Beauty has a lot of bad thoughts

In the impression of Chris Maeda, Xue Dingbang rarely reprimanded him.

"Liar liar!"

These words, uttered from Xue Dingbang's mouth, sound very harsh.

Even if Xue Dingbang's tone was still gentle, even if Xue Dingbang's movements were still gentle, Maeda Chris couldn't help but shiver several times.

"Are you cold?" Xue Dingbang held Chris Maeda's face, forcing him to look up, not allowing him to escape, "Chris, this question is very important. You have been so emaciated in recent days. If this is the same as your night If it's about work, then you quit your night job. If it's about your nightmares, we should talk about the dreams that keep you awake. So, which one? Huh?"

Maeda Chris looked away, still wanting to struggle: "Can it be neither?"

"Chris." Xue Dingbang's tone was a bit harsh, "I don't want this, you will break your body and spirit."

"It's not something important in the first place, I don't want to cause trouble for Bangsang..."

"No trouble."

"Dingbangsang works every day and has to take care of me. I'm already very tired...I don't want to burden you any more..."

"You are not a burden."

"Dingbangsang, this question is just my burden!"

"For me, it's not burdensome."

Maeda Chris failed to struggle, his face, under Xue Dingbang's gaze, turned red involuntarily: "Is that what you want to know? Actually, it's not such an important thing!"

"Things related to your health are very important to me. Of course I want to know." Xue Dingbang said seriously, "Tell me, why?"

Maeda Chris was forced to have no choice but to falter and utter a word: "Mom...Mom..."

Regarding Maeda Chris's mother, he himself doesn't talk much about it.Xue Dingbang only heard a few words about Maeda Chris's mother from Maeda Chris himself.

But Xue Dingbang really didn't know what was going on inside.

Thinking about it, their understanding of each other and each other is not deep enough.

"Maybe, it will be very long." Chris Maeda raised his eyes and looked at Xue Dingbang seriously, "Also, it's boring! Do you really want to listen?"

Xue Dingbang said: "Speak, I am listening."

Chris Maeda bit his lip, with a face full of courage, and began to tell the story about his mother, Kiyoko Maeda.

At that time, Chris Maeda was still young.When he was in elementary and middle school in Tokyo, he respected the pattern of going back to the countryside during the holidays, and going back and forth between school and Kabukicho when school started.

Kiyoko Maeda brought Chris Maeda, and it was inconvenient to do anything. They didn't even have a fixed place to live.During that time, Kiyoko Maeda worked in Ginza, and almost all the money she earned contributed to HostClub.

She spent money like land, crying and telling those men about her misfortune.But never told others about Chris Maeda's misfortune.Maeda Kiyoko has to take Maeda Chris with her whether it is work or pleasure.That's not because Chris Maeda likes to go, but because he has nowhere to go.He has been familiar with the tricks of HostClub since he was a child, and he has also seen through the routines of emotional games between men and women.

If you have money, go to HostClub to splurge and vent.

He beat and scolded his son to vent when he had no money.

Even with such a sad and crazy mother, Chris Maeda still wants to tell her the truth.

"They're lying to you, they just want your money."

"I heard that guy, call other guests, he just likes your money."

But Kiyoko Maeda didn't care.

Kiyoko Maeda always said "I just want to be happy", "You don't know anything!", "It's nice to be an ignorant fool".

She turned into a moth and jumped at the flame of Host.Those so-called "responsibility" have been changed one after another.She might like some of them, otherwise she wouldn't take her boyfriend back to her hometown in Karuizawa and tell Chris Maeda's grandfather that this is the man she was destined for.

Chris Maeda's grandfather never had a good look at the people she brought back.

In Chris Maeda's memory, there was only one time when she brought back a host other than the Host.

At that time, on Chris Maeda's 14th birthday, Kiyoko Maeda came home with a serious man.

Maeda Chris stepped on the snow and came back with a large bundle of firewood, and saw the stranger at a glance.The man looked 37 or [-] years old, and his appearance was square and square, neither ugly nor good-looking.The clothes are too ordinary, the hair is black hair, black suit and a flattering smile.

Anyone among the commuters stuffed into trains like sardines.

"I want to marry this man." Kiyoko Maeda said at the time.

Chris Maeda scoffed at this, every time she said this, every time she was cheated, every time she didn't learn her lesson, every time she fell into the tender land full of traps.Even if you are married, you will not quit the host.

In particular, in order to get married, she lied to the man and said: "After I graduated from college, I worked in sales in a big company. I hope that after I get married, I can have a boy and a girl. There is also a pet dog. This child ? Oh, it's my brother!"

Liars, liars, liars!

