dead person

That winter, I went to a private house with him.After entering the gate, he only let me stand on the porch of the living room, and then threw me down to the second floor.Then, I heard the laughter of him and a little boy, kind and kind.

I couldn't help raising my head, and met the eyes of the child who was looking down from above, and then lowered my head tacitly.

That day, he only stayed in the private house for more than an hour. When he left, his face was sullen, and there was the sound of a little boy crying upstairs.I didn't ask anything, I just imitated the little boy and called grandpa afterwards, and I got sharp eyes like knives.

After that, I never went to that place again, and never saw that little boy again.Just being taken by his side and learning strange things.When he was happy, he would coax me like he coaxed that little boy back then.

When I was more unhappy, I was locked in a dark place, waiting for me to admit my mistake.I don't know what I did wrong, but only when I cried like a tearful man and said I'm sorry, I don't dare anymore, would I be released by him.

After that, I was sent to school by him, and I was forced to study things that I was not interested in every day.I think he has a weird personality, and his demands on me are somewhat unspeakable.

For example, if you perform too well, you will be locked up in a dark room, and if you are too mediocre, the same is true.

For many years after that, I basically followed behind him, and I could barely guess what he specialized in.It's just that when I grow up, I naturally don't believe in those gods and ghosts from the bottom of my heart.

When he is in a good mood, he will also talk about the little boy I met back then.Only then did I know that it was his grandson, named Zhou Yun, who poured all his hopes into him, but it seemed that his personality was a bit out of character, which made him not satisfied.

He will demand me with the requirements of Zhou Yun, and I will be slowly carved into the shape he wants like a mold.At the same time, being tightly locked by his side, he will never let me out.

As Zhou Yun grew up, he became more and more dissatisfied with Zhou Yun's appearance, dissatisfied with Zhou Yun's rebellion and depravity, complained to me a lot, asked me why, no matter how I answered, he would end up with a small black house Three days package.

So, I gradually learned to be silent.Although, I may have guessed what the little boy named Zhou Yun was feeling awkward about.

But what's so awkward about him?People like them will probably never express their true feelings.Just like me, even if I have been by his side for so many years, the only thing I have learned is to no longer expect.

I no longer expect him to treat me differently and treat me better because of my hard work and hard work.

Later, I probably guessed what I was to him.Me, it's just that he couldn't get the comfort he wanted from Zhou Yun, and he didn't want to cherish it as much as he did to Zhou Yun.

When I grow up a bit, I am already taller than him, and I no longer need to look up when I look at him.And at this time, he would still talk about Zhou Yun to me, but there was more precaution and scrutiny in his words.

Zhou Yun's name was chanted and chanted by him, and even if I was out of my wits, I would never forget it.Once I boldly asked him, why didn't he keep Zhou Yun with him?

He was silent for a long time, and locked me in the small dark room again.

I guess, roughly reluctant.I don't want Zhou Yun to live like me, to be satisfied by him, but also to be disgusted by him.

Dislike me like a bird in a cage, without freedom and vitality.

Still, and I seem to be getting used to it.I am used to having such a weird old man by my side, and I am used to his silent expression.

I'm also used to him making all kinds of unimaginable requests again and again.For example, if I meet Zhou Yun in the future, I must give Zhou Yun everything I have without reservation.

Look, what an outrageous request.

However, I just felt that there was no problem, and I agreed without any hesitation.

Then, he finally died.He died at the airport where he was excitedly preparing to leave, and there was a surge of people. He was quickly taken away from the scene by an ambulance. I watched him go away with a huge backpack on his back, and was covered with a white cloth in the hospital.

That day, I saw him again.The little boy back then is now about the same height as me, with a healthy wheat complexion, unlike me, whose skin is dead and pale without seeing the sun all day.

very nice.

His gaze stayed on the corpse, and he cursed a few times in disbelief, then bit his lip and calmed down.I stood not far away, pushed the beam in the middle of the glasses, turned around and left without mercy.

I still remember what I promised at the time, so I wasn't so stupid and bumped into him on my own initiative.Am I crazy to give everything to someone I don't really know?

However, fate seems to like to play such jokes with people.He and I finally met again.

