wake up daydreaming

In the half month before the final exam in the second semester of freshman year, Yu Zhou became Chen Yuqian's make-up teacher again.But different from last semester, Teacher Xiaozhou chose the library instead of the dormitory as the teaching place.

6203 On weekdays, Chen Yuqian is alone, which is very suitable for self-study and reading, and it is quieter than a study room that can accommodate 200 people, but Yu Zhou rejected Chen Yuqian's proposal on the grounds of the study atmosphere.The closer the end of the period is, the more dense the study rooms in the library are. The sound of reciting books and reading aloud never fades outside the study room, and there is indeed a sense of tension that the dormitory does not have.

Chen Yuqian and Yu Zhou agreed to meet at six o'clock.At six o'clock in the morning, a lot of students lined up at the entrance of the school library to grab seats. Chen Yuqian and Yu Zhou went in at six o'clock in the evening, and they were able to sit on the sofa seats in the rest area every time.

Yu Zhou must make a sound when speaking on the topic, and I don’t know who he asked to help occupy a seat. Every time the two of them passed by, textbooks would be placed on the long table in front of the double sofa in the corner of the rest area in advance.Chen Yuqian missed a lot of professional courses because of the competition. Yu Zhou copied all the PPTs of "Company Law and Business Law" and "Financial Management" to the computer. He was full of ambition to give Chen Yuqian a concentrated version. The soulless attitude of listening to lectures made him feel very unfulfilling, and kindly reminded him that if repeating a grade is acceptable, please seize the last opportunity to change majors at the end of this semester.

Chen Yuqian had considered this issue before.He is really not interested in management, but apart from swimming, he is not interested in any other subjects, let alone Yu Zhou has the talent to be good at whatever he learns. Accepting the status quo is the best choice for an ordinary person like him. Instead, Professor Du contacted him more than once to help him greet Professor XX who teaches XXX, and asked him to remember to contact him.

Professor Du's clear arrangement must be great luck for other students, but Chen Yuqian replied to Professor Du, saying that his roommate is Yu Zhou.

"What do you mean, why doesn't Professor Du continue to send you messages?" Yu Zhou's habit of flipping through Chen Yuqian's cell phone got worse, and he even read out some messages in front of him. After adding his tone, Professor Du on the other end of the phone The image is full, anxious, anxious, excited and sad, not like a teacher who cares about the students, but more like a father who has been absent for many years and suddenly returns home.

"You are too good, and the title of genius child prodigy is too famous, and the teachers all know it." Chen Yuqian racked his brains to praise Yu Zhou, but he didn't mention the sentence that Professor Du said that Yu Zhou would not come back after going abroad.

Yu Zhou had heard too much flattery, so he was calm for a long time, but hearing Chen Yuqian's unadorned two sentences made him open-minded and happy, and his back, which was already straight, became more straight. Shi Shiran said: " Then I have to be stricter with you, otherwise your final grades will be ruined, and it will be Teacher Xiaozhou's signature."

Chen Yuqian just nodded, not realizing the deep meaning of this sentence.Yu Zhou also taught him foreign languages, probability theory, and mathematical statistics. When he encountered a word that he didn't remember, or a question that he had practiced before but had no impression of it, Chen Yuqian would be poked from the hem of his clothes when he thought about it. The fumbling hand on the top made the whole person tremble, and he looked at Yu Zhou incredulously, but Yu Zhou looked innocent, and accused him of being dull. If he didn't stimulate him, he would suspect that Chen Yuqian had fallen asleep with his eyes open.

Chen Yu couldn't argue with a thousand words, blinked and blinked, and was really caught up in Yu Zhou's logic.Yu Zhou explained the questions to him for another half an hour, and then pointed to a question from last year's real question paper and asked him to draw inferences. He reacted quickly enough this time, picked up the pen and started to write the formula. , the lips were slightly opened and closed, and the neat and white teeth were looming. Yu Zhou stared at it, and happened to see the crimson surging on the tip of his tongue.

Chen Yuqian was working hard on the questions, and Yu Zhou, who taught him to do the questions, was watching him seriously.Perhaps because he often swims in the water, even if Chen Yuqian sits quietly on the sofa in the library, he still gives people a vague and hazy feeling, especially the hair, which has not been trimmed for a long time, and when he lowers his head, it will cover the pupils deeply. Black eyes, the hair is still too short compared to Yu Zhou's, but it is softer, it is obviously dry, but it is as docile as if it has just surfaced, Yu Zhou watched too much, and after a long time, Chen Yu once had a thousand hairs. Open up the illusion of being wet and impermeable.

