perfect out of control

While waiting for the elevator, someone came pushing a wheelchair. There was a little girl sitting in the wheelchair. The person pushing the wheelchair should be her mother. When it was empty, Tan Zhen helped hold down the elevator door and let the mother and daughter go in first. The mother pushing the wheelchair said "thank you" to him.

Tan Zhen nodded, but did not speak. He was wearing a mask and a hoodie, and changed clothes, only showing a pair of eyes. Neither the little girl nor her mother recognized him.

In the elevator, Tan Zhen kept staring at the girl in the wheelchair, not knowing what disease she was suffering from, it reminded him of Kong Xinghe.But Kong Xinghe is different. Even in a wheelchair, Kong Xinghe is still alive. Kong Xinghe always smiles when facing him. He thinks of those days when he was pushing Sheng Ye. If you are not silent, it seems to be a long time in another parallel world.

And the mother with yellow and haggard hair who was pushing the wheelchair reminded him of his own mother.

Yan Fei and Kong Xinghe's life was so miserable, but at this moment he deeply envied them.

The girl and her mother reached the floor first, and Tan Zhen stepped forward to help them press the elevator door. After the mother and daughter left, he did not press the door to close it, but leaned against the elevator wall, waiting for the elevator door to close by itself.I don't know why, but compared to the anxious rush to the hospital yesterday, at this moment, he only hopes that this elevator can go a little slower.

The floor of the cardiology department was still here. Tan Zhen walked out of the elevator with a heavy heart. The nurses were busy at the nurse's desk. He walked like a shadow, and no one noticed him walking past.Walking along the corridor to the end, I saw the door of the VIP ward suddenly opened from the inside.

Tan Qian came out and was about to close the door, when she saw Tan Zhen, she gently opened the door and said, "Go in."

Before Tan Zhen pushed the door, she grabbed his sleeve again, and whispered: "Don't make her angry, follow her."

Tan Zhen nodded slightly.

Pushing the door open and entering the ward, the suffocating silence came again. The curtains of the ward were open and the lights were on. The room smelled of morning tea, which meant that my mother had already had breakfast.

He walked over with very light steps, looking at his mother who was sitting on the hospital bed for infusion, and turned her face out of the window, not looking at him.

The room was silent for a long time, until Tan Zhen said:

"sorry."

Although his mother's face was facing out of the window, Tan Zhen could still see that she choked up slightly.

Wu Liang listened to Tan Zhen's voice, she didn't look at Tan Zhen, but she looked at the reflection on the window glass, and knew how he was standing in front of her, what kind of expression he was, 1.8 meters six, tall and handsome son, seemed to be Became a child who confessed his mistakes.Tan Zhen always admits his mistakes obediently. He usually only makes one mistake once and immediately realizes that he was wrong. He will never make the same mistake again.

She took a deep breath, suppressed her choking, and said, "...I watched yesterday's awards ceremony. You said thank you to your family..."

Tan Zhen has won numerous awards since she was a child. From school competitions, off-campus Olympiads, to professional music competitions, she will never be absent every time Tan Zhen takes the stage to accept an award, and will always watch this proud event from the audience. Son, in Tan Zhen's acceptance speech, she will never be absent. The word "mother" is either at the first position or the last position on Tan Zhen's thank you list, regardless of whether it is first or last. It must be the one with the heaviest weight.

But not yesterday, at the moment when he won the most important glory in his life, she became what he called a vague "family member".The last place was reserved for the boy named Sheng Ye.

When she saw him hugging Sheng Ye, she didn't feel so uncomfortable. This became the last straw that broke her down.When she saw Tan Zhen's name appearing on the screen, she was moved to tears for him, when she felt that she could forgive him for the unclear hug with Sheng Ye for this night that belonged to Tan Zhen, Tan Zhen gave her a fatal blow.

"When you moved out, I thought you were just angry with me," Wu Liang slowly turned her head, looking at Tan Zhen with red eyes, "It turned out that you didn't move out because you were angry with me at all, and I didn't even deserve to let you go." You are angry..."

Her voice trembled slightly, and Tan Zhen said in a deep voice, "It's my fault."

Wu Liang remembered when Tan Zhen threw the erhu downstairs when he was a child. He said he was not careful, but she saw through his lies and his rebellion at a glance. When she saw Tan Zhen shrinking her arm, she couldn't take it anymore. Now she can't really beat Tan Zhen anymore. The only one she can whip is herself.

"You said you were wrong, so where do you say you were wrong?"

Being pressed by his mother, Tan Zhen couldn't tell. His mind was full of Sheng Ye crying and hugging him. How could he say it was a mistake?

Wu Liang looked up at him: "You moved away, you think this is fine, you don't care how your sister and I face your father, and you don't care how your father faces your grandpa and this big family, what are you doing?" I don’t care! Now I think your dad is right, I shouldn’t have let you enter the entertainment circle at the beginning! You and those female artists hype, Chen Bohan explained to me every time that it was a routine operation, and I kept it hidden every time Your dad, don't let him know, even if he says it's hype, it's fake, but I'm afraid, I'm afraid you really like one of them, you come back and tell me who you want to marry, your dad It is absolutely impossible to accept that you marry someone in the industry. What do you want me to do at that time? Do you know how difficult it is for me to be caught between you?! But I believe you, and you must also understand why your father opposes you entering the entertainment industry Circle, you also know why we object to you getting too close to people in the entertainment industry, I think you understand, you will have a sense of proportion, you have always been very measured, Chen Bohan told me not to think too much, and your sister also told me not to think too much Thinking, the result...does it prove that I was wrong?!"

Tan Zhen endured a series of accusations and closed his eyes.

"Don't act like this to me, talk to me!" Wu Liang covered her chest uncomfortably as soon as she raised her voice, "You and Shengye, what the hell are you..."

