forced compounding

Song Yihan brought the child here just to stimulate Shi Xu, and when he saw Shi Xu walked away, he let the child play by himself, the child was a little reluctant, and wanted to say a few more words to Song Yihan, but Song Yihan was so cold With a look in his eyes, he immediately slipped away shaking his body.

He Jiazhan lit a cigarette under the dim light, and just opened his mouth. "Song Yihan, are you sick?"

Song Yihan drank a glass of mulled wine and didn't talk to He Jiazhan.

He Jiazhan cursed, and wanted to reach out to help the bastard clear the water from his mind.

"What on earth are you thinking? If Shi Xu breaks up with you just because you are not convinced, then don't expect me to help you again!"

He Jiazhan has always looked down on scumbags who see each other and change their minds. If they weren't brothers who had fought and punished together, he wouldn't have helped Song Yihan spoil Shixu.

Shi Xu used to be a clean person, but after years of Song Yihan's influence, he became able to come and go freely at the reception.

He is really going to be damned.

He Jiazhan wailed in his heart, and extinguished the cigarette that was about to burn his hands with great pain.

After Song Yihan drank some wine, he was finally able to speak out what he was holding back in his heart, parted his collar and said in a deep voice: "He said we are friends with benefits." As he spoke, he kicked the table with a "bang bang".

"Who the hell has been fighting for seven years."

He Jiazhan watched his friend's mouth twitch, "Then what do you think?"

Song Yihan paused and retracted his feet.

"I didn't think much about it. Am I not as good with him as before?"

He Jiazhan mocked him: "What was it like before? Let Shi Xu be your lover forever, and then kick him away when you get married?"

"I didn't think so!" Song Yihan retorted immediately, but his lips moved slightly, and he couldn't say any more words of defense.

He doesn't know how to define the relationship between him and Shixu, but it's definitely not a relationship with friends with benefits. He held Shixu all these years and wished he could give him the best things. I kicked myself.

He Jiazhan's forehead was throbbing with veins, and he punched Song Yihan in the shoulder, "You haven't figured out what's wrong with you and Shixu at all, you still want him to come back to you, you're dreaming!"

Song Yihan was short of breath, looked in Shixu's direction boredly, and asked in a low voice: "Then what do you think I should do now?"

"Think for yourself! It's you chasing people, not me!"

He Jiazhan rolled his eyes to the sky, and turned his head to see the beauties who came today. He is really single now, and he wants to end his single life.

Song Yihan and He Jiazhan said a few more words, and when they turned around and found that Shi Xu was gone, he immediately raised his heart and grabbed a waiter.

"Where did the person leaning against the bar just now go?"

The waiter trembled and pointed in a direction, Song Yihan immediately walked over without saying a word, met a few blind people on the way and wanted to approach them, Song Yihan was impatient and wanted to drive them away, so he just looked up At the end of the corridor, there is a pair of eyes that seem to be smiling but not smiling.

Song Yihan was inexplicably guilty, so he quickened his pace and rushed towards Shixu.

The person who struck up a conversation was inexplicably ignored. I was a little annoyed at first, but when I turned my head to look, I understood that it turned out that there was someone in charge.

Song Yihan walked up to Shi Xu, considering what to say was more appropriate, Shi Xu was always caring, and saw his distress at a glance, shook the cigarette in his hand with a smile, "You don't have to think too much, and don't worry about my emotions, I'm here The moment I didn't want to be your lover, I didn't even think about being your friend."

Shi Xu doesn't believe in such bullshit about "we can still be friends after breaking up", but it's just a fig leaf for his own shameful thoughts.

Song Yihan seemed to be hurt by his words, his voice was lowered, it was still a deep and pleasant voice, "Do you have to talk to me like this?"

Shi Xu slightly opened his lips and exhaled a hazy layer of white smoke, raised his eyebrows slightly and said, "Otherwise?"

