Back in high school, I attacked my rival

I remember the day when I was dragged to the toilet and beaten in the second grade of junior high school.

I don’t have any extra thoughts, I just feel like I’m about to get hit a few more times. It’s not that good students won’t get involved in the disputes of bad students. Why do I still get beaten even though I’m a good student? The beatings are seasonal, but I will never give in. Why do you want to copy homework for these people who are idle all day long, people who hate copying homework in this life.

When I entered the toilet and heard Li Zhuo's voice, I was excited.

I haven't seen him for a long time. Since I saw him borrow someone else's homework and scolded him last time, I haven't played with me for a long time. I guess it hurt my self-esteem.I often regret that I blurted out those hurtful words, but Li Zhuo would not know that I was wrong if I didn't say it.There are too many bad things about him.If you want me to say, it is estimated that a book can be published.

Those two people pushed me in front of Li Zhuo as if they were flattering me, and I looked at him innocently and indifferently.

The boss, it was him, who owed a lot, before the man could speak, he was kicked to the ground by Li Zhuo, and the other man was also knocked down before he could react in time.

I stood calmly by the side, as if this incident was not caused by me, and I didn't need to look directly at it, but I followed Li Zhuo from the corner of my eye, his furious expression, ferocious mouth corners, and even the appearance of swearing, engraved on my face in mind.

How can there be such a person in the world, who is full of flaws but is so shining.

I said, stop calling, I'm tired of hearing it.

Li Zhuo really stopped kicking, panting and stroking my back with sweaty hands, and said to everyone, whoever dares to bully him in the future, I will break your legs.

All the people present were taken aback by his appearance of eating people, and they all nodded, regardless of the people on the ground who were beaten to death.

Then he used his tall body to block the sight of those two people, dragged me out of the toilet, and ordered someone to ask the teacher to "collect the body".

Seeing that I didn't speak, Li Zhuo thought I was frightened, so he said a lot of comforting words to me, interspersed with his insincere apology.

I was tired of hearing and interrupted him, they beat me because I didn't copy homework for them.

Li Zhuo was stunned for a moment, and became even more angry. These grandsons have corrupt morals. The homework was originally assigned to him by the teacher, so it is reasonable for him not to do it.

I agree, yes, it’s reasonable if I don’t know how to do it myself.

Li Zhuo immediately understood what I meant, and smiled embarrassedly. I will not copy my homework in the future.

I looked at him in disbelief.

Li Zhuo giggled, and only copied yours if he wanted to.

It was a satisfactory answer, so I let him go.

Since that day, Li Zhuo has been more obedient to me, all for copying homework, but he pretended that he was afraid of being bullied by others.

But after that incident, who would dare to take a detour when they saw me.

I don't want to name names, and I enjoy this moment very much, as if he is only mine, and only surrounds me.

My parents are busy with work, the housekeeper has nothing to say to me, my time outside of school is all Li Zhuo, he takes me to do such and such strange things, such as playing games in Internet cafes all night, I am not interested in that, I don’t care about him every time No matter how I protect me, I die very quickly, and then I watch his smooth and skillful operation, and from time to time proudly show off how awesome he is, and he does everything effortlessly.

I fell asleep after playing two games, and woke up in a daze, with my head always resting on Li Zhuo's lap. I silently stared at his dark and sharp chin, not wanting to disturb him, but he would look down at me every five minutes.

Sometimes I will pretend to close my eyes to avoid his gaze, but most of them will be caught by him.

He said, are you hungry, I'll get you instant noodles, I'm familiar with the manager of this Internet cafe, and he'll give me an egg.

I shook my head, don't eat that, it's not nutritious.

He sighed, young master, at this point, all restaurants outside are closed.

I pursed my lips, so I didn't eat it.I sleep.

He smiled and freed his hands to pinch my face. After I finish this hand, he will take you back and I will do it for you.wait for me.

Li Zhuo's next noodles are delicious, and he will give me two soft-boiled eggs, as well as my favorite carrot.

I simply wanted him to give me face in the next life, so I played hard to get him and let him haunt me.

