love concubine

Ever since the prince and "Her Royal Highness" went on a long trip together, I have temporarily become the head of the Xuanzhong Palace.also yes.I am the concubine of the princess, so I am slightly different from the male concubine.

At the beginning, I was worried that the whole palace would look down on me.Maybe they will think that male concubines are no different from male pets, maybe they will think that I am lewd and immoral after knowing that the prince has embraced me.But I don't know why, the people in the palace didn't make things difficult for me, and it can even be said that they loved me a lot.When Lan and Aunt Mei were busy with other things, the kitchen never forgot to send me soup and medicine to replenish my body.Breakfast, lunch and dinner are all my favorite things, and there are different styles of chestnut pastries as snacks in the afternoon.When the weather turns cold, they will always diligently refill the charcoal stove for my greenhouse.The nurse didn't shy away from me as a male concubine, and came to accompany me every day with the little prince in her arms.

I stayed in Xuanzhong Prince's Mansion, and suddenly felt that there was a feeling of home here.It's strange... Even though he's not by my side, I don't feel scared or uneasy.Is it because I know he's coming back?Maybe I will feel a little lonely, but when I think that this feeling of loneliness will not last forever, I feel that even if I wait, it is no longer the same thing.

It turns out that the promise he made to me is not only felt when he is by his side.

Even if we are separated for a while, his vows will still be with me.

I am not alone.I have him here.

Today, I hid in my room with the little prince and the nanny, set up the Guqin beyond the Great Wall, and let the little baby sit on my lap.While teasing the child to talk, I played a few pieces of music for the child to listen to.

"My lord, do you like playing the piano?" I saw the baby's plump and short fingers carefully touching the strings, as if she was stroking the Yaoqin.

The child looked at me and laughed "Ah!", turned around and slapped the surface of the piano excitedly.

"Ouch! This is the first time this servant has seen someone other than the young prince and the princess acting like a baby! It seems that the young prince really likes Mr. Ji!" The nanny said suddenly as she sat on the side.

I couldn't help being startled, and then smiled wryly, "It's a great honor for Ke Xue to be favored by the little prince..." In the past, I pretended to be the princess that the nanny saw.Now I took off the princess clothes and put on the male concubine's rough clothes, but I still got such a sentence from the nanny, and I felt a burst of joy in my heart.

I hope that when the little prince grows up, he won't hate me...

Still playing with the children, he heard a dignified voice outside the door, "Young Master Ji, I have a letter from Master Cui."

Master Cui? ... "Guardian Kong, you come in first."

As soon as the door opened, the cold wind outside suddenly hit, and I couldn't help shivering.

Guard Kong bowed and offered the letter with both hands.I just received it, but the little prince snatched it into his mouth laughingly.

"Oops!" The nanny and I exclaimed at the same time, after hastily snatching the envelope from the child's mouth, everyone burst into laughter again. "Stupid boy! You can't eat this!" I frowned and smiled, and raised my head to tell the nanny, "The little prince may be hungry, please help the nanny to feed him."

The nanny came over with a smile, "Okay, okay." She said, but she just picked up the little prince from my arms, and the little baby was crying loudly.I quickly stood up to help coax the child, and the child slowly stopped crying.

"Oh! This child probably regards Mr. Ji as his parents!"

Think of me as a parent?Haha... I also hope that I can be the father and mother of this child...

I gave the nanny a bitter smile.After I wrapped the little prince warmly again and again, I let the nanny hold the baby and leave.

I reluctantly closed the door slowly, turned around and was surprised to find that Guard Kong was still in the room.

"Young Master Ji, Master Cui invites you to visit Qingnian Temple tomorrow." He relayed General Cui's order, but his tone seemed to harbor hidden worries. "The detailed reason, Mr. Cui has already explained in the letter. I... go outside the house first and wait for Mr. Ji's reply." He bowed solemnly, turned around and took a few steps, and then stopped suddenly. His broad back gave me a sense of coldness. "Young Master Ji, please forgive me for talking too much. But since I am your guard, I will definitely obey your orders." Then he left the room, and his silhouette was still left on the paper window on the door.

I feel slightly suspicious in my heart.After opening the letter and seeing a few words of greeting in the letter, Old General Cui said that he hoped that I could accompany him to Qingnian Temple tomorrow to pray for Cui Zhen.

