wake up daydreaming

Yu Zhou was soberly aware that he was in a dream.

He always laughed at Chen Yuqian for going to sleep at critical moments, the essence of which was to escape from reality, and he himself was procrastinating, not wanting to open his eyes to see anyone.

Then he saw himself in the dream.In the blindingly white world, there is only a mirror of the same height. The image in the mirror keeps the same movements as him, but has a different age and body shape - the child is no more than six years old, wears a fluffy nightdress, and has long black hair Supple and soft, people can't tell the gender for a while.The Barbie doll he held in his arms was the image of Rapunzel, with long golden hair hanging down on the ground. He pressed the doll's face to his arms so that the 20-year-old Yu Zhou who was outside the mirror could not see it, and then asked warily :"who are you?"

"I am you when you grow up." Yu Zhou still has a vague impression of himself when he was a child. His toys are indeed play dolls. Differentiate into omega.

Yu Zhou knelt down and decided to tell his past self the good news: "Hey, you have differentiated into an alpha later."

Xiao Zhou in the mirror held the doll tighter, shook his head and said, "No, no, I want to be an omega!"

"What's so good about Omega." Yu Zhou sneered.

Yu Zhou in the mirror said seriously: "Chen Yuqian is Alpha. Only Omega can marry Chen Yuqian and have children."

"You also know that you will meet Chen Yuqian in the future?" Yu Zhou smiled again, in order to convince himself in the mirror, he began to count the benefits of being an alpha, "Only omega need to use inhibitors, alphas use masking stickers By not emitting pheromones in public, one can be seen as a good citizen of the new era."

Yu Zhou in the mirror is firm: "Only Omega can marry Chen Yuqian and have children."

"I'm not a love brain. Is Chen Yuqian the only one in my world? Do I have to revolve around him?" Yu Zhou was a little angry, and he talked about his past entrepreneurial experience in a single brain.Swimming medals cannot be converted into worth. In the business field, Yu Zhou is undoubtedly an Alpha who is thousands of times more successful than Chen Yuqian.

Yu Zhou outside the mirror confidently put his hands on his hips, and Yu Zhou in the mirror repeated again: "Only Omega can marry Chen Yuqian and have children."

"You can only say this one sentence!" Yu Zhou punched the mirror angrily, waves appeared on the mirror surface, and the ripples blurred Yu Zhou's face.Yu Zhou stood up, stared at the little one condescendingly, and was about to say "Chen Yuqian doesn't like omega" irritably, when he suddenly realized that it seemed that Chen Yuqian had never explicitly expressed his sexual orientation.

In other words, Yu Zhou can completely imagine Chen Yuqian getting together with another omega when he needs to get married.He is kind, gentle, and patient. He has no sweet talk or surprises when he is in love, but he will definitely take on family responsibilities after he gets married.

If Chen Yuqian hadn't met himself, it is very likely that Chen Yuqian would have lived such an ordinary and worldly good life.Yu Zhou was the only one who couldn't accept an omega from the beginning to the end. He knocked on the mirror, and the voice inside said childishly: "It's a pity, you are an Omega in the first place."

"...But I will never become that kind of obedient Omega." As soon as Yu Zhou finished speaking, it was Qiao Yi's face that flashed in the mirror.The corner of Yu Zhou's mouth raised a triumphant arc. Yes, even if there is no accidental differentiation, he is still an Omega who grows up and becomes less likable. Sweetness and cuteness only existed in his childhood, and one day he will run into the courtyard of the villa , watching Xie Qiuyi leave in the car after checking his homework, the voice of the tutor came from a distance, telling him not to step barefoot on the green grass to play, his eyes looked over the fence, watching the vehicles disappear into the border, his heart was deep There will also be anger surging out of the place, causing him to throw the doll away after being picked up by the servant princess.

"You absolutely can't bear that kind of fate. I mean getting married and having children. It is undoubtedly shutting down from one villa yard to another villa yard." Yu Zhou plausibly said that no one knew himself better than him.There is no word "marry and have children" in his blood. Think about his mother. In the era when omega was under shackles, Xie Qiuyi dared to forge her gender identity to go to University of U. After only staying there for half a year, she became unmarried and conceived first. , After the child was born, he went to the Northern Federation, and took over the family business after returning to China after studying.This is not the life that a well-behaved omega would choose. Yu Zhou, as her only blood, naturally cannot live step by step.

