao Liao really didn't lose his memory?still?

His heart was also in a mess, but he didn't care about it. He could only go over and pull a tissue to absorb water, and poked Zhao Liao: "Are you okay? What's wrong?"

Only then did Zhao Liao look up at him, with a sleepy look, and after a long silence, he said weakly, "I feel bad."

"Where are you feeling uncomfortable? Why are you suddenly feeling uncomfortable?" Jiang Mingchen asked in surprise.

"I don't know, I just want to die." Zhao Liao said in a low voice, the moisture in his eyes thickened, he choked up like a child, and said, "I don't know, I just feel so uncomfortable."

"You are suffering for no reason..." Jiang Mingchen asked again, "What kind of medicine is this? Who gave it to you?"

Zhao Liao stopped talking, hugged himself even tighter, closed his eyes, and frowned, looking very uncomfortable.

Jiang Mingchen also frowned, after much deliberation, he called the doctor.This doctor is quite reliable, Zhao Liao himself has been leading him all the time, and now he is officially the team doctor of Team Goldstone, but his salary is far from that of a simple team doctor.Although Jiang Mingchen has never been able to figure out what is wrong with Zhao Liao taking the doctor with him, he guessed and guessed, it is probably for the convenience of saving the lives of people who are about to take drugs at any time, or helping himself who is about to be beaten to death by Zhao Liao at any time. Bar.Jiang Mingchen could only think so.

The team doctor came very quickly, and sighed when he saw the situation, but he was not in a hurry, and said to Jiang Mingchen first: "Mate Jiang, don't worry, it's nothing, it's just some common medicine, I'll prescribe it."

Because of the dark history in the past, Jiang Mingchen and this doctor were old acquaintances to some extent, at least old patients.

Jiang Mingchen nodded suspiciously, and helped the doctor pull Zhao Liao from the ground to the bed, then stood aside to watch the doctor give Zhao Liao an injection of something, and then the doctor skillfully opened Zhao Liao's mouth and stuffed him with medicine , Forced water to swallow him.

Zhao Liao was lazy, he didn't even have the slightest resistance or dissatisfaction, he just let the other party manipulate him numbly.

This is not like Zhao Liao at all, whether it is before or after amnesia, whether it is the Zhao Liao when he was a child, or the Zhao Liao who has grown up.

Jiang Mingchen became more and more suspicious. When the doctor was finished and ready to go out, he followed him out and asked in a low voice, "What kind of medicine is that?"

The team doctor glanced at him, was silent for a while, and asked seriously: "Do you really not know that Zhao Liao is depressed?"

Jiang Mingchen was stunned for a moment, and said, "He has bipolar disorder, I've suspected it for a long time."

Even Zhao Liao would put some medicine on him before, Jiang Mingchen didn't pay much attention to it, he didn't take it seriously, and thought that Zhao Liao was just showing off for himself, and he had to say that he was sick here because he was obviously fine. It's sick, the kind of sensationalism.So Jiang Mingchen only thought about bipolar disorder very rarely, and most of the time he felt that Zhao Liao's illnesses other than the second illness were imaginary.

"Yes, it's bipolar disorder. It's better if you know about it. I thought you didn't understand it." The team doctor said, "Did you ask him?"

Of course Jiang Mingchen didn't ask. He used to think that Zhao Liao was insane, and he wouldn't communicate if he could not communicate. How could he rush to ask if you have bipolar disorder, should you go to see a doctor?Maybe Zhao Liao would be beaten up more from embarrassment.

Seeing that Jiang Mingchen didn't speak, the team doctor continued: "It's been quite a few years. In fact, I've been following him all this time to treat him. As for treating your injuries, that's all my extra work. But I didn't expect that, so You really never knew."

Even if Zhao Liao's neurotic appearance has long been criticized whether he has bipolar disorder, but it is true, Jiang Mingchen is a little unbelievable: "But, let's forget it before, he has amnesia now, so does he not actually have amnesia?" Is it?"

The team doctor said: "It has nothing to do with his amnesia or not. This is a physical disease, not entirely psychological. Even if he loses his memory, he will still relapse at any time, so I have been prescribing medicine for him. He takes it on time." He paused and said, "However, one thing that bothers me is that he always does not take his medicine on time, whether he has amnesia or not. I don’t even eat, so there has been no progress in treatment for so many years, and it’s getting worse. Deputy Jiang, the matter between you and him is your business. It’s not up to me to say anything, but I am a doctor. The patient is responsible, so I also hope that you can help me persuade him to actively accept systematic and complete treatment."

Jiang Mingchen was still surprised: "How did he get this disease?"

To put it bluntly, Jiang Mingchen felt that he hadn't gotten sick after being tormented for so many years, why did Zhao Liao get it first?

The team doctor said: "Part of it is determined by his own biological and genetic factors, and part of it is caused by his acquired growth environment. You should be very familiar with this, Deputy Jiang."

After talking for a while, Jiang Mingchen stood at the door and watched the team doctor leave, and hesitantly went back to Zhao Liao's dormitory room after waiting for a long time, feeling extremely complicated.

Zhao Liao didn't fall asleep after taking the medicine, but kept his eyes open looking at the ceiling.

Jiang Mingchen squatted by the bed and looked at him for a while, then said softly, "Why didn't you tell me?"

It took Zhao Liao a long while before he said weakly: "What is there to say about being insane."

But at least I know that you have a disease, otherwise I would have thought you were crazy... Jiang Mingchen coughed and said: "The doctor said that you don't listen to him, you have to listen to the doctor to get well, and you won't feel bad when you recover gone."

Zhao Liao didn't speak.

In fact, Zhao Liao really didn't know why he didn't listen to the doctor, because no one wanted to get sick, no matter what the disease was, and he was no exception, but he just resisted taking those medicines, and only took some when he couldn't do it. .

Naturally, this did not help his condition, so it also caused Zhao Liao to distrust the medicine prescribed by the doctor even more.

"Listen to the doctor and take the medicine well, okay?" Jiang Mingchen asked.

Zhao Liao finally spoke: "Have I hit you before?"

Jiang Mingchen was startled.

Zhao Liao said, "I have suspected this for a long time, and I have never dared to ask."

Jiang Mingchen had no choice but to say, "It's all over."

The room was silent for a while.

"you--"

"I'm sorry." Zhao Liao said.

Jiang Mingchen shook his head: "Forget it, don't think about that."

Zhao Liao finally moved his head, and turned his head to look at Jiang Mingchen.

He didn't lose his memory, he remembered everything he had done to Jiang Mingchen, he also remembered how much Jiang Mingchen hated him, and how fiercely he resisted, once he said it, he would never forgive himself in this life.But now, Jiang Mingchen seemed to be a different person, and said lightly, "It's all over."

Why can Jiang Mingchen forgive someone so easily?

Even if I lose my memory, the things I did before will always exist, how can I say I don't care about it, don't care about it?

Zhao Liao couldn't understand this kind of thinking.If it was him, it would have been unprecedented for him not to take advantage of his illness to kill someone, and it would be ridiculous to him to ignore it simply because the other party lost his memory.It's not just him, he believes that if He Chang, Zhang Xu, and Tang Dong County are replaced, they will also think in the same way as himself.

However, it was precisely because of this that Jiang Mingchen looked so special.

It's special... It makes him want to crush it, mix it into his own flesh and blood, and completely blend it into one.

Only in this way can Jiang Mingchen completely belong to him alone.