There was a sudden burst of confusion and joy in my heart.Why do you want to pray for the truth all of a sudden?Why do you want me to accompany Old General Cui?You mean... am I going as Mrs. Cui Zhen? !Just like a lady praying for her husband? !Thinking of this, the corners of his mouth couldn't help evoking a silly smile.Putting down the letter in a hurry, I was about to let Guard Kong tell me that I agreed, but suddenly remembered: I have promised to Zhen, that during the period when he is not in the palace, I will not step out of the palace.

Then he calmed down, and suddenly thought: Why did General Cui suddenly want to pray for Zhen? ...Didn't he just go to help the prefect interrogate Boss Mo?Besides, the temple fair has just passed, and it's not a real birthday these days... Suddenly going to pray for blessings is very suspicious...

My heart suddenly panicked.Could it be... just like what I really worried about, General Cui decided to get rid of me to avoid future troubles?  …

But... I don't believe Old General Cui is such a person! ... General Cui will never ruin his son's happiness in order to preserve his reputation.It's not the kind of person who secretly kills me while my son is away...

But... maybe Old General Cui didn't want to put me to death, but just sent me away? ... Then, what should I do?  …

Should I leave really?For his own good... In order for him to avoid punishment from the emperor, should I leave?  …

But...we are in love!If you love each other, why should you separate? !

If I leave him, he will be very sad...I don't want him to be sad...but if Old General Cui wants me to leave him...No, if he really finds out that it was his father who drove me away ! ...

I don't want their father and son to turn against each other, and I don't want to really shed tears for me...

"Really..." What should I do?I cannot refuse Old General Cui's invitation.But if I say yes... I may never see him again...

My heart hurts and I feel anxious.Suddenly returning to his senses, he saw the Guqin outside the Great Wall engraved with the words "Yu" and "Xuan" on the qin stand.I lightly touched the seven strings on the piano with my fingers, but the surface of the piano was already wet with tears.It was because of this piano that he noticed me...

Could it be that our fate in this life is so far, it is time to separate?

For his own good... In order to avoid the emperor accusing him of being disrespectful to the princess, should I leave him?  …

I used to think that if we were in love, we could ignore the eyes of the world.But thinking about it now, I still don't want him to be scolded by everyone because of me, and even offend the Holy Majesty because of me, causing death penalty.

If he died because of me, I would never forgive myself...

Maybe in the next life.I often think that maybe we will be happier in the next life.Maybe I will be reincarnated as a woman, then stand by his side and become his wife, and no one will object to us being together.

At the thought of this, tears gushed out like a bank bursting.I collapsed and sobbed, and suddenly found a rag to wrap the guqin, and when I opened the door, under the dark blue sky, Guard Kong was pacing in the courtyard alone in contemplation.

"Master Ji?!" Seeing my teary eyes, he hurried forward.

It was I who gave him the guqin, "Keep it away! Please put this guqin away, and never let Zhen find out!"

"Master Ji?..."

"Tomorrow... please tell Master Cui for me, tomorrow... I will definitely show up on time..."

Guard Kong's stunned face hesitated a bit.But in the end he hugged my guqin tightly and replied simply, "I understand."

With a tear-stained face on my face, I smiled bitterly, "Also... I asked the guards to find a set of women's clothes... Tomorrow I will sneak out with you, don't let Sister Lan and the others know..."

"Well... I know."

Watching him hug Yaoqin, who I have always cherished, and leave, I only feel pain like suffocation.

Maybe it's just my imagination.Maybe Old General Cui really just wants me to accompany him to pray for the truth... It's just that I think too much about life and death...

Hope so...

I wrote a letter to Zhen that night.Tell him I finally decided to leave him.I said that I was afraid of being punished by the emperor and afraid of death.I just found Xiaoxi, and I don't want to be separated from my brother yet.I'm afraid that if the emperor finds out that he is really determined to marry me, he will be furious, and he will lose his life if he is punished.So I sneaked away while I was really out.

As I wrote the letter with trembling hands under the candlelight, I wept silently.If I can return safely tomorrow, I will of course destroy this letter with pleasure.

But... if I don't come back, this letter will be my suicide note.

It's a pity that even if it's a suicide note, I can't tell him that I love him, lest he be heartbroken.I have to be very decisive and indifferent... I have to write myself as a person who is greedy for life and afraid of death.As Old General Cui once said, for the sake of stability, I have become willing to give up the love that once made me obsessed...

But the fact is not like this... I'm just afraid that if I can't come back, I will really be sad, and I will really resent his father.I don't want things to turn out that way, so I have to be the bad guy.

