forced compounding

The food Song Yihan made was unpalatable as expected, but Shi Xu was not picky at all, and silently emptied the food in the bowl. Song Yihan approached him expectantly and asked, "Shi Xu, is it delicious?"

Shi Xu put down his chopsticks and looked at Song Yihan as if he was looking at a big dog waiting to be praised. He turned his eyes away and gave a low "hmm".

Song Yihan's face was full of smiles, and he was timidly cleaning up the bowl, Shi Xu stopped him: "I'll take it away, you go to bed early."

He ignored Song Yihan's refusal, and walked towards the sink with the dishes.

Song Yihan followed Shi Xu, still wanting to cling to him: "Then I will wash with you, it will be faster if we wash together."

Shi Xu drove him away mercilessly: "I'm afraid you'll smash all my plates with your clumsy hands, so go take a shower and sleep, don't let me say it a second time."

Shi Xu spoke in a tone like a parent disciplining a child, Song Yihan hummed a few times beside Shi Xu, and finally chose to listen to Shi Xu's words.

The sound of brisk footsteps went away, Shi Xu stopped the scrubbing action of his hands, closed his eyes and propped himself on both sides of the sink, his eyes were reddish.

He hadn't been so embarrassed for a long time, and after getting used to indifference, he was even more afraid of tenderness, afraid that he would indulge again.

"forgive me……"

But how could Song Yihan let him go, he happily pestered Shi Xu, and completely integrated himself into Shi Xu's life.

Shi Xu didn't know what to do, he could only escape to one place.

A pair of warm hands stroked Shi Xu's head, slowly relaxing his tense nerves, opened his eyes and said lazily: "Grandma, I don't want to go back."

Before the old man who was stroking him could speak, another thick voice came over: "Stinky boy, you know how to act like a baby with your grandma whenever you have something to do, you have no spine."

Shi Xu propped himself up and sat cross-legged on the sofa, yawning listlessly: "You have backbone, so don't drink behind your grandma's back."

When the old man froze when he touched the wine cabinet, he shrank his neck and met his old lady's warning eyes.

"Old time, just stand there and don't move, and see if I don't throw away all your bottles and cans for you."

After saying that, the old lady stood up numbly, and got entangled with Mr. Shi by the wine cabinet.

"Don't, don't, I'm going to fall!"

"Look how many drinks you've had sneakily this week, and if you still dare to drink, I think you're about to go to the house!"

Shi Xu leaned on the sofa and watched this scene, and laughed muffledly. The old man was so angry that he blew his beard and stared: "You are the brat, why don't you hurry up and help grandpa!"

Shi Xu was like a lazy cat, nestled on the sofa and stopped moving. He raised his voice and said, "Grandma and I are on the same side, please help yourself."

The old lady Shi couldn't snatch the bottle from the old man several times, so she could only give up angrily, and complained to Shixu while walking: "Your grandfather is not as sensible as you, and the older you are, the more you live and go back."

As he spoke, he heard the person behind him take a sip of wine happily, sigh and shake his head helplessly.

Shi Xu made room for grandma, leaned on grandma's shoulder and said to her old man, "Don't be angry, I will scold him together with you."

The old lady pinched Shi Xu's face lovingly, and asked him, "Are you in a bad mood?"

Shi Xu puffed his cheeks and nodded, only when he was around the closest person could he let go of all his defenses and disguises, and open his soft belly to show weakness.

After tasting the taste, old man Shi sat over satisfied, and taught Shi Xu solemnly as if nothing had happened just now: "Young man, it's normal to encounter some setbacks, you have to move forward bravely. When your grandfather was a soldier, then It's not afraid of hardship or tiredness, and keep going forward, not as delicate as you."

Shi Xu twitched the corners of his mouth, he had heard his grandpa's bragging words no less than a thousand times, and his ears were almost covered with calluses.

"We Xiaoxu are not as thick-skinned as you, just stay and go!"

The old lady Shi Xu coaxed Shi Xu like a sweetheart, but the old man Shi was cold-hearted, typical differential treatment.

Shi Xu rubbed against grandma's palm, and said with a smile, "Grandma, I'm fine. I'll feel better as soon as I see you."

Although the old lady didn't know what her precious grandson had suffered outside, she knew what he wanted to do most now.

"Go, don't stay upstairs for too long, remember to come down and eat something later."

Shi Xu obediently agreed, and walked towards the room on the second floor step by step.

When the old man looked at his grandson's back, he chatted with the old woman: "Do you think Xiao Xu will cry later?"

"How could it be...Xiaoxu hasn't cried for a long time." The old lady Shi took the sweater that was half beaten before and continued beating, her old eyes were full of pity.

The old man stopped talking, and closed his eyes to help the old woman roll the ball of thread, as if he saw Shi Xu, who was not as tall as his legs, sitting alone in the room, looking at the window silently, tears streaming down his face.

Shi Xu pushed open a door, fumbled for the position of the switch on the wall, and lit up the whole room with a "snap".

