a certain Zheng Kexin

In the year of re-study, Zheng Kexin took care of her studies and family business, and her life was very difficult. People said that the more difficult the life, the slower it was. Zheng Kexin didn't notice anything. She got up and fell asleep as usual every day. Now two years have passed in the blink of an eye. , The senior year in my memory has been added two layers of Gaussian blur, and I can't see the difference from other years.

There is a long timeline behind her, which is divided into "before I met Xu Niannian" and "after I separated from Xu Niannian" with the third year of high school as the node.

The two memories before and after have been ruthlessly destroyed by time. Now they are either incomplete or blurred. Only the part of the third year of high school is well preserved, but it is covered with dust and dust. The "together" between "before knowing each other" and "after separation".

Zheng Kexin originally thought that she would just point to such a memory in her life, but since they met that day, the nodes on the timeline suddenly began to increase uncontrollably, using someone as the benchmark to turn her similar yesterday, today, and tomorrow into everything. A commemoration with a reason.

She remembers the smell of roses and the color of the speeding car that day, the poplar on the road in the suburbs and the high temperature of 36 degrees that day, the virtue of jumping off the window sill twisting her buttocks in January, cursing Xu Niannian's legs, gobbling up Xiaohe Shrimp's reincarnation of the starving ghost, and the rebel's fleeing and smashing the computer.

She still remembered that she watched the children's nonsensical games from robbing food to worshiping in the small park. Xu Niannian lived on the seventeenth floor, sitting on the stone steps in the park and looking up, counting from left to right. The third window is In her kitchen, the fourth window is Xu Niannian's room.

There are still green floral flowers on the curtains, and two small wind chimes are hung on the glass.

Zheng Kexin's brain has the function of self-selection, and he doesn't get sick when he endorses, but he pretends to be dead when he encounters some trivial interpersonal matters, and changes the decoration on the spot. So far, Zheng Kexin has not been able to distinguish the four girls in the opposite dormitory, because the names of the four girls all have "Jia" made up a family of unrelated quadruplets.

However, now, all memories have become clear, as if everything happened yesterday, and at the same time, time is infinitely multiplied in an inexplicable way. The moment Zheng Kexin saw Xu Niannian, there was an illusion that they had been separated for most of their lives .

This may be the longing for not seeing each other for a day.

The person is still the same person, nothing has changed, and it has only been more than ten days since they met last time, but Zheng Kexin just feels that it has been a long time.

"Why are you here?" She blurted out, and there was a little liveliness in her words that she hadn't had time to hide.

Summer vacation tickets were not easy to buy, so Xu Niannian reversed four trains on this trip, and even sat in a hard seat for [-] hours all night in the middle.

After getting out of the car, the gums hurt, and I was so tired that I couldn't stand it anymore. When I saw Zheng Kexin, I wanted to say "I miss you", and then I saw the little girl behind Zheng Kexin. He pressed back the words on his lips with great effort, and raised his spirits to ask her.

"Aren't you happy that I'm here?"

There was nothing wrong with this question originally, but the angry rhetorical tone in the words made people very familiar. Before Zheng Kexin could respond, he took the lead in pulling out the questions he heard in the restaurant that day.

"Don't you like me now?"

Did Xu Niannian have such a tone before? It seems not. Over the years, while she has become a mature senior sister, she seems to be a little more playful, and her smile is clearer. good mood.

Xu Niannian, who looks better when she smiles than the third year of high school, is the senior Xu Niannian.

Zheng Kexin was silent for a long time, feeling that the dam that was stationed day and night had already cracked at some point, and was gradually in danger of collapsing. She was finally defeated by Xu Niannian's eyes, and at the same time, she slowly relaxed from the sudden tense state , stepped forward and pulled her suitcase.

"Of course welcome—the road is difficult to walk, be careful—why is your box so heavy!"

It wasn't until I got to school that I found out that Xu Niannian had taken a blame for it.

It is a kind of plug-in small pot for one person. The inner pot is made of ceramics. It is not big but has some weight. It can cook a bowl of rice at a time, and it can be eaten by one or two people.

"Ningzhi said that you have to cook by yourself here. There are too many people and there is not enough food, so you can only eat big cakes and old godmothers." Xu Niannian took out the clothes in the suitcase, and dug out a bag of millet from under the pile of clothes and a bag of oatmeal, "I was worried about your stomach, so I brought a small pot to cook porridge for you."

Zheng Kexin talked nonsense: "Then what about other people... Is it not good for me to eat small stoves by myself?"

Xu Niannian raised her head from the suitcase, and looked at her suspiciously: "You mean the back of my pot is too small, should it be bigger?"

"No... I'm just..." Zheng Kexin stammered for a long time, after all, he couldn't explain "Yan He" without mentioning "left and right", and finally gave up honestly.

"You." Xu Niannian slapped her on the forehead, "You don't have to think so much, who wants to eat porridge on a hot day, letting you drink porridge is a cure, and letting others drink porridge is fatal."

