perfect out of control

They really went to the beach before dawn. When they went out at one o'clock in the morning, they met a Chinese-American who lived in the hotel together. The couple took their daughter to the island for vacation. The little girl was about six or seven years old and seemed to know Tan. Every time she saw Tan Zhen, she shyly hid behind her parents. Sometimes her mother teased her, saying, "Do you like brother Tan Zhen or hate him?" The girl blushed and said nothing. Sheng Ye also likes this little girl with big eyes, he thinks that children are like small animals, their eyes are very clean, their thoughts are pure, they will not hide their likes and dislikes.

When the girl's family of three came back from the hotel when they walked out of the hotel, the couple smiled and nodded at them. Sheng Ye felt that they knew about Tan Zhen, but they never said it clearly and kept a comfortable sense of distance.Now he and Tan Zhen were going out at midnight, and the other party didn't bother much.

Seeing Tan Zhen, the little girl began to walk away with her face close to her mother again. Sheng Ye bumped into Tan Zhen with his elbow and said quietly, "You talk to others, are you shy too?"

Tan Zhen didn't know whether to laugh or cry, and said hoarsely, "I told her that she ignored me."

"But she'll be happy in her heart!"

He pinched Tan Zhen's arm, and Tan Zhen turned around with a smile and called the girl by her nickname: "Rongrong?"

The sound was so crispy that Sheng Ye immediately turned into a red Fuji when he saw the little sister's face.

Tan Zhen asked the little girl if the bonfire party was fun. After coming back so late, the little girl didn't dare to answer him. She held her mother's hand and nodded slightly with her back to Tan Zhen while hiding her face.

Walking out of the hotel, Tan Zhen sighed, "She is so shy, are all children so shy?"

Sheng Ye smiled: "Isn't it just like you? You are shy as a big man, can you blame her? You may have been shyer than her when you were young. Hey, but it's no wonder. She lived in the United States since she was a child. I guess she I've never seen a handsome Asian like you."

"Stop praising me for being handsome," Tan Zhen said in a low voice, "Before I met you, the number of times I was praised for being handsome in a year was not as much as in a week after I met you."

"Those people are not with you every day. I watch you every day. What can I do?"

Tan Zhen was amused and helpless, sighed: "I dare not grow old when you are like this."

"You're handsome even when you're old, isn't Pierce Brosnan still handsome when you're old? And you have deep bones..."

Tan Zhen seemed to hear something strange, and couldn't bear to interrupt him: "Where is my bone?"

"I didn't say it, it was the clerk at the optician's who said that you have deep bones, and you look good in those glasses, but I don't look good in them." Sheng Ye was quite reconciled in retrospect, curled his lips, and looked again Tan Zhen's side face, "And you have deep bones, not a mixed race, better than..."

Before he finished speaking, Tan Zhen raised his hand to cover his mouth, and said, "Intermission."

Sheng Ye was covered by his big hand, the ring just stuck to his lips, and he smiled happily.

***

At two o'clock in the middle of the night, the seaside was dark and the wind was still strong, so it was not romantic at all.

"I told you not to come so early." Tan Zhen said.

Sheng Ye was also a little dumbfounded: "I didn't expect it to be so dark, I can't even see your handsome face clearly."

Tan Zhen smiled: "It's still a meme, isn't it?"

Taking advantage of the street lights on the beach road not far away, Sheng Ye walked towards the beach: "I'm afraid I won't be able to get up in the morning."

Tan Zhen walked slowly with him, thought of something, and smiled: "If you really want to get up early, I have plenty of ways to get you up."

"What way?" Sheng Ye turned around.

Tan Zhen looked at him: "Secret."

It was too dark and very cold by the seaside, and there were still four or five hours before sunrise, but Sheng Ye insisted not to go back: "It's very dark, but think about it, we'll sit here without seeing light for five hours, and then Suddenly the light came, the feeling must be super shocking, super unforgettable, believe me, Brother Tan Zhen!"

"If you catch a cold, it will be unforgettable."

"That's what we want, so that we have to hug each other to keep warm in order not to catch a cold, I assure you," Sheng Ye vowed, "This night will definitely be unforgettable for you forever."

Tan Zhen lowered his head and touched his chest: "My body temperature may not prevent you from catching a cold."

"I can!" Sheng Ye raised his arms and hugged Tan Zhen, "I'm naturally hot!"

Then I felt that Tan Zhen also hugged him.

They hugged each other quietly in the dark seaside with no one there. Shengye raised his head from Tan Zhen's shoulders, and suddenly saw the sky full of stars above his head, extremely brilliant.

