Beauty has a lot of bad thoughts

"So, have you stewed chicken soup?" Xue Dingbang stared at Yin Ren with a smile, forcibly suppressing the sadness in his heart and covering up the facts that made him hurt. "For that child named Xu Yu?"

Yin Ren said, "Yes."

A simple sentence almost shattered Schrödingbang's heart.

What Smith said is true, Yin Ren really cares about Xu Yu.

"That's a good boy..." Xue Dingbang sighed in a low voice, his fingers lightly brushed the pocket, and there were hard and fragile things in the swollen pocket.It was the pocket watch that Yin Ren gave him. He played with it and discovered the secret for more than ten years, and it was broken when Yin Ren broke the pocket watch in Las Vegas. "Integrity, kindness, and vitality."

As Xue Dingbang said, the flushed face of Chris Maeda appeared in his mind and eyes.

What they did in the tent didn't really matter anymore.Xue Dingbang didn't want to hear those details, so he ran away.But he still has some unavoidable things, which are still in front of him.

"And, very enthusiastic." Xue Dingbang said.His eyes lost their luster.Starlight can no longer be reflected in it.Those were just two dry and rough stones embedded in his sunken eye sockets.

A blush appeared on Yin Ren's handsome face, he nodded embarrassingly and scratched his head.

Looking at his hands, Xue Dingbang still didn't hold back after all: "Yin Ren, your hands..."

Yin Ren stared at Xue Dingbang in a daze, his lips parted slightly, and his eyes fell on Xue Dingbang's hand that stopped in mid-air.

Xue Dingbang's fingers circled in the air and stretched into his pocket.This time, he didn't take out the broken pocket watch according to his instinctive impulse.He reached into his cigarette pocket, took out one and lit it.

The faint flame of the cigarette went out, illuminating Xue Dingbang's pale face.

"Smith said he was injured, is he okay?"

Yin Ren closed his eyes and looked at Xue Dingbang with a complicated expression.Once upon a time, he was very familiar with Xue Dingbang's face, even with his eyes closed, Yin Ren could trace every line of his face.

Now, Xue Dingbang looked tired, haggard and pale.

"It's all right." Yin Ren raised his arm, waved it pretending to be relaxed, and even twirled it twice exaggeratedly.

Now, however, Yin Ren's heart is filled with sourness and a strong sense of guilt.The surging emotions almost made him want to throw everything away and flee to a place where no one could find him.

"Hmm." A muffled hum came out of his nasal cavity, which was Xue Dingbang's response to Yin Ren.What more could he say?Xu Yu's position is already very clear - he will not give up on Yin Ren.

The man who can give up his life for Yin Ren is also Yin Ren's new boyfriend.What is Xue Dingbang's position to ask Yin Ren to leave him and go with himself?

go with yourself?

Xue Dingbang took a deep breath of the cigarette and let it out slowly.

Yes, at that moment, Xue Dingbang wanted to untie Yin Ren's clothes, threw him here, kissed him, begged him—come with me!Let's run away!Elope!Just like when you took me away before!

I won't let you get hurt.

I won't worry you.

Will you stay with me?

Choose me, okay? !

Xue Dingbang raised his eyes and stared at Yin Ren's blurred outline under the starlight.He stretched out his hand, flicked his wrist lightly, and a cigarette popped out of the cigarette case.

"One?" Xue Dingbang said vaguely with a cigarette in his mouth.

He looked at Yin Ren, not wanting Yin Ren to refuse.

Even if it's the last, last time, we smoke together like this.

Please take that one.

The last cigarette in the box.

It's also my last one.

Yin Ren didn't refuse, and hung the last cigarette in his mouth.There seemed to be some problem with his Zibao lighter, no matter how hard Yin Ren tried, he couldn't light it in the night wind.He frantically tugged at the lighter, and the flint kept making crackling noises.

Xue Dingbang looked at Yin Ren's anxious appearance, and a gentle smile appeared on the corner of his mouth.

This person was still the Yin Ren he knew.

Every year, here, Yin Ren can't light a cigarette with a lighter.

