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Regarding the cognition of this word, the only knowledge I have comes from the definition and writing method in the dictionary. I don’t know much about the meaning behind the abstract words, its characteristics, or the boundaries of love and friendship.

Just to explain from the font, love is probably a kind of friendship that makes people feel irritable like a cat's paw scratching at the heart, right?

For me—for a not-so-old orc—this kind of state does not exist. If there is a friendship that I want to do anyway, it will develop from a friendship to a state of having a substantial relationship, no matter what This shot refers to appetite or sexual desire.

The reason is simple, for orcs there are two desires that run through our entire life, one is appetite and the other is sex.

These two desires are seldom hidden among orcs, and it is not considered beneficial in our world for humans to be reserved.Human beings are only weak because of their own reasons. Even feudal families deliberately use rituals and patriarchal methods to maintain the inbreeding of dominant tribes because of blood, but it has not brought more advantages to human beings.

So if this is the case, why wrap sexual desire in heavy benefits?

Incomprehensible.

In my opinion, love is that kind of superfluous thing, because you can't understand it and don't pursue it.

However, Luo Haofeng is a special existence.

As I said before, my clan doesn't have respect for food or partners. Basically, it's a chic type that will do it immediately when it wants to do it, and give up easily if it doesn't work.However, this rule was challenged by Luo Haofeng.

I couldn't attack Luo Haofeng easily, it wasn't because I was born with a superfluous emotion of love as a different kind of race, nor was it because this ordinary human had power beyond my reach as a white god.

It's because he's an important bait to me, and it's meaningless if he doesn't volunteer his life for me.

Therefore, for me, it seems to be artificially shaped. I act as if I am more than a friend with Luo Haofeng, and I have to suppress my desire for many years to put on the appearance of a good man.

If you compare it with human society, it's like the relationship between parents who were married to each other in the old days.Well, just the opposite.

"This is simply a fool's dream!"

When I first heard the news, I had the same reaction as everyone else.Letting human beings actively sacrifice their lives is not the same as letting animals such as pigs or chickens and ducks sell their companions’ corpses to humans like in the advertisements for ham sausage and deli products?

But the elders in the family didn't seem to have considered the difficulty of this task, or they never really wanted me to inherit the Bai family.

"All in all, let the other party relax their vigilance first."

With this in mind, I, who was still new to the outside world, tried to get in touch with a human named Luo Haofeng who was also in his infancy.

After trying a little bit, it seems that communicating with humans is not as difficult as imagined.After all, if one contacts with human gestures and human language, the hostility of human beings will be unexpectedly reduced.

Rather, because orcs have more outstanding conditions among human beings, human beings will more or less have a good impression of me like this.At this time, as long as you show a little kindness, it is not difficult to become friends.

Besides, as a half-orc, I only have an irresistible urge towards humans once a month. I disguised myself as an ordinary human, approached at a leisurely pace, and finally became friends with Luo Haofeng.

However, even so, even if they have successfully become friends.If one day I seriously said to Luo Haofeng: "Please, please let me eat you." It would be impossible.

The friendship between me and Luo Haofeng is based on hypocrisy and deceit. The premise of this deception is that in many cases, I don't really understand human behavior. I just learn how human beings behave. That's all, because I can be more similar than the anthropological one, so in Luo Haofeng's eyes, I will probably be a pretty perfect character.

But everything is based on deceit, and deception is something that cannot be tolerated in human society or in orc society.

I don't know what Luo Haofeng thinks of me, but when Luo Haofeng sacrificed himself to save me the moment I was attacked, I realized for the first time how to make a human being sacrifice himself for others.

That's love, right?

The kind of emotion that I can't understand.

I was sitting on the ground, with my arms twisted into unnatural curves, my arms became bloody because I caught me falling from the 7th floor with my bare hands on the ground, Luo Haofeng, who was screaming for pain just now, could only move My arms trembled unceasingly, and I entered a state of dazedness caused by blood loss and extreme panic.

