My name is Dazai

"You, are you okay?" the boy asked with a sobbing voice.

Dazai looked at the boy.

He was still curled up, with his arms covering his chest and his hands covering his face.

Although the quilt was lifted, he didn't have the idea of ​​pulling the quilt back up, as if he was used to being treated roughly.

"Tangun?" Dazai suddenly became sad, he stretched out his hand to help Tangun cover the quilt, "I'm fine... are you feeling uncomfortable because of the supernatural power?"

He stretched out his hand and squeezed Tangun's hand: "Tangun..."

Tangun was touched, his eyes suddenly lit up, and he clenched Dazai's hand behind his back.Like a drowning man grasping at the last straw.

The ability of Tangun in front of me is not "Dazai Osamu".

Dazai confirmed this.

Probably some kind of spiritual power.

He thought of Q, that crazy, annoying little kid.

This kind of psychic ability is probably effective on Tangun and other people at the same time, and Tangun himself has no way to control this ability.

I'm afraid it's another kind of ability that will be imprisoned if discovered by the Ability Secret Service Section.

Tangun was not found, probably someone was protecting him.

But judging from Tangun's current state, this protection has not achieved any results at all.

Sure enough, he still had to take care of the cat.

But... can he keep a cat?

Also, is this cat the cat he wants?

The Tangun he wanted was tolerant and would help him clean up the mess with a helpless smile.The Tangun he thought was calm, although he was always a bit embarrassed by Dazai's pranks, but he would not be hurt, and he was a little bit of fun.

But this Tangun is really underage or has just grown up, he is not as calm as an adult, he may be very sensitive because of his experience, Dazai suddenly felt that his hand was slowly loosened, he looked down, Tangun I have closed my eyes and fell asleep.

Although he was still huddled into a ball, his expression relaxed a lot.

Want to let go?

Dazai sneezed, and wanted to change his own clothes, but he looked at his hand being pressed by Tangun's head, fell silent for a moment, and simply lay down and covered himself with the quilt.

Do you have a cat?

Tangun was awakened by the phone call, he was almost awakened, the world was still peaceful after he woke up.

The steadyness made his eyes a little sore.

Ability - Void Elephant Embedded.

A power that he has absolutely no control over.

To him it is emptiness, to others it is emptiness.

During the activation of the ability, he can't see the world, everything is nothingness, not darkness, just nothingness like a blind person, only humans can barely see.

It is a void to him.

But the incarnation of others is a scene like hell. Because of his supernatural powers, people who are overly terrified and completely unable to bear this horror commit suicide, and those who are directly frightened by heart disease or cerebral hemorrhage are approaching double digits.

In other words, he killed almost double digits of people.

That's not to say that being driven crazy makes life worse than death.

In fact, there are quite a lot of restrictions on the conditions for his abilities to be activated - when he is awake and in a closed environment.

He discovered this ability at the age of 15, and it has been three years since now.

It has only been three years since he didn't want to die at the beginning, and now he voluntarily throws off his caretaker and commits suicide.

These three years he was almost destroyed.Not only the guilt of killing and harming others, but also the pressure of being in a state of unconsciousness due to drugs or various means, or in a room with windows open forever.

Tangun felt that he was not far from going crazy.

He couldn't even tell who he was, and when asked what his name was, he could only vaguely say "Tan".When asked who was in his family, he only remembered his father and sister, but he couldn't tell what they looked like.Tangun knew that they were very scared, after all, he had seen the victim before, and anyone would cast a shadow on him.They didn't necessarily ignore him on purpose, they just avoided seeing him out of the instinct of fear. As long as they avoided seeing him, it was normal for them not to see him for three years.

Tangun couldn't blame them, after all he himself was so afraid of his abilities, it was normal for them to be afraid.As long as he was dragged out of the confined space or stunned, it was actually easy to kill him, but they didn't, they just sent him to a nursing home, and let the nurses or bodyguards take him out from time to time.

Tangun felt that the matter was suppressed by his family members.

What was he like before... I don't know, it's not what he is now.

Tangun got up: "Sir, don't you check your phone?"

"...Don't call me sir, I'm Dazai, Dazai Osamu." Dazai looked at Tangun's exposed ribs, and hung up the phone from Mori Ogai, "Just call me Dazai."

"I'm Tan..." Tangun said weakly, "Thank you very much for saving me."

"You are committing suicide, why should you thank me for saving you?" Dazai asked.

"..."

Yes, why Tangun was slightly taken aback.

He froze for a long time.

Dazai looked at Tangun, his current expression was like a dazed cat, with his mouth open and his eyes empty.

