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"Who doesn't have a secret?"

Xu Qingxuan has never hated his rhetorical questions as much as he does now.

He went back first, Abu Goutou was puzzled, and followed Xu Qingxuan in aggrieved manner.Xu Qingxuan didn't lead him, but Xue Hui greeted him, and Abu ran back erratically, not knowing why he didn't take a walk again.

Xue Hui looked at Xu Qingxuan's figure in the distance, and was silent for a long time before returning with the dog.

That night, Xu Qingxuan did not appear in the downstairs room.Usually, he always seizes all the time to get along with Xue Hui. The two of them cook in the kitchen, watch movies in the lounge, rehearse dramas in front of the big mirror in the gym, and play games on the TV in the living room...the two get along as much as if they have a tacit understanding For a while, until Xue Hui sent him upstairs, said good night to each other and went to sleep.

Tonight, Xu Qingxuan did not come out in his room.The entire villa seemed empty, without a single sound.Xue Hui fed Abu in the garden, usually it was Xu Qingxuan's job.The young man went over with a big bag of dog food and asked Abu to sit down and not make trouble.He poured dog food for it in front of the kennel, changed the water, and played Frisbee with him for a while.Only when Xue Hui called him was he willing to go home.

Now Xue Hui watched Abu eating alone, and Abu seemed to have noticed something strange.Obediently put his head down to eat, without making a fuss.After eating, he sat quietly beside Xue Hui again.

Xue Hui looked at Abu, and Abu looked back at the kitchen, and then turned his head to look into the distance.

Xue Hui stayed with the dog for a while before entering the house.

The room was even more deserted, and the Napoleon cake made by Xu Qingxuan was still in the refrigerator.Xue Hui took it out and put a piece of cream into his mouth, it was cold and sweet.The meringue is still very crispy and delicious, and the strawberries are not bad.Xue Hui threw Abu a strawberry, but Abu groaned and didn't eat it.

Xue Hui picked up the strawberries and put them in the garbage bag.

That night, the two did not communicate.

Xue Hui sent him a text message as usual, and Xu Qingxuan also replied because of work.

But the shooting on the second day became extremely difficult. No matter what you do on this day, you have to complete the task of kissing each other 100 times.Xu Qingxuan asked the program team whether it was 100 kisses by one person or 100 kisses by two people.The sister of the director team said, you decide for yourself.

So the two have to think about the task of completing 100 kisses from the beginning of washing up.However, as the morning passed, Xu Qingxuan was still unsuccessful.He hadn't slept all night, and his makeup couldn't hide his tired look.Xue Hui got up early to work out, he was waiting at home, and when he came back, the two ran into each other on the balcony.Xu Qingxuan saw the camera, and was about to step forward to kiss him.After Xue Hui changed his shoes and looked up, he looked at him suspiciously. He looked at that face, as if nothing had changed, and everything had changed.Xu Qingxuan held the towel nervously and said, "Brother Xue, wipe it off."

"it is good."

"Abu, let me take a walk."

"it is good."

Xu Qingxuan crossed his side, dodged him and went out.He couldn't do it, it was too painful.Sad like sea water flooding up, submerged breathing.He took Abu for a walk outside until he had to go back.Thinking of the task, no matter how reluctant you are, you still have to complete it.

After returning, Xue Hui was cooking in the kitchen, and he went to help.The two were silently busy in the kitchen, Xue Hui saw that he was not wearing an apron, and said, "Raise your hand."

He raised his hand, Xue Hui wrapped an apron around him from behind, and tied a belt behind his waist.The camera was shooting, and Xue Hui whispered behind him: "Don't be afraid."

"Ah."

The man hugged him from behind and kissed him on the cheek. At 09:30, they had their first kiss.Xu Qingxuan was sweating profusely, this kiss had exhausted all his strength.

Then, the man cooked and fed him a few mouthfuls while cooking.Xu Qingxuan squinted his eyes and said "delicious" with a smile, stiff as if he was filming a food commercial.Xue Hui looked at him, brushed his lips with his fingers, and stole a kiss on his lips without any trace of course.Xu Qingxuan was stunned for a moment, the mist in his eyes was intertwined with pain and sweetness, making him speechless, what could he say, his heart was about to break.