So the outside world always felt that he was chasing after my ass. In order to repay him, I changed my high school choice to his school behind my parents' back.

My mother was trembling with anger at the end, and asked me why with red eyes. Others picked good places, but I wanted to jump into the garbage dump.

I didn't waver, and even retorted confidently, that's not a garbage dump, it's my first choice, it's the place I want to go the most, please respect me.

My mother may also feel that I have grown up at that moment, or find that the relationship between mother and child needs to be improved.

But I don't need it, Li Zhuo is enough for me.

After I went to high school, my mother fired the housekeeper and started to take care of everything in the house. Li Zhuo and I spend less time together, and we have to make up all kinds of excuses when we go out to play, but I admire Li Zhuo’s willingness to tell lies .

I am still willing to accompany him to do those mentally handicapped things, such as going to the children's playground to play the giant slide, and whoever slides down first, and the loser praises the other three times.

He won.

Li Zhuo is the most handsome boy I have ever seen, Li Zhuo’s noodles are the best, and Li Zhuo treats me the best.

I finished boasting in one breath, a little embarrassed, turned around and climbed to the top of the slide, sat on it, and shouted, Li Zhuo, catch me.

Li Zhuo bent down slightly in a very face-saving manner, and opened his arms.

I closed my eyes and thought to myself, give him a chance, if he can't catch it, he will break up with him, if he catches it, then...

The speed is very fast, the body seems to be sliding all the way without support, nervous and exciting, the wind is all around the ears, and then rushed into a warm and generous embrace.

As expected, Li Zhuo was very trustworthy and caught me.

It's your turn to pick me up.Li Zhuo let go of me and said.

I scolded in my heart, pick you up*&.Such a big guy.

Such a happy relationship was destroyed by my own hands after I learned about the rainbow circle in the first year of high school.

I was frightened by my dirty thoughts, I actually liked Li Zhuo, I was full of him in my eyes, heart, and mind, and I even fantasized about the future.

I know that I can't let anyone know, it's over if I know, especially Li Zhuo.He is a fool, it is impossible to understand this kind of emotion.

I began to deliberately avoid contact with him, but as soon as I avoided him, I couldn't help approaching him. It wasn't just me who was tortured, but also Li Zhuo.

He asked me why I was like this, but I couldn't explain it, so I just picked him, scolded him, and belittled him.

He will be angry and sad, but when I coax him, he will come back to me again.

But I know that the relationship of many years will be ruined by me sooner or later.

But what can I do, who can tell me whether it is a crime to like my childhood sweetheart for countless years.

Sometimes I wonder if I should keep this secret until I die. I struggled in this blind alley but couldn’t find the exit until a freshman was transferred to the new semester class of the second year of high school. His name is Jie Qingyang, the master of the science class , I admire him very much.

The outside world has been circulating that Nangao didn't know what kind of luck he had that year. There was Jie Dashen in reason, Chen Xueba in literature, and Nangao would rule the world in the future.

His arrival added a lot of vitality to the lifeless class, and all winds in the school began to turn to the liberal arts.

But he himself doesn't seem to care. He sleeps in class and sleeps after class. When he wakes up, he thinks about how to chase after class flowers, and he doesn't hide his lust.

I kind of hate this guy because he hooked up with Lee Joo.Li Zhuo actually took the initiative to call him brother.

My person was taken by someone else.

During that period of conflict and pain, like a hound that would blow its hair at any time, it looked at the two of them without a good face, and lost its temper casually. Li Zhuo would follow me at first, but Jie Qingyang couldn't, he would only make sarcastic remarks, really It's disgusting.

After Li Zhuo played with Jie Qingyang, I began to try to study and live alone.

I tried my best to prove that I could be fine without Li Zhuo, but I always felt like something was missing, something was wrong.

Because I'm here for him.

Without him, how could there be me in this school.

I just thought about whether to be friends with Jie Qingyang, it would be strange if only Li Zhuo could leave, so I tried to accept Jie Qingyang.

If I copy homework for him, the university god will copy the homework, and the university god will fail in mathematics. He simply subverts my inherent impression of him.