Tangun was in a daze for a very long time, and Dazai felt that this had something to do with his current poor mental state.

After a long while, he finally said, "Probably...probably despicable that I don't want to die." Why is it despicable to want to live?

Dazai wanted to ask this question, he could guess what Tangun's past was like.

But he felt that he didn't know how to ask.

A suicidal man actually tried to persuade another to live.

I can't convince myself, so how to convince others is such a heavy topic.

very scary.

Dazai was frightened again.

He was terrified many times today.

Fearing that the Tangun he saw was not the Tangun he wanted to see, fearing Tangun's suicide remarks...

He wants to run away.

Dazai sat up, he decided to let the cat go, he couldn't save him, and he couldn't save him.

What he wanted was warmth, not this desperate pain.

He pointed to the clothes prepared by the hotel waiter before: "The clothes are there, you can change them yourself, I have to leave first."

Tangun looked at him calmly, smiled lightly, groped like a blind man to the window, opened a crack, and destroyed the conditions for his ability to activate.

He could see that Dazai couldn't stand him anymore.

He is close to madness, but it does not mean that his intelligence is damaged, and his heart is still sharp: "Trouble you to take care of it."

He didn't say anything about repayment. Whether he was sent back to a nursing home or succeeded in suicide, it meant that he couldn't repay.

...Actually a little unwilling to let Tangun think about it.

Is not reconciled to something ah.

He himself is unwilling to live in the world, so why should he beg others to save him.

When he came back to his senses, Dazai was still frowning at him.

Tangun tilted his head and said slowly, "Ah, I will call the nursing home. Don't worry, they will take good care of me."

Is it because he is afraid that he will commit suicide?

He is a gentle person.

Tangun blamed himself a little.

Just had to give up suicide.

He picked up the phone by the bed, raised his left hand to look at the bracelet above, there was indeed a phone number for the nursing home, and he pressed the number according to the number on it.

Dazai watched silently as he dialed the number.

Did he mean this?

It seems... He who would ask others the question "or does it make sense?" seems to have given some kind of positive answer.

He watched Tangun dial the number, Tangun's expression was very calm, he was not annoyed by the decision, as if all the fluctuating emotions before had disappeared.

Like Tangun in memory, but not like him.That Tangun was calm from the bottom of his heart, but it was more like he kept all his emotions in his heart, leaving only an empty shell outside.

The white cat he wanted to raise, the sleek white cat that meowed softly, turned into the current white cat that is thin and weak, unable to raise energy, and doesn't care about the future... The white hair is covered with mud and water. Group, looking distraught.

If you can't afford his life, don't raise it.If you raise it and throw it away, the white cat will be really hurt.

The nursing home will take good care of him no kidding.No matter how much money there is, no one will really take good care of this kind of person who threatens his life.

If you can really take good care of him, why is he in such a skinny and listless state that he doesn't even have the strength to hold a telephone receiver.

His Mr. White Cat should be treated with tenderness.

Dazai had an impulse to hug Tangun, raise him up, and make him smile from the bottom of his heart.

But...the time for him to be entangled is not much.

Tangun's hand had already stopped, obviously he had pressed the last number, and he put the microphone to his ear.

Hearing the long "beep-beep" sound from the microphone, Tangun's eyes were empty, and he didn't know how to react.At this moment, a hand suddenly pressed the button to hang up the phone, and pressed him on the bed.

Tangun looked bewildered, and a rapid "beep beep" sound came from the microphone in his hand.

"Don't go back." Dazai gritted his teeth, as if he had made some important decision, "Why don't we elope?"

"...Huh?" Tangun stared blankly at this peer.

Did he really lose his mind, so he was afraid when he heard such words.

"It's okay if you don't agree." Dazai squeezed Tangun's wrist, "I'm from Mafia, the port, and now you've been kidnapped by me, just listen to me obediently."

This sentence seemed normal, Tangun thought abnormally.

"Say something quickly!" Dazai wanted to shake Tangun.Does this guy mean rejection by not speaking?hateful.

He obviously has top-notch worry skills, but Dazai seems to have lost his memory and can't use them at all. He just stupidly wants to ask Tangun for an answer.

Tangun somehow felt that the person in front of him was about to cry, but everything he could say was kidnapped, and given his current physical condition, he was completely unable to resist.He could only fool around: "Oh, oh...OK."

"Okay, I was kidnapped by you."

Tangun thought for a while, and then said, "I was bound by you to elope." Dazai showed a satisfied expression.

Tangun thought to himself, did the word "elope" please him?

He has a bad personality.