Yu Zhou stretched out his hand unconsciously.

Instead of touching her hair, she poked into Chen Yuqian's clothes again.Chen Yuqian arched his back reflexively, and put down his pen to stop it. Yu Zhou quickly moved up a second, and his palm, which was blown cold by the central air-conditioning, covered Chen Yuqian's chest.

"Don't move!" Yu Zhou said in a low voice, "If you don't move, no one will see you."

What he said, it seemed that Yu Zhou chose the location in the rest area just to tease Chen Yuqian in front of the third person.He put his palms on that place, took a deep breath very comfortably, and promised: "You don't move, and I won't move."

Chen Yuqian loosened his hands holding Yu Zhou's wrist through his clothes, and his eyes wandered around the field of vision. The other students in the rest area sat at different angles and directions, and they were all buried in their own things. There was no movement and noise, and indeed no one would look at them in this corner.

Everyone is very busy, and there is no time to watch the little movements in the corner.But this feeling is still different from the one in the dormitory before.

Chen Yuqian's Adam's apple twitched, pretending nothing happened and continuing to complete more than half of the topic. The possibility of being discovered at any time was still lingering in his mind, making his heart beat faster and his throat tightened. The answer given in a daze was marked with a big cross by Yu Zhou with a red pen.

"You are so sorry for my hard teaching these two days." Yu Zhou shook his head and sighed, and said righteously, "As a teacher, I must punish you slightly to make you remember better."

Yu Zhou finally had a valid reason, pinched the place with two fingers, and pulled it out gently.

Chen Yuqian's eyes widened. Impulsively, he pushed Yu Zhou hard, and he almost stood up from his seat.The students at the table closest to them raised their eyes from behind the computer, thinking that there was a scene of young couples flirting and cursing, but seeing that they were both Alphas with masking stickers on the glands at the back of their necks, they lowered their eyes and continued without interest. Look at the review materials.

"You—" The rabbit will bite people when it is cornered, and Chen Yuqian can't hold back a word after being touched.Right and wrong, good and bad were all dispelled by Yu Zhou's squinted smile.Yu Zhou still did not forget to seek truth from facts: "I didn't move the edge, it stood up by itself."

If Yu Zhou said one more word, Chen Yuqian's face would turn red to the base of his ears. He had a good sense of proportion in his words, but his movements were getting better and better every day, until Qiao Yi's video rushed to the trending one evening.

It was Saturday.The two saw the keywords on the real-time list when using the search engine, looked at each other and clicked on it, and what came into view was a 10-minute long video, the cover of which was Qiao Yi pinching a small perfume sample .

After five or six seconds of silence, it was Chen Yuqian who pressed the play button.In the first 3 minutes of the video, Joey used a very witty and humorous tone to describe his bizarre experience of being cut off by an alpha medical student who was disguised as an omega last November on the banks of the Tomino River. Added some appropriate creations here: He said that he was really puzzled, and when he turned back, he found that it was actually the medical student who was plotting something wrong.

"You will definitely have doubts. Although this incident is very dramatic, it happened in November last year. Why did I record this video now?" Joey's tone was no longer playful, and the background music became serious and calm.The medical student inserted a mosaic monologue as a material, and the other party’s answer was exactly the same as Yu Zhou’s questioned before. The catalyst was indeed prepared by himself, and the raw material was a low-priced inhibitor with synthetic hormones as the main component. If it is diluted according to a certain ratio, it will have a certain degree of catalytic heat-clearing effect. If your level is not enough, there is always a place where you can buy the finished product.

The next few clips are candid shots of going to several small street shops.From the voice of the conversation, it can be heard that the location person in charge of this part of the shooting is not Joey, and there is a high probability that he is an Alpha, because the conversation between him and the shop owner is full of hints, and only after gaining trust can he get a glimpse of the "colorless and odorless interior" Good product", a small one looks like a perfume sample.

"After we obtained enough evidence, we reported to the police and started to prepare this video..."

