perfect out of control

After returning to China, they went to the hospice to visit Lily together. It was spring and the weather was fine. The sun was shining that day. When we went there in the afternoon, the large floor-to-ceiling windows of the ward shone full of sunshine, making the whole room golden. Xia Qian sat by the bed and read novels to Lily.

Lily fell asleep. Seeing them coming in, Xia Qian looked up and smiled at them, then lowered her head and continued to read: "...Huang Rong was anxious when she saw that Guo Jing was about to lose, so she approached him. Come forward to help....No way, I can't stop, she wakes up as soon as I stop, the boss is not happy." She interrupted a sentence in "The Legend of the Condor Heroes", and Lily, who was dreaming of martial arts, seemed to understand Yes, she frowned as if there was nothing in her sleep, and Xia Qian continued to read, "Guo Jing stepped away from the other party, and saw Huang Rong's expression was different. "I couldn't help frowning and said in a low voice, "Oh, it's so annoying, you come to feed me dog food, even if you read a martial arts novel, you will be fed dog food!"

They didn't disturb Lily's sweet dreams that day, but Xia Qian said to the sleeping Lily when she was about to leave: "I interrupted an advertisement, Tan Zhen and Sheng Ye came to see you," she lowered her voice, like a child saying Whisper, "They're married."

Sheng Ye always felt that Lily heard it, the sun was shining on the corner of her mouth, and her expression had a smile.

Tan Zhen leaned over and whispered to Lily who was on the hospital bed: "We will come to see you another day."

Later they went there again and had a few words with Lily, but most of the time Lily was sleeping, and she slept very comfortably. Later, when the weather became warmer day by day, Lily's spirit suddenly improved, shouting Wanting to go on a spring outing, Xia Qian took her to a nearby outing for a few days. When driving through a valley, Lily was attracted by the scenery there, so Xia Qian rented a nearby wooden house for Lily to enjoy the mountain for a few days. living between.

Sheng Ye had a video with them once, and Lily was sitting on the big terrace of the wooden house basking in the sun, waving his hand to greet him, her eyes were very bright, Lily and Xia Qian's eyes were both slightly squinted in the camera.Xia Qian said that Lily drank black tea on the terrace every afternoon and watched the meadows and birds in the valley. Although her health was deteriorating, she was in surprisingly good spirits and her eyes were good. She read her novels with reading glasses.

Then one afternoon, when Xia Qian made tea and served it out, she saw Lily falling asleep under a blanket on the terrace. With eyes closed, facing the valley in full bloom in spring, he walked peacefully.

***

Sheng Ye and Tan Zhen went to Lily's funeral, of course they went separately, but such an occasion could not escape the all-pervasive paparazzi, Tan Zhen was photographed at the funeral, so his relationship with Xia Qian was even more stamped, And they didn't come out to defend anything, Sheng Ye knew that Tan Zhen didn't want these worldly disturbances to disturb Lily's peaceful death.

Sheng Ye envied Xia Qian very much. She almost did everything she could for Lily. She was so sad, but even when she was sad, she could calmly say to Lily in the portrait: "Grandma, I have no regrets. I hope you will leave too. no regrets."

But he himself is a person who violated the oath before his father's hospital bed. Now he has money and a successful career, but there is no way to make up for those regrets.

They sent Lily away at the beginning of April, and Shengye didn't expect to send away Dean Xiao of Yihai Theater at the end of the month.

He only stayed in Yihai for one year, and met Dean Xiao a few times, but he was not very familiar with him, but everyone in the troupe called him Master Xiao.Before the dean passed away, he also visited the hospital. Together with Uncle Jie, Master Xiao had just recovered from an acute heart attack and was not in good spirits. The nurses told their visitors not to stay in the ward for too long.

Sheng Ye still remembered that Master Xiao was lying on the hospital bed that day, and said to him with emotion: "If you hadn't been abducted by Jie Pingan, you would be a great drama actor, just like your father."

Only then did he know that the dean knew his father, but the dean looked very tired at that time, so he didn't ask any more questions, only Uncle Jie muttered beside him nonchalantly: "Where did I abduct it? Tan Zhen abducted him." He subconsciously took out a cigarette and wanted to smoke, Sheng Ye coughed heavily, Jie Pingan put the cigarette back belatedly, and sat obediently.

The dean turned his head to look at Jie Ping'an, and said, "Didn't you bring Tan Zhen here? Although making movies is good, but drama is your old profession. Don't be partial."

Sheng Ye looked at Uncle Jie and nodded without saying a word.

No one expected that the dean would pass away suddenly a few nights later.

