Floating World

Sitting on the roof, Ya Xing Mu looked at the group of monks in yellow robes shouting and punching at the bottom of the room, and then he turned his head to look at the person sitting beside him, although he didn't show any fear, but still Because it was the first time to be on such a high eaves, I couldn't help feeling a little scared.

"Are you scary?" Holding Qing Xiao's hand, she could clearly sense that Qing Xiao was afraid from Qing Xiao's slightly trembling fingertips, but she had to listen to Qing Xiao's own words. Afraid of words.

Ya Xingmu really felt a little baffled by his mentality of seeming to like to bully others.

"I... how could I be afraid." Qing Xiao suddenly turned his head away, pretending to be not afraid at all, and looked at the group of monks who were practicing boxing kung fu.

He suddenly realized that after today, he might become one of those monks.

Knowing that Qing Xiao was deliberately trying to be strong, Ya Xingmu did not try to expose Qing Xiao.Looking at Qing Xiao's seemingly confused gaze, he suddenly remembered that Qing Xiao was not a lay disciple like himself.

Qing Xiao... is a person who has half a foot in the Buddhist gate.

"You...are you going to be shaved?"

"Ah."

Sure enough, as he thought.

Also, monks, how could one become a monk without a degree?

"Yeah... when will you be shaved?" I always felt that it was difficult to speak, Ya Xingmu's eyes fell on Qing Xiao's black hair that seemed extremely soft just looking at it.

If the black hair is completely cut off, it symbolizes a complete severance of relationship with the world.Since then, he has completely become a Buddhist, and has nothing to do with the world.At that time, what is the relationship between this self and Qing Xiao?

Can't help but become extremely concerned about these things, Ya Xingmu feels that Qing Xiao is the person he cares about the most in the past seven years, no, maybe it's not an exaggeration to say that he is the only person he cares about.In such a short time of acquaintance, I actually cared so much about one person. I knew that in the previous seven years, I couldn't care about anything.

But Qing Xiao did it.

The reason for caring, I don't know if it's because of Qing Xiao's face that makes people unable to take their eyes off, or just because of Qing Xiao's face that makes people feel uneasy.

But it doesn't matter what the reason is, the fact that Ya Xingmu cares about Qing Xiao can't be changed. Although he is still young, his feelings have nothing to do with his age, but only with his heart.

"When I was sent here, the abbot once told me that I would be shaved in three days. It should be tomorrow." Qing Xiao's voice was so steady that he didn't seem to mind the matter of tomorrow's shaved, as if it was a matter of course.

"Aren't you... not afraid? Don't tell me...you don't want to give up? Are you willing...to become a monk with a haircut like that?"

Qing Xiao was speechless for a while, his eyes fell on Ya Xingmu's hand that was holding him tightly, and after a long time he said slowly, "I... don't know what in this world should make me reluctant... I don't know , what should I be attached to.”

The voice was inaudible, like a warm wind, blowing into Ya Xingmu's heart, such a clamor, made people feel distressed.

Ya Xingmu really wanted to yell at Qing Xiao, whether he knew that once he was ordained, there would be no way out after that; whether he knew that if he was ordained, he would only be able to be with Buddhist scriptures and wooden fishes in this life, watching the The Buddha statue who can't speak, smells the annoying fragrance all day long, eats the meatless dishes all day long, and even drinking wine is a big taboo, even the right to like someone in the future completely deprived of...

But in the end, Ya Xingmu never yelled.

He knew that if Qing Xiao had other choices, how could he come to this boring monk temple, and how could he choose to be ordained?

Just because Qing Xiao had no other way to go, so...

He can only be a monk.

I always feel that my heart is indescribably uncomfortable, but I can't tell what this feeling is, Ya Xingmu subconsciously grasps Qing Xiao's soft and boneless hands, as if only a woman would have them.

"Although I know that saying this to you may seem like teasing you, or it may seem like an irresponsible joke, but... I am serious. If you don't know what else in this world makes you sad, don't know what to do. What makes you cling... that is, I beg you, treat me as your last attachment, your last reluctance in this world."

Hearing this, Qing Xiao suddenly raised his head and cast his eyes on Ya Xingmu who had a slight smile on his face but it was definitely not a frivolous smile, Qing Xiao looked surprised.

