Beauty has a lot of bad thoughts

Xue Dingbang closed his eyes, expelling the phantom in front of him.

Chamberlain stared at him puzzled, and he squeezed his hand on his shoulder.

Xue Dingbang half-kneeled on the bed, leaned forward, held Chamberlain's shoulder with one hand, and put the other next to his face.Drinks and fried chicken nuggets were scattered all over the bed.Chamberlain's soft hair was also scattered on the white pillow.

Chamberlain was tense, his shoulders and hands were shaking.He raised his hand and stared at Xue Dingbang's eyes, a little puzzled, but also a little provocative.His eyes, with a hot temperature.Between every eye wave, there are thousands of styles that are difficult to express in words.

Xue Dingbang approached him slowly, feeling Chamberlain's breath on the tip of his nose.

Chamberlain did not escape, nor did he show any embarrassment or fear.He closed his eyes obediently, his chest rising and falling slightly with his breathing.But the hand that grabbed the edge of the pillow still betrayed his nervousness.

Deja vu scene, but with different results.

Xue Dingbang took a deep breath and finally regained his sanity.

"Don't say such things again, Chamberlain." Xue Dingbang let go of Chamberlain, a little annoyed that he lost control in front of him, Xue Dingbang held his forehead, turned and walked to the window, "Don't continue this topic. Compared with these, I want to What can I do after knowing your plan? Did Nelson fire you?"

With bare feet, Chamberlain walked up to Xue Dingbang silently and handed him a bottle of drink.

Above the head, the incandescent light flickered a few times, but finally went out.

The kingdom of the sun is gone, and the moonlight takes over again.

He turned his face sideways, and every eyelash was shining with light.

"I'm unemployed, Mr. Xue." Chamberlain's soft voice shook Xue Dingbang's eardrums, "but I've made it through. I can find something else to do anyway, it doesn't matter to me. There will always be a way."

"Sorry, Chamberlain." Xue Dingbang took the drink, with the temperature of another person's palm on it, "I couldn't stop them."

"God didn't give me too many choices, Mr. Xue." Chamberlain put his hand gently on Xue Dingbang, "This is my choice, please don't blame yourself."

Xue Dingbang did not speak, opened the drink in his hand, and handed it to Chamberlain.

Chamberlain's eyelashes trembled slightly, and two blushes appeared on his smooth face.

"Drink." Xue Dingbang said softly, "I haven't drank water for a day, and I need to add some water. You can't be a dealer in the Nelson Hotel, are you planning to go to another hotel? I hope he won't embarrass you because of this matter. Those People are not mathematicians, you are just fooled."

"Thank you, Mr. Xue." He lightly rubbed the place Xue Dingbang touched with his fingertips a few times, and changed the subject, "They are a bunch of professional old men who have gone through many places. In the past ten years, they have never been out It’s wrong. It’s not a bad thing for the boss that they fell down in the Nelson Hotel. These people have fallen down, and other cheaters who want to come to the Nelson Hotel have to think about it.”

The moonlight illuminated the mirror on the wall, and the reflected light just enveloped Chamberlain's whole body.His whole body was shimmering, the halo of the double moon, hazy and unreal.

Is the moon reflected in the mirror the real moon?

Xue Dingbang pinched Chamberlain's earlobe and felt the trembling from his fingertips.His eyes were empty, looking at the mirror behind Chamberlain, as if he was talking to Chamberlain, and he seemed to be talking to himself: "You, don't treat me again..."

Before he could finish speaking, he was interrupted by the phone ringing.Xue Dingbang took it out and saw that it was Yin Ren's call.Smiling apologetically at Chamberlain, he turned and walked into the hallway.

After finishing the phone call, Xue Dingbang did not turn back, but lit a cigarette in the corridor.

The smoke curled up, drifting into the air with his thoughts, drifting to the old days.

Yin Ren once said "I am GAY", just like Chamberlain.

That night, 21-year-old Xue Dingbang, as usual, took care of Yin Ren who came back from the nightclub and was drunk.Xue Dingbang made him a glass of honey water, and Yin Ren still felt uncomfortable after drinking it.When he stumbled and ran into the bathroom, Xue Dingbang followed him and patted him on the back.

That night, unlike usual, Yin Ren pushed Xue Dingbang against the toilet door.

"Didn't you ask me where I went?" Yin Ren slurred his speech, his tongue was swollen, and Xue Dingbang breathed out the smell of alcohol all over his face, "Don't you want to know what I did outside?"

"You're drunk." Xue Dingbang resisted the pain in his back, and didn't even frown.He patted Yin Ren's back reassuringly, as if he was not the one who was hurt, but Yin Ren, "Do you want to rinse your mouth? Does your stomach feel bad?"

Yin Ren smiled wryly and shook his head, grabbed Xue Dingbang's collar with both hands, and yelled at him viciously in an almost threatening tone: "I'm fucking gay! Do you know where that is? I'm a gay Dingbang! I like men!"

Xue Dingbang flinched back then, and instead of telling Yin Ren his true thoughts, he asked instead: "So what?"

At that time, Xue Dingbang didn't want to stimulate Yin Ren's already out-of-control emotions.But he didn't think about it carefully—how much courage and strength did Yin Ren use to dare to yell that sentence at him.