This is the second time for Sheng Ye to attend someone else's funeral in a month. It is different from the simple ceremony that Xia Qian gave to Lily. Now lying unconscious in the ice coffin, thinking that the heart attack could have happened so suddenly and without warning, he couldn't help but think of Tan Zhen's mother. Every second in the mourning hall, he felt like a stone was pressing on his heart.

After the farewell ceremony for the body was over, he didn't see Uncle Jie. He ran back to the mourning hall to have a look, only to see Jie Ping'an standing in front of the body, smoking a cigarette. Sheng Ye stepped forward, took some incense sticks, and handed them to him. , Said: "Let's send the dean off again."

Jie Pingan took the incense, lit it, plugged it in, rolled his throat, and said: "Your father was determined to go to Hong Kong Island to develop, Xiao Ge was the most opposed, and then your father... something happened," Jie Pingan Wrinkled his nose, "Brother Xiao told me that he should have tied up your dad in the first place, and he blamed himself. In fact, I am also responsible. Your dad made that decision, and I was the only one around him who supported him. You and I Dad yearns for the big screen, the only difference is that I am not satisfied with the little applause and spotlight on the stage, your dad, he is actually a little purer," he said with a sigh, "I have never been with you As I said, the reason why your dad wants to go to Hong Kong Island to develop is because he wants to give the person he likes a better life. You also know that even now, drama actors are very poor, poor and hard-working. Not to mention."

This is the first time Sheng Ye heard about this, the "person he likes" is obviously not his mother, and his father hadn't played a love story with his mother in the hospital at that time: "The person my father likes, in the end because my father had a 'car accident' and Did he break up?"

Jie Pingan shook his head: "It was separated before that, and I found a better home." He looked up at the portrait in the mourning hall, and sighed, "I am the only one left of the three now. Yes, I guess so do I..."

Sheng Ye couldn't take it anymore and said, "You are different from them. My dad and the dean both have wives, but you don't. Neither my dad nor the dean became famous. If you become famous, I guess you will live to 99."

Jie Pingan was amused by him, and then both of them laughed.

Everyone knows that the greatest wish of the dean in this life is to let more people enter the theater, let drama and stage enter more people's lives, let those actors who love drama and those artists who dedicate their lives to the stage be rewarded. There are rewards.After returning to Fushan, Sheng Ye and Tan Zhen chatted all night, talking about the dean and his father, and the more they talked, the more emotional they became: "We who are film and television actors are indeed taking advantage of the sky, taking advantage of the times. It’s cheap, there are so many classic dramas, so many powerful drama actors, and no one can be known.” He thought of the photo album he had thrown away, and the many vivid faces on it, “Many people, You look old when you look at it.”

Like his father, like Dean Xiao, he spent his whole life on stage.

Tan Zhen said after listening, "Thinking of it this way, it seems very romantic."

That's right, Sheng Ye thought, it's different from film and television actors, drama actors don't have so many announcements and advertisements to endorse, they are pure actors, they have been in those roles all their lives.How hard and how romantic.

***

The house that Shengye bought in the Shanhu Mansion was almost finished being decorated, and because he was busy, he didn’t have time to guard it. It took almost a year to get it done. On the way to the community, Tan Zhen asked him: “What are you doing?” Why didn't you consider buying a bigger house?"

"I'm different from you," Sheng Ye said while driving, "My family is just me and my mother, and my mother also said, let me buy a bigger one, and she can live in the old house , said that in the future I will also get married or something..."

"Then why didn't you listen to her?"

"I didn't think I would get married," Sheng Ye said, and finally laughed, "It was then, I thought I might be like this for the rest of my life, my family might only be my mother, of course I couldn't let her alone man."

Tan Zhen looked at him and remained silent.

Sheng Ye continued: "I bought a big house to live alone, isn't it too busy? I'll bring my mother to live here. If the house is too big and I'm not at home, she will struggle to clean it up, but I still have to buy it." The big one, I bought it on the first floor, with a big courtyard."

"For Jackson."

Sheng Ye smiled: "Yes!"

"What about the old house, do you want to sell it?" Tan Zhen asked.

Sheng Ye thought for a while: "No way....Actually, I feel that my mother can't leave that house." He pulled his Adam's apple, "Now the new house is going to be renovated, but I don't seem very happy either. He looked at Tan Zhen, "Do you think there is something wrong with me?"

Tan Zhen smiled faintly: "Because you like old houses."

Sheng Ye sighed: "But if I knew my mother didn't plan to move there, I might as well buy a bigger one, maybe a small villa." He smiled and raised his eyebrows at Tan Zhen, "It's convenient for my golden house Hidden array!"

Tan Zhen frowned with a smile: "'Zang Zhen' sounds very dangerous."

Sheng Ye looked at the traffic light in front of the windshield and nodded: "It's very dangerous."

