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Ye Yang originally thought that what he said was the truth, and it should be in line with Pei Zhou's thinking. After all, people like Song Xingyu should feel very troubled by Song Xingyu's stalking style of chasing people. .

But he didn't expect that Peizhou's originally calm expression changed slightly after he heard it, and he suddenly raised his eyes to look at himself, and there was a kind of disbelief almost astonished in his eyes.

Pei Zhou stared at Ye Yang, and asked after a long while, "What did you say?"

Ye Yang didn't react, he was stunned for a moment, and then quickly explained: "What are you asking, that... I mean, Song Xingyu is really not the person you said."

Pei Zhou took a deep breath, clenched his fists at his side, and spoke again after a long while, "I'm asking about what happened that night in the bar?"

Ye Yang obviously didn't know anything about his tone, he was a little surprised, and said: "Isn't it Xingyu's birthday that day? I just called a few friends and asked him to come out to play together, but Xingyu must have been in a bad mood that day. , before all of us arrived, he was almost drunk by himself."

"I don't remember very clearly what happened in the middle. Anyway, everyone had a great time later on that day. At that time, a few people were there to make a fuss... You will know the later things."

"That's not the point. The point is that he was definitely drunk when he said those words that day. How can a drunk person take his words seriously. What's more, I probably know why he said that that day. I think Xingyu originally wanted to spend his birthday with you, but you must have been very busy that day, Xingyu didn't say anything, and we were very surprised when you appeared later.

Of course, there are many, many situations like this. A person like Song Xingyu is almost turning himself into a licking dog in front of you. Sometimes I feel a little worthless for him when I think about it.

In my opinion, you and Xingyu treat feelings completely differently. You are really too rational, and you are almost very cautious about your feelings, as if you can withdraw at any time.Like that breakup, it seemed like you were the one who got hurt.But in fact, this doesn't seem to have any effect on you, you can continue to work and live in an orderly manner.But Song Xingyu made a mess of his life. "

Pei Zhou's hands were so hard that his knuckles were almost white, he tried his best to restrain himself, and then he gritted his teeth and said, "He never told me about this."

Ye Yang was not surprised at all, and said, "Then don't you feel it yourself?"

Ye Yang sighed: "At the end of the day, it's because you don't like it enough. It was he who chased you for a long time before you agreed. For you, maybe this relationship has always been dispensable. Speaking of it, I think that even if it wasn't because of the bar Once again, you two will break up sooner or later, you have never been equal emotionally."

Hearing Ye Yang's words, Pei Zhou felt his blood run cold.

He couldn't help but think of what Ling Ran said to him just now. He only thought it was ridiculous when he heard it, but he didn't expect that it could be Ling Ran's sincere words...

It turned out that not only Ling Ran, but everyone probably thought so. They all felt that they didn't care about this relationship.

But, why don't you care.

In these days, he has never stopped suffering and hatred for a moment, which is the pain he never experienced even in the darkest days of Pei's family.

He couldn't bear that the person who gave his heart to him trampled it down so easily and dismissively.

Unexpectedly, in the eyes of others, he himself is such a person.He is the one who treats feelings as dispensable.He never responded, he always walked at his own pace, but never thought of accommodating and waiting for Ling Ran.

And every time I met after that, I seemed to confirm the fact in Ling Ran's heart again and again, standing in the perspective of a bystander, watching Ling Ran indifferently suffering.

Even tonight, just now, he never thought about Ling Ran.

He suddenly remembered the scene of breaking up at that time. Even after such a long time, the scene was still clearly imprinted in his mind. At that time, he only felt as if his heart had fallen into a cold ice cave, and he only felt that he was ridiculous and sad.

But Ling Ran mustered up the courage to find himself countless times, but what he got was always indifference.Does he also feel that for someone like himself, it's actually not worth it at all.

Pei Zhou thought in a daze, it will happen.

……

After an unknown amount of time, the door of the operating room was pushed open. Pei Zhou reacted abruptly, strode up to follow, and asked, "How is he?"

The doctor saw that he looked tired and haggard, and said, "Mr. Pei, the patient is fine, but he has just been anesthetized and it may take more than ten hours to wake up, so you don't have to wait here all the time, go back and rest first. "

Pei Zhou paused, and nodded after a while.