"Why... what is the meaning of this? I will be ordained tomorrow, and I will cut off all distracting thoughts. What do you mean by this?"

There should be no obsessions.

This is the conclusion that Qing Xiao has come to since he lived till now.

******

When he was still young, his mother secretly took him to the streets to play.Looking at the lifelike clay figurine made by others, he only wanted it when he was young.Xu knew the consequences of buying it. At first, my mother refused to buy it, but seeing Qing Xiao who couldn't help crying because she couldn't get it, my mother finally softened her heart.

Qing Xiao who bought a clay figurine and went home was very happy. He was so happy to take a clay figurine that he even forgot what his mother told him.

——Remember, you must not play when your father comes back.

Forgot this, he was having fun until that slap sent him flying.The clay figurine in his hand was taken away by his pseudonymous father, and he held it in his hand to look at it for a while.

"Where did you come from, this clay figurine!"

Because he never bought anything for Qing Xiao, the woodcutter knew very well that Qing Xiao shouldn't have this thing.So this thing, either someone bought it for Qing Xiao, or Qing Xiao stole it.

Hearing Qing Xiao's cry, Mother rushed out from the stove inside and stopped in front of Qing Xiao.Looking at the clay figurine in the woodcutter's hand, she already knew what happened now.

Fearing that the woodcutter might misunderstand, my mother hurriedly said to the woodcutter, "Today... I saw that the weather was good, so I wanted to take Qing Xiao out for fun... I passed by a clay figurine stall on the way, and Qing Xiao seemed to be interested, so I went Buy it, don't argue with Qing Xiao."

Knowing how much of the woman's words are true and how much is false.If she was just interested, how could she take such a big risk to buy a clay figurine?

She agreed to buy it only after making a fuss on time.

No matter how much a clay figurine costs, a few pennies are enough to buy a lot of vegetables. Thinking that these unnecessary money was spent on a bastard, the woodcutter became very angry.

He can't lay hands on the woman he likes, and the only one who suffers is Qing Xiao.

That day, Qingxiao was beaten until he vomited blood.After having a high fever for several days, Qing Xiao didn't dare to want anything anymore.

If it is given, he can take it, and he will take it.If he shouldn't, or if he doesn't give it, he won't have any delusions.

because……

It was his destiny that he could not have what he wanted.

******

"What do you mean... who knows. But somehow, I just don't want to end my relationship with you. I know it's imperative that you shave tomorrow, but... so what if you become a monk? Shaving is just a formality, How many people are there in this temple who really abandon their appearance and anger? I said that I will not leave you alone in this life, I will definitely do it, but I also want to have a thought, so if you are alone I am alone... I will only be by your side in this life. What do you think?" Sitting closer to Qing Xiao, Ya Xingmu stretched out his hand to gently touch Qing Xiao's soft blue hair, his lips The corner of the smile began to freeze.

This thought...

If he had made the promise, what would be the result?

Qing Xiao didn't dare to think about it, because he was afraid that he would find another bitter fruit.

As long as you don't ask for it, even if you don't get the possible good fruit, at least the bitter fruit will not be incurred.

"You said you would stay by my side and never leave me alone in this life. You are clearly talking to yourself... I never said that I asked you to promise me such a thing from the beginning to the end." Xingmu touched his white-haired hand, and Qing Xiao withdrew his clenched hand from Ya Xingmu's palm, and said, "For me, the only thing that is not painful is to be completely with you." All the miscellaneous thoughts in this world have broken the relationship, and I will never set foot in the world, and my heart is as calm as water. This is the greatest salvation for me. Now that I can finally get rid of the pain in my heart, why do you want to drag me back there? A worldly abyss that will destroy me forever?"

It's not like the speech of a child of this age made Ya Xingmu slightly stunned, looking at the expressionless Qing Xiao who said this, the sense of humiliation he felt for a moment made him angry.

In this way, it was as if he was acting passionately on his own. In the end, the person who had done those things was just a trouble to Qing Xiao who wanted to make him unable to get rid of the pain.

Ya Xingmu is also a well-known young master of Jianzhuang in the martial arts world, how could he bear such an insult?How could he be a temperless person?

