perfect out of control

Down the mountain by the original road, the security guard saw his astonished face, and Sheng Ye didn't have the nerve to wink with him, and left Fushan Villa in a hurry.

I only remembered when I got to the entrance of the subway station outside Wal-Mart, as if I said I would not go home for dinner...

It was still early, and he didn't know what to do, so he simply went into the supermarket for a stroll, and the dazzling array of products did not distract him, and he would still see Tan Zhen from time to time—on the packaging and advertisements of some products.

Such a fascinated face only upset him at the moment.

Bought a piece of Dove and left Wal-Mart. It was only three o'clock. Sheng Ye walked along the main road without any destination. He went wherever the road took him, passed a convenience store, and went in to buy a root roast Intestine, after passing the park, go in and have a sit.

Later, I passed a bookstore and read most of the book there. It was Wilde's "In Prison", which I opened at random. I didn't expect to be shocked after reading it. Was Wilde actually gay?

His earliest impression of Wilde came from the fairy tale "The Happy Prince" he read when he was a child. It was different from all the fairy tales he had read. How wonderful it is to meet swallows.After watching him, I couldn't sleep for several nights, and I could only comfort myself by fantasizing that the prince and the swallow would meet in heaven.

Later, when I was studying acting at CTR, I also watched Oscar Wilde's play performed by my brothers and sisters. It was completely opposite to his fairy tale style, sharp and humorous.

This "Prison Notes" was written by Wilde in prison after he was imprisoned for homosexuality. What moved him was not the fact that Wilde was actually gay, but the story of a genius writer who fell from heaven to hell in those letters. The mental journey, from anger to peace, from arrogance to humility, is completely different from Oscar Wilde's fairy tales and dramas. If you want to use words to split a person's heart, then Wilde split his heart to the extreme .

But the writer is really miserable, Sheng Ye thought, such a private letter should be made public.

Immersed in the text, the afternoon passed without knowing it. When I came out of the bookstore, it was finally dark, and Shengye grilled something at an open-air barbecue stall for dinner.The barbecue stall was next to a kebab shop, which sold beer and drinks. Sheng Ye hesitated for a while and bought a can of beer.

People at other tables were punching and bragging, and he was the only one sitting in the corner to place orders, but Wilde's "In Prison" was on the table, accompanied by a literary master, and he didn't seem so lonely.

There is a TV outside the Chuan Chuan shop, and it is playing "Dragon and Tiger Strategy" on it. Sheng Ye is drinking beer and eating skewers, watching the familiar scenes on the TV. This movie loves to be replayed every summer, and he watches it repeatedly. Been there several times.

Look, King Xuan and his father were arguing again, Sheng Ye laughed, every time he saw this episode, he remembered those days when he and his father were watching dramas together.

Close your eyes, listen to the lines between Teacher Zeng Changsheng and Tan Zhen, you have to admit that Dad is right, Tan Zhen himself admitted it, and when Tan Zhen helped him take off the filter, he can also admit it calmly , it turns out that Tan Zhen is not perfect.

It's a pity, Dad, that you didn't have the chance to see him grow.

He wasn't the only one watching TV. Three shirtless boys at the other table were also chatting. One of them said that this movie was replayed every year, and the audience really couldn't get tired of watching it.

Another said: "The student party likes to watch it, junior high school students, high school students, isn't it played by Tan Zhen?"

"Tan Zhen is not the protagonist, isn't the protagonist Liang Dong? Tan Zhen's acting skills are not good either."

"People are also quite contrived."

"I love pretending."

Sheng Ye couldn't take it anymore, he smelled of alcohol and anger immediately: "Why do you say that, do you know him?"

The people at the table were stunned for a moment before they realized that someone was choking. One of them turned around and said with a smile, "I don't know you, do you?"

Sheng Ye said, of course I know him.

The table laughed collectively.

Sheng Ye said stubbornly: "Believe it or not, it's up to you. Anyway, I really know him, and he is really nice. Why can you judge him without any contact with anyone?"

He spoke very seriously, but no one paid attention to him. People thought he was drunk, and no one took him seriously.

He was indeed drunk, and even the words "Of course I know" came out without thinking.

In fact, he has also seriously thought about this matter. How did Tan Zhen's reputation for hypocrisy spread? After contacting the real person Tan Zhen, he was 100% sure that it was not Tan Zhen's fault, it was because people just can't see perfection A perfect person has pissed too many people off, because they are not perfect and have ghosts in their hearts, so they don't believe that others can do better than them.If someone is better than them, it must be pretending, no black spot is the biggest black spot.

A person's evaluation of others actually depends on what kind of person he is. There will never be a good person in the eyes of a mean person.

Sheng Ye hiccupped, his shoulders slumped, and he looked at the TV again. King Xuan was wearing a black armor and a red long coat, and he was leading the crowd into the palace gate. The armor sounded, and Tan Zhen's eyes became very interesting on King Xuan. Imposing manner, Sheng Ye thought, that's how you walked into my heart so majesticly.

