forced compounding

When Shi Xu came to a research institute abroad for the first time, he saw the neatly arranged reagent materials in the laboratory, as if he had fallen into a golden hole all at once.

"It's good to have money." Shi Xu sighed, twisting his neck. Precious research reagents cost 10,000+ per gram. They don't have enough funds to do experiments and can only wait for the funds from the top. They worry about how to save money all day long. , As a result, the laboratory was directly equipped with basic equipment.

It is said that they are researching and discussing together, but how could the Wellington Institute really disclose their research results, so while talking nonsense, they took them to wander around the institute, showing off to them how great their research environment is good.

Shi Xu felt that these people were like pyramid schemes, and they were about to be lured into them in minutes. He pretended to be interested and smiled at the leading director. Suddenly someone patted him on the shoulder and whispered to him: "Shi Xu Sir, your friend has come to see you."

He could think of only two people who came to him at this time, but he didn't really want to see these two people now.

"I'll go there later."

The staff walked away understandingly, Shi Xu turned his head and was startled by the director's sudden approach: "What's the matter?"

The director's shrewd and calculating eyes narrowed with a smile, as if looking at a fat sheep waiting to be slaughtered.

"At that time, our institute sent you an invitation before, why did you refuse?"

That was when Shi Xu was in his second year of Ph.D. At that time, he was only thinking about Song Yihan, he was fascinated by masculinity, and he didn't have the heart to go abroad to live a lonely life.

But if I say this, I'm afraid people will think I'm a fool, Shi Xu replied tactfully and politely to the director: "Your place is very good, but it's more convenient for me to take care of my family in China, and I'm not good at academics, so I'm afraid I will disappoint your expectations. "

The director shook his head regretfully, and tentatively said: "Then if we can help you settle down your family, are you interested in working here? To tell you the truth, I am very optimistic about you. Better development."

Shi Xu knew that the director did not lie to him, whether it was resources or equipment, the research environment here was indeed more ideal, but Shi Xu couldn't explain why, and he subconsciously rejected this idea.

"Sorry, I'm afraid I'm going to disappoint your kindness again."

The director was not in a hurry, he shook hands with Shi Xu in a friendly way: "It doesn't matter, I am always very patient with talented people, my invitation is valid for a long time, and you are welcome to come anytime."

Shi Xu hesitated for a moment, but still nodded, and then he asked the director as if thinking of something: "I heard that the research institute here shares resources with pharmaceutical companies, do you know how to solve memory damage? "

The director stroked his chin in thought, and said, "We have no research on human brain memory here. It belongs to the scope of bioengineering. I can try to contact medical researchers for you and ask them what they think."

As he spoke, he joked: "At that time, you wouldn't join the biological field just to refuse my invitation, would you?"

Shi Xu smiled and shook his head: "No, I love my research, but I have a friend who has encountered difficulties in this regard."

The director understood, chatted a few more words casually, and then walked away.

Shi Xu didn't hold much hope for Song Yihan's memory, but he had to give it a try, it wasn't that he didn't like the current Song Yihan, it was just that the current Song Yihan was too good, too good to be true.

Like a bubble floating in the sun, it is in danger of breaking at any time;

Shi Xu thinks that he is really a crazy person, the more dangerous things are, the more he loves them obsessively, he deserves to suffer.

Thinking of this, he walked towards the place the staff said before, hitting the smooth marble floor with every step, making a series of "da da" sounds, he stood at the door of the lounge and knocked on the door.

"May I come in please?"

No one answered him at the door, but Shi Xu heard two familiar voices arguing quietly.

Shi Xu didn't expect the two of them to appear together, and began to hesitate whether he should go in, one trouble was enough for him to have a headache.

In the end, Andrew opened the door for him, but instead of letting him in, he quickly locked the people inside without giving them any time to react.

Song Yihan: I really believed in his evil.

Shi Xu looked at the key to lock the door in Andrew's hand, and said helplessly, "Where did you get your key?"

Andrew buried his head: "I took it from the administrator..."

Shi Xu didn't believe it: "You got it?"

Andrew buried his head lower: "The administrator is asleep."

In a place where Andrew couldn't see, Shi Xu let out a helpless low smile: "You are finished, the administrator will definitely arrest people everywhere when he wakes up." He patted the big golden retriever on the head, "Look up, I won't Scolding you, scolding you is the duty of your boss."

Andrew saw that there was no reproach in Shi Xu's eyes, and suddenly he smiled heartlessly. He scratched his head in embarrassment: "Shi, I have something I want to show you."