"That's how it is. I don't think it was me who prevented you from becoming a Buddha." Suddenly, Ya Xingmu stood up, looked at Qing Xiao with cold eyes, and said, "I'm going down, since You think I'm hindering you, so you don't need someone like me in the way to take you down, right?"

Qing Xiao didn't respond, not even a hint of panic on his face.He just looked indifferently at Ya Xingmu who seemed to be playing his temper, and didn't say a word.

On the contrary, Qing Xiao's behavior made Jiao Ya Xingmu feel even more annoyed, and he didn't want to pay attention to Qing Xiao at all. Ya Xingmu didn't care if Qing Xiao knew how to do light work, he just performed light work without saying a word, just like him One person slowly fell from the high roof to the ground.

"What did you say that you won't leave me alone... In the end, isn't it the same."

He muttered in his mouth, Qing Xiao laughed lightly, then he stood up carefully, thinking maybe he could go and see if there was anything near the eaves that could be landed on, Qing Xiao carefully walked along the eaves. Sliding eaves to go.

Walking on the eaves is not easy, at least for those who do not know martial arts at all.

Accidentally, Qing Xiao stepped on the wrong ground, and the unsteady foot made him lose his balance.Before he could react, he fell on the eaves, and then rolled and fell down along the slid eaves.

This is bad!

The height of the roof from the ground is not normal, if it falls like this...

Maybe he will die?

It might be good if you can die.

Thinking about it this way, it seems that the fear is gone.

Just closing his eyes tightly, feeling the feeling of continuous falling, Qing Xiao always felt a lot more comfortable in his heart for some reason.

Suddenly, Qing Xiao felt that his body seemed to stop falling.He opened his eyes suddenly, and what he saw was Ya Xingmu's face full of displeasure.

He... isn't he gone?

"You...are you leaving?" After staying for a long time, Qing Xiao asked in a daze.

"If I had left just now, you would be dead now."

Ya Xingmu seemed to be angry, although Qing Xiao didn't know what Ya Xingmu was angry with, but he still couldn't help feeling a little happy when he knew in his heart that Ya Xingmu had never really left.

"Thank... thank you." Qing Xiao who was put down by Ya Xingmu said, but apart from that thank you, Qing Xiao didn't say anything else.

He still couldn't hear what he wanted to hear, but Ya Xingmu didn't need Qing Xiao's thank you at all.

"You are determined to be your monk who has cut off all emotions and desires and has no connection with the world, right?" Xiao's superficial calmness, he only thought that he was unwanted by Qing Xiao. "That's all, it's useless to talk too much. If you want to be your monk, then you can do it. Just treat it as my wrong intention. I'm just a lay disciple who was too stubborn at home and was sent by my father to suffer. , although it is somewhat involved with Buddhism, but after all, it will not become a Buddhist."

After Ya Xingmu said that, he couldn't help laughing out loud, although he smiled happily on the surface, but he couldn't help but feel a pang of sadness in his heart.

It was his wrong intention.

When he saw Qing Xiao's appearance for the first time, he unconsciously paid too much attention to Qing Xiao, and even thought about trying his best to protect him for the rest of his life, which was simply ridiculous.

The other party is determined to become a Buddha, but I...

It's just a mortal who has fallen into the world and cannot escape.

I always feel that Ya Xingmu's smile is weird, and Qing Xiao, who can't help being a little concerned, tries to shout, "Ya Xingmu..."

"I'm fine. You're only going to become a monk tomorrow, so at least you're still a layman today. Since you and I are still laymen, then naturally we should get together and live a good life as a layman, right?" Xiao's shoulders, Ya Xingmu looked as if nothing had happened just now, but he didn't know what Qing Xiao's mood would be after hearing what he said.

Being disturbed by others without a trace of turmoil in his originally calm heart, he had made up his mind to die from the moment he stepped into the Shaolin Temple, but who knows...

He said that today he is still a layman, because today he and he are both laymen, so they can still get along like they do now.

So what if you get shaved tomorrow?

Will Ya Xingmu stop paying attention to himself?What he said that day did not leave him alone...

Does it count?

Falling into such wild thoughts, Qing Xiao's thoughts have been disturbed so easily...

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