Ye Yang, who was lying on the chair and was about to fall asleep, rubbed his eyes when he heard the movement, but he saw Pei Zhou standing there, looking at the direction the nurse was leaving, the expression on his face was indescribable.

When Ling Ran woke up, he tried for a long time to fully focus his gaze. Almost immediately, he heard the happy voice of the system in his head.

[The blackening value has dropped again, and now there are only 10 left. 】

[Ah, there are still 10 points left, it seems that I still have to work hard. 】

The system inexplicably felt that it must not be a good thing that the host said to work hard.

When Pei Zhou came in, he saw that Ling Ran had already woken up. The sunlight outside the window came in through the gaps in the curtains, forming spots of light on the floor. Ling Ran's face on the hospital bed was pale, but his side face showed no expression at all. , I don't know what I'm thinking.

Pei Zhou walked over, thinking a lot in his mind, but at this moment, he didn't know how to speak, so he said after a long while: "You're awake."

When Ling Ran saw that it was him, he was taken aback for a moment, then nodded, but didn't intend to speak.

Pei Zhou pursed his lips tightly. Seeing Ling Ran's cold and alienated attitude, his heart felt a twinge of bitterness, and he said, "I want to have a good talk with you."

Ling Ran's pitch-black eyelashes trembled violently, and then he lowered his eyes and said, "What should be said, what should not be said, have already been talked about. There should be nothing more to say, if you said it because of the time I broke up, I can’t let go of the words, I can apologize.”

His attitude made Pei Zhou palpitate for no reason. He didn't know how to explain it, or how to explain this kind of thing.

"I want to know if the words you said to me on the day we broke up were just angry words, and if you didn't really think that way in your heart..."

Ling Ran didn't seem to be surprised by his question, but just looked at him calmly and said, "It was indeed angry at the time, but now it seems that it is really stupid. I have wondered several times, is it me? People are really too selfish and selfish. They never consider other people's feelings. Apart from being the young master of the Song family, they don't seem to have any other advantages... However, Pei Zhou, I have been repeating myself repeatedly these days. Think of a question."

Pei Zhou looked at him without saying a word, but there was a throbbing pain in his heart that could not be ignored.

"I was thinking, why did you agree to be with me? Since you hate me so much, why did you want to be with me?"

Pei Zhou's breathing was trembling, and he finally realized how much words can hurt people. He said such words in such a calm manner, but it made him feel more painful than the tit-for-tat confrontation before.

But at this moment, he felt a deep sense of powerlessness, because he found that he had no way to refute it, because this could not be proved.

What to say?

Could the indifference that turned a blind eye to his pain be love?

Can repeated hurts and doubts be love?

Now that he told Ling Ran that he loved him, Ling Ran probably only felt that his love was too worthless.

Pei Zhou felt as if there was a lump in his throat. He looked into Ling Ran's eyes and said hoarsely, "I never hated you. I said that just because I was angry."

He stared into Ling Ran's eyes, and said with a difficult voice, "I'm just angry with what you said that day, Ling Ran, I never hated you..."

Ling Ran was stunned for a moment, as if he didn't expect him to answer like this, he stared into Pei Zhou's eyes and said, "It's very strange, I actually feel a little relieved to hear you say this."

"It seems that you really care about what you said. But don't worry, I was talking angry. I have never looked down on you. What is an illegitimate child? Looking at my own situation now, I am not as good as you... "

His tone sounded relaxed, but there was no smile in his eyes. After saying this, he looked away and said, "I want to sleep."

Looking at his thin and pale profile, Pei Zhou couldn't help stretching out his hand, hesitating for a while before landing on his quilt, smoothing the corners of the quilt for him, and said, "I'll come to see you tonight."

Ling Ran felt it, and his eyelashes trembled heavily, but he never spoke. He moved his head and buried his face deeper into the pillow.

Ling Ran opened his eyes only when the door slammed. He picked up the phone next to him and sent a message to Song Wenhui's phone.

——I accept your opinion, I am willing to go abroad, and I am willing to cooperate with the statement to leave the Song family voluntarily, but I would like to ask you to do me a favor, if one day my biological parents come to me, please tell me.

Song Wenhui over there quickly responded to the message with a few concise and clear words.