But this way, I like it better, and Li Zhuo will come to me to borrow homework again, and my homework is still the best.

Gradually, I also received attention from people other than Li Zhuo. Jie Qing is a good foreigner, well-informed, and always speaks some big truths.

I would like to talk to him.

But precisely because of his appearance, the conflict between me and Li Zhuo escalated, and the firepower was fully fired.

Even the words of breaking up the relationship are on the lips all the time, because I always think that that day will come, so I miss it.

The first time was because Jie Qingyang went out to meet a girl after turning off the lights. After being punished by Lao Zhao, I passed out and was sent to the infirmary. Li Zhuo changed it.

I have the heart of wanting to die, the heart of shame.

That day I got very angry and said serious things like breaking up the relationship, which also scared Li Zhuo.

He immediately apologized after hearing this, but I couldn't get over that hurdle, and I didn't forgive him.

He got mad at me.

After he left, I lifted the quilt and looked at the underwear he changed for me, my face turned red unconsciously, and my whole body was hot...

Then I thought that the dormitory should be closed at this point, and the dormitory auntie is notoriously invulnerable.I called the doctor and borrowed her mobile phone, called Li Zhuo's mother, and asked Lao Zhao to get up and open the door of the dormitory for any reason. He is the school leader and has all the keys.

I thought he would be grateful to me, don't need to be grateful, less to make up for my bad taste that night, but what greeted me was the first time Li Zhuo dared to quarrel with me loudly, cursed, and used all that kind of foul language on me, He even said that he wanted to break up with me, and called me a monster, such a murderous thing as a freak.

I don't know how I survived, I can only say in my heart, he is not Li Zhuo, he is not Li Zhuo, Li Zhuo would not talk to me like this...

Thinking back to those words at night, my eyes always shed tears unconsciously. The relationship of many years has finally been exhausted, and our friendship seems to have come to an end.

I was so sad that I bit the pillow to keep myself from making a sound, and I couldn't breathe well...

The next day I still handed in a blank paper for the exam, and I couldn’t write a single word. I wanted to write but my brain stopped functioning. I lay down on the table and covered my eyes with my hands. The tears seemed to have not been shed last night, but there are still some today.

I really admire myself.

After the exam, Jie Qingyang wanted to talk several times, but I indifferently drove him away. It wasn't that I didn't dare to speak, it was because my voice was hoarse. I didn't want to expose myself, so I could only be more silent and ruthless.

I saw that Li Zhuo was still having fun with his friends, playing basketball, eating, teasing girls...

Without me, he can live happily, but without him, I am like a lost soul.

I hate myself so much.

Why do you want me to like him, and let me know that I like him.How nice it is to not understand anything like before.

Later, during the monthly vacation, Li Zhuo came to me and explained to me that it was a misunderstanding.

I was indifferent and didn't respond, he kept repeating and apologizing like an old lady, losing all dignity.

I gritted my teeth and let him go, and we broke up.

He froze in place, but didn't leave, and said, are you tired of scolding, I'll serve you a bowl of noodles.

I watched him busy before and after, and forgave him in a muddleheaded way.

If I don't forgive, I will always be the one who suffers. If I don't want to suffer so much, it is really hard to get over that feeling.

I think, try to be friends, try to forget that I like him, and integrate into their lives, the friendship of the three of them will be better.

I couldn’t help but share the knowledge of the rainbow circle with Jie Qingyang. A knowledgeable person like him doesn’t even know about it, let alone other people, but he seems to be very interested. Whenever he gets the chance, he will consult me ​​about it. Yes, it seems that this kind of thing is some great knowledge point, I don't feel ashamed at all, I really convinced him.

But I seem to have opened my heart, and I am no longer so depressed, because there is a person who knows half of my secrets.

The three of us are very good together, and Li Zhuo is willing to study hard, and he even asks me questions every day. Seeing him fighting for our common future gives me a lot of comfort, like a grown-up child.

I try my best to treat him as a normal good friend, but sometimes I can't help but cross the line, for example, he wears other people's pants in the morning, for example, he secretly looks at a good-looking girl, or for example, he even starts to do his homework perfunctorily.

