After the family was reborn, I went to the peak of my life

In 2004, Yangcheng Railway Station.

This is the hottest city in the country, and it is the hottest season in July. The hot|hot|hot sun scorches the earth, making people who have just set foot on this land wonder if they have entered a steamer.

It was just after two o'clock in the afternoon when Xie Yunshu walked out of the train station. The person who picked him up was an uncle from the same family. He called him, "Uncle Six."

Sixth Uncle Xie was in his 40s, with a medium build and dark skin. He sighed regretfully when he saw Xie Yunshu, and then asked, "Have you eaten on the way? Are you hungry?"

After sitting on the green leather train for more than 30 hours, Xie Yunshu only ate two bowls of instant noodles. He wiped the sweat from his forehead with the back of his hand. His face was so red that it was almost purple, whether it was steamed or sunburned. Come, he smiled and said, "I've eaten, I'm not hungry."

Uncle Liu glanced behind him: "You just brought a bag?"

Xie Yunshu hesitated: "I heard that the weather here is very hot, so you don't need to bring a lot of clothes."

Uncle Six sighed again.

Xie Yunshu, what is he sighing.

The college entrance examination has just been released, and the son of the sixth uncle who is studying in the middle school in the town has been admitted to a junior college and is waiting for the university to start at home. Xie Yunshu, who has the best academic performance in the village...

Uncle Six patted him heavily on the shoulder: "Son, you have been wronged."

Two of Xi Haiying's nephews were implicated in a major anti-crime case. In order to keep them under the gun, the Xi family went bankrupt everywhere to raise money, but they tried everything and there was still a shortfall of 10 yuan. Xie Yunshu for this 10 yuan gave up his future.

He made the decision behind his back, and by the time Zhu Junlan and Xie Zuwang knew about it, it was too late to stop him.

Xie Yunshu shook his head, smiled slightly, his clear eyes were condensed with strands of blood, he raised his hand to cover his face, and said, "Guangzhou is really hot, the sun is too hot."

"Let's go with Uncle, Uncle will take you there."

Uncle Six's car was Jinbei Bread, which was parked in the square of the station, and the seats were scalding hot from the sun. Xie Yunshu sat in the passenger seat, and couldn't help lifting his butt halfway up.

"Is it too hot? It looks like your mouth is so dry that you didn't drink any water in the car?" Uncle Liu handed him a bottle of water, "Be patient, it will be here in half an hour."

Xie Yunshu licked his dry lower lip, and took it with a smile: "Thank you Uncle Six."

The mineral water was taken out of the freezer earlier, but after being put in the car for a while, the layer of ice vapor outside has turned into water, and it flows wetly along the body of the bottle, like Xie Yunshu in a mess. Dip through from the inside out.

Xie Yunshu unscrewed the cap and drank half of the bottle in one go, then screwed on the cap again and held it in his hand.

Uncle Liu watched him lightly brush the wet, messy hair on his forehead, his eyes drooped slightly as if he was sleepy, there was a faint light in the end of his eyes, with a weak and lonely breath, once again Sigh silently.

He is a good boy.

Little Jinbei didn't drive very well, like a tantrum donkey, it bumped several times before rushing out. There was no air-conditioning in the car. Uncle Liu opened the window, and the heat wave outside the car was billowing, and the wind and dust hit the face.

Uncle Liu motioned, "Look, this is Yangcheng."

Xie Yunshu followed his words and looked out the window.

As expected of an international city with a population of tens of millions, Yangcheng is second only to Shanghai in commercial development. Along the way, you can see dense viaducts, luxurious houses and mansions covering the sky, and cars like flowing water and horses like dragons.

Xie Yunshu stared intently, and heard Uncle Six say: "Yangcheng is beautiful, isn't it? I'll take you out to play when I'm free later."

"Pretty..." Xie Yunshu echoed, Xie Liu could only hear his voice, but couldn't see the blue sky and flowing clouds of this city reflected in his empty eyes, like a dead sea without waves, he seemed to love Uncle Liu , as if repeating to herself, "It's so beautiful."

Xiao Jinbei quickly drove to the suburbs of the city, and there was an endless construction site in front of him. High-rise buildings that had not yet been formed stood up straight, exposing|exposing the cold appearance of reinforced concrete, and all kinds of machines that Xie Yunshu called famous or not famous were scattered. In every corner of the construction site.

Sixth Uncle Xie took the steering wheel and galloped through the alleys.