But his mother kept him in the huge house since he was a child, like raising a canary.

"That's because she wants to provide me with a better education," Yu Zhou touched his pocket and conjured a cigarette case out of thin air in the dream.He took a sip, lazily and a little complacently, "Please, I'm already 20 years old, I may not understand it before, but now, I can quote scriptures with you for three days and three nights to discuss her psychological activities and concerns."

"But you still hate her, don't you?"

"Hate?" Yu Zhou was choked by the smoke, coughed several times, and there were physical tears in the corners of his eyes, "Without her, there would be no me, I thank her for inviting so many personal trainers to teach me before it's too late, how could it be—— "

"But you still hate her, don't you?"

"Without her, there would be no me." Yu Zhou emphasized again, "Did you know how much it would cost to take a private plane from the Northern Federation to the U area because you can't buy air tickets during the Spring Festival?" Yu Zhou stopped laughing, and he can do similar examples To mention a lot, as Xie Qiuyi's only son, he can worry about anything, except money, he will not be a white-eyed wolf.

"But you still hate her, don't you?"

Yu Zhou slammed his fist on the mirror.

The mirror surface of the same height is broken into countless pieces of large and small, and each irregular fragment is a period of time that has been carved.He saw Qiao Yi first, and he didn't get along well with this omega at first, because he didn't want to admit that if his mother wasn't Xie Qiuyi, he might grow up to look like Qiao Yi.But there was nothing wrong with Joey, he just simply hated himself, so he accidentally injured this omega who was similar to him.

That dislike can be traced back to the age of twelve or thirteen. When he stole those manuscript papers from Xie Qiuyi's study room, purchased raw materials to assemble experiments, he expected more than once that there would be an explosion after the operation failed, and then he would never have to talk to Xie Qiuyi again. We will meet on Monday.After all, he was lucky, or it could be said that those precise calculation data bless him in the dark, and made him differentiate into Alpha by accident.The first thing he did after he was admitted into the special group by the juvenile class was to search for the name "Yu Qinghua" in the confidential library with permission. He finally knew why his biological father died, and then his mentor asked him : "Your father was willing to die for this cause 20 years ago, will you be willing to live for it 20 years from now?"

In another fragment, Yu Zhou saw the back of himself running away, and heard the wise words of the father of the tokamak in the last era, that fusion will be realized when the whole society needs it.For a long time, Yu Zhou thought it was an optimistic encouragement, until he told Xie Qiuyi about the possibility of using radiation to reverse the differentiation of ABO's third sexual characteristics. Xie Qiuyi also said a similar sentence, when the whole society needs it, Surely someone will advance research in this area.

But Xie Qiuyi also said: "However, what the society needs now are inhibitors and masking patches."

Yu Zhou probably became disillusioned from this moment. The world outside the courtyard is not as free and equal as he imagined, and the definition of needs is in the hands of a few people.Those businessmen and politicians who regulate the price of oil and natural gas don't care about the energy crisis. Their children are Yu Zhou's classmates when he was in the Northern Federation. DreamWeb's funds mostly come from dances and dinners in the small circle.

These people will not let the society need nuclear fusion. Infinite energy is best a myth that will always exist in science fiction. As Xie Qiuyi's son, Yu Zhou should have a community of interests with them.But he saw the cat again, the cat with blue eyes and white fur, staring at himself through the mirror, while restlessly pushing the water glass off the ground with its front paws, and the glass rolled down to the imported cans and ceramic bowls.

Xiao Zhou, Yu Zhou yelled, and the cat turned into a short-haired cat, huddled in the garbage, dirty, and the blood stains on the tail that had been run over by a car were eye-catching.

It was also a small boat, small boat, and Yu Zhou called out again.Then the cat walked towards him, turned into a human and sat on a small wooden boat, shaking on the river at night.There was a laugh in the voiceover. It was the oarsman sitting on the boat and Yu Zhou asked him what was so funny. He said, "The prince of Xiaozhou rides in a small boat."

"It's obviously Rapunzel." Yu Zhou outside the mirror sang the same tune as the one in the mirror.He also laughed, wanting to take a good look at Chen Yuqian that night again, his figure gradually blurred, and the person and the boat disappeared into the mirror that returned to a smooth surface.Just disappear like this, Yu Zhou looked at the mirror that could not reflect anything, closed his eyes and prayed selfishly.How could he hate Xie Qiuyi, he just hated himself.He was mediocre, unable to find a balance between moral conscience and background, he could not refuse Chen Yuqian's voice, "Okay, okay, now we can look forward, Rapunzel."