"Brother Tan Zhen, look up."

Tan Zhen also raised his head, shocked by the beauty of this not-so-good day.

"It's been a long time since I saw so many stars," he said.

"You can only see where there is no light." Sheng Ye said while rubbing Tan Zhen's back, trying to make him warmer.

Tan Zhen bowed his head: "Are you getting hot from rubbing?"

"I'll drill your log to see if I can make fire." Sheng Ye said casually, his eyes lit up, "It seems like a pun."

"What's the pun?" Tan Zhen said with a smile, "You haven't gotten enough of my fire yet?"

Sheng Ye said solemnly: "Brother Tan Zhen, the pun I said was 'wood', where are you going?"

Tan Zhen was stunned for a moment before he belatedly said "Oh", which sounded a little embarrassed no matter what.

He wasn't like this before, he played a lot with Sheng Ye, maybe he can sing pornographic accents on shows in the future.

It was still very dark around, and the sea of ​​stars could not illuminate the night, but... how should I put it, Tan Zhen couldn't help but hugged the person in his arms tighter, he thought, these stars are the existence of light Proof is the reason why people can persist in the dark.For the light, even if it is momentarily insignificant.

For four or five hours, they sat on the beach, chatting with each other next to each other, and they talked about unnutritive content. They couldn't see each other's faces clearly in the dark, so they missed each other's voice even more.

Sheng Ye asked Tan Zhen how much the ring was, how much the piano was, and Tan Zhen said, Sheng Ye didn't say anything for a while, and then said after a while: "You spend so much money on these, and you only earn so little by doing a play. .”

Tan Zhen gave a faint "hmm": "If you still have money now, you may not be able to spend it in the future."

"I'll spend it in the future," Sheng Ye said. "I'll start working hard to make money when I go back. When we get old, we'll take a cruise around the world and I'll pay for it."

"Okay." Tan Zhen responded gently.

"And don't take on Uncle Jie's work in the future," Sheng Ye said, "It's not a thankless job."

"Director Jie Pingan..." Tan Zhen said, "He is the director who has paid me the most in my life. If I take on another hundred films from him, I won't be able to pay him back."

Sheng Ye understood, maybe Tan Zhen's voice was too gentle, and the darkness magnified the gentleness, which made him feel sad and moved.

I thought it would be difficult for a few hours, but when two people cuddled and chatted like this, the time became a kind of enjoyment, like dessert, like a bowl of hot noodles, with flavor and temperature.

The beach in the early morning was empty except for them, so they were close together, so there was no need to worry about any strange eyes.

Sheng Ye felt that the sky was not as dark as before, and it might be dawn soon.Tan Zhen looked at him looking up at the sky and said, "Have you ever heard a song..."

Before he finished speaking, Sheng Ye said, "Vampire's Sunrise?"

Tan Zhen froze for a moment, then smiled as if relieved, and put his arms around his shoulders: "Why do you always guess?"

"Because it's very similar to what we are now." It's a vampire who can't see the light, Sheng Ye thought, it's a pity, but not sad, "Why did you say this suddenly, is it to sing for me?"

Tan Zhen was helpless: "You know I don't sing well."

When he couldn't see anyone, just listening to Tan Zhen's words, Sheng Ye became more fascinated by his reserved and gentle tune. How could singing with such a voice be unpleasant? "Next time we go to KTV to sing all night, I'll teach you, and try to make sure you don't fake singing next time at the New Year's Eve party."

Tan Zhen said yes, and said: "Then you sing it to me."

Sheng Ye blinked: "You really want to hear it? I can't sing as well as your king neighbor."

"I know," Tan Zhen said, feeling excited, and pushed his back, "Sing it quickly."

No way, Sheng Ye said in his heart, you just can't refuse you because of me: "Then... just make do with it."

This is a song by LOTUS, or a song written and composed by Salinger. Shengye really didn't expect to sing Salinger's song for Tan Zhen.

But this song really suits them too well.

Maybe my singing is not as good as the original, but my feelings will never lose.

He closed his eyes and felt the piano accompaniment sounding in the night——

we agreed

this is the last night

Say goodbye to the stars

Brilliant

already on the way

For this day

i have been waiting

tens of thousands of years

wish too much

only this one is true

with your arms

give me the brightest flame

Forever

i saw the first light

flying

like butterfly wings

just flap for a second

just light up

My night

Too many lies

only this sentence is true

I want the sunrise

it's you holding my hand

say you Love Me

say you Love Me

Lost for too long, a dream I can't wake up from

Who else should I wake up

if not you

wish too much

only this one is true

with your arms

give me the brightest flame

Forever

Too many lies

only this sentence is true

I want the sunrise

it's you holding my hand

say you Love Me

After he sang, the wind picked up again. He was still surging in the reverberation center of the song. He couldn't help but surrender to Salinger's musical genius. How could there be such a passionate song in the world, so suitable for listening to at sunrise Song?