Yin Ren was still the Yin Ren Xue Dingbang knew.He would give up, he would tilt his head, and he would smile helplessly and say, "Excuse me?"

The past and reality are intertwined, blurring Schrödingbang's eyes.He seemed to see the past again, saw the summer when he was 14 years old, saw the sparkling water, saw the Christmas fireplace, and saw every warm and good old time they experienced in the past.

Xue Dingbang was in a trance, with a cigarette in his mouth but not smoking.He didn't know if he had already nodded in agreement, should he have already nodded?He couldn't tell whether it was real or an illusion.It was as if he couldn't tell whether the man leaning towards him was the Yin Ren in his fantasy, or the Yin Ren in reality who really did this.

Every year on Yin Ren's birthday, they would use this method to light cigarettes.

Yin Renhui came over and lit his own eyes with the cigarette from Xue Dingbang's mouth.He would squint his eyes intoxicated and take a deep breath of smoke.They were so close that their breathing was close enough to be heard.

While Yin Ren was lighting his cigarette, Xue Dingbang would take a puff.

Inhaling and spitting out, all with his taste.

This was done not only to make the fire of the cigarette butt bigger, but also to have some small thoughts of Xue Dingbang.In the lingering smoke, Yin Ren's face was as hazy as if separated by a layer of tulle.

Xue Dingbang likes Yin Ren like this, which is a bit different from usual.Yin Renhui was a little shy and didn't dare to look Xue Dingbang directly.When his eyes wandered, it was the time for Xue Dingbang to observe him.

Therefore, Xue Dingbang would never refuse Yin Ren's request to borrow fire.

There are very few opportunities like this. I can get close to Yin Ren without restriction, and Yin Ren will not run away because of fear.

Xue Dingbang is a person who cherishes opportunities.

The smoke lingered around them, and this breath of smoke inhaled into the lungs, after all, it had some different tastes.

Yin Ren's cigarette had already been lit.But he didn't retreat one after another, he seemed to be waiting for something, seemed to be looking forward to something.

Is it an apology?Or how to justify yourself?Or, Yin Ren is still angry, because of Maeda Chris, can't forgive?

Xue Dingbang half closed his eyes and took the initiative to step back.He looked at Yin Ren who was rubbing his palm on his trousers, and said with a complicated mood, "Yin Ren, that pocket watch..."

Yin Ren froze, obviously this topic touched something deep in his heart.He forced a smile, pretending to be relaxed and asked: "What?"

"I contacted that antique dealer." Xue Dingbang's fingers unconsciously slid to the pocket that contained the pocket watch.He rubbed it lightly a few times without any trace, held a cigarette in his other hand, and exhaled a puff of smoke. “Just replace it—the case, the heart, the hands, the sapphire on the face, and it’s the same again.”

Yin Ren's eyes shifted and his expression was complicated.He rubbed his eyes and sighed: "Everything is different from before, so what if it is repaired? That watch will not be as fast as before."

Xue Dingbang choked up speechlessly.

Yin Ren is right, even if the watch is repaired, with so many things replaced, is it still the same watch?Even if the relationship is repaired, there will be a grudge in the heart, and it will never go back to the past.

But what about those things that cannot be erased, cannot be denied, and have been preserved through disasters?

Xue Dingbang stared at Yin Ren seriously, and said sincerely: "I think there are still some things that are the same as before."

Yin Ren took a puff of the cigarette, the smoke rolled in his throat, swallowed it into his lungs and spit it out again.He smiled wryly, his hand holding the cigarette trembling slightly. "What things?"

Schrödingbang replied firmly: "Something you wish for."

Xue Dingbang's heart is roaring, but he is not Maeda Chris, and he cannot express his inner emotions truthfully and without adulteration.He won't say: Brother Ren, just tell me, as long as it is your wish, I will definitely fulfill it for you.

He could only say that it was what Yin Ren expected.

"I hope?" Yin Ren raised his head, staring at the sky full of stars. "No, Xue Dingbang. Those things don't matter anymore."