He returned to the ward again, kneeling on the bed, with Chen Yuqian's palm on his head, as if he was confessing and receiving baptism in a church.What Chen Yuqian said to himself just now, oh, he said: "If I see you through and I still appear here, isn't that enough proof that I love you?"

Love, Chen Yuqian actually told him love.

His instinctive reaction was to not believe it, after all he didn't like himself.

But what reason does Chen Yuqian have to deceive him? It must not be for power, let alone money. Could it be for sex?They did have sex last night, and he also called Chen Yuqian "блядь" like the Russians in the movie.Chen Yuqian's face blushed when he was buried in the sofa. Was he enjoying it?Yu Zhou is not sure, because once he puts himself in another position, he feels that the word is more insulting than sentimental interest, and his self-esteem will not allow him to continue to endure in silence, but turn his face and fight with Chen Yuqian. .

Chen Yuqian did not do this.He is like the suffering Russian in the movie, and Chen Yuqian in reality.

Yu Zhou wished that Chen Yuqian would be by his side when he woke up, so that he could kneel on the hospital bed again and pray in his lover's arms. I love you too, love you, love you.

He didn't even have time to put on his shoes, and sneaked out of the ward with bare feet. He walked briskly without being noticed by the nurses at the main station, and shuttled to the book bar on the first floor like a gust of wind.He wanted to go forward and hug Chen Yuqian from behind. He looked at Xie Qiuyi who was also facing away from him, and not only retracted his steps, but also took a step back.When he was at a loss, he looked over the shoulders of the two of them and landed on the computer screen. There was still a gap in the last module of the defense PPT, and they were struggling with the self-introduction at the very beginning.

Chen Yuqian entered Xie Qiuyi's name in the column of family members.Xie Qiuyi advocated deleting it: "I don't think he would want to introduce it."

"But many people are really curious about what kind of reactor can be built in their own yard." Chen Yuqian inserts a news picture of Yu Zhou when he was 14 years old on the right side of the screen. He is wearing a loose white coat and the direction of his fingers is A Fusor reactor emitting blue light.

"I actually saved some photos from that time." Xie Qiuyi lowered his head and took out his phone.Yu Zhou took another two steps back, completely hiding behind the wall.He heard Xie Qiuyi smile, because he found a few screenshots of online shopping. He was still underage at the time, and the vacuum pump and stainless steel needed to make Fusor were all Xie Qiuyi's cards.

Chen Yuqian also smiled: "You already knew about his little tricks."

"Every time I go back, I will go into the study. I guessed it from the time his father couldn't find the manuscript. I would have been worried, but I remembered that his father concluded that the activation energy of this small device is greater than the maintenance energy. The power Very low. This model is completely a product of hobbies, and anyone can make it after having the blueprints and raw materials, so this information is not a secret, and it can be taken back as a relic without destroying it.” Xie Qiuyi paused, and asked Chen Yu Qian, "When I say this, it sounds like I'm negating Yu Zhou's efforts."

Yu Zhou shrank back from the wall, he wanted to say yes, you never affirmed me.He accidentally heard Xie Qiuyi say: "Actually, I had already helped him find several private schools, but seeing that he prefers to work in the yard, I didn't mention it."

Xie Qiuyi smiled softly: "Then he differentiated into an alpha."

Chen Yuqian said: "Well, he told me on the first day of school that this is his first time living on campus."

Xie Qiuyi also showed an expression of "the first time most people lived in school was during college". Chen Yuqian said that he has been in the sports school to practice swimming since he was four years old. It can be said that he has lived in school since kindergarten.

"Yu Zhou's father also went to boarding school since he was a child." Xie Qiuyi looked sideways into Chen Yuqian's eyes, "so his living habits are very casual, and he wears only a few pieces of clothes. I really can't stand it anymore. He went to the clothing store to make several new clothes."

Chen Yuqian is not short-sighted, but he has been to that store: "Is it the one on Ten Mile Chang Street?"