Tan Zhen looked at him with dazed eyes and said, "It sounds good."

Sheng Ye also looked at him, the sky had turned dark blue, he could see Tan Zhen, he wanted to smile unconsciously, and wanted to say to his father in the sky: Dad, did you hear that, his lines are so good, It's just that the two words are pleasant to hear, and he said them so charmingly.

He shivered, probably because too much cold air was pouring into his lungs, so Tan Zhen took off his coat and spread it over his shoulders, Sheng Ye pulled the other side of the coat over Tan Zhen's shoulders, the two of them Wearing the same clothes, like two birds huddled in a nest.

The sound of the waves was louder than before, like a call, and Sheng Ye felt that the sun was about to come out.

The Son of Light came late, and when the corner of the sun leaped out of the sea, Shengye was so moved that he wanted to cry. Only after staying in the dark for a long time can he truly appreciate the beauty of light.The first ray of light on the earth shines on them, and no one can say that they are dishonest.

Tan Zhen's hand suddenly covered his eyes that were about to cry, and said, "Don't look directly at the sun."

Sheng Ye pulled away Tan Zhen's hand, turned around and hugged him, feeling Tan Zhen's hand put down on his back.

"Why is it still so cold..." Sheng Ye whispered, hiding his crying.

Tan Zhen stroked his back with his big hands: "The sun must rise quickly, if it doesn't rise, my baby will freeze to death."

Sheng Ye smiled. It was the first time he heard Tan Zhen call him a baby. Such a vulgar word was uttered by Tan Zhen with a soft poetic flavor, not like a secular pet name, but more like The name of a treasure.

The sun finally rose completely, and they were bathed in the sun, and they didn't know whether they really felt the faint temperature of the morning sun, or they warmed each other, as if it really wasn't that cold anymore.

The sea breeze blows Tan Zhen's forehead hair, he looks at the direction of the rising sun, Sheng Ye looks at him for a long time, Tan Zhen turns his head and smiles at him, Sheng Ye can't help thinking, the person I love is so handsome, The melancholy in his eyes can't even be melted away by the sun, what kind of eyes does Miss Tang Dan have?

Tan Zhen held his hand, stood up and said, "Let's go."

So the two of them walked along the seashore, the sea washed up one after another, the sound of the waves drowned out the hustle and bustle of the world, Shengye even hoped that there were only him and Tan Zhen in the world at this moment.

He asked Tan Zhen: "Brother Tan Zhen, do you know Tang Dan?"

Tan Zhen nodded: "Well, the host of "Best Debater"."

"She doesn't seem to like you very much." Sheng Ye said, his tone was full of unhappiness.

Tan Zhen said: "There are many people who don't like me."

Sheng Ye felt sad when he heard his usual tone: "But she used Salinger to step on you, saying that you are so melancholy that there is no meaning."

"Compared with Salinger, I may not have much connotation."

Sheng Ye shook his head: "If she knew you, she would never say such a thing."

Tan Zhen asked, "So you think I'm more handsome than Salinger?"

Sheng Ye nodded immediately: "Of course!"

"How about compared with Sui Qingchi?"

Sheng Ye thought about it for a while.

Tan Zhen stopped to look at him, frowning unconsciously.

Sheng Ye couldn't help laughing out loud, and kissed him on tiptoe. Tan Zhen lowered his head in cooperation before his feet were fully up. After the kiss was over, Sheng Ye looked at him and said, "Brother Tan Zhen, there is no one in this world. People are more handsome than you." Everyone's aesthetic orientation is different, in my case, you are already at the top, and you are about to break through the threshold.

Tan Zhen smiled and said, "Thank you."

Sheng Ye said: "And I'm actually not a fan of Sui Qingchi, at most I can be regarded as a passerby."

Tan Zhen stopped again, with a look of astonishment on his face, before letting out a breath after a while: "Didn't you tell me earlier, how much did I pay him to sing that song?"

Sheng Ye lowered his head and smiled: "My wife, don't spend money recklessly next time."

"It's only this time, you'd better remember it forever."