It was the first time Shi Xu heard Andrew call him so solemnly, and he had a premonition when he took the few pieces of paper.

He understood what was meant behind this thesis. Shi Xu looked at Andrew, who was blushing, and seemed to see himself in the past through him, but it was a pity that he could never learn it by expressing it so enthusiastically.

“Andrew, why do you believe in love at first sight?”

Shi Xu touched his trouser pockets, there was no cigarettes, he had unknowingly gotten used to the days without cigarettes.

Andrew leaned his back against the wall opposite Shi Xu, and it was the first time he saw his sweetheart showing such an expression.

"Isn't love like this, the heart is hit for a moment, and then "this is the person" and "I want to pursue this person", love can't think so much, you run away as soon as you think about it. "

Andrew was a little nervous because of the confession, but when he said this, he suddenly felt that his soul had been sublimated.

The corner of Shi Xu's mouth curled into a shallow arc, and he looked at Andrew seriously: "You know? The word 'shine' doesn't suit me at all. I'm not a sunny and courageous person. I have an inferiority complex that I can't get rid of. And my self-esteem is so strong that I long for the approval of the outside world, but I just pretend not to care. I am so worthless that I have to think twice every time I get up to answer questions. When I got off, my hands would shake for a while."

Andrew was stunned, and hurriedly said that he didn't care, but there was uncertainty in his eyes that he didn't even notice.

Shi Xu handed the paper back to Andrew: "Don't believe in love at first sight, because you are not sure what kind of person you fall in love with at first sight."

He asked Andrew for the key to open the door, and the big boy's voice sounded behind him again.

"What about him? Are you sure he's the one you want?"

Andrew's voice was unwilling and frustrated, "Shi, don't deny it, you look at him differently."

Shi Xu inserted the key into the lock without turning it. He pressed his forehead against the door and muttered, "How can I be sure?"

"Andrew, if I'm your 'shine', this man is my 'shine'."

It is the light that he can never meet in his life.

Shi Xu opened the door and watched the eavesdropper stand up in a panic, scratching his head as if he hadn't done anything just now.

"I didn't eavesdrop, I was just researching how to open the door." Song Yihan turned his head to find that Andrew was no longer outside, he pinched his fingers nervously, not knowing what the two of them just said.

In the quiet atmosphere, only the sound of the clock was left, and embarrassment flowed between the two of them. Song Yihan held his breath and wanted to break the atmosphere, but Shi Xu preempted him.

"Andrew confessed to me."

Song Yihan stopped talking, he was anxious and angry now, afraid that he might say something that would hurt Shixu, so he could only clenched his hands into fists, and suppressed his opening: "I want to know your answer."

Shi Xu looked into Song Yihan's eyes, saw through his forbearance and repression, and also saw through his panic, as if he was afraid that he would throw him away.

But how to lose it?Has no one taught him how to leave someone he still loves?

"Song Yihan, I thought a lot before I walked in this door. I should have told you "Andrew is a good boy. I will be happier with him than with you." I want to make you sad, sad, and sad. I regret ever treating me like this.But... why can't I say it? "

Shi Xu tugged on the tie around his neckline, letting himself breathe a sigh of relief: "Song Yihan, what's so good about you? Why do you let me forgive you after loving and hating you?"

"Shi Xu..."

He saw Song Yihan walking towards him excitedly, reaching out his hand to his chest, preventing him from getting any closer.

"I'll only say these words once, so listen carefully to me."

Shi Xu's hand holding Song Yihan's collar was trembling, he forced his timid self to be tough, and said in a hoarse voice: "Song Yihan, it's not like no one loves me in this world, so when I am willing to love you again and again You have to cherish, this kind of love won't happen a third time, if one day you want to abandon me and leave me—"

Shi Xu poked at the position of Song Yihan's heart, one word at a time.

"I'll take your heart out."

Shi Xu didn't know if Song Yihan could accept such a sick and paranoid him. In the past, he wanted him to be loved very easily, so the love he expressed was only one-thousandth. He was afraid that his majestic love would put him under pressure. But now he doesn't want to.

He wanted Song Yihan to see him completely, even once, and he wanted to be truly loved by him.

Shi Xu was ready to scare people away, and was also ready to be pushed away by disgust, but Song Yihan always exceeded his expectations.

There was a drop of tear in Song Yihan's eye socket, one drop after another, as if there was no end.

Shi Xu was stunned, and the people in front of him were also stunned. He touched his cheeks, as if these tears were not from him.

Song Yihan suddenly understood that this was his soul crying, his soul was saying——

"Shixu, it's not just my heart, as long as you are by my side, I can even give you my life."