a certain Zheng Kexin

Xu Niannian didn't come on the day of handing in the volunteers. It is said that he couldn't leave due to family affairs, and Xu's father had already come to the school a few days ago to hand it over for him.

Zheng Kexin had contacted her in private, and learned that Xu Niannian was abducted by Gao Qing to a cousin's house in the south just a few days after she returned home, and Gao Qing said that she wanted to take her on a trip to the mountains and rivers, and on a graduation trip.

Zheng Kexin knew that Gao Qing didn't want the two of them to meet again.

After handing in the volunteers, everyone dispersed, Zheng Kexin sat alone in the classroom for a long time, until Wen Yu came to lock the door.

Seeing that her expression was different, Wen Yu didn't urge her to leave. He found a seat in the back row of the classroom and sat down looking out the window in a daze.

The absurd things in KTV seem to be just yesterday in the blink of an eye.

"That." Wen Yu shook his head, and asked casually, "Why didn't Xu Niannian come?"

He and Zheng Kexin have been classmates for three years, and it seems that the only common topic in the end is Xu Niannian.

Zheng Kexin said concisely: "She has something to do at home."

Wen Yu nodded, and then realized that his question just now seemed inappropriate, and quickly explained: "I... I don't mean anything else, and I don't mind you two being together. Don't think too much, I just ...just a random question."

Zheng Kexin smiled friendly, indicating that he needn't be nervous.

After receiving this response, Wen Yu seemed to be relieved, and laughed after a while, then tilted his head, and suddenly said, "It's good that you are together."

During this period of time, Zheng Kexin was poured with persuasion. Everyone told them to give up and separate, but when she heard a word of approval, she thought it was ironic for a while.

Wen Yu continued: "I thought about it carefully. You treat Xu Niannian differently from other people. Xu Niannian treats you too. It's actually very obvious, but I didn't notice it before. I can feel that you are very happy and happy together .”

Zheng Kexin couldn't react.

She never thought that the hand stretched out in the so-called desperate situation came from Wen Yu. Before he finished speaking, she stood up abruptly and rushed out of the classroom.

Even though she said a thousand words and ten thousand words, she still couldn't bear Xu Niannian.

She's confused, she's a jerk, she's childish... But let me be selfish one more time, for the last time.

However, God was not on her side. She revised the application form, and the possibility of staying in Hua'an and Linda in the south was equally divided. In the next ten days or so, Zheng Kexin was in fear every day. I tried to fan the little flame of hope in my heart, but finally received the admission notice from Lin University.

Then for most of the summer vacation, Zheng Kexin didn't know how she spent it.

Xu Niannian was very busy there. At first, he was traveling in mountains and rivers, and later he started to make up lessons for relatives' children. After that, Gao Qing sent him to a painting class to learn painting. He said that there were many crafts and multiple paths.

It sounds so fresh, the children are so old, how can any parent cultivate people's hobbies at this time, she wants to make Xu Niannian busy, so busy that she has no time to pay attention to Zheng Kexin.

However, Xu Niannian's messages were still sent one by one.

Sometimes it’s a strange cloud, sometimes it’s a complaint that a 14-year-old junior high school student can’t look at a watch, and sometimes it’s that I’ve made progress in drawing, but sharpening pencils is really tormenting, the pencils used for drawing Can't use a pencil sharpener yet.

From time to time, I will say, I miss you very much.

Suffering may not be a knife that cuts bones and bruises flesh, but that it is hard to let go of something that can't be touched. A soft "I miss you" can make people's hearts feel like a knife.

However, she never came back, because of one thing or another, she was trapped thousands of miles away.

Zheng Kexin didn't want to ruin her summer vacation, so she made a fake admission letter by relying on the skills she had learned from getting extra money before, creating the illusion that they would still be together after a short separation for Xu Niannian.

Then, while persuading himself to put it down, he lived by watching Xu Niannian's news, sometimes in the middle of the night, he would suddenly wake up when he fell asleep, and when he woke up, he couldn't fall asleep anymore, grabbing his phone and looking over and over again.

July went faster than June, and my aunt finally begged Yan Wang for favors. Su Yingyu was tired and thin when she returned home, but she was much more energetic than when she left.

The family was eating at noon that day, and Su Yingyu suddenly said: "When you go to college, your father and I plan to move to our hometown and open a breakfast shop to do some business."

Zheng Kexin raised his head from a bowl of tomatoes mixed with sugar, and suddenly felt that he heard it wrong: "What?"