Joy said frankly that this was not an easy decision. Their small team is basically composed of students majoring in media, and they know that reports related to negative behavior are contagious.He gave the example of indiscriminate homicide. After this type of crime is widely spread, normal people will take precautions if they know about it. Go to the extreme of imitation.Therefore, the speech script of this video has been carefully considered for dozens of versions, lest those with malicious intentions will go to informal channels to buy this catalyst after watching this video, which will increase social panic and instability.Qiao Yi also admitted that he wanted to give up several times. What is even more confusing is that the raw materials of these catalysts are low-priced inhibitors. Once a one-size-fits-all policy emerges, what should Omega, which cannot afford high-priced inhibitors, do? After all, will all these shady deals disappear...

"That's why we chose to tell the whole truth. Since hidden dangers and risks are unavoidable, as omega, we at least have the right to know." Qiaoyi looked directly at the camera and told the story at the beginning.After the alpha pretending to be an o suddenly appeared, he said a lot of expressions that fit the public's stereotype of omega, which made him feel like he was sitting on pins and needles.The two also had disputes in the subsequent exchanges, but as the investigation deepened, he realized that the alpha was probably deliberately catering to the other party, and his real intention was to send him away who was in danger at the time.

"I am very grateful for his help at that time. Even though this kind of help is difficult for me to accept." Joey smiled.Yu Zhou hit the space bar, and the camera just stopped at this smile.

I don’t know if it’s because of the lighting or the shooting angle. In this video, Joey smiles very stretchedly, although he very honestly stated in the middle and late stages of the progress bar that he has suffered from insomnia during the months of preparing materials and manuscripts. I don't know how many nights, how much inner suffering and self-denial he has suffered, and all kinds of pressure come from all sides, but at this moment, there is courage in his firm eyes that can be felt across the screen.

"Many people think that omega is a vulnerable group that needs protection, but protection should not be wishful thinking. Concealment and blockade in the name of protection will only hinder the independence of personality. The only way to face—whether you are an omega or an Alpha— Only by facing the truth of life can we continue to love.”

After the end of the video, Yu Zhou went back to the last minute or two, re-watched the part where he was mentioned, and asked in surprise, "He actually thinks I'm a good person?"

Before Chen Yuqian could express his opinion, Yu Zhou patted him on the shoulder, asked himself and answered: "I understand, he didn't mention you throughout the whole process, it is very likely that he mixed your image into the 'pretend' In the Alpha', he is actually thanking you, and it has nothing to do with me, Yu Zhou."

"It must be like this!" No matter whether Chen Yuqian agrees with this statement or not, Yu Zhou just thinks it makes sense. Fluent as usual.

It is impossible for Chen Yuqian to be unaware.It was his turn to close the book very chicly, and said to Yu Zhou, "I'll treat you to a movie."

Yu Zhou's eyes lit up immediately, and his mood suddenly improved. After Chen Yuqian finished packing his schoolbag, he poked his index finger steadily towards the auditorium opposite the rest area: "That's right there."

Yu Zhou: "..."

The screening hall in the library is the site of the Film Association. Every night at seven o'clock, a nostalgic film is shown on time. Non-members of the association only need one yuan to enter.Chen Yuqian paid two yuan and entered the hall. Although the sparrows inside were small and well-equipped, and it was the end of the semester, there were fewer students who came to watch. The two were lucky to sit in the middle position. After the lights dimmed, only A black and white film was shown on the screen, and the atmosphere was unexpectedly full.

This is an old movie from the last century. The background is set before ABO's third sexuality split. A young capitalist in the Northern Federation meets an innocent girl who is about to fall into prostitution on the streets of the capital. The two embark on a fairy tale love journey .The wealthy male protagonist originally only wanted to support the female protagonist, but with love comes the awakening of the heroine's sense of fairness and dignity.She dared to ask the high-ranking male protagonist what he has created and contributed to this society and the country in addition to the financial games and capital operations that satisfy his personal interests.

The hero was really overwhelmed by the question, and his conscience was awakened after his soul was touched. At the end of the film, he injected capital into a manufacturing company that he originally planned to acquire and then split up for sale, continuing the decline of the sunset industry with the decline of the real economy. a fire.

"This doesn't belong to the category of fairy tales anymore." Yu Zhou was not referring to the main love story of a millionaire falling in love with a street prostitute, but the hero's final choice.This kind of plot against the trend of the times can only appear in movies, and he couldn't help complaining, "This is science fiction."

