invisible him

"So, what are you still afraid of! Ayang, our calamity is over, isn't it? I love you, you don't need to be afraid anymore, you don't need to pretend anymore, it's all over, it doesn't matter.

I know, it's not dissociative, you're just too scared, too scared.

I didn't protect you well, I hurt you too much, I won't do this again, I won't let you go, I won't let you get hurt, I won't make you cry, you don't need to be scheming, You don’t need to act, you can just be that clean Chang Xiyang, I’ll be there for everything, I’ll be with you, I’ll protect you, you’re the flower of Gaoling, I’m just willing to lie down at the foot of the mountain and look up Your people, as before, okay?So, Ayan, come back. "

"How do you know that I used to be clean?" Chang Xiyang pulled a sarcastic smile on his pretty face.

Chang Xiyang has lived for so long that he has forgotten many things, including himself.

He forgot his original appearance, forgot that he was once pure and holy, and he finally went down to cater to others, constantly changing himself.

The moment he knew that there was no possibility between himself and Si Songyong, his heart began to change subtly and violently. The moment of the final qualitative change was the moment when he traveled in Huaguo and the moment he confessed, really, it was At that moment, Chang Xiyang suddenly felt an indescribable sadness.

As the creator, he created human beings and watched them love each other in pairs, but what about himself?

He can't even fulfill his love, where is his destination?

Why is it that he can't get the one he loves?

The holy and simple Chang Xiyang understood that everything was his fault, only his fault.

If he didn't have such a deserted personality, if he had an appearance that was more attractive to Si Song, if he wasn't Chang Xiyang, if he wasn't the creator...

Then, can he become a family member with the person he loves deeply?

It was then that Chang Xiyang changed.He hated himself deeply, if he could flatter him a little more...if he changed into someone else's appearance...it would be great if that Chang Xiyang died...

Fortunately, later he met Mr. Orange, who was stubborn and arrogant, but also sincere and gentle. Chang Xiyang's love enveloped him.

It was also that person who rescued Chang Xiyang from his deep sense of self-loathing. The young man stretched out his slender but powerful hand into the abyss, toward the helpless and desperate Chang Xiyang.

That man was also his light, his redemption.

Chang Xiyang watched Mr. Cheng change from a toddler to a handsome young man with his own eyes, and he suddenly realized one day, ah, he has grown up.

People are all the same, why not the people around him?They also live too long.

For a long time, Chang Xiyang was a silent tree on that endless journey.No one would notice that his partner or his lover had changed at that moment, but one day after a long time, he realized that Chang Xiyang was not like this.

The person Mr. Cheng loves has changed, but does he only love Chang Xiyang in that deserted memory?

Is it just that the sacred and inviolable sincere kiss is still his Chang Xiyang, who is a small spot of light?

Of course not, what he loves is the complete Chang Xiyang, the whole of that person, no matter what Chang Xiyang turns into, he will completely accept it, even if he is used, even if he is just a spare tire, even if he Let go of your dignity, let go of your arrogance and humble yourself in the dirt.

That's right, Chang Xiyang has double standards. He never gave Mr. Cheng wholeheartedly, but he also couldn't accept the slightest betrayal from him.Mr. Orange accepts all of these.

Because he loves that person deeply.

But Si Song is different, he also loves Chang Xiyang, but what he wants after all is the clean Chang Xiyang, the almost holy Chang Xiyang who has no scheming, even though Xiyang changed his appearance for him.

Is it wrong to want your lover to return to the right track?Is it wrong for him to just want that person to return to his original appearance?

No, of course not.Wasn't Si Song the one who brought the beauty home in the end?

No matter how powerful Mr. Orange is, no matter how hard he is and how selfless he is, he is just a traveler in Chang Xiyang's long years. Even if he spends his whole life, he only lets Chang Xiyang know, ah, I know this person.

It's useless, and I will forget it someday later. The ending of the story has been set from the beginning, and he can't change it. Even if he is "Heaven", it is useless.

Maybe the power of love can really be greater than God?

Perhaps Mr. Orange had low self-esteem and weakness from the very beginning, but at the moment before Chang Xiyang made his choice, he withdrew sadly... I can't tell, there are some things.

Si Song already knew this, his gentle eyes were heavy with sorrow, and the blue of the broken sea was also deep, "How could I not know? How many years have I loved you? When I was first formed in my life, you attracted.