"Mom is thinking about being able to move now and earn more money." Su Yingyu glanced at her hesitantly, "Mom who has daughters from other people's families can't lose you, right? I'll save you some dowry while you're young... ..."

Zheng Kexin was slashed by the last half of the sentence, and she got angry in a hurry: "I have already listened to what you said, what are you thinking, we are separated, we will not see each other again, can you stop forcing me."

"Mom didn't mean that." Seeing that she was in a hurry, Su Yingyu was taken aback, "There will be more places to spend money from now on, your annual living expenses for college..."

"I earn it myself! I'm applying for a scholarship! I only spend five yuan a day on porridge and pancakes." Zheng Kexin interrupted her for the second time, getting angry.

Su Yingyu stopped talking, and there was a sudden silence on the table, which echoed those two sentences just now.

Zheng Kexin took a few breaths, calmed down and said with a low voice: "I have saved a sum of money in my hand. I don't have to pay for the tuition at home. I can also pay for the living expenses in the future. Don't worry about it."

Su Yingyu sighed, and asked her: "After that, renting a house for your internship is a bill, and you don't have much money before you become a regular after graduation, and eating and drinking are another bill. Let alone you, in case your father and I have a relationship What kind of illness or disaster... How can the family do without money, and it is impossible to live without going out."

Zheng Kexin opened her mouth and was speechless. She probably understood Su Yingyu's worry. She stayed in the hospital these days and spent money like running water every day. It is impossible not to worry.

Then Su Yingyu mentioned the incident in the hospital as she expected.

"Your aunt is sick and her family has the ability to see a doctor. There is a woman in the same ward as her. She doesn't look very old. She has undergone seven or eight operations. The children worry about medical expenses all day long. , the nurses come here every day to fight."

Zheng Ke wanted to comfort her but was unable to do what she wanted, so she said without confidence: "I... I will be able to earn money after working in a few years."

Su Yingyu gave her a hard look, as if looking at a child who insisted on eating candy: "Money is not so easy to earn, you are still young, how many years can you work alone to support our family?"

Sheng Yun eats Ming medicine as a meal, and has a stable expenditure all year round, which only increases and does not decrease. Zheng Shupei has now become a frequent visitor in the hospital. Regular review, how much is the family's water and electricity bills per month, and how much is the food and clothing expenses per month? Zheng Shupei had surgery before How much did it cost, and how much did her family earn back from selling the car?

Zheng Kexin's meager knowledge about prices is limited to the school cafeteria and the fruit shop in the vegetable market. Can she carry this family?And in what way?She couldn't answer all of them.

However, she said that she didn't want Su Yingyu to open some breakfast shop. Zheng Kexin clearly remembered that the proprietress of the breakfast shop downstairs became ill from overwork and died in her 50s. When she left, she still had unwashed soup in her hand. spoon.

But Su Yingyu has been a housewife for decades, and she has no ability or connections. With such a little skill, what else can she do besides cooking.

Zheng Kexin felt that he had nowhere to go before, but now he simply feels that he can't breathe.

Su Yingyu saw that her expression was loose, and continued: "Get busy opening a store, and find something for your dad to do, people will suffocate if they have nothing to do."

By the way, there is also Zheng Shupei.

Zheng Ke finished his meal absent-mindedly, washed the dishes again, waited for Su Yingyu to return to the room, stepped on every brick in the living room irritably, and finally couldn't sit still, so he just changed his clothes and went out.

She couldn't breathe at home, and she didn't know where to go when she went out. In summer, places with many people always smell of human flesh, and places with few people are full of Huoxiang Zhengqi fans who spare no effort to set off a heat wave.

KFC was overcrowded as imagined, she waited for a long time with a plate before waiting for a single seat, only to find that the person next to her was an acquaintance—Qiao Yuan pouring Coke into her mouth with a dead face.

Qiao Yuan never dreamed that he would be transferred to study chemistry. The bright professional name on the admission notice almost blinded him. He hesitated for half of the summer between bumping his head and going to repeat the study, but he couldn't be ruthless. To turn black and white in advance, one can only reluctantly choose that life is worse than death.

On the day he got the admission notice, he drank half a bottle of Erguotou for himself, and howled the theme song of Altman all night in the group.

——"A new storm has emerged, how to move forward."

Zheng Kexin and An Ji gave a few words of symbolic comfort, and turned off the message reminders inhumanely, leaving Ningzhi alone to help the alcoholic boy.

Xueba is very good at comforting people. When he came up, he analyzed the possibility of changing majors under the premise of good grades.