I must let the truth live well after losing me.

The next day I woke up before dawn, put on the light pink maidservant costume that Guard Kong had brought me, put my hair in a bun, and quietly left through the back door of the palace.

Before leaving, I looked back at everything in the house.Maybe, I won't be able to come back in the future... My fingers unconsciously caressed my wrist, where I was wearing the scarlet silver bracelet he gave me.Should I keep the string?But... only this, I hope I can take it with me.At least I can still have one of his things when I'm buried in the tomb.

"Young Master Ji? If you don't leave, I'm afraid people will find out." Guard Kong's polite voice came from outside the door.

I struggled with sadness, and my eyes were bitter.In the end, Huo Di took off the bracelet and left it on the table.

Since I want to leave, I should go more simply and resolutely...

After leaving the palace, Guard Kong prepared a small carriage for me.I sat inside, and I didn't quite know where Qingnian Temple was.Is it far?Do you want to sit for a long time?

We walked all day, and stopped at an inn on the way at dusk.I asked Guard Kong if he would just spend the night at the inn, but he just shook his head and said no.I asked him how far he was from Qingnian Temple, but he replied "soon" and did not speak again.

We continued our journey at night, but felt it was bitterly cold in the mountains at night.I sat in the narrow carriage, holding my body that was only covered by a thin quilt with my hands.I know I'm starting to feel a little burned, my head hurts, and my skin is beading with unusual sweat.

So I suddenly guessed that maybe we were not on the way to Qingnian Temple at all.Maybe Guard Kong was instructed by Old General Cui to take me into the wilderness casually and deal with it.

Thinking of this, I couldn't help but smile wryly.

Really, I'm sorry... I sent myself away...

I weep silently.Suddenly the carriage stopped, and I heard the sound of guard Kong dismounting.His boots walked on the gravel, and his slow footsteps sounded like death approaching.

It seemed like a long time before Guard Kong lifted the door cloth of the carriage.But when he saw me sitting trembling and crying in the corner, he was surprised, "Young Master Ji?!"

"It's okay..." I smiled weakly, unexpectedly not feeling scared in my heart.

But guard Kong hurriedly took off the cloak on him, "Young Master Ji, please be patient! We have already arrived at Qingnian Temple!" His tall body was stuffed into the carriage, and he wrapped the cloak clumsily for me. "Let's go inside. It'll be warmer inside."

I was slightly taken aback.I took his outstretched hand and let him help me out of the car.Turning his face and looking up, he saw a solemn Buddhist temple behind the dense pine forest, and the sound of chanting scriptures was faintly heard.

I... have really come to Qingnian Temple...?Old General Cui didn't lie to me, did he? ! ...

Although I was still puzzled in my heart, I still asked Guard Kong to put his hand across my shoulders to support me. I walked through the pine forest and climbed more than a thousand steps, and finally arrived at the first hall.

"Young Master Ji?!" I raised my head when I heard the sound, and saw General Cui stepping forward quickly, with little worry on his face, "What's wrong with you?! Feeling unwell? Guard Kong!"

"Returning to the master, it was the negligence of the subordinate! The subordinate didn't take into account Young Master Ji's physical condition, and traveled at night, causing the young master to catch the cold..."

"Why don't you stay overnight at the inn?!"

Old General Cui was still angry, so he saw one of the white-browed old monks behind him step forward and fold his hands together, "Amitabha. The poor monk sees that Mr. Ji is pale, so it's better for him to warm up and rest immediately."

"Hmm... What Master Huixu said is true. I'm sorry."

"You're welcome, you're welcome. Jing Nian, you can take this young master to rest."

"Yes, master." I saw a young monk who was about eight or nine years old walk up to me, clasped his hands together, "My lord, please come along."

I smile weakly.I had just walked a few steps when I suddenly felt someone wrap a fox fur cloak around me.I looked at it in astonishment, but saw General Cui frowned and said, "Take care of yourself. Don't worry Zhen'er."

"Master Cui...?" He patted my shoulder lightly, turned around and chatted with the eminent monk again.

I just had a blanket and two-collared cape folded on my body, and I was still moved in a daze, but suddenly felt the impatient gaze of the little monk, so I hurriedly followed him to the outside of the hall, shuttled through several courtyard houses, and finally came to Arrived in a modest hut.But there was already a warm fire ready in the house, and a pot of hot tea was still baking on the tea stove on the table.