He lowered his head and turned on his phone. There was still only the word "good" left by Tan Zhen on WeChat.

At some point, the surroundings became quiet, and Shengye even had the illusion that the people at the table were all drunk and lying down, so quiet that he could hear King Xuan's lines on TV.

He is letting the rebels surrender to him, promising to forget the past, promising to pay off the crime... Every line is sonorous and powerful, really nice.

It is also possible that after being drunk, the brain will automatically block the disliked sounds and amplify the favorite sounds infinitely.He liked this feeling very much, looked up following King Xuan's voice, and then suddenly froze.

A figure walked across to him, tall and straight, wearing a loose light gray T-shirt, a black mask covering the lower half of his face, but the pair of eyes exposed were so similar to King Xuan's, and even his tall figure was exactly the same.

The lively sound from the barbecue stand came back again, Sheng Ye looked up at Tan Zhen who seemed to fall from the sky, most of the wine was sober.

Tan Zhen glanced down at the WeChat page of his mobile phone on the table, sat down across the small table, looked at the remaining skewers in the lunch box, and asked him, "Are you still eating?"

Sheng Ye was speechless, he was too shocked.

Tan Zhen pulled off the black mask, Sheng Ye wanted to stop him, and reminded him that there are people who hate you sitting behind you, but Tan Zhen didn't care about it, he pulled off the mask, picked out a bunch of specialties, and put them down. The head said in a dull voice: "I'm a little hungry, let's eat with you for a while."

The table at the barbecue stand is very short, and Tan Zhen is tall and tall, blocking all the people behind him as soon as he sits down.Sheng Ye looked over his shoulder and looked behind him. He couldn't see but could still hear those people's high-spirited speeches. No one realized that the star they had "talked about" just now was sitting behind them.

Before Tan Zhen finished eating the string in his hand, Sheng Ye took off the lid of the lunch box. He was very worried that those people would mention Tan Zhen again, and if they had anything bad to say, he hurriedly said: "It's better to take it away." eat!"

Tan Zhen raised his head and took a deep look at him, put down the skewers, put on his mask, stood up and said, "Then let's go."

Sheng Ye followed and stood up, holding the box of leftover barbecue in his hand. The plastic stool behind him was accidentally knocked down by him. He turned to help the stool, and Tan Zhen stood beside him waiting for him. Sheng Ye didn't dare to look up. , when he got up, he quickly picked up his mobile phone and was about to leave. Tan Zhen glanced back at the "Journal of Prison" on the table and asked, "Is the book yours?"

Sheng Ye hurriedly turned around, almost forgot, Tan Zhen leaned over to pick up the book, he held the book in his left hand, came over and held his arm with his right hand, Sheng Ye only felt a tremor in his arm, like an electric shock.

Tan Zhen led him to the big black Mercedes-Benz G on the side of the road.When I got into the car, the door was closed, and the car was completely quiet.After getting in the car, Tan Zhen kept drinking water, and did not rush to drive. Sheng Ye watched him drink almost half a bottle like this, and could even hear the sound of water sliding down his throat, and then Tan Zhen seemed to have had enough. , looked at him as he closed the bottle cap, and handed it to him again.

Sheng Ye was indeed thirsty, so he took it and drank it.

When drinking water, the car starts, and the neon lights outside the car window flow.

Sheng Ye drank the bottle of Fubao Ice Spring in one gulp, moistened his throat, and it was time to talk, he couldn't keep stalking Tan Zhen like this.

"Sorry." He whispered.

Tan Zhen asked, "I'm sorry for what?"

"I didn't mean to let you go..."

Tan Zhen turned to look at him: "Why is that?"

He asked very gently, and the ending sound was especially gentle. The seemingly invisible breath lingered in Sheng Ye's ears. It was a kind of weakness that was difficult to reveal in a tall man like Tan Zhen. Sheng Ye closed his eyes and thought to himself. Come out, if it is Tan Zhen, he can understand...he is already sending me a safe signal.

He took a deep breath and said: "I am, maybe a little too into the drama, I always think you are Yan Fei, do you also think I am Kong Xinghe?"

Tan Zhen didn't speak, only rolled his Adam's apple slightly.

"Are all movie actors like this?" Sheng Ye looked at his profile, confused and in pain.

The car drove into a long tunnel, the speed on the dashboard was not low, and the tunnel was empty. They overtook the two cars in front until there were no more cars in front. Tan Zhen finally said:

"I think I can still tell the difference," he said, "I'm afraid you won't be able to tell."

Sheng Ye's heart sank following his deep voice.

"But I thought about it for a day," Tan Zhen said, "If you really can't get out, you might as well go in."

The black off-road vehicle rushed out of the tunnel in one breath, and the wide and beautiful night sea rushed towards us. The car stopped at the head of the sea-crossing bridge. After the "click" sound of the seat belt being released, Sheng Ye caught Tan The light gray T-shirt that Zhen was wearing had a soft linen texture—Tan Zhen turned around and kissed him.