After only half a year, he broke into my life out of thin air like a ball of fire.Noisy, clingy, annoying.No matter where I hid, within three to five months, he could always find me.

No matter how much I ignored him, he seemed to have a lot to say.

I looked at him, and all the past about him that I heard from the dead old man seemed to have a complete outline.Yes, the old man never told me his name until his death, and I never knew what to call him.

All he left me, apart from a single apartment, was the backpack I was carrying at the airport that day and a bank card.

However, Zhou Yun is also a little different from what he said.At this time, he no longer had the bit of rebellion he had when he was a teenager, but instead had more unnecessary attachments.

After trying to avoid him countless times without success, I simply accepted the fact that such a person was by my side.After all, Zhou Yun is rich and handsome, so naturally there shouldn't be anything that requires me to devote myself to it.

It wasn't until I received the call from the hospital that I realized that money didn't seem to be everything.And I am the first contact on his mobile phone, and also the person who can be matched by the bone marrow closest to him.

After the surgery, I didn't see him again for a long time.For this reason, I even began to doubt the reason why I was finally taken in.Now this is of little value to him, so it is reasonable not to see each other again.

No wonder, at that time, the old man would make such a request to himself.Give everything, including flesh and blood.

Forget it, just think that I will never get along with him in the future.

Just after I accepted this fact again, he appeared in front of me again, rambling.No matter how I frown or how cold I am, I always smile and talk about the jokes I don't know where I heard it.Before the joke was finished, he was smiling like a fool.

Then the fool said, I am also somewhat different from what he imagined.

In his imagination?Why should he imagine a stranger like me?

He smiled and talked nonsense again, talking about him from left to right.

Hey, what a fool.

Two or three years have passed in a flash, and I have traveled all over the country with that backpack on my back.I don't know where I want to go, but I always have a little bit of a grudge about the back in my memory.

He didn't ask too many questions, but he appeared in front of me again with a smile every time soon after my phone was turned on.It's just that the look of inquiry in his eyes is getting stronger and stronger.

There was almost no heart-to-heart talk between us, more of my silence and his broken thoughts.Sometimes he would complain that I was too boring, and most of the time, he would move to my guest room for a few days when he was acquainted.

He always asked me how I lived before, curious about my past.And I always feel that the past is difficult to talk about, and I never talked about it once.

About that old man, I don't want to talk to him.What he doesn't know is that although I have been living with that person, I envy him to death.My relationship with him, in my heart, is more like light and shadow.

He is the light, living frankly and enthusiastically in all the preferences of that person.

I am a shadow, humble and cowardly living in that person's strange expectations.

He failed to live up to that person's expectations, and I also failed to live up to that person's preference.

As for the many past events when I was young, the only thing I remember is the woman's back and the dark, oppressive and dull space.

Since that surgery, I've been physically weak for a while.During that time, I couldn't sleep all night, or I was dreaming layer upon layer when I closed my eyes.

Waking up from one dream and falling into another.

In the dream, I am not a boy with only a name who follows the old man. I also have parents and relatives, and partners who grew up with me, and I live in the preferences of those people just like him.

Those dreams, like a series of journals, went through my mind over and over again. Sometimes, even when I was awake, I could recite those pictures.

Those dreams were so clear, like broken pieces of a jigsaw puzzle, I could already piece together the outline of my first half of my life in my mind.

Finally, at the end of autumn that year, I still carried my backpack and brought the little moon back to what might be my hometown.Recently, those dreams have become more and more clear, and I can even call out the names of those people and the name of the village in the dream.

The journey back home was not very smooth.Along the way, I was thinking, if my parents were still alive, was I abandoned back then?

Before such an idea was answered, something even more absurd happened.The person who forced me to stay overnight actually said that I was dead.

And when I saw my parents in my dream, I felt extremely calm, as if they were just strangers to me.

However, as they also died one after another, the atmosphere in the village became weird.Everything points to me, but it doesn't matter, anyway, I don't expect to be able to live forever, even if my life is here, there is no pity.

It wasn't until the night when I was taken hostage that I figured out how things were connected.The person who kidnapped me looked at me with deep hatred.