Sheng Ye saw that Tan Zhen was pretending to be angry and put on his face, but it didn't last long, and he would quickly show his usual pampering and tenderness. Such Tan Zhen sometimes made him feel distressed: "I really think Miss Tang Dan shouldn't Then they shouldn’t say that about you, but then I thought, if they see the real you, they will definitely fall in love with you immediately, so let’s forget it, I don’t want to compete with so many people for you.”

Tan Zhen smiled: "You graduated from the screenwriting department, right?"

Sheng Ye looked at him and thought to himself, does it make you feel better when I say this? I really feel sorry for a gentle person like you who has been misunderstood and attacked so much.They don't know what kind of environment and family you grew up in, what burdens you bear, how clean your heart is, they don't know anything...they attack you because they don't believe that there are People like you, or enjoying your tenderness, take it for granted, so they are not worthy.

He said: "However, Brother Tan Zhen, sometimes you really can't let go."

Tan Zhen nodded and said, "You mean bed?"

Sheng Ye's face was flushed immediately, and he was tongue-tied. He didn't know how Tan Zhen understood that direction.

"Isn't it?" Tan Zhen frowned, "Then you mean when I can't let go?"

"At this moment," Sheng Ye said, "do you dare to rush into the sea like this?"

Tan Zhen was stunned: "Why did you rush in?"

"No why, why why? I want to rush over now, this is the sea, look at that wave that opens its arms and rushes towards you, don't you want to rush over?"

Tan Zhen saw the flickering light in his eyes, and he was attracted by this light the moment he saw him on the stage.

The sea water was at their feet, so Shengye simply took a few steps forward, took off his shoes, bent over and rolled up his trousers, and turned to Tan Zhen and shouted, "I'll make a sample first!"

Tan Zhen opened his eyes slightly, watching him run all the way into the sea, he was running happily before, but when the waves rushed over, he couldn't run anymore, as if he had been hit by the head, but the sea breeze still came He shouted excitedly, and he ran into the deeper waves with an unyielding momentum, running farther and farther, getting deeper and deeper.

Tan Zhen shouted: "Don't run away!"

The sound of the waves was so loud that Sheng Ye didn't seem to hear it, and continued to move forward bravely.At a certain moment, the undulating sea seemed to lift him up.

Tan Zhen shouted anxiously: "Sheng Ye!!" He quickly took off his shoes, "Sheng Ye——"

Sheng Ye's back finally stopped, he turned around and waved at him, the sea water just covered his waist.

Tan Zhen had already taken a few steps forward and said loudly, "It's too dangerous, come back!"

Sheng Ye turned his ear and shouted, "What?!"

Tan Zhen was a little angry, and shouted: "I will be angry if you don't come back!"

Morino stood still.

Tan Zhen was short of breath: "I'm really angry!!"

Sheng Ye stood in the water for a while, came back obediently, and came out of the sea water little by little until the sea water faded to his calves, then he stopped suddenly and called in the direction beside Tan Zhen: "Ah, the shoes !"

Tan Zhen heard the sound and looked, and a canvas shoe that Sheng Ye took off on the beach was swept away by the waves, just passing in front of him.Without thinking about it, he took two quick steps, trying to catch up with the waves and pick up the shoe, but the waves rolled faster, and he watched the shoe being carried into deeper water.

Sheng Ye was stunned, just watching Tan Zhen, in order to pick up his shoes, took a few steps into the sea with a long leg, and a wave came and wet him from top to bottom, and he didn't When he stopped, the white T-shirt on his body was completely wet, sticking to his body, and he was about to grab the white canvas shoe, but suddenly a wave hit, and the wave washed Tan Zhen from head to toe.

Huge water splashes bloomed on Tan Zhen's body and then left, completely losing the shadow of the shoe. Tan Zhen bent down and pressed his knees in a sense of loss, and stood in the middle of the water, staring blankly at the boundless sea.

Such Tan Zhen looked so embarrassed, yet so vivid and handsome, Sheng Ye stared at him and shouted: "Brother Tan Zhen!"

Tan Zhen just got up and turned his head to look at him. Water flowed from his forehead to his chin. His chest was heaving, his expression was helpless, and he said in a tired tone, "I didn't find it..."

Sheng Ye said it was okay, and walked towards him through the water.

Tan Zhen also walked towards him. As the two approached, Sheng Ye could feel Tan Zhen's heavy breathing after fighting against the huge waves. Their feet touched each other, and the waves kissed their ankles. Sheng Ye bent down and helped Tan Zhen rolled up his wet trousers, and patted Tan Zhen's calf playfully, saying: "Such a strong calf, let's take a good soak in the sea water." On the calves.