If it weren't for the cigarette rising between them to clearly divide the two of them, Song Yihan would have suspected that Shi Xu was deliberately seducing him just now. He loved his eyes the most, as if there were hooks in them, holding his eyes All souls went to him.

Looking at such eyes, Song Yihan felt that he could bear anything Shi Xu said to him, and it would be better if he could kiss him. Standing here, he could still smell the light fragrance left by Shi Xu's body after being washed by the shower gel.

How could Shi Xu not know about Song Yihan, he knew what this person was thinking when he rolled his eyes, Shi Xu scanned Song Yihan all over, turned his face away and said: "Let's find someone to solve it, I want to be alone later Son, I'll leave as soon as the reception is over."

Song Yihan's eyes were glued to Shi Xu's body, and Shi Xu couldn't stand it anymore, so he glared at Song Yihan, which made Song Yihan even more arrogant.

"What do I want someone else to do, I just want you."

Shi Xu extinguished the cigarette in silence, lowered his eyes and said wearily: "Song Yihan, can you let me go, let's not get entangled."

Song Yihan's fiery heart was instantly extinguished. He looked at Shixu's eyes without nostalgia. After being confused, he was deeply panicked. He didn't believe that a person could control his feelings so freely, but if Shixu had never loved before What about him?

Impossible, Shi Xu loves him very much, loves him to the bottom of his heart, without him it is impossible.

"Shixu, do you love me?"

Shi Xu didn't expect Song Yihan to suddenly ask this question one day, especially when they broke up, it was ridiculously weird.

"do not love."

Shi Xu didn't expect that he could say these two words calmly, just like he didn't expect that he could quickly adapt to life without Song Yihan.

The light in Song Yihan's eyes went out, and his whole body almost melted into the thick night. After a few seconds, he asked again.

"Shi Xu, have you ever loved me?"

Shi Xu didn't speak, and Song Yihan couldn't help but recall a scene in his mind. It was the first month he and Shi Xu were together. He felt that Shi Xu was no different from all the lovers he had slept with. There is no promise, no agreement, and he doesn't ask Shixu to be alone, so it is taken for granted that he can have a spring night with other people.

It's just that when Shi Xu saw it, his heart was in a mess, he thought it was over, Shi Xu must be angry, how should he coax him.

He didn't want to be separated from Shi Xu, he was already working hard on this idea before he realized that he had this idea.

He greeted Shi Xu pretending to be relaxed, his whole body was bathed in his calm gaze, and he almost knelt down for him.

It's just that Shi Xu was not angry at all to his surprise, he didn't seem to see the hickey on his body, and said gently and softly: "You do your work first, I'll come to you at another time."

The moment the door closed, he came back to his senses. He stood helplessly at the door, subconsciously telling him that he should rush out to apologize, and beg Shixu to forgive him, but reason restrained his steps again, and his reason told him, Shi Xu doesn't love him, Shi Xu doesn't care about him.

He couldn't accept that answer, so he pretended that what happened that day never happened, and after that, there was no one else in his bed except Shi Xu.

When his consciousness returned, Song Yihan realized that Shi Xu hadn't answered his question, so he simply answered it for him.

"Shi Xu, you haven't loved me for a moment in these seven years. You only have yourself in your heart. Is it interesting for you to pretend to be affectionate in these seven years for others to see?"

Song Yihan said this sentence almost angrily, as if he had done something heinous, Shi Xu was so angry at Song Yihan's words that he almost cursed.

He wanted to say, Song Yihan, are you human?These seven years are your seven years, isn't it mine?

I'm not a piece of wood, how can I not be tempted, but wasn't it you who asked me to control my heart in the first place?

Shi Xu's eyes were sour, and he swallowed the words that reached his throat. He didn't like to quarrel and there was no need to quarrel because of the past. Since they had come to a dead end, he didn't bother to ask for a turnaround.

What he wanted was never the reunion of two people, but the rebirth of Nirvana alone.