Xue Hui supported the overall situation by himself, and he was not asked to do anything, just let him wait.Occasionally steal a kiss, or bet on kissing fingers while playing games, pretend to be on the phone and kiss the phone, try to be polite and restrained to avoid confrontation but complete the task.Feeling his tenderness, his accommodating and forbearance, Xu Qingxuan was heartbroken and sad at the same time.When Xue Hui was racking his brains for the 39th kiss, Xu Qingxuan tiptoed and kissed him lightly on the forehead.

He ran away after kissing, and if he stayed any longer, he would torture himself and Xue Hui to death.In that stiff and awkward atmosphere, he couldn't stay for a moment.And the time has come to night.

Xu Qingxuan was watching a movie in a dimly lit lounge, in this darkness he felt safe for the first time, he didn't have to worry about anything, he didn't have to be afraid of anything.Even if you are afraid, you are afraid of the dark.Hei, the boil is over.And going out, the kind of suffering and pain is unimaginable.

When Xue Hui came in, it was so dark in the lounge that he couldn't get used to it.The fluorescence of the screen was weak, and a thin figure was sitting on the large sofa, nestled in the darkest depths, like a ghost.Hearing the sound of the door, the figure raised his head, and was illuminated by the light in the corridor, his shiny face was dripping with water.

Xue Hui's heart tightened, and the voice was so soft that even he was afraid to be frightened: "Qingxuan?"

Xu Qingxuan hummed from his throat.

The room was too dark, Xue Hui just wanted to find the control panel, Xu Qingxuan said: "Don't turn on the light."

"Aren't you afraid of the dark?"

Xu Qingxuan didn't answer him.

The movie is playing, it is a Taiwanese movie.In the chaotic era of adolescence, "he" doesn't know whether he loves boys or girls.The director was also very confused, letting "he" have a relationship with the boy, but at the end of the film, he returned to the girl.

Xu Qingxuan said in the shadows: "Brother Xue, when did you first realize that you like boys?"

Xu Qingxuan looked at Xue Hui with dark eyes, and Xue Hui sat down at a place far away from him.

"I liked girls until I was 20."

"now what?"

"Now... of course I like it too."

In fact, he didn't meet anyone who had to be "ta".

Xu Qingxuan closed his eyes in pain, it was rare for Xue Hui to be so straightforward.

"So you're not..."

Xue Hui said: "People's sexuality is difficult to define."

Xu Qingxuan tightly clenched his fingers: "Then why did you come to this show? You know I am..."

Xu Qingxuan suddenly remembered that he didn't have to make this choice.

Xu Qingxuan's heart sank in panic, Xue Hui said: "I prefer boys all these years, I didn't lie to you."

His heart calmed down a little, but that uncomfortable feeling came again, following him like a shadow, gnawing at his heart like insects and ants.

Xu Qingxuan said: "When I was in junior high school, I was on the school football team. The school's locker room was very dilapidated, and the bathroom was even dirtier. Many students threw slippers and soap there. People who came in and out couldn't be found. Once , my change of jersey was gone, I searched everywhere and couldn't find it. No one admitted to taking my clothes, I just stood in the bathroom in my underwear, then everyone left, and I still had water in my cubicle I just wanted to ask the classmate next door to help me get a coat. But the curtain opened, guess what I saw?"

"what?"

Xu Qingxuan said quietly: "I saw my physical education teacher smelling my ball uniform."

"He sniffed in front of me, not afraid of me watching at all. He seemed to be worshiping something like a god, with a disgusting and mysterious expression. He sniffed my dirty clothes, socks, and even my changed underwear obsessively. I I wanted to vomit at the time, and I ran out in fright, retching non-stop, seeing him smelling me, as if he had smelled me.

I was sick as hell, but after that, I was weird.I deliberately observed the male classmates, and I was very happy when I smelled them.I look forward to the training session every week, huddling with many sweaty boys, I observe their bodies, and watch them change their clothes and pants.I even want to smell that disgusting and dirty thing.

I've changed, I don't know why I changed, I'm obviously very disgusted and disgusted, but it seems that I can't leave it, slowly sinking down, degenerating into a monster.