Tan Zhen frowned, subconsciously pulled his feet back, and was pulled by Sheng Ye, and said, "Don't move," he looked up at him with a smile, and said, "When I came to my house that time, I said why I always dirty you , do you know why I said that?"

"why?"

Sheng Ye said, "Because I dirty you in my dream before we knew each other."

Tan Zhen froze, blinked his eyes slowly, as if confirming the phrase "when we didn't know each other", and then laughed: "Then congratulations, your dream has come into reality."

Sheng Ye also smiled shyly, and finally said it out, such an unspeakable dream, once thought it would only be a dream forever, but now he can talk to the person in the dream without any burden.

The wind blew his bangs in front of his eyes. He raised his hand and brushed them away. The sand got on his forehead. Tan Zhen bent down and wiped it off with his fingers little by little.

Sheng Ye squatted on the ground, closed his eyes and felt Tan Zhen's fingers wipe his forehead, and asked him, "Is it clean?"

Tan Zhen stopped his hands and said, "Let's save some, I want to dirty you too."

Sheng Ye opened his eyes excitedly, Tan Zhen stretched out his hand to pull him up, Sheng Ye put his hand into Tan Zhen's palm, and clasped his fingers with his backhand.

They took off their shoes and stepped on parallel footprints on the sand with their bare feet. The sun was shining brightly, and people would come to the beach soon, so there was not much time left for them in the sun.

Sheng Ye looked up at Tan Zhen, who was drenched in water, and remembered that Tan Zhen might have never run towards the sea like this before. He concealed his sadness and said, "How could your parents treat you like this? They didn't let you It's fun." How could they be willing...

Tan Zhen smiled and sighed, like a sea breeze.

Sheng Ye looked at the newborn sun: "I used to think that my father was harsh enough to me, but I still did if I wanted to raise Jackson, I still watched AV if I wanted to, and I still did if I wanted to film with you. I used to say that he used his father Quan is oppressing me, but I think I should use Erquan to oppress him, even though he is so fierce, he is the one who compromises in the end."

"Your father is very good to you." Tan Zhen said.

"My mother is also good to me. When I quarreled with my father, she secretly came to comfort me." Sheng Ye said, thinking, so I really can't believe it, why haven't you even played games before? Forget about online games, have you never played stand-alone games?I would rather you have never learned the piano or the erhu, but you have played Mario and the King of Fighters. "When I saw your clumsy look in the first time you played "Assassin's Creed", I told myself that I must bring You go to experience the most fun thing in this world, and I will make up for your missing childhood and teenage years."

Tan Zhen pulled his wrist and walked ashore, and said with a smile, "I'm so touched."

Sheng Ye lowered his head and shook his head in the water, and said, "I mean it."

Tan Zhen felt that he was throwing water on his face, looked at him sideways, and said, "You have already done it, I have played "Resident Evil" and "Assassin's Creed", and I have even acted in GV."

Tan Zhen said these words very gently, without the slightest hint of ridicule or sarcasm, but Sheng Ye still felt his cheeks burn. If he was used to swearing, he might not blush, but Tan Zhen is too upright.

The clothes on both of them were wet, and they would definitely catch a cold if they stayed at the beach like this. After watching the sunrise, they decided to take a walk around and go back to the hotel.

There were a lot of uneven stones on the beach, and Sheng Ye broke down several times after walking for a long time.

Tan Zhen stopped, looked down at his feet, and said, "I'll carry you on my back."

Sheng Ye reminded him: "Think twice before acting, I'm not a girl, it's very heavy."

"Is it heavier than when you were filming?"

"I lost several kilograms because of you, bro!"

Tan Zhen smiled: "Okay, come up," he said, "Brother will carry you."

It seemed that at that second he really became Yan Fei, as if at that second Yan Fei and Kong Xinghe really had a happy ending.Sheng Ye looked at Tan Zhen's back, he did not belong to Yan Fei, but to Tan Zhen, but it was their combination.He didn't refuse anymore, and lay on Tan Zhen's back. Tan Zhen scooped up his legs and carried him on his back.

Sheng Ye hugged Tan Zhen's back and whispered, "Brother, I like you."

Tan Zhen understood, nodded and said, "I know."

Sheng Ye leaned his head on Tan Zhen's shoulder, looked sideways at the sea, and said in his heart to the boy who was destined to him, who might live in another universe: Did you hear, Kong Xinghe, your brother finally heard you Confession.