Zheng Kexin sat up straight immediately, and said in her heart that it would be fatal if you let me drink porridge!

Speaking of this, Xu Niannian paused, fumbled out a plastic bag from the corner of the box, and happily held it up to Zheng Kexin: "I was shocked when I didn't find it, so I said I brought it."

Zheng Kexin took it and opened it to see that there were two small bags in the big bag, one containing raisins and the other containing walnut kernels.

"I know you don't like porridge, so you'll definitely mess with me." Xu Niannian said, "I packed some raisins from home, and I cracked some walnuts with my mother in advance, afraid that I won't have time to prepare them here."

"When did I..." Zheng Kexin subconsciously wanted to say, "When did I mess with you?" Halfway through the speech, he suddenly realized that he had missed an important sentence, and raised his head stiffly, "Your mother... Your mother knows...knows that you have run so far...do you agree?"

Xu Niannian lightly tapped on the edge of the suitcase, looked at her deeply, and answered seriously after a while: "Agreed. I'm already this old, what I want to do, what I like... I can make my own decisions. Me and My mother has seriously discussed this matter, and she will speak up when she has any thoughts in the future, and will not treat me like a child again..."

Xu Niannian stood up as she spoke, and sat on the mattress side by side with Zheng Kexin, took her hand and squeezed it, then inserted her fingers in and shook it, then changed to a more comfortable handshake position, and looked at her eyes, "You don't have to worry, I'm on my mother's side."

Xu Niannian had already put the meaning behind the words to the surface, but she was afraid that Zheng Kexin would not be able to bear it, so she did not continue to speak.Zheng Kexin was armed with a defensive wall of rationality in front of him. Although it was not waterproof and could not withstand beatings, it was better at bluffing people with its aura. It was disintegrated inside and could not be seen from the outside. It was extremely stubborn and calm, so it was absolutely impossible to take the lead The one that punctured the last layer of window paper.

She stood up in a trance, she couldn't use her strength when she stepped down, she stepped on it twice before regaining the state of walking in a straight line, abruptly dodged Xu Niannian's pointing, picked up the pot on the floor, and was about to go to the kitchen Let's go, and asked in a dazed manner, "Are you hot? Do you drink hot water?"

Xu Niannian dragged her back dumbfounded: "What are you doing, my pot is plugged in, what are you going to do to him?"

"Hmm..." Zheng Kexin tilted her head to look at her, dazed for a moment, then suddenly remembered something, her eyes lit up, "Did you bring oatmeal, right? There is milk in the kitchen, shall we make a cup of chocolate milk?"

In the summer a few years ago, on the night after the college entrance examination, they made fried chicken and a large plate of tempura and watched cartoons in the small rental house. The wind was still cold, so Xu Niannian lit a fire in the kitchen to cook oatmeal, and made a cup of chocolate milk for Zheng Kexin.

A bag of milk, a piece of chocolate, two spoonfuls of oatmeal, such an unusual taste, Zheng Kexin has been thinking about it for many years.

It was already two o'clock in the afternoon when Xu Niannian arrived. He had been busy for most of the day, and the sun was already westward. Zheng Kexin returned to the office to judge homework after class, and the aroma of the office came out along the crack of the door.

Zheng Kexin changed her homework for a while, then eagerly ran to the pot and squatted for a while, smelling the smell greedily, but in the end she didn't want to take a sip, she carefully poured it into a small bowl and called Xiao Hua over.

Xiaohua probably eats small stoves with Zheng Kexin a lot, and she is not so nervous now. Zheng Kexin asked her to drink and she didn't refuse. She just looked at her and asked sensiblely: "Teacher, have you eaten yet?"

Now Zheng Kexin is talking nonsense and doesn't write drafts, pointing at Xu Niannian: "We both finished eating, and I left you a bowl, just this one bowl, don't tell the other students this time, wait for the chocolate to arrive in two days, the teacher will come again Do it for you, and then everyone will have it."

Xu Niannian pursed her lips and smiled, and waited for Xiaohua to leave before expressing her opinion: "You seem to have come here to improve the children's meals."

Zheng Kexin sighed, and cleaned up the dishes that Xiaohua insisted on washing by herself, the chatterbox was suddenly broken by this sentence, she sat next to Xu Niannian, and she could still smell the undissipated fragrance when she inhaled.

"Before, I always heard An Ji say that the children were suffering, and I had seen the photos, but it was only when I came here that I understood An Ji's feelings. This is the poorest place in this area. Those whose families are better off can eat meat every now and then. If it’s not good, you can only eat pickle sticks, I gave them to the children before, they can eat a bag of biscuits for two days, they really chewed slowly, and they softened at the end.”

Xu Niannian listened carefully, and felt that Zheng Kexin talked more than before, and her whole body was relaxed. At this moment, she completely entered the state of a teacher, talking about her students, with a bit of motherhood that she didn't have before.

"How can a child of this age not be greedy? Before, I thought that Xiaohua was too thin, so I gave her a can of beef jerky, but she distributed it to the classmates when she went out, and I kept a piece for myself."