Although it was just a joke, he also seriously thought, isn't their current relationship dangerous?Tan Zhen's mother has a heart condition, and she may leave at any time like the dean. Isn't it dangerous?So they dare not even wear the wedding ring on their hands, they can only hang it on the pendant.

But it's actually quite good, after all, it's close to the heart.

***

Back at the villa in the evening, Sheng Ye suddenly received several voice messages from Jie Pingan. He was shocked to hear Jie Pingan said on the other end of his phone that he planned to return to the theater, but Jie Pingan didn't sound like he had been drinking, he was serious. Yes, and seriously asked him if he was free next time.It's a pity that Sheng Ye will go back to record "Falling in Love with Friday" next.

"Really?" Jie Pingan felt a little regretful, and suddenly asked after a while, "Then do you still have contact with Tan Zhen?"

Sheng Ye looked up at Tan Zhen, Tan Zhen walked over, Sheng Ye said, "It's Uncle Jie, he asked me..."

"I heard." Tan Zhen put down his coffee cup and sat down, "You can ask him what's the matter."

Before Sheng Ye replied, Jie Pingan sent another voice message: "That's right, I haven't contacted Tan Zhen for a long time, and I feel a little embarrassed to ask for help suddenly. If you still have contact with him, it's not convenient for you to let me know." Ah, does he have a schedule next time, has he thought about trying the stage of drama?"

Tan Zhen was taken aback when he heard that, Sheng Ye looked at him, his eyes were asking "Do you have any?" Tan Zhen seemed a little hesitant: "I don't have any other scenes to shoot for now..."

Sheng Ye opened his eyes wide: "Then do you want to try?"

Tan Zhen frowned slightly: "It's not whether I want to try it, I'm afraid I'm not that material."

"How do you know if you don't try it? I thought I wasn't good enough for acting!" Sheng Ye blurted out, only to realize that he was forcing Tan Zhen, and hurriedly said, "But you still have to like it, if you don't like it, it's fine. Yes, there is a specialization in art!"

He hadn't figured out how to return to Jie Pingan, but Jie Pingan sent another voice, saying: "Actually, I think Tan Zhen has a good audience base, especially among young people. If he is willing to come, he can make the drama This art form is promoted to more people..."

Sheng Ye frowned, thinking that you can't use him like this, why do you always use him, if you use you, use it in your heart, why tell me, just tell me and let him know face said...

"Hey, brother Tan Zhen, it mainly depends on whether you like it or not, you just think about it!" He was most afraid that Tan Zhen would be burdened, and Jie Ping'an said that it was tantamount to imposing the burden of revitalizing drama on Tan Zhen. With his understanding of Tan Zhen, Tan Zhen would definitely feel that if he refused, he would be sorry for the expectations of many seniors and colleagues. He knew that he could do it, but he didn't give a hand to this declining drama industry.

Sure enough, Tan Zhen said, "I'll think about it."

When it was over, he began to feel guilty, and Sheng Ye regretted it.

Going to bed at night, turning off the lights, Sheng Ye lay in the dark for a while, and suddenly asked in a low voice, "Brother Tan Zhen, are you happy?"

Tan Zhen's voice was on the right, and said in a deep voice, "Why do you ask that, I am very happy."

Sheng Ye turned over and faced him: "When you debuted, they called you the melancholy prince, do you know why?"

"...It's not because I'm really depressed, is it?"

Sheng Ye stood up and looked down into Tan Zhen's eyes in the darkness: "Yes, you are really depressed!"

Tan Zhen's eyes were smiling: "Are you so depressed?"

"Brother Tan Zhen, I think you don't seem to be selfish at all. You have to be selfish to be happy. You are so good at rejecting people. You think it's your job to ask for anything. Even if it's difficult, you will still agree in the end after thinking about it, so you are actually thinking now, how can I spare time to participate in dramas?"

Tan Zhen: "..."

Sheng Ye lay down: "I knew it."

"No," Tan Zhen pondered, "I'm just wondering...whether I'm up to the job, don't be self-defeating."

"Look! You're already worrying about this! To put it bluntly, Uncle Jie is trying to figure out your popularity and traffic. You don't have to save face for him. If it's inconvenient for you to refuse tomorrow, I'll reply for you!"

Tan Zhen turned his head to look at the people around him, as if he could vaguely see the other person's angry look in the dark: "... Sheng Ye," he said, "Thank you."

"You're welcome, go to sleep, don't think too much~"

"Then answer me one more question," Tan Zhen asked, "Do you want more people to enter the theater?"

Sheng Ye pondered for a few seconds: "...that has nothing to do with me."

"to be frank."

Sheng Ye thought for a while and said, "I think so, but if it makes you reluctant, then I will definitely not want to. You don't need to achieve other people's dreams."

Tan Zhen gave a "hmm" and said, "Just ask."