Yangcheng is developing everywhere, and buildings are being built everywhere.

Uncle Xie Liu followed a construction boss as a foreman, and Xie Yunshu came to join him.

There are many developed cities in the Yangtze River Delta region. People who work on the coast usually choose the nearby Shencheng, Sioux City and Liangcheng, and go to Ningcheng and Hangzhou if they are further away. Few people will travel thousands of miles to Yangcheng, especially Xie Yunshu Such a young age.

But Xie Yunshu just wanted to stay away from home for the time being. It is too easy to meet familiar faces in the cities of the Yangtze River Delta. He has not yet figured out how to face those emotional and meaningful eyes.

Uncle Liu introduced him to the east and west while driving. This is a development zone newly designated by the government. The place is very large. There are more than a dozen contractors and hundreds of workers. The construction site is in the east and the living area is in the west. , It only takes about ten minutes to get to the construction site from their dormitory. There is a small shop in the living area, there is a breakfast stand, and there are people who shave their heads for ten yuan a time.

Xie Yunshu listened carefully and nodded.

The weather was too hot, there was no construction on the construction site during the day, and there were many people in the living area, and it was not at all the sweltering heat that Xie Yunshu imagined.

The men were all shirtless, drinking beer and playing cards while sitting under the shade of the big tree. There were very few women, only two or three women were sitting under the tree with palm-leaf fans and chatting while fanning them.

Xie Yunshu also saw many children playing football in a large open space without a goal. They planted a few flags on the ground and ran around without feeling too hot.

The car drove all the way to the innermost part of the park, and stopped in front of a row of simple houses made of colored steel plates.

"Here we are, get out of the car." Uncle Liu opened the door.

Xie Yunshu picked up his bag and got out of the car with Uncle Six.

He glanced roughly, and there were about a dozen doors in front of him. The farthest end was next to the river. There were several trees by the river, and there were thin ropes stretched between every two trees, and the ropes were full of clothes to dry.

There are no human voices around, but there are "squeaky" cicadas, which are very lively.

Uncle Six said, "Let's go, I'll take you to meet the boss first."

The boss was in the office, that is, the first door of the simple room, and when he entered, the air-conditioning blasted his face, and finally cooled Xie Yunshu's face, which was about to evaporate to [-] degrees.

Behind the desk, a thin and tall man in his thirties was playing Pet Lianliankan on the computer, when he heard the sound, he raised his head: "Old Xie is here?"

Uncle Liu stepped forward with a smile: "Boss, that's what I told you, my nephew."

The boss's surname is Xu, and his name is Xu Liang. He raised his eyebrows unexpectedly when he saw Xie Yunshu: "This is your nephew? He really doesn't look like you at all."

Uncle Six was taken aback, and didn't know how to answer, Xu Liang continued: "Did such a beautiful young man be put on our construction site? If you send him to any shop in the city, there will be people rushing for him."

Only then did the sixth uncle realize that the boss was praising him, and his eyes became a line with a smile: "It's the first time this kid has gone out, his parents don't worry about him being alone, so stay with me and take care of him first, boss, don't worry, my nephew He is very hardworking, and he can do whatever I can do.”

There was a shortage of people on the construction site, Xu Liang saw that Xie Yunshu was neither arrogant nor impatient and calm, and he didn't look like he couldn't stay, so he took a list from the drawer and asked, "Have you brought your ID card?"

Xie Yunshu: "Bring it."

Xu Liang looked at the certificate: "Okay, then you will follow your uncle from now on, and you will do whatever he asks you to do. You know all about the treatment, right?"

Uncle Six rushed to say, "I know, I told him everything!"

Xu Liang asked Xie Yunshu to sign a piece of paper, Xie Yunshu wrote the pen, and Xu Liang said "Ouch": "This is also beautifully written, what education do you have?"

Xie Yunshu pursed his lower lip: "Graduated from high school."

Xu Liang nodded again and again: "Ah, not bad, not bad, follow your uncle to settle first."

Most of the people who worked on the construction site were middle-aged people in their forties. It would be good for those people to write their own names. Xie Yunshu graduated from high school and was already highly educated.

Xie Yunshu lives in the same house as his sixth uncle. There are six beds in the [-]-square-meter simple room. The area is not too small. People are lying on the other four beds, wearing only a pair of big underpants, taking a nap on their backs, snoring It sounded like thunder, and the floor fan shook its head, whistling towards the bed.