You have been wronged so much, why didn't you tell me?Let me hide under your protection, how can you let me be willing. "

"How can I trust you?"

"Like this, is it okay?" Si Song leaned over, tilted his head, and kissed her, "Can you hear me? My heartbeat."

He held Chang Xiyang's hand and placed it on his left chest, where his heart was. "This place has always been yours. From the past, to the present, and to the endless future, it belongs to you alone. My heart beats only for you."

"Si Song..." Xi Yang's palm was soft and warm, his face was a little red,

"Shhh—don't talk." Si Song bullied Xi Yang under him, seeing the man's cold face suddenly turn red again, he smiled softly.

"Ayan, welcome back."

Looking at those two people, I ran away in a hurry.

I repeat again, I will not watch things that do not see evil!

But... why do I still exist?

Angrily, I floated to the mountain where Qiu Yan lived, watching her suddenly push away Xiaoqian who was wrapped around her.

"Isn't it good to be alive?" Her voice dropped to zero, and she stared at me coldly.

"Ah? Xiaoyan, who are you talking to?" Xiaoqian looked in my direction with a blank expression on his face.

"So why am I still alive! Although I have no brains, I also know that I am Si Song's true meaning!

The power of "heaven" in his body must have been driven away!Come in and out!I was squeezed out back then, why can't I go back now!Ahhh! "

"Enough, shut up!" Qiu Yan frowned, her voice became irritable, "The soul is the medicine, and Xiyang's true meaning is the prescription, isn't it enough to fill the vacancy in his body! Mr. Orange said to Xiyang Isn’t it filled with the true meaning of his heart? So many things have been transformed into his own, isn’t that enough?”

"But...but none of them are me! I am the true meaning of Si Song!"

"God's perspective is boring?"

"Do not."

"Aren't you happy floating?"

"No."

"wanna die?"

"Excuse me, farewell."

"Go away."

A woman in love is super scary!

Hmph, old woman, fierce, too much.

However, it would be nice to leave me with a life I don’t know what it is.

Maybe one day, I will become a spirit, and with a physical body, I can also find a lover to go to, huh, huh, huh.

……

God what the hell am I talking about!

Forget it, let's watch the show with peace of mind.

……

Still want to fall in love.

I feel wronged.

When I was crying and ran under the orange tree in front of Chang Xiyang's house, a familiar clear and clear laughter came faintly... Illusion?

I turned around and looked at the quiet orange tree with beautiful white flowers. The petals were slender and soft, trembling slightly in the wind.

I know that Mr. Orange is lying under this tree now.

Chang Xiyang washed his body for him, put on the dazzling red dress for him when he met Argentina, and posed for him in a peaceful dress that did not match his restless personality at all...

In the most stable posture, the boy seemed to be in a deep sleep, with his hands folded in front of his chest, as if his chest would rise and fall again in the next second, he began to breathe steadily, and opened his beautiful eyes.

The high-quality golden nanmu coffin was faintly shining, and the patterns on it were carved by Chang Xiyang himself. They are all fragments of their relationship in memory, but they are all serious memories from the heart, and every knife is very sincere. , I watched him sleepless for two days and two nights, the boy's body was preserved by mana, and it was not damaged at all. Now he is sleeping on a thick and soft blanket, with a piece of orange blossom, and the coffin is covered At that moment, Mr. Orange's fair face sank into gloom as the last ray of light disappeared. Si Song covered Chang Xiyang's eyes with his hands, "Don't look."

"Uh..." Chang Xiyang gently moved Si Song's hand away, without speaking, and stared at the coffin for a long time.

He thought about where to bury Mr. Cheng for a long time, but finally he looked at the orange tree at the door. When he was a young man, the orange tree hung on the branches. The tree was very good, with lush branches and leaves. It is very shiny and very beautiful, but according to Si Song, after so many years, there has never been such a beautiful and perfect orange.

I don't know how to evaluate Mr. Orange's life. I don't even know whether to classify him as a good guy or a bad guy. Well, he's actually not a human being. He might just be a less dedicated evil spirit who forgot about love. I have never been a human being on my mission to destroy the world, and I don't know what love is. Many things are very complicated.

But... well, you know, I don't have a brain, I can't figure it out.

When I turned around, the wind was very good and the weather was also very good. From the corner of my eye, there seemed to be a figure standing under the orange tree, flamboyant. I turned my head suddenly, but there was no one there.

Only a tree of orange blossoms bloomed silently in the wind.