"My lord, let's have a sip of tea first." As soon as I sat down at the table, the little monk poured me a cup of tea.

I took it with both hands, and saw that he climbed onto the bed and pulled down a fox fur blanket and put it on my lap, and then hurriedly walked outside the house.I was still wondering, when I saw him come in with a basin of hot water with warm steam, put it at my feet, and then suddenly took off my shoes.

"Eh?!"

I shrank my feet in panic, but I heard the child say, "Please bathe your feet in hot water. It will be warmer."

"...Okay...thank you..." I put my feet into the copper basin timidly, and I felt extremely embarrassed to ask this little monk to serve me...

But I saw the child sitting on the bed, his feet were shaking off the ground, and he just kept staring at me.

Why are you looking at me? ......ah!Is it because I'm wearing women's clothing? !Does he think I'm weird?

There was an awkward silence in the room.The little monk never took his eyes off me.

We just sit there in silence.After a while, my body gradually became less cold.Still grasping Old General Cui's cloak with both hands, he was thinking in his heart: What does Old General Cui mean by telling me not to worry Zhen Zhen?Does that mean... the old general has accepted me and the real thing?So this time I came to Qingnian Temple, did I really just come to accompany him to pray for the truth?

Before I had time to be happy, a heavy bell rang suddenly in the distance.The little monk and I immediately became vigilant.

But hearing the noise of people outside the house, it seemed that something unexpected had happened. "What's going on outside?..." I asked uneasily.

"I don't know." The little monk replied calmly.

I was still sighing secretly at how mature this child was at such a young age, when the door slammed open, and two masked men in black rushed in.

"Found it!" "The Fourteenth Prince is here!"

I immediately stared blankly.Fourteen princes? !

The two immediately drew out their swords and stabbed at the young monk on the bed.

"Be careful!" I yelled in panic.But seeing the child stepping on the bed, he immediately flew into the air, only avoiding the two sword points.

It's a pity that the room is narrow and there is not much space to dodge.The little monk slammed into the big cabinet next to the bed, and just turned over to meet him, when the assassin's two swords slashed down at the same time.In a panic, I casually grabbed the candlestick on the table and threw it at the two of them.The man in black was distracted by the candlestick, and the little monk took advantage of the momentum to clap his palms, just in time to send the two of them into the wall.

"You go!" The child turned to me and said.But as soon as the words fell, the man in black rushed forward to stab the sword again.

I was so terrified that I sat on the chair and couldn't move.But I saw that those two people not only fought two against one, but also bullied the small with the big.I saw it in my eyes, and I resented that I couldn't help.

At this moment, one of the men in black suddenly flew out several hidden weapons.Hearing the little monk's muffled grunt, I knew he was injured.The man in black suddenly pulled out his silk whip and bound the little monk's hands and feet.The blade of the sword reflected the firelight of the stove, I had an idea, and I took off the cloak on my body to spread out towards the two of them.The cloak only covered one person, but I still used all my strength to push the man in black into the hot copper furnace.

Immediately, a scream came from under the cloak.I was about to turn around and tell the little monk to run away, but suddenly I felt a whiplash-like pain in my back.

I was still stunned, but it was the assassin struggling under the cloak that pushed me to the ground.

"Young master!"

I was unable to lie down, my body trembling and panting due to severe pain and panic.

Slowly raising his head, he saw that the sword blade in the hands of the man in black was stained with a layer of black blood like ink.I just understood that the sword that was drawn on my back just now was poisonous.

"Hurry up..." I looked at the mature face that didn't match that small body, "...Fourteenth Prince..."

After the emperor's younger cousin was wrongly convicted of deceiving the emperor and executed, his bereaved son survived and regained the title of "Fourteen Princes".But the emperor placed the bereaved son in Qingnian Temple just in case.Before he was granted a marriage by the emperor, he was not allowed to leave the monastery for half a step.

At this moment, I finally understand that the little monk in front of me is the son of the Fourteenth Prince.And these people must be, as Old General Cui said, the rebels who want to exterminate Huangfu's descendants.

what to do? ...It turns out that someone really wanted to kill the emperor's grandson.So is Princess Ziyin safe now?And Xiao Yuxuan who stayed in Prince Xuanzhong's mansion... Is that child alright?  …

So worried... so scared...

I wish I could just die myself.

Please God don't take away his princess, his son too.

God, please take me alone...