After Yu Zhou and Chen Yuqian came out of the screening room, it was not time for the library to close, but they were not in the mood to study any more. After leaving the gate, they walked towards the dormitory, taking a long detour tacitly. Ordinary camphor trees stand.

Yu Zhou sat wearily on the long wooden chair by the tree, with his chin resting on his hands, his long hair hanging down his shoulders and on both sides of his arms, from a distance he looked like a sad omega, his alpha was sitting on him By his side, with him.

"I asked him out that day because I wanted to know, did my mother really go to inspect those private schools in person a few years ago, instead of just sending someone to go through the motions." Yu Zhou rubbed his temples, regretting that he talked too much nonsense, the key None of the questions are clear.The business card with that email number printed on it was held by one of her mother's omega assistants. Xie Qiuyi was on the go all year round, and even after returning to the group headquarters for a short time, she still had endless affairs to deal with. That assistant was her right-hand man for personal chores. Before Yu Zhou was five years old, Xie Qiuyi sent all the souvenirs and gifts Xie Qiuyi bought in the cities he traveled to to Yu Zhou. She bought it after thinking about Yu Zhou's preferences. Xie Qiuyi was too busy to choose carefully for her son.

"The assistant sister is a single mother and has a daughter who is five years younger than me. The last time she came to give me a gift, the whole person was in a forced smile. I asked her what happened, and she said that her daughter's condition worsened. But my mother does not approve her leave, and she will go on a business trip far away in two days."

"My mother is not stingy with overtime pay and year-end bonuses, but she has never been willing to buy those gifts for her daughter. If she had a choice, she said that she would rather spend more time with her daughter than money, rather than around every day. My mother turned. She looked at me with sorrow and blame in her eyes, as if I caused all this, as if...as if I am the root of all evil, and there is one less person in this world who can enjoy good things without effort If I have the material conditions, more of my peers will live a better life."

"She has been with my mother for many years. Half a month later, my mother came to see me and told me that she had resigned. If she said anything derogatory or slanderous, it was because of her ulterior motives. I must not take it to heart. My mother soon found a new assistant, who is also an omega, younger, more beautiful, and better at picking gifts..." Yu Zhou didn't continue talking, and shrugged his shoulders, which meant that the ending was the same.

"This is part of my truth." Yu Zhou lifted the stone beside the chair and murmured, "At that time, I really hoped that my genetic report was correct. If I differentiated into an omega, I could do nothing and feel sorry for myself , falling into internal friction of self-doubt all day long, attributing my mediocre cowardice at this stage to my strong mother and absent father, I need to spend the rest of my life healing childhood trauma... No, this is too stereotyped, Joey If you hear that the fist is hard again, the combat power and psychological quality of omega will not be what it used to be. As for me, what’s wrong with me, I’m an Alpha. Alphas are also human, and they can also have negative emotions, and use self-deprecating methods to achieve moral integrity superior……"

Chen Yuqian didn't say a word from the beginning to the end, but it didn't mean that his brain wasn't spinning rapidly.

With Xu Zhenhua, the "pig jade in front", Chen Yuqian deeply realized that if you can't speak, don't talk nonsense.He doesn't know if Qiao Yi's fist is hard or not, but if he comforts him with words like "but your family is really rich" and "your mother is doing it for your own good", Yu Zhou's fist will definitely be hard, more than that It's a fist.

But he couldn't really say nothing.

There is no real empathy in this world.The deeper the communication between people, the more it is like walking cautiously on the edge of the black abyss. Gender, age, and native family... are just a few cracks among the many barriers, each of which is not deep enough. Seeing the bottom, there is no border to reach after falling.

"Xiao Zhou." Chen Yuqian pursed his lips, then let go, hesitated to speak, and licked it again.

Hearing the sound, Yu Zhou looked sideways at Chen Yuqian.Chen Yuqian still looked ahead, and Yu Zhou's yearning for the romantic bridge disappeared from the moment Chen Yuqian pointed at the screening room.At this moment when he didn't have any hope, Chen Yuqian suddenly shifted his body and sat closer to him, and the approaching hand passed behind him.

"Does Tie Tie mean this?" Chen Yuqian's tone of questioning was so sincere, seeing that Yu Zhou's elbows tightened even more after he said nothing.The two leaned together quietly on the night trail where the early summer breeze blew, and the sound of cicadas was faint in their ears.