When she first saw those ambiguous scenes in the movie, she was indeed very unhappy, but that kind of unhappiness could have been tolerated, but Sheng Ye was that person's child, and the director was that person's best friend, how could this make her feel uncomfortable?At that time, she couldn't tell whether she was angry with Tan Zhen for accepting such an unclear film, or she was making excuses out of a guilty conscience.She knew that she had gone too far, and she also felt that the relationship between Tan Zhen and Sheng Ye would not reach that point, so she wanted to stop the loss in time, and wanted Tan Zhen to alienate Sheng Ye and Jie Ping'an.But yesterday's scene was vivid in her memory, and she was horrified to find that maybe the truth was really caught by her own joke.

Now that she had said so much, Tan Zhen didn't give her a clear answer from the beginning to the end, but was silent. His silence made her panic.

Sheng Yanfeng's face appeared uncontrollably in front of her eyes, his high-spirited appearance on the stage.Is this a kind of retribution?

She began to inhale hard, and Tan Zhen immediately stepped forward to support her: "Stop talking, take a rest."

Wu Liang pushed him away, and Tan Zhen rang the nurse's bell. After a while, the nurse came, put Wu Liang on an oxygen mask, and told Tan Zhen how to turn on the oxygen.

Wu Liang leaned against the head of the bed, looking at Tan Zhen with a pale face, listening carefully to the nurse's instructions and learning how to adjust the amount of oxygen. He seemed to be still filial, and his unmistakable appearance only made her feel irritable.

"The patient's cardiopulmonary function is not very good, so pay attention at all times, and don't talk too long."

The nurse left after finishing speaking. Wu Liang got better after inhaling oxygen. Tan Zhen watched his mother's complexion improve slightly. Get out at once, let him do anything for it.

Wu Liang inhaled the oxygen quietly for a while, Tan Zhen kept guarding him, he didn't even sit down, just stood by the hospital bed without saying a word, tall and big, but for the first time Wu Liang felt that he looked very An eyesore, behind his superficial obedience is the resistance emanating from his bones.

She took off the oxygen mask, and Tan Zhen didn't stop her. She said, "Don't say it. I know if you don't want to. I'm your mother. A mother always knows what the child is thinking..."

Tan Zhen was still just silent, Wu Liang looked at him, wondering how our mother and son came to this point, looking at it, she thought of the well-behaved and obedient Tan Zhen when she was a child, thinking about it, she shed tears.

Tan Zhen looked at his mother who was weeping silently, and heard her sobbing, "Do you have to destroy our home for an outsider?" He remembered Tan Qian's advice to him before entering the door, and remembered countless times when he was a child, father, sister, Including the nanny and aunt at home, every adult always said to him "Your mother loves you very much, don't make her sad" "Admit your mistake quickly, don't make her angry" "Your mother is too difficult, you have to treat her good"……

He also remembered the only time he refused to compromise. When he insisted on taking the art test, how his mother begged his father for him.Lying on the bed at night, he heard the voices of his mother and father from the opposite bedroom. Before going to bed that day, his mother comforted him and said that I would discuss it with your father. Come.But that was not a tone of discussion at all, she was just like this, crying humblely, pleading for him with a trembling voice, she said you let him go, I can do whatever you want, I promise for him that he will not What kind of bad habits have he got into? He has grown up to listen to us in everything. He only has such a wish. I can't bear it...

He didn't sleep that night, closed his eyes, and heard his mother's humble plea in his ears. He thought he was really selfish. Since he was a child, his mother had given so much for him, why would he make things difficult for her for a dream?He said to himself, if mother fails to convince father, then I will give up, I will give up.

At that time, he wanted to protect his mother for the rest of his life.How could he have the heart to hurt her?

Has he changed over the years, or was he originally a selfish person to the end?So many people said that he was hypocritical and pretentious, and he didn't realize until today that those people didn't misjudge him.

I'm just selfish and hypocritical, pretending, I'm hopeless, can you just stop loving me and leave me alone?

Wu Liang felt the tall shadow blocking the window leave, and her hand placed by the bed was held.

Tan Zhen knelt down and held her hand, raised his head and said, "I will do whatever you don't like. It's been like this since I was a child."

Wu Liang slightly opened her eyes and looked at him.

Tan Zhen said, "I'll just do it."

Wu Liang looked into his eyes from left to right: "...Really?"

"Really." Tan Zhen covered the back of his mother's cold hands from the infusion, "What you saw last night, you will never see again in the future."

The squatting Tan Zhen, the docile Tan Zhen, the obedient child since childhood is back again.Tears fell from Wu Liang's eyes again, but this time they were tears of relief. She patted the back of Tan Zhen's hand and said, "Go back and apologize to your father, and say it was just a joke."

Tan Zhen said yes.

Wu Liang said: "Let's go back to the past, okay? You can move back home."

Tan Zhen said yes.

Everything is good.

All are good.

It's never been this way.

***

It was raining when we left the hospital that day. Tan Zhen was sitting in the nanny's car, watching the pillars of rain outside the car window, and there was hidden thunder rolling in the sky. He said to Chen Bohan who was driving, "Do me a favor."

"Well, what?" Chen Bohan tilted his head.

"That popular search on Weibo, please help me remove it."

Chen Bohan was a little bit taken aback, but soon understood, and nodded: "Okay." He was a little relieved in his heart, Nannan CP is really not very kind to Tan Zhen, and Sheng Ye has had enough of this wave of bonuses.Fortunately, Tan Zhen is still the same Tan Zhen, he is measured, Chen Bohan thought at ease, there is nothing to worry about.

Tan Zhen looked at the corners of the mouths of the people around him unconsciously curled up, and said nothing.