I'm scared.I hid, even my parents dared not tell.Finally couldn't bear it, and told Jiang Kun.Jiang Kun opened a window for me, and he told me that I am not a monster.I just like to be different from others.But he is not me, he is straight and he will never be able to understand my fear and pain.Then……"

"Then what?" Xue Hui asked.

Xu Qingxuan didn't say any more, and then he saw Xue Hui in a magazine.He secretly tore off that page of Hong Kong style drawing paper and put it in his pocket.

There was a long silence, neither of them spoke.

Xue Hui didn't say anything, he walked over and hugged the lonely figure in the dark.

Xu Qingxuan snuggled into his arms: "Brother Xue, can you promise me one thing?"

"it is good."

"You haven't heard what I said."

"all good."

Xu Qingxuan said: "I want you to promise me, during the show, don't lie to me, don't lie to me, okay?"

Xue replied, "I promise you."

Xu Qingxuan raised his wet face, and Xue Hui stared at the crystal light on his face.It was as if the light from the film had hit his face, making his outline deeper, losing its innocence and directness, and becoming deep and quiet.

Xue Hui looked into his eyes, Xu Qingxuan could see him living in his eyes at this moment.Although the field of vision was dim and he couldn't see anything, he knew it.

He raised his head slightly, catching the man's breath.Xue Hui pinched his jaw with too much force, as if crushing him.Xu Qingxuan frowned in pain, his eyebrows trembled like cicada wings, his lips were dark and his eyes were dark.Then, Xue Hui sealed his lips.The two kissed passionately in the fluorescent light, lingering and tearing, Xue Hui's tongue stuck into his mouth, grabbed his breath, and wrapped his arms around his waist.Xu Qingxuan was only wearing a shirt, which was pulled up to his chest.He staggered into his arms and lingered with him.Xue Hui held his face in his hands, kissed him cherishingly and fiercely, breathing heavily.

At this moment, he seemed to have touched love.

The two kissed in the dark until they almost stopped breathing, Xu Qingxuan buried in his arms, absorbing the fragrance of his body.He likes to smell Xue Hui, it is cold and elegant, it is a rare and memorable smell in his life.Once in the football team's locker room, and once in the present.

This program, this trip, and the seaside here will all be engraved in his life memory.Every minute and every second is engraved in my heart.In 22 days, they will be together well and cherish the moments they can get along with.

Ok.

Xue Hui hugged him tightly, okay.

That night, Xue Hui watched the youth movie with him.They watched lots of movies again and kissed while eating the leftover cake.A hundred kisses, every one must be kissed hard enough.Xu Qingxuan lay on his body, pressed the man's shoulder, pecked and kissed his cheek and his lips, making the sound of sucking water.He smiled silently, and Xue Hui also laughed, holding him in his arms and letting him lie on his lap.

A moment of tenderness, every moment is the end of the world, every moment is a countdown.

Not enough, nothing is enough.

Kiss hard, kiss everyone.

Acting coquettishly, Xu Qingxuan leaned on his ear and said softly, "You haven't kissed my ear yet."

Just now, Xue Hui kissed him all over his body, he was shy and sweet.

Xue Hui asked, "Do you like to kiss ears?"

"Ah."

He nodded, rubbing his face.Xue Hui grabbed his lips and kissed him, then turned his head to kiss his ear.It's just that the breath brushed against the earlobe, and the hot air sprayed on the pinna, and the whole ear seemed to be scalded.Xu Qingxuan trembled, he took a step back, Xue Hui took a step forward, always trying to grab his earlobe and suck and lick it.

Xu Qingxuan's whole body was trembling in his arms as if he had been electrocuted, and his earlobes were about to be torn apart after one night.

The two were sweet in the lounge, kissed enough for a hundred kisses, two hundred, a thousand, no matter what, they couldn't kiss enough.

That night, Xue Hui sent him back to his room.The two kissed each other at the door, saying good night to each other.Xu Qingxuan grabbed his hand and asked for a text message, Xue Hui smiled and said, "Have a good dream."

As a result, Xu Qingxuan had a dream, in which he returned to school.In that dilapidated locker room and dirty bathroom, the person in the cubicle was replaced by Xue Hui.Xue Hui was sniffing his underwear under the water in the bath.He woke up with a start, and it was raining outside, and he never fell asleep again.