Feeling betrayed, Chris Maeda mercilessly dismantled the happiness that Kiyoko Maeda had disguised.While the man was taking a bath, Maeda Kiyoko pretended to be a good wife and mother to spread the quilt.

Chris Maeda slipped into the bathroom, stepped into the tub, put his arms around the man's neck, and whispered in his ear like a devil:

"Miss Kiyoko works in Ginza."

"Miss Qingzi is the hostess."

"I'm Miss Qingzi's own son. Look how alike we look."

"Miss Kiyoko gave birth to me when she was 14 years old. She didn't even finish junior high school."

"She's so dirty. Countless men used to use her arms as pillows. I'm still clean. Do you want a different taste?"

Maeda Chris took the initiative to approach the man's lips, frightening him into a panic, he only covered the important parts with a towel and fled away.He hurried to the bedroom to get dressed, and was about to leave Karuizawa in the middle of the night.

No matter how Maeda Kiyoko tried to persuade him to stay, how much he cried and begged, he was determined to leave.

That day, Maeda Kiyoko knelt in the snow and cried for a long time.Seeing her in such pain and despair, Chris Maeda felt the pleasure of revenge in his heart.He crouched beside her and told her the whole truth.

At that moment, Maeda Kiyoko's eyes seemed to be frozen.She cried frantically, grabbed the snow and threw it at Maeda Chris.Regardless of that Chris Maeda was soaking wet, completely regardless of the fact that the bath water on Chris Maeda was freezing.

"You vicious child!"

"You will never have happiness!"

"Die! Die! Die! Die!!!"

Chris Maeda wiped off the snow from his body, and looked coldly at the crazy woman lying on the ground: "It looks like you will die before me. Damn old woman."

Kiyoko Maeda refused to bring up Chris Maeda any more, nor to pay his tuition.Chris Maeda, who was only 14 years old, was out of school, although his grades were not bad when he was studying.He was sold to a circus that was on the verge of bankruptcy, and began to follow the troupe, learning as an apprentice while performing along with it.Children who are growing up live half-starved every day.

All this is caused by that woman named "Mom".

Maeda Chris didn't want to be born in this world if possible.Suffering all the time, not having any fun, not really daring to end it all.After all, he still has to live longer than that dead old woman, let that dead old woman see, he can also get happiness.

Chris Maeda did live longer than her, Kiyoko Maeda died of illness last year.Afterwards, Chris Maeda's grandfather also fell ill because of taking care of her.

When she died, she struggled in the hospital for three months and was as thin as a bone.Maeda Chris's grandfather sent Maeda Chris LINE, and Maeda Chris saw her dying condition.

Speaking of this, Maeda Chris gritted his teeth: "I didn't forgive her! This dead old woman!!! She didn't even see me getting happiness, so she died without permission!!!"

When Maeda Chris talked about the past, his tears never stopped.Fatigue, sleepiness, bad memories of the past...everything was destroying his spirit.But Xue Dingbang's silence caused Maeda Chris to completely collapse.He turned over, sat on Xue Dingbang's body, grabbed Xue Dingbang's collar, as if he wanted to grab some life-saving straw, and pulled it with all his strength.

"She's lying! Isn't she?!!!"

"Dingbangsang loves me, right?!!!"

"You won't leave me, you will give me happiness, won't you?!!!"

What Xue Dingbang thought in his heart was: Ah...I made him so sad.Just don't ask him about his work.

What Chris Maeda thought was——Dingbangsang hates me, Dingbangsang is going to leave me, Dingbangsang is going to run away with Chamberlain...

"Dingbangsang, don't go!" Maeda Chris cried so sadly that he couldn't help hiccupping, "Please, don't leave me, don't abandon me! If this is a dream, I don't want to wake up I don't want to sleep, I don't want to leave you!"

"Calm down, Chris, don't cry." Xue Dingbang sat up, hugged Chris Maeda's trembling body and shook gently, "Be good, be good. I'm here, I'm not going anywhere. Chris, come on, touch me I."

Xue Dingbang grabbed Chris Maeda's hand, put it on his cheek, and looked at him seriously: "Chris, I am here, not in your dream."

Chris Maeda held Xue Dingbang's face, rubbed Xue Dingbang's ears, chin, and lips vigorously, and then kissed him almost madly.

They gnaw at each other like two wild beasts tearing apart.With the strength to swallow the other party, let the bloody kiss fill the mouth.Xue Dingbang didn't let him go until the blood overflowed from the corner of his mouth, knowing that Chris Maeda couldn't help but groan.

"It hurts." Maeda Chris lightly touched the damaged corner of his lips, tears overflowing, "This is not a dream!"

Xue Dingbang wiped away the tears on his face with the corner of the quilt, and said, "Now, do you know what to do?"