Beauty has a lot of bad thoughts

Variety shows are always lively, but all the excitement in this world seems to have nothing to do with him.

He stared indifferently at everything around him, all the bustle and hustle and bustle seemed to be separated by a layer of glass.

Yin Ren was still thinking that he would go home.However, he did not give him a message, a phone call.

They finally made it this far.

When Xue Dingbang decided to go to Yin Ren in May last year, he thought that they might come to this point because of the showdown.

But he never expected that they came to this point because they didn't have a proper showdown.

Xue Dingbang suddenly felt very lonely.Because the people closest to him have ruthlessly abandoned him.The beautiful life he had imagined burst in his mind like soap bubbles and turned into fiery droplets, scalding his soul.

He was silent for a long time, until the concerned voice on the other end of the phone woke him up.Chris Maeda lay obediently on his knees, staring at him without blinking.

"Okay." Xue Dingbang said, "I will go home when I finish my work here."

Chris Maeda, who just started learning Chinese, opened his eyes wide. He was very disturbed from the moment Xue Dingbang answered the phone.There are not many words he can understand, only "Yin Ren" and "go home".

These words are enough to give him very bad associations.

"Husband!" Chris Maeda yelled out of nowhere, and Xue Dingbang almost dropped his phone to the ground in fright.

Xiaomitang was very close to the voice of the microphone, and the person on the other end of the phone also heard Chris Maeda's sweet voice.

"Dingbang, who is talking?"

Come, come, send the proposition to come!

Xue Dingbang's throat tightened, and he quickly made up a nonsense and went back: "I, I'm watching TV, Mom!"

"Really?" Xue Dingbang couldn't help but twitched his eyes due to her suspicious voice.

"Really, Japanese TV, so it speaks Japanese." Xue Dingbang quickly put the microphone next to the TV for a while, then took it back, "Mom, you have to take care of yourself, I'll hang up first."

"Dingbang, you are here again..." Before his mother could finish speaking, Xue Dingbang hurriedly hung up.

Xue Dingbang put down the phone, feeling melancholy in his heart.

He likes Chris Maeda, and he also dotes on his little honey.

But to let his parents know about Chris Maeda's existence, he wasn't ready yet.He was even afraid that he would go back to Yin Ren's old path.

Although Xue Dingbang promised Xiaomi Tang that he would take him to live in the United States.But Xue Dingbang is not sure how far he can go with Maeda Chris, and the 30-year friendship with Yin Ren can be shattered in one day.What confidence does he have, that he and Chris Maeda can go further?

During the summer vacation when Yin Ren broke his leg, he rented a stack of VCDs at home to pass the time.

Two teenagers in the bedroom on a sunny summer day.Schrödingbang still remembers the sun shining on the floor, warming the cold wood, and the warmth of the soles of his feet when he stepped on it.It seems that the wood that has lost its life is alive again.

But the tree is already dead, no matter how hard you try to warm it up, hold it on the tip of your heart, hold it in the palm of your hand, put it in your mouth... that piece of wood will not come back to life, it is dead , dead through.No new shoots will be issued, and new life will be radiated.

During that summer vacation, Xue Dingbang only memorized one line - in fact, knowing a person does not mean anything, people will change, today he likes pineapple, tomorrow he can like something else.

Yin Ren has always disliked literary films, and when this line appeared, he was trying to fall asleep.And Xue Dingbang, who was studying, heard it, and he was deeply shocked by this line.

At that time, Xue Dingbang never thought about what would happen after he separated from Yin Ren.

He is going to study in a place far, far away. What if he can no longer get on good terms with Brother Nannan?

Who else would come to send him to school every day and pick him up from school?

Who else would tell him "you don't have to work so hard" and take him to skip class to make up for sleep?

Who else would ride around on the road in order to let him sleep a little longer?

Who else would be afraid that he would be hungry for self-study last night, and come over the wall to give him fried chestnuts with sugar?

At that moment, a strong sense of panic occupied Xue Dingbang's heart.Yin Ren was around him, but he felt—Yin Ren was far away from him.He came to an unknown secret place, isolated from everything around him.

Everyone has their own established track and their own circle.Only he, Xue Dingbang, got off the rails and got out of the circle.

Xue Dingbang felt very lonely, took Yin Ren's arm and shook it gently, and said in a mournful voice, "Brother Ren, can you not forget me?"

Yin Ren raised his head, slightly parted his lips, and drools in his sleep.

Xue Dingbang woke up the boy in his dream. He just wiped his saliva with his sleeve and said in a daze, "Is it time to turn the page?"

Yes, it's time to turn the page...

"Husband, you just said 'Yin Ren' a lot." Chris Maeda's voice was sullen, and his smile was not friendly. He hooked Xue Dingbang's neck and slowly moved closer, "What are you talking about? No You are with that scumbag! You are not allowed to miss him! You have to think about me! Otherwise, I won’t do it!”

Xue Dingbang blinked and woke up from silent thinking.