—Okay, I'll arrange it.

After Pei Zhou came out of the hospital, he drove into a restaurant not far away. As soon as he walked in, the waiter greeted him and asked, "Hello, sir. How many people do you have?"

Pei Zhou didn't stop. He said "Looking for someone" and walked straight to the deepest private room. He didn't stop until he reached the penultimate room.

As soon as the door was opened, the people waiting inside immediately stood up when they heard the movement, looked at the person coming, and said tremblingly: "Mr. Pei."

Pei Zhou walked over, threw the file bag in his hand on the table, glanced at him, and said, "You released those photos of Lin Xi before and the hottest chat records now? How much did you get for the photos?" , aren’t you afraid of going to jail?”

His tone was very flat, and there seemed to be a sharp knife condensed on the brow, which was very sharp when he looked at it.

When the private detective heard Pei Zhou's tone, he guessed that he was here to inquire about the crime. Hearing his words, he was almost frightened. If they wanted to deal with him, they would just crush an ant to death Same, and immediately explained: "I didn't blow up those photos of Lin Xi, but an entertainment marketing account asked me to buy them. I know that this is unprofessional, but there is nothing excessive in those photos. The main reason is that those marketing accounts are following the rhythm. , It has nothing to do with the photos. As for those chat records, they are even more fabricated out of thin air, completely fake! Really, we never add WeChat to our customers, we only communicate by phone, and I don’t even know him Who is it, and to be honest, even if the chat records are true, we have no reason to expose it, doesn't it mean that we are also cheating ourselves."

"But Boss Pei, speaking of which, I took those photos of Lin Xi by chance. The customer came to me. In fact, the first task he gave me was to let me know where you went all day long, who your friends are, and other things. I didn’t commit any act of violating your privacy. Really, we are not bad people in this business. At most, I remembered these photos because Lin Xi became famous. , I really have no other meaning."

Pei Zhou's heart stopped, and he asked, "When?"

"Just two years ago in September, that customer was very generous and the task was very simple. I thought to myself that I can't just be with you alone, do more things, and get you away too." A few friends who were close to me also got to know it, and speaking of it, that guest didn’t even know that I took these photos, so how could the things that broke the news be true.”

In September two years ago, wasn't it when he and Ling Ran first met.

Those dusty memories seemed to be opened suddenly. Pei Zhou remembered that at that time he was busy with the company and graduation every day. He was so busy that his feet didn't touch the ground. In fact, the time at school was very limited, but he met Ling every time. Of course, sometimes it's in the cafeteria next to the school, sometimes in the school's library, and what's more, even downstairs in his company.

Ling Ran called him a "coincidence" every time, but he didn't care about it at the time, and never thought about whether it was really such a coincidence.

After the private detective said these words, he looked at Pei Zhou anxiously, but found that he was not in the right state. He was not as calm and composed as when he came in just now. He was almost caught in a certain emotion, so he took the opportunity to explain in a low voice: : "Mr. Pei, if you need me to prove it, I can explain it, but really don't care about us small people, I just make some money to live on."

Hearing this, Pei Zhou raised his eyes and glanced at the private detective next to him. After a moment of comprehension, he spoke, his voice was inexplicably hoarse: "No, I already know everything I should know. You don't need to worry about this matter, let's go. "

Knowing that the other party was planning to let him go, the private detective thanked him repeatedly, and immediately picked up his things and left the private room.

Pei Zhou couldn't hold it back anymore, he raised his hand and firmly pressed the center of his brow, his dark eyes suppressed a lot of pain and self-deprecation.

In fact, as Ye Yang said, in his world, no one seems to be able to disturb his footsteps. He plans his life and career step by step, and carefully calculates the feelings he gives and the rewards he gets.And every encounter between him and Ling Ran was due to Ling Ran's deliberate deliberations in order to fit him. Ling Ran worked hard to enter his world, constantly proving how much he loves himself and how pure and passionate his feelings are, but he has always only accepted, And once Ling Ran stopped, he would become suspicious and start to use his indifference to hurt people until they were dripping with blood.

It was because he was too selfish, and he accepted it with peace of mind, but he never thought that one day Ling Ran would be tired, suspicious, and afraid to shrink back.

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