Xue Dingbang could easily tell Chamberlain, but he couldn't tell Yin Ren.

I like you, it has nothing to do with whether you are gay or not.

Xue Dingbang took a long drag of the cigarette, and then slowly exhaled it with his neck raised.

At the age of 20, Yin Ren not only came out to himself, but also to his family members.It was as if, after telling Xue Dingbang, Yin Ren had the courage to fight against secular prejudice.But he didn't have the power to fight against the secular world. Yin Ren, who had a falling out with his family, was cut off from his source of income.

No one provides tuition fees, and life is also facing difficulties.Even the law firm he had just established with exhaustion almost collapsed, but it was Xue Dingbang and Yin Ren's friend Smith who brought the firm back to life.

Of course, the one who contributed the most here was Yin Ren.

For three full years, Yin Ren has been desperately doing everything he can for the firm.He didn't pick or choose any cases that made money, and he went straight to it.While busy with work, he also has to take care of his studies. He almost only sleeps for two or three hours a day, and he is so tired that he falls down as soon as he returns home.

When they were 22 years old, Yin Ren graduated with a master's degree in law. Instead of choosing to continue his studies, he went to New York alone.

In New York, the pampered Yin Ren lived in the basement.It was damp and stuffy there—stuffy in winter and hot in summer.Every time Xue Dingbang went to visit Yin Ren, the two of them crowded together in the basement with poor conditions.They ate gnocchi soup from a coffee pot and slept in a single bed.

A year passed like this, and one day, Yin Ren called excitedly and said, "Dingbang, I've bought a house! You don't have to squeeze the basement anymore!"

"We have a home!"

That Christmas, Schrödingbang "moved".Even on weekdays, he will still live in Boston.But whenever he had a little vacation, he would drive to New York, and he would "come home."

It was their first Christmas in Manhattan.

The house is spacious, the fireplace is warm, and Yin Ren is very happy.

When they were fighting in the study that day, Xue Dingbang pressed Yin Ren's shoulder as if he had just pressed Chamberlain's shoulder.Yin Ren collapsed on the sofa, his expression and Chamberlain's expression were very similar.

However, that time, it was a completely different result.

Xue Dingbang took a puff of his cigarette and looked behind him.Chamberlain was sitting on the edge of the bed, watching him quietly.

Chamberlain had a quiet appearance, compared with Yin Ren, he was only short of a pair of rimless glasses.He was born delicately and beautifully, his muscles and bones were similar to Yin Ren's, but younger and more lively than Yin Ren's.There is also less wanton publicity, and a little more gentleness and obedience.

Yin Ren would look at Xue Dingbang with such warm eyes, but he would never show meekness and obedience when Xue Dingbang approached.

Yin Ren always slips faster than a rabbit.

It was so fast that Xue Dingbang once thought that it was just his illusion.

Xue Dingbang's throat moved slightly, and his steps towards Chamberlain were fast and anxious.The night wind blew the corners of his clothes, and also the broken hair on his forehead.Xue Dingbang walked to the bed, leaned over and breathed softly into his ear: "Chamberlain, let's go out for dinner."

Chamberlain was a little frightened by Xue Dingbang's windy walk.But Xue Dingbang leaned close to his side and spoke close to his ear, his warm breath penetrated into his ear.Chamberlain was made limp and leaned directly into Xue Dingbang's arms.

"If you don't say anything, I'll take it as your agreement." Xue Dingbang smiled and didn't blame him.Xue Dingbang is very strong, and it is not difficult to grab Chamberlain's wrist and lift him up, "I will help you go, can you?"

The moonlight cast a shadow on Chamberlain's drooping eyelashes.His slightly trembling eyelashes fluttered like a butterfly, stirring the calm lake water, causing ripples.

"Mr. Xue, I can go." Chamberlain's eyes were so bright, as if the moon poured into the room from his eyes instead of from the sky, "I can go anywhere."

Chamberlain had just suffered a serious injury, and although he had been comforted, he still seemed fragile.It is as fragile as glass china.The softest part of Xue Dingbang's heart was shaken by the moon in his eyes, and he asked softly: "Then where do you want to go?"

"I want to go to your heart."

Xue Dingbang was stunned, and spent several seconds to make sure if he heard it wrong.

Judging from Chamberlain's eyes, it was definitely not Xue Dingbang's auditory hallucination.

"I want to go to your heart." Chris Maeda said to him not long ago.

"Why...forget it..." Xue Dingbang sighed and rubbed his temples, "The way to my heart may be very far. But the way to the cafeteria is very short, do you want to go?"

"Mr. Xue, I want to go." Chamberlain's expression was extremely serious, "Whether it's the cafeteria or your heart, I want to go. I seem to have done something I shouldn't do. Once again, I proposed a luxury beyond my ability. I don't know what to do. I'm sorry, maybe I'm not qualified. Don't be burdened by my words."

"Mr. Xue, I seem to..."

"Fall in love with you."

The author has something to say:

Yin Ren: Crooked!Is it "in love with you" or "in love with you"?

Chamberlain: What's the difference?

Chris Maeda: I want to know too!

Schrödingbang: What are you all thinking about?

Maeda Chris: I miss you.