He knew that if he caught me falling from that height with both hands, his fate might be worse than mine, but he still rushed up.At the moment of falling, I didn't even catch the slightest hesitation in my peripheral vision, and ran up almost the moment he noticed me.

Obviously he had always failed in physical education, but at that moment he surpassed his all-time running record, so not only his arms but also his legs were strained.

Obviously usually so timid, his face would turn blue when blood was drawn, but now seeing that I am safe and sound, he forced a smile regardless of the blood on his body.

Obviously it was full moon at that time, and Luo Haofeng was lying in my arms covered in blood, but I couldn't do anything at all.

It was as if a desire other than "want to eat" and "want to do" had grown in my body, suppressing my urge.

The sound of applause coming from nowhere is probably a relative of the main family who has been trying to erase me until just now.Hiding in the dark shadows, he smiled ironically.

"Congratulations, you have successfully made the "bait" sacrifice for you. In this case, we have to abide by the rules of the game set before."

That's right, in this way, I can smoothly take over the position of Patriarch of the Bai family, even if I have lost the ability of Baishen.

However, at that moment, I couldn't think about what happened next, but immediately contacted an ambulance, and Luo Haofeng was also rescued.

I still don't understand why I acted like this and missed the opportunity to inherit the family business.

"It was an accident."

This is what I said when faced with questions from the meeting of my family.

"It's true that he and I are friends, but it has not reached the point where he will take the initiative to sacrifice his life for me. Human understanding will be disturbed when nervous, and the bait may not really understand his behavior at the time. Because of the possible consequences, I took action first. I think the elders will not approve of this opportunistic behavior."

Although it was an explanation, it was actually just a sophistry. If he didn't do this, he couldn't use his family relationship to treat Luo Haofeng.

Such an injury will leave a permanent disability... Generally speaking.

"Since that's the case, why bother to spend so much energy on treating him? For "bait", you don't need as many as you want, just choose another one..."

It is natural for my family to think so. After all, this trial itself is my trial. As long as I can prove that I can successfully disguise in human society, it doesn't matter who the target is.

"No, this 'bait' has almost reached the point where it can be successful. If I choose another one, I think it would be too unfair to me."

My family finally agreed with my explanation, and adopted my suggestion to send Luo Haofeng abroad for treatment.

"But if that's the case, isn't that kid using his family's money to sell favors to [bait]? Isn't that fair?"

This kind of voice has never been broken, but I never refute it, it would be better to say that I also deceive myself with such reasons.

"I chose this for the trial."

"If you don't do this, you have to start all over again."

"Yeah, how can I have feelings for humans?"

Such self-confidence, such self-comfort, such self-deception.

This lie has been repeated to this day.

"Hey... do you have something to say? Your gaze is really disgusting..."

Luo Haofeng probably couldn't bear it anymore, he raised his head from the desk, and asked me, who had been staring at him since just now, with a disgusted face.

Normally, I'd probably fool around with a half-truthy joke like "I stared at it because I was hungry."

However, today is different.

I stood up and walked to Luo Haofeng's side, he also seemed to have read a different seriousness from my expression, so there was a little fear in his eyes.

I stretched out one hand and put the other on Luo Haofeng's forehead—in fact, if it is professional magic, this action is not necessary at all, but for orcs, direct contact is still necessary——Although Luo Haofeng closed his eyes I rolled my eyes, but there was no sign of avoiding it at all, probably thinking that I would never hurt him.

That's right, how could I possibly hurt him?

Then, I gave a hint in secret language.

"Hate me, be hostile to me, run away from me, run away from the school, and don't associate with me anymore."

Luo Haofeng's pupils were slightly slackened, and he almost gave up resistance without struggling. His refocused eyes were full of pure disgust like the elders in his family.

Standing up stiffly, he walked towards the door of the dormitory.

"Where are you going?"

Luo Haofeng stopped in his tracks, tilted his head, and cast his disdainful eyes over his shoulders in my direction.

"Check out."

You see, how fragile the so-called friendship between human beings is in the face of power, how could I care?