Xie Qiuyi looked surprised, but also a little happy.Chen Yuqian said that Yu Zhou also took him there to order formal suits, and the shopkeeper's grandmother still remembered Xie Qiuyi, saying that she and Yu Zhou's father were both talented and beautiful, and they were a natural match.

"Where?" Xie Qiuyi teased, and the girl's expression flashed past, "His father wears glasses, the lenses are very thick and always blurry, every time I see them, I can't help but help him take them off. Exhale, and wipe it clean with the handkerchief you carry with you."

Xie Qiuyi suddenly couldn't continue, her smile disappeared completely.

"I don't have any special story with him, we just been classmates for half a year, just half a year."

Then the war was about to break out, Yu Qinghua voluntarily enlisted in the army, and was urgently assigned to a nuclear submarine.On the eve of parting, the two couldn't help themselves, and Yu Qinghua was able to know Xie Qiuyi's true gender. After all, he failed to return safely, and he had no way of knowing that Xie Qiuyi was pregnant.

it's a pity.Yu Zhou silently kicked the corner of the wall with his toes and sighed.There are two completely different feelings between reasoning and hearing. He could vaguely guess the past, but when Xie Qiuyi said it himself, he was still worthless for his mother.There may not be much romance between the two, Xie Qiuyi would be better off pretending that nothing happened and destroying herself as an embryo, rather than——

"I did regret giving birth to him."

Yu Zhou stopped kicking the corner and pressed his forehead against the wall.

"Especially the result of the amniotic fluid test is that he will differentiate into an omega. I feel very tormented every day. After the child is born, I will send the child back to the country and stay in the Northern Federation. I thought I would start a new relationship, but it is always necessary. I can't help but think of Yu Zhou."

It was I who ruined your life, it was me.Yu Zhou's forehead began to tap the wall lightly, and his heart fell to the bottom.Everything Xie Qiuyi said was true, including the evasion of her mother's identity after returning to China.She didn't know how to get along with Yu Zhou, so she simply confined the child's basic necessities of life to a limited space.

"...But what's wrong with him?" Xie Qiuyi stared at the photo on the computer screen, said so much to Chen Yuqian, and only after she said it did she realize that there was a different kind of emotion behind the fact that she had believed for many years.She goes to learn about Yu Zhou's homework every week, and then finds that under the tailor-made tutoring of a private teacher, Yu Zhou has gone deeper than her peers at school. Even if it is an independent private school, Yu Zhou may not be able to adapt to it if he joins a class. .

"He is really smart, just like his father. They both walked on the same research path, I, I should be proud of their choice, I just, just..." Xie Qiuyi said with difficulty One sentence, "I'm just afraid that today's accident will happen again, and I will lose again."

Yu Zhou stopped banging his forehead against the wall.He raised his hand, and the back of his palm separated his forehead from the wall. He touched his face with the other hand, and there were traces of tears on it.

"He has his own way to go." After a long time, it was Chen Yuqian's voice.

"Aren't you worried that there will be another accident?" Xie Qiuyi was surprised by Chen Yuqian's calmness.

Chen Yuqian said in a joking tone: "Even if he went to the laboratory in the early morning, he would encounter a water leak, and he would get a reward after the rescue. I believe in his luck."

Xie Qiuyi looked at him again.He licked his lips and said solemnly: "I just believe him."

There was an exclamation in the distance.Xie Qiuyi and Chen Yuqian turned their heads and saw the nurse on duty at the front desk running towards the book bar with a pair of slippers in their hands.Before the two could hear what the nurse said, they saw Yu Zhou flashing from behind the side wall, running barefoot, as if escaping, and straddling the gap between mother and lover abruptly.

The nurse, who was eight or nine meters away from the book bar, stopped, not knowing whether she should continue to move forward, her hands holding the slippers behind her back.Chen Yuqian and Xie Qiuyi were also stunned. After realizing it, they all cared about his feet first, and Yu Zhou swung his legs like a boat on a swing, shaking his head as well, telling them to "don't make noise" and "don't make noise".

The book bar was empty, only the three of them crowded on two chairs.Yu Zhou didn't intend to leave, he leaned forward and tapped the keyboard twice, "Finish the PPT first before the registration deadline."

"This one is too stupid." He deleted the news picture, took a few short breaths, turned his head to look at Chen Yuqian, and then at Xie Qiuyi.

"Didn't you say that there are photos of me from before? Well... you guys help me choose."