Zheng Kexin allowed Xu Niannian to play with her hands. At this moment, she had no more thoughts of dodging, smiled wryly, and continued, "Compared with these children, I feel that I am a very jerk. I can never finish my meal. Every day I leave the bottom of the bowl and drink half of the milk tea and throw it away. Half of them, eat eggs and not egg yolks, and bury them in flower pots for fear of being discovered by my mother. The children here want to eat things that they can’t eat, and I still hate it... In short, I have raised a stinky problem of waste since I was a child. .”

Zheng Kexin said a lot, and consciously emptied all the words in her stomach. When she couldn't remember the next sentence, she realized that Xu Niannian was looking at her slightly, and she looked at her a little uncertainly, and asked: "Why are you looking at me like that? .”

Xu Niannian suddenly leaned in front of her, and the two of them were almost nose to nose for a second, then immediately backed away, and said with a smile: "I think you've been overwhelmed, and you talk too much."

Zheng Kexin sat upright when she heard the sound, and felt that she had indeed become noisy, so she immediately put away her endless chatter, and summed it up in one sentence: "The other two girls teach the first and second grades, and they are not very familiar."

I'm not familiar with it, and I don't plan to become mature.

"What about the boys?" Xu Niannian tapped her palm, "There are still a few boys who teach the fourth and fifth grades, haven't you talked to them?"

Zheng Kexin was suddenly nervous, and subconsciously wanted to get rid of something. After a little excitement, he realized that he was not a thief. He immediately became at ease, and replied calmly: "I have, but I am not very familiar with it."

"Then am I an acquaintance of yours?" Xu Niannian asked softly, "The kind who have known each other for a year and separated for three years."

Naturally, Zheng Kexin couldn't answer, Xu Niannian didn't intend to make things difficult for her, and she didn't need her to answer and continued the conversation. She turned around and patted the back of Zheng Kexin's hand: "You can't cure your problem of talking to acquaintances. Can you still change it—if you can’t change it, you can’t change it, the big deal is to save a basket, I just listen to it, and I don’t think you are annoying anyway.”

Zheng Kexin's eyes didn't know where to go, and she scanned the corners of the room before swaying to Xu Niannian, meeting the other eyes who had been waiting for her.

The owner who heard that look asked her: "Do you want to have dinner? It's cold outside. If you don't have dinner, let's go outside. Ning Zhi said that there are fireflies here."

Zheng Kexin's state at this time is similar to being bewitched by someone. She listened to what it was and said hello to the principal and left the school. There are quite a lot of grasshoppers, running around wildly. Students often take a small jar to catch grasshoppers when they come home from school, and they can catch a bottle when they get home.

A little boy even gave her a bottle, and Zheng Kexin's gums were shaking when he took it away.

She turned her head: "Who told you that there are fireflies?"

Xu Niannian: "Ningzhi."

Zheng Kexin was silent for a long time, and finally couldn't help but yelled out: "You dare to believe her words! You came all the way here just for a firefly, are you stupid or not! You're so stupid!"

Xu Niannian looked at her with complicated eyes, pointed to herself and asked, "Oh, I came all this way just to see fireflies?"

Getting angry is a top priority, and once you start, you can't stop easily. Zheng Kexin has been arranged by Ning Zhi for several days in a row, and has accumulated a lot of fame. She is usually better when she is suppressed, but she wakes up several times after falling asleep. .

At this moment, she didn't hold back her anger and rushed straight to Tianling Gai, hearing the sound, she couldn't help but ask in her head: "Otherwise, what is the reason?"

Xu Niannian's eyes are covered by eyelashes, her face is black and white, and there are few blemishes on the leather surface. After so many years, she is still clean with makeup. Her eyes are darker than ordinary people, and she looks very serious when she looks at people. , she just looked at Zheng Kexin so seriously, until she saw Zheng Kexin wake up by herself.

Then he said word by word: "I miss you."

The author has something to say: Zheng Kexin's brain has the function of self-selection, and he doesn't get sick when he endorses, but he pretends to be dead when encountering trivial interpersonal matters, and changes the decoration on the spot—so far, Zheng Kexin has not been able to distinguish the four girls in the opposite dormitory, because the four All the girls had "Jia" in their names, making up a family of unrelated quadruplets.

——I.

Summer vacation tickets were not easy to buy, so Xu Niannian reversed four trains on this trip, and even sat in a hard seat for [-] hours all night in the middle.

——Thirteen hours of hard sitting all night, my gums were really shaking with pain.

It wasn't until I got to school that I found out that Xu Niannian had taken a blame for it.

It is a kind of plug-in small pot for one person. The inner pot is made of ceramics. It is not big but has some weight. It can cook a bowl of rice at a time, and it can be eaten by one or two people.

——In the spring of writing, I often use my small white pot to cook chocolate oatmeal for myself. The whole room is filled with the smell of chocolate. If I have time, I will post a tutorial on Weibo.

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