He stroked Chris Maeda's cheek with the back of his hand, looking at that young and immature face.

Maeda Chris immediately held his hand reverently, rubbing his delicate cheek against the back of his hand.

Once upon a time, Yin Ren was so young and so dependent on him.

During the trial and see-saw of the past ten years, Xue Dingbang was sure that Yin Ren liked him.

But now, Xue Dingbang also confirmed that Yin Ren likes Xu Yu.

Like pineapple today, may like apple tomorrow...

There were bursts of tingling pain in his arm, and Chris Maeda grabbed Schroedingbang's wrist like a little wild cat and clenched it tightly.His angry and sad eyes looked like an abandoned cat.

Xue Dingbang pulled out his hand, pinched his cheek and glared.

"If you want to marry that scumbag lawyer, I will kill him!" Maeda Chris still smiled sweetly, and with the sweetest voice and smile, he said the most terrifying thought, "I will Plant endangered plants on his corpse, others dare not dig that kind easily! Then, I will lock you into a small dark room and hide it, and you will not be seen by anyone except me!"

"Don't make trouble!" Xue Dingbang slapped his butt twice, "My mother is Yin Ren's godmother, he just asked me if I knew Yin Ren's situation. Yin Ren will probably marry Xu Yu... "

"This dog man has achieved happiness! Hmph! Hey... Dingbang, we also want to be happy." Maeda Chris was beaten, without any shame of being punished.Instead, tearful, he threw himself into Xue Dingbang's arms, hugged his neck and dawdled intimately, "Shall we get married too? I want to marry you even in my dreams!"

Xue Dingbang was silent again.

No matter how you look at it, it is difficult to have the fact of marriage between him and Chris Maeda.

Xue Dingbang wants to return to the original life track and return to his career.Go to the senior sister's team and continue his research.

At that time, he can bring his little honey.

They bought a small house and lived their own small life.

Although Xue Dingbang didn't know how long such days would last.He has known each other for 30 years, but he has not been able to see through Yin Ren, so how can he be sure that he can see through Chris Maeda who he has known for less than a year?

Maeda Chris will like him today, what about later?

Will you also like others?

Xue Dingbang hugged Chris Maeda's flexible body, wrapped him in his arms, and whispered in his ear: "Then I wish your dreams come true."

From February [-]th until two days before Valentine's Day, that is, February [-]th, Chris Maeda felt that something was wrong with Schrödingbang.

In the past few days, Xue Dingbang showed enough indifference and indifference to anyone and everything.Sometimes while cooking, the food can be burnt.At this time, it took Chris Maeda to call him several times before he managed to relax from his contemplation.

Not only that, in the past few nights, the two of them have not been tender and lingering.

Every time Xue Dingbang can find a suitable reason to avoid him, every time Xue Dingbang can find a suitable excuse.

The days became longer and longer, and every time Chris Maeda wanted to speak, Xue Dingbang cleverly avoided him.until the evening of the twelfth.

The curry in the pot was simmering, and Xue Dingbang had been staring at it for more than ten minutes.When Chris Maeda left this morning, he said he wanted Japanese curry rice for dinner, so tonight, they have beef curry rice.

A pair of hands suddenly wrapped around his waist, and his cold face was pressed against his back.Maeda Chris's concerned voice came from behind: "What's wrong with you?"

"I'm cooking," Xue Dingbang smiled helplessly, and opened Chris Maeda's hand, "Beef curry, do you want to eat?"

"Dingbang has been so indifferent to me these few days." Maeda Chris lowered his head, terribly aggrieved, "Why did you treat me so badly just after answering the phone? Are you still here?" Miss that scumbag lawyer? I hate you for being like this!"

Xue Dingbang turned off the gas, turned his head and looked at Chris Maeda for a long time.

At this moment, the loneliness etched into the bone marrow surged again.Chris Maeda couldn't share, and couldn't understand this loneliness.Even if he is right in front of Xue Dingbang, he is not in the same space as Xue Dingbang.

Xue Dingbang once again fell into the secret realm that appeared at the age of 14.

The world has become a quarantine zone where nothing matters and only loneliness is certain.

"I'm thinking about something very important." Xue Dingbang stared seriously at Chris Maeda's eyes, with a terribly serious expression, "Ah Fu, I hope you don't doubt this any more."

"Is it related to Lawyer Yin?" Maeda Chris stared back aggressively, "Are you thinking about going to his wedding to snatch the groom away?!"

"Don't make trouble." Xue Dingbang rubbed his hair, the soft touch made Xue Dingbang squint his eyes comfortably, "Are you hungry? Let's have dinner first?"

"Not hungry!" Chris Maeda refused, but soon, his disobedient stomach gurgled, making his little face turn red instantly.

Xue Dingbang turned around to serve the rice, skillfully prepared two servings of curry rice, brought them to the kitchen table, and said softly: "Even if you want to ask the teacher to ask a crime, you have to eat enough before you have strength? Huh?"