I can lose my temper a little, and I can even bear it, but I never thought that Li Zhuo had a girlfriend without warning.

It can be said to have killed me.

I found that I missed such a situation, that is, what should Li Zhuo do if he has a girlfriend?What to do, what to do ah ah ah ah...

In the past few days, I watched him and his girlfriend in pairs, playing and fighting, eating and going out together, what kind of ghost was disturbed in my heart, I can't describe it, if I can, I would rather lose sight, hearing, so that I can't see Don't worry.

Fortunately, Jie Qingyang was with me this time. He is a careful and smart person. I found out early on that I like Li Zhuo. I am really grateful to him. I am grateful that he did not dislike him after he knew it. He also encouraged and comforted me, saying that homosexuality is not Monster, say I'm not sick, and listen to me rambling on about the minutiae.

He was my first good friend growing up.

It was precisely because of his company and those words that I began to face up to my feelings, and even wanted to give a name to my secret love for so many years.

I've wanted to do that for a long time, but there's no reason.Jie Qingyang gave me tens of thousands of them.

So I did that...

"Hello, Chen Junhe, I've admired your name for a long time. My name is Chen Le, and I'm your roommate." Chen Le greeted Chen Junhe as soon as he entered the door, and Chen Junhe was lying on the bed thinking about things, and was caught by the fluent mandarin pulled back.

"Hello, Chen Le." Chen Junhe showed his head and responded politely.

"You really look good, hehe."

"..."" Our school is really big, I should have taken a taxi if I knew it earlier, I was exhausted, and two roommates didn't come, it's already [-] o'clock in the afternoon, so I guess they were taken in too. Let's see if we can do it today Seeing them," Chen Le complained while tidying up.

Today is the first day of reporting for the freshmen of the Provincial A University.

Chen Junhe didn't want to be crowded with others, so he came to report in advance yesterday.

His parents wanted to send him to college, but they were rejected. He wanted to send him to his grandfather, but he was worried about his health, so he came here alone.

He couldn't forgive the half-hearted marriage, and those years of living alone.But don't hate, after all, they are parents, but no matter what, they can't get close.

"Chen Junhe, how much did you score in the college entrance examination? I'm a science student, 667 points." Chen Le saw himself muttering so many words without replying, thinking that Chen Junhe was lying on the bed talking, so he shut up and went about his own business.

Chen Junhe suddenly thought of something, and stretched out half of his body, "How do you know my name is Chen Junhe."

A sudden sound made Chen Le jump, "There is your banner downstairs, just congratulations to the handsome and talented Chen Junhe for moving into bedroom 209, Building [-], Nanyuan, I thought, this just happens to be my bedroom. It’s really big enough, from the school gate to here, there are all kinds of things, I don’t know, I thought you were going to hold a concert, didn’t you see it yourself?”

Chen Junhe's heart skipped a beat, he turned over and got out of bed immediately, put on his shoes and rushed out of the dormitory door. Sure enough, there were dazzling banners hanging downstairs, one every ten meters. The grand and extremely exaggerated welcome party is comparable to a wedding scene.

He is in a state of extreme tension and stimulation, and his consciousness and soul are floating outside this time and space.

He went against the flow of people and read one by one. After reading, the frozen expression on his face melted little by little, turning into spring.At the end, there is a locust tree forest in the school. One of the trees has a ladder. The dim street light shines on the shiny leaves and the dark and handsome face of the man on the ladder.

More light on what's on the last banner.

I love my childhood sweetheart, Chen Junhyuk, I love you.

He heard his choked and trembling voice, calling out "Li Zhuo".

Li Zhuo tensed up, turned around and saw Chen Junhe looking straight at him from below, probably overexcited, he stepped down a few steps while responding, and fell from the two-meter-high air.

Falling in front of Chen Junhe, he rubbed his waist and muttered, "I didn't help me either. I have no conscience."

"It deserves it!" Chen Junhe said bluntly, and then stretched out his hand.

Li Zhuo held Chen Junhe's hand tightly with a smile, and never let go.