The men on the construction site are rough, pots and pans and tooth cups and toothbrushes are mixed together in the house, smelly clothes and socks are thrown all over the floor, the simple house has no windows, and the rainy climate in the south makes this small space smell musty Unlimited fermentation, as soon as Xie Yunshu entered the room, he was so smoked that he couldn't breathe.

But he quickly relaxed himself again. He knew that he would live in such an environment for a long time in the future, and he had to adapt as soon as possible.

……

Xie Yunshu just settled down on this construction site.

At the beginning, he worked as a small worker, overturning the carts, clearing debris, and helping the big workers. The daily salary was 90 yuan a day. Now in July, he still has 20 yuan a day for high temperature fees.

In just over half a month, he was familiar with most of the operations on the construction site, from excavation and filling, transporting earthwork to making and installing steel bars, from ramming and dismantling formwork, to mixing, pouring and curing concrete, he learned what he encountered , You can get started immediately after learning anything.

Xu Liang soon discovered that Xie Liu's nephew was good-looking, calm, and exceptionally diligent and smart. Within a month, he was promoted to Xie Yunshu to do a major job, and his daily salary rose to 120 yuan, plus 20 yuan for the high temperature. fee, there are 140 a day.

When he was free, Xu Liang called Xie Yunshu to the office, and asked Xie Yunshu to keep accounts and copy materials for him. Xie Yunshu wrote very beautifully. Xu Liang took the engineering bill copied by the child to find someone to sign. Double face.

There is a special cooking aunt on the construction site, and the food is not bad. There are porridge, vegetables and steamed buns in the morning and evening, and a large piece of meat at noon. The dishes are not the same for seven days, and the rice is full. It's all good.

When the work starts at night, the site is in full swing, and the aunt will also bring them soup, such as the chilled mung bean soup, lily soup, and tremella soup, which are placed in a vat half the height of a person, and they can drink whatever they want.

Sufficient food, uninterrupted work is equivalent to an enhanced version of fitness, Xie Yunshu's thin body is getting stronger day by day under the dual effects of this.

Xie Liu was the foreman, and no one bullied Xie Yunshu on the construction site. On the contrary, because he was at least a round younger than everyone else, and he was well-behaved, the workers took good care of him.

So when he first arrived in Yangcheng, Xie Yunshu's life went smoothly.

Two months later, Xie Yunshu received two wages, and he sent most of the money back to his family. More than 3000 yuan was not a low income in 2004.

Xie Yunshu lived and boarded at the construction site, and had basically no expenses. He only saved a little money for himself to buy books and tapes, which were his only entertainment here.

Midsummer tide in the south | It is hot and humid, and Xie Yunshu would sit on the porch outside with a book and read on the days when he was not working. Behind him, there was the laughter of workers gathering to play cards and drink, mixed with all kinds of foul language and Dirty talk, market and rough, that was a world he couldn't get into.

Many times he looked at the heavy sky in the distance, and saw that the setting sun was like a blood-soaked amber, with a scorching blood-yellow color, and there were many random thoughts in his mind like fish swimming in the bottom of the sea. flashed.

In the end, he would always say to himself, this is pretty good, he is content, he has nothing to regret, he tried his best, and now he can also be self-reliant.

Life is like an adversity, and I am also a pedestrian.

It's nothing more than resignation.

……

During the school season in September, Xia Ke got in touch with Xie Yunshu. Xia Ke was admitted to South China University of Technology. They were in the same city, and they made an appointment to get together after Xia Ke's military training.

After the military training at the university was National Day, Xie Yunshu didn't bother his sixth uncle, took the bus by himself, and found Xia Ke's school all the way.

Xia Ke is still bluffing like that, very enthusiastic, but as always, he likes to look for superiority.

His school is very large and beautiful, with tall banyan trees planted on both sides of the main road, dense green branches and leaves covering the top of the head, and casting a thick protective shade.

College students on bicycles galloped past under the trees, their young and happy faces were full of real youthful vitality and enviable hope.

Xie Yunshu followed Xia Ke to visit every corner of the campus, met Xia Ke's roommates, and had dinner with Xia Ke and the others at night.

At a barbecue stand near the east gate of the school, seven or eight teenagers ordered two cases of beer.

This group of college freshmen chatted and laughed wantonly, talking about how perverted their instructors were, but it was so sad to leave. They discussed which girl in the class was the most beautiful, which boy had pre-emptively chased after them, and they complained about the prices in Yangcheng Too high, the pocket money given by the family is not enough to spend.