As soon as Qiao Yuan heard the words "good grades", he was discouraged. Since he was born, he has never given a face to his parents because of his grades. He is not bad in mathematics and has few chances to shine, let alone the worst in the college entrance examination. chemistry.

What a fucking tragedy.

The teacher said every day that the college entrance examination was a major turning point in life, and it was true, Qiao Yuan plunged into the ground.

During Zheng Kexin's half-dead life, Qiao Yuan also lived a life that was not very human.The two protagonists of Les Miserables clinked glasses, and Qiao Yuan sighed in silence after hearing Zheng Kexin's reason for "running away from home".

"When I wanted to take the art test, my dad didn't agree. I broke it up and told him that my interest was not in English, math, English, science, chemistry, and I wanted to learn photography and be a director. My dad also broke it up and broke it up. To tell me, he disagreed."

Split Joe's father into eight parts, and look from the inside out, none of the parts agree.

"I was stubborn at first, and fought with him, but later I figured it out. The art students in our eyes are different, and we have different opinions. It doesn't make sense at all." Qiao Yuan raised his head, and finished a glass of Coke with three mouthfuls , biting the ice cubes loudly, "He has his views, he has his opinions, and so do I, but I have one thing less than him - I have no money."

Art exams need money.

Young people's dreams are higher than the sky, and their pockets are whiter than their faces.

"Brother, money is very important." Qiao Yuan ate French fries as a meal, looking really hungry, "Your mother is right, no one in the family can't make money, you can let them go, wait until you finish It’s really unrealistic to earn money to support your family.”

Zheng Kexin was soaked in sweat from running all the way, and was chilled by the cold wind from KFC. Now he also knew that what he just said was nonsense. Qiao Yuan could see clearly from the outside of the mountain, and he understood what he said in a few words.

Xiao Xu told her before that college is easier than high school, but it is definitely not a place to dawdle. From elementary school to now, if you pass five levels and kill six generals, your life will only become more difficult. I have never heard of the weirdness of the second level. The first level of blame is easy to fight.

Universities also have morning classes and evening self-study, and there are also minors on weekends. The better the school, the stricter it is, and quizzes, weekly exams and monthly exams are not unique to high schools.

College is indeed freer than high school, but it is by no means completely free.

The so-called part-time job, earning money by yourself, do you have time?Are you capable?The workplace of the beautified TV series is only a convenience store, and hourly workers cost more than ten yuan an hour. It is hard to say whether they can support themselves, and how to subsidize their families.

People can dream when they sleep, but they can't talk nonsense when they wake up.

Zheng Kexin nodded, thought over the current situation, and calmly came to a conclusion: "Then I won't go."

"Fuck...fuck..." Qiao Yuan's throat was stuck by the French fries on the spot, "fuck" twice, he caught a glimpse of a child beside him, took a breath with difficulty, and raised his position by five centimeters, "... Like torrential rain."

Something seems to be wrong, Zheng Kexin pointed out: "It's a big chord, like a torrential rain."

"Hmm." Qiao Yuan nodded indiscriminately, and then became anxious, "Is this the point!—Are you serious?!"

The author has something to say: Sometimes it’s a strange cloud, sometimes it’s a complaint about a 14-year-old junior high school student who can’t look at a watch, and sometimes it’s that I’ve made progress in drawing, but sharpening pencils is really torturous , The pencil used for drawing can not be used with a pencil sharpener.

——When I went to learn to draw during the summer vacation of my third year of high school, the most frustrating thing was sharpening pencils. I didn’t know whether I was sharpening pencils or myself.

However, she said that she didn't want Su Yingyu to open some breakfast shop. Zheng Kexin clearly remembered that the proprietress of the breakfast shop downstairs became ill from overwork and died in her 50s. When she left, she still had unwashed soup in her hand. spoon.

——It’s really hard work to open a breakfast shop (viewing "Breakfast China")

Qiao Yuan never dreamed that he would be transferred to study chemistry. The bright professional name on the admission notice almost blinded him. He hesitated for half of the summer between bumping his head and going to repeat the study, but he couldn't be ruthless. To turn black and white in advance, one can only reluctantly choose that life is worse than death.

——It was me, so I chose to black and white in advance.I don’t even want to study chemistry until I die. I just read the comments, and some people asked if it could be updated, okay (I’ll release tomorrow’s in advance, yay).

Around ten o'clock, there will be a short paragraph on Weibo, "it's a side story". There will be a little spoiler, so don't read it if you don't mind.