Although the room has not been lived in for a long time, it is still clean and spotless.

This is not Shi Xu's room, but Shi Xu's refuge here is his rabbit hole.

Shi Xu looked at the photos pasted on the wall, there were no beautiful scenery or intimate group photos, some were all fireworks filled the battlefield.

It was the place where his parents met and fell in love, and it was also the place where they were buried.

When Shi Xu was young, he hated all the photos. He hated the thin piece of paper separating him from his parents, but when he grew up, he was full of curiosity about the land behind the photos, and what was holding his parents back.

"Mom and Dad, I'm here to disturb you again."

Shi Xu took out the only photo of the two of them together from the bedside drawer, and gently stroked the two people in the photo.

"I told you last time that I wanted to break up with him, and I really did, but after only a few days, I got entangled with him again." Shi Xu lowered his head in frustration, angry with himself: "I really didn't use."

Just as he was saying this, Song Yihan's phone call came in, and the name that kept appearing seemed to be mocking him braggingly, Shi Xu raised the phone and complained to his parents: "Look, this is the person who has been pestering me, he Really annoying."

The phone rang persistently for a long time, but Shi Xu had no choice but to answer it: "What's wrong?"

Song Yihan's voice seemed aggrieved: "Why haven't you come back yet?"

Shi Xu held his phone and sat by the window, facing the evening wind, said: "I have something to do, I have to go back later."

The person on the other end of the phone was silent for a while and asked him, "Shi Xu, are you avoiding me?"

"No." Shi Xu immediately replied to Song Yihan, these days he slept in the laboratory twice a day, he really wanted to hide from him, but today it really wasn't.

Song Yihan didn't know what to say, he put himself in a very low position, he didn't know what he was not doing well enough, he was a little discouraged.

For the first time in his life, he was serious about chasing someone, and it was simply a wrong step.

The two were talking on the phone, listening to each other's breathing, and the idea of ​​either hanging up.

After long hesitation, Shi Xu finally spoke.

"Song Yihan, don't you want to know the reason for our breakup?"

His gaze has no place to rest, and none of the thousands of lights outside the window belong to him. With the little courage left, he tears the past apart.

"I tell you."

Shi Xu closed his eyes and put the photo on his forehead, and said silently in his heart: Mom and Dad, let me try again, if it still doesn't work this time, I will accept my fate.

When Shi Xu went downstairs, he saw grandma covering grandpa with a quilt. Although he was muttering blame words, the picture was still warm and harmonious.

He whispered goodbye to grandma: "I'm going back."

The old lady Shi sent him to the door: "Have you found the answer?"

The fine hair on Shi Xu's forehead was blown by the evening wind, making the twinkling light in his eyes even more dazzling. He nodded and said to grandma: "I still can't give up what I want."

The old lady Shi looked at Shi Xu who had become more mature and upright with time, and smiled gratifiedly: "You can control your own life, no matter what decision you make, we will support you."

Before leaving, Shi Xu hugged his grandma, and said in a low voice, "I'll bring someone over to see you next time, I hope you don't dislike it."

The old lady Shi was stunned for a moment, and when Shi Xu left, she happily ran back to the house and shook the old man who was in a deep sleep awake.

"When you were old, your grandson was going to bring his granddaughter-in-law to see you!"

The old man looked confused: what daughter-in-law?Who is the daughter-in-law?

Here Song Yihan has been fidgeting since Shixu hung up the phone, he wanted to know the reason for the breakup, but he was afraid of knowing the reason.

What if he really did something wrong to Shi Xu?What if Shi Xu refuses to forgive him?

The moment Song Yihan saw Shi Xu, his anxiety dissipated in an instant, and he realized that his wild thoughts just now were meaningless.

This man was the answer to all his problems.

Song Yihan looked into Shi Xu's eyes, and suddenly grinned, with a bit of shamelessness: "You can't kick me out after you finish speaking."

Facing Song Yihan's face, Shi Xu felt sour in his heart, and wanted to throw everything away and throw himself into his arms.

But no, he had to wait, he had to wait until he was completely his own.

"Do you still remember Fang Xiaoqin?"

Song Yihan shook his head, he heard Shi Xu say: "He is someone you have liked for a long time."

This feeling is very strange. The person he loves the most stands in front of him, but he says that he likes another person who doesn't even know his name.

"I'm very jealous of him." Shi Xu poured himself a glass of water, suppressing the timidity in his heart, "So the moment I saw that you were still in touch with him, I decided to fulfill both of you."

Song Yihan's heart skipped a beat when he heard Shi Xu say the word "jealousy". He could hardly believe that Shi Xu had such emotion for him.

"Shi Xu, you..."

Song Yihan's hand uncontrollably grasped Shi Xu's wrist tightly, his lips trembled, and he wanted to ask something nervously.

Shi Xu saw through him with a single glance, he calmly and earnestly held each scarred heart in front of Song Yihan, and gave him the chance to choose again.

"Song Yihan, I have to admit it to this day."

"I still have you in my heart."