Xie Yunshu listened silently. These topics were too unfamiliar to him. They were other people's youth and other people's lives, and he had no way to join them.

After drinking for three rounds, Xia Ke seemed to have drunk too much. He poked Xie Yunshu's forehead with his finger, and said bitterly: "My buddy, I still can't figure it out, how could you do such a stupid thing?" What about it? I couldn’t believe it when someone told me, which donkey kicked your brain?”

Xie Yunshu was completely unprepared. He seemed to be walking on flat ground when he was suddenly pushed from behind, and the flat ground under his feet suddenly turned into steps. He staggered and fell down several steps in a row .

He spent several months buffering the darkest and most obscure time in his life, and the psychological defense he finally built was torn apart again unexpectedly.

Xia Ke's classmate didn't understand, so he asked, "What do you mean? What did this brother do?"

Xie Yunshu's hand holding the wine bottle trembled convulsively.

Xia Ke pointed to Xie Yunshu, and said to his new classmate: "My buddy, his grades are usually better than mine. If there is no accident, he will be in the south of Zhejiang. I don't know which tendon in my brain is offending the axis..."

Xie Yunshu's face was as pale as paper.

Xia Ke usually speaks as fast and urgent as a machine gun, but he stopped somehow: "Forget it, stop talking! Drink!"

At the time of parting, Xia Ke sent him to the bus. At that time, Xia Ke was obviously drunk. He grabbed Xie Yunshu's neck with his arms, and put his entire body weight on Xie Yunshu's shoulders:

"Bookworm, I really never thought you would go this way. Really, let me tell you something from the bottom of my heart. In the whole sea, I, Xia Ke, only recognize you as a friend. I always thought that you would be able to do it in the future." ...is able to have a bright future..."

Xie Yunshu took the bus back. He leaned back on the back of the chair and stared blankly at the roof of the car without any focus. It was clear that this day was just touring the campus and did not do any heavy work, but he felt extremely tired. His body and spirit seemed to be disturbed. Something hollowed out.

Thinking of Xia Ke's words, he covered his cold cheeks with trembling hands, tears pouring down like rain.

He realized so deeply that his youth had never been glamorous, and he encountered gray hair.

……

During the first Spring Festival in Yangcheng, Xie Yunshu did not go home, because someone had to watch the house on the construction site, and the boss paid three times the wages. Xie Yunshu stayed with three other single workers.

Workers like to get together to play cards and mahjong when they are not working. Xie Yunshu never participated in it before, but now——

"You fucking don't read books, we are short of one of the three!"

Xie Yunshu said helplessly, "I don't know how you guys can play."

"No, we will teach you, this stuff is easy to learn!" The worker came over and took away his book, and pulled him, "Hurry up and don't disappoint, little brother, you have to be more social!"

Xie Yunshu had no choice but to sit at the poker table. In a short period of time, he learned Cantonese mahjong, Doudizhu, Zhajinhua and Niu Niu, and he played everything well.

A worker handed him cigarettes, and at first he said, "I don't know how to smoke."

"There's no man who doesn't smoke. You don't need to learn it. It's just as natural as going to bed. Hurry up, don't disappoint!"

Xie Yunshu smoked the first cigarette and was choked so badly that the workers laughed, but he got used to the second and third... He has always been very adaptable.

Depraved things are always addictive very quickly. Xie Yunshu spent more than ten days at the poker table. He and a few workers played poker every day when they were full, went to sleep when they were tired, and played again when they woke up. , As long as you keep your eyes open in the middle, you will never leave the smoke.

At the poker table, Xie Yunshu won more than he lost, and on the last day of the holiday, several other workers urged him to treat him, and of course he couldn't refuse.

Xie Yunshu paid the money and asked two people who stayed behind at the construction site next door to come over and watch the place for them, and then the four went to the city center.

During the Spring Festival, the city of Guangzhou is decorated with lights and festoons. Countless huge advertising screens and neon lights are intertwined, reflecting thousands of households and building a prosperous and prosperous world of singing and dancing.

"I invite you to have a good meal. Let's go to the 'Dabian stove'?" Xie Yunshu won a lot and was willing to bleed. The "Dabian stove" is a Cantonese-style hot pot, and many ingredients are expensive.

The three workers looked at each other and smiled, their eyes conveyed the meaning of love that only they could understand, and one of them put Xie Yunshu's shoulders with a smile: "You are a child, how can we kill you, even though today is a treat for you, Brothers also brought you out to experience, so 'this meal' is actually for you to 'pay tuition'!"