Xue Dingbang lowered his eyelids in silence, Yin Ren's sigh in his ears was blown away by the night wind and disappeared into the night sky of Captain's Peak.

Does it matter anymore?

Is it just my wishful thinking, self-indulgence?

Xue Dingbang, it doesn't matter anymore.

What if I have something to say?

Xue Dingbang raised his head, stared at Yin Ren and asked, "Yin Ren, do you still remember the watchmaker at the entrance of our alley?"

Yin Ren recalled for a moment in confusion, then nodded and said, "I remember."

"I still remember that when I was a child—you were about seven years old, you took apart our dad's favorite watch." Thinking back to the past, Xue Dingbang's voice showed a clear smile.He braced his chin, dragged back by the sun-bright rays. "At that time, my dad searched many places, but they all said that it couldn't be repaired. In the end, he had to find his house."

Yin Ren looked a little sad, and he just said: "Even if it was him, he didn't restore the watch to its original state. There was always something wrong with the pointer of the watch, and it didn't run according to the original track. So, my dad still put me on the clock. Give it a hard meal."

Yes, even if it is repaired, it cannot return to the original track.There was something in Yin Ren's words, and Xue Dingbang's inner boredom increased a lot.He sighed, took a deep puff of smoke, and slowly exhaled a perfect smoke ring.

Yin Ren and Xue Dingbang, the relationship started as brothers.

Yin Ren and Xue Dingbang can only be brothers in the end.

If this relationship is forcibly broken, they may not even have to be brothers.

What else can Xue Dingbang say?Forcibly ask Yin Ren to give up Xu Yu and choose himself?

Xue Dingbang can't, if he does that, Xue Dingbang will no longer be Xue Dingbang.If it's not his own self, is there any need and possibility for Yin Ren to care about it, to make Yin Ren see it right?

Xue Dingbang is Xue Dingbang, Yin Ren's brother Xue Dingbang.He can only say: "...I will find a way to deal with the table"

Other than that, he had no other words.

Yin Ren froze for a moment, his voice was a little hoarse from the night wind.It could also be that what happened in the tent just now made his voice hoarse.He took the last puff of his cigarette, threw the butt on the ground and stomped it out fiercely, saying, "It's yours, what to do with it is up to you."

Xue Dingbang shook his head, if it was mine, how could it be in someone else's hands?In the beginning, it wasn't me who held your hand.They're all around you, and they're all different.They come and go, they're not me.

Even if some of them are somewhat similar to me, even if some of them may be my substitutes.

But they, not me.

Xue Dingbang couldn't tell Yin Ren these things that hurt Yin Ren.He didn't want to accuse Yin Ren of being heartless, nor did he want to accuse Yin Ren of being cowardly.If we really want to talk about responsibility, after all, I dote on Yin Ren too much.

Regardless of Yin Ren's life, regardless of Yin Ren's decision, Xue Dingbang never said "no".

The little wild cat that got Yin Ren was hot and enthusiastic, but also showed enough strength and enough possessiveness.

Xue Dingbang looked at Yin Ren's face in a daze.He felt that Yin Ren had changed a little bit, and he was getting further and further away from himself.

At that moment, Xue Dingbang felt a strong impulse in his heart.He wanted to grab Yin Ren's arm and question Yin Ren.

Is it because I am stronger, like that little wild cat, that I can completely possess you?

Is it because I treat you more like a baby, like that little wild cat, so that I can get your affection?

Could it be that if I can be more enthusiastic, like that little wild cat, I can break through the shackles of brotherhood with you?

Xue Dingbang stretched out his hand and grabbed Yin Ren's arm, a blazing flame was burning in his chest.

The author has something to say:

Maeda Chris: No way!The watch is mine, and so is the person!

Xu Yu: You really have enough watches.

Chris Maeda: But I wouldn't be so stupid as to dig my boyfriend out of the trash.

Xu Yu: My brother is smart and able to cook, so he is not trash!

Maeda Chris: Heh, you scumbag, you want it yourself, don't shout in front of me, I don't care.