Xie Yunshu was still confused when he was taken to a narrow, poorly lit "barber shop": "Didn't we just cut our hair a few years ago?"

His innocent and innocent appearance not only almost killed the workers, but even the young girls inside laughed so hard.

When he figured out what the real business of this "barbershop" was, he escaped from there almost scrambling.

Xie Yunshu stood by the side of the road, smoking a cigarette while waiting for his fellow workers to come out.

After a while, several women came up to strike up a conversation with him, some young and some not young, some with heavy makeup and some without makeup, some good-looking and some not.

At first, Xie Yunshu patiently refused one by one, but for some reason later, an inexplicable anger shot up from the bottom of his heart: "Get out! I don't look like I'm here to whore?"

The other young girls were not annoyed when they saw him looking pretty, and left after being rejected. The last one, who was about 30 years old and wearing a cheongsam that was very abrupt in this New Year's day, turned around and hummed at him. Said: "If you don't come whoring, what are you doing standing at the bridge?"

The woman sneered again and said, "See how long you can pretend to be prudish? Man, heh!"

It was as if Xie Yunshu had been stabbed in the center with a knife, piercing him across the face, bleeding all over the floor, and the pain was so painful that he couldn't even breathe.

The place where he was standing was called "Qiaokou" by the locals, and it was an open trading point for prostitutes, and those "barbershops" were called "Qiaodong".

He covered his heart with his hands, and finally realized belatedly, a person, wherever you stand, is your position in the eyes of others.

Then sooner or later, whether you are willing or not, willing or unwilling, you will reach that position.

Just like he didn't smoke, drink or play cards in his earliest days.

But he has learned it all now.

He was at odds with the whole construction site at first, but now he got along with them too.

He is now standing at the "bridge entrance", standing alone, still confident and arrogant, but who can guarantee that one day in the future, he will not go from the "bridge entrance" to those "bridge openings" Woolen cloth?

The winter in Yangcheng is not cold at all, but Xie Yunshu only felt that the blood vessels all over his body were filled with ice-quenched cold liquid. The neon lights, high and low buildings in front of him, all the scenery shook violently in his sight, as if The vortex that overturns the mountains and seas will swallow him up.

"I always thought you had a bright future."

"Don't disappoint, you have to be more gregarious!"

The two voices in the void echoed rumblingly, making his eardrums buzz, as if two sharp claws pierced into the depths of his soul and tore him apart. Xie Yunshu hugged his arms with both hands, His chest was beating like a bellows, he gulped and exhaled hot, bloody gas.

you can not do that.

There was a small voice floating outside the two powerful noises, quietly speaking from the deepest part of his heart.

You just took one wrong step, and you can't spend your whole life in the mire.

Xie Yunshu suddenly ran wildly.

At first he was wobbly and stumbled.

Then his pace slowly stabilized and quickened.

The streets of the city that never sleeps are like a sea of ​​pedestrians, he runs against the wind, madly, desperately.

He passed pedestrians one after another, brushed their shoulders, and left them behind one by one. Trees, lights, cars, all the scenery were constantly moving backwards, all of which were left behind by him, as if he wanted to impose fate. Get rid of all the injustices and tribulations, as if you want to get rid of all the depravity and perdition that have been subtle in these days.

A withered forest sank in his chest cavity, and a raging fire was burning at this moment. The sound of the wind poured in from his ears, nose, and nose, and poured into his lungs, fueling the fire to soar into the sky.

He kept running, running forward, running far away, running high.

As long as he doesn't die, he will run.

He ran up to the high rooftop, stood on the edge of that terrace, looked up at the night sky, which was as bright as black stars, and overlooked the brilliant sea of ​​floating lights at the end of the horizon.

He stretched out his arms, and the sky and the earth crossed in front of him, as if he was within reach.

With his hands on his lips, he shouted to the world:

"Life is like an ant, and you have a great ambition. Life is thinner than paper and you have an unyielding heart. The universe is uncertain, you and I are both dark horses, Xie Yunshu! You want a bright future!"

……

The author has something to say:

"Being like an ant, you should have a lofty ambition, and your life is thinner than paper, but you have an unyielding heart" comes from "Zeng Guang Xian Wen", which is also a portrayal of Yun Shu's previous life.

Thanks to the little angels who cast mines: 6 for Lin Xin; 1 for Zizi Zizhu and Ruo Xiangxi;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!