He asked me why I was still alive, why I forgot everyone in the village, and whether I still remembered those playmates back then.

I have vaguely remembered half of those people in the village, but the playmates he mentioned are still a blur in my memory.

But now, so many people died in the village, and when it came to me, they were just tied up and soaked in the pool like this, at least it showed that he didn't want my life for a short time.

Every time he came back from the house, he would always talk to me for a while, talking about who died and how, who will be next, how damn those people are, etc. .

However, I don't care and don't bother to talk to him.After all, after soaking in such a pool for a long time, it is inevitable that life will be boring.

At least, the little moon is gone, if Zhou Yun finds it, he will definitely treat him kindly.

That way, I have no regrets.And Zhou Yun, will he... come to me?

I can't recall those memories. The old man seemed a little anxious. He took the initiative to tell me his name and lit the aromatherapy to help me sleep. When I fell asleep, his desolate voice was in my dream.His voice was talking about those past events as if he was reading a novel of no value.

And after going through those past events in my mind, it unexpectedly made me feel a little familiar.

Those names, the faces of those playmates, I seem to remember all of them.However, who was Jing Yun he was talking about?

Yes, there was a child in my memory with dark skin and a shy smile.However, he looked at me with such sad and eager eyes, could it be that Xiaoyun is also dead?

He is like a lunatic, no, he is a lunatic, and all the parents of the playmates he mentioned are still alive, and they have gradually become the ghosts of his subordinates.Every time he told me how those people died, he always had a bit of joy on his face.

One day, I vaguely heard Zhou Yun's voice.

The originally dead heart suddenly came alive.It suddenly occurred to me that maybe I had a chance to walk out of this pool alive and get back to my apartment alive.

Sure enough, Old Man Wang became anxious, and his techniques became more and more rough.Such him, on the contrary, made me feel a little happy.It seems that Zhou Yun has already threatened him.

But at this moment, I just remembered those words he said at the beginning, and suddenly realized that his final goal may be the person who came to me.

Zhou Yun.

The day I thought about it, he lit the diffuser again.The spice has a strange smell, and I don't know what the formula is, as long as I smell it, it will make people feel drowsy.What's even more amazing is that it didn't affect him at all.

If the old man is not dead, they can learn a thing or two.After all, the realgar wine and the like in my backpack were relics left to me by the old man, although I accidentally lost several of them not long after I entered the village.

When I woke up again, I was in a dark cave, only the entrance of the cave had some dazzling light.The drenched clothes on his body had already been changed by someone, and after he got used to the darkness, he realized that there were still two or three vegetarian cakes thrown beside him.

That crazy old man seems to have changed something.

Why would he change me to a place like this?So many days have passed, what exactly does he want to do now?

After soaking in the water for many days, I felt bone-piercing pain all over my body.It's just that when he thinks of Zhou Yun and what he once promised to the old man, he no longer cares about other things.

Regardless of whether there are people around who can hear my shouts, I just hope that someone can protect Zhou Yun and prevent him from being tricked by that old man Wang.

For several days, old man Wang did not show up.I don't know what he did after he returned to the village. There is no place to climb up this terrible cave.My throat was so hoarse that I couldn't make a sound, and I had already eaten up the few plain pancakes left in the cave.

With the torment of these days, the clothes on his body are a little too loose.However, the only thing I can do is to rely on the sound I make to attract passers-by to save me, or to save Zhou Yun.

Of course, it doesn't matter if you don't save me, after all, it doesn't matter to me, as long as you save Zhou Yun.

No, Yun.

This is still the name he forced me to change, saying that calling it like this sounds kind.

Ah Yun, so kind.

Will I starve to death first, or die of exhaustion in this cave first? I thought about this question for a long time, until I couldn't hold it anymore and passed out again and again.

However, I seem to be beginning to remember who Jing Yun was mentioned by old man Wang.

Xiaoyun, it seems... was killed by me.

No, how could I be the one to do something like murder.

How did the hand he stretched out to me at the end and the look he looked at me make me so sad?

After waking up again, I saw old man Wang again. Following his gaze, I saw the person I had been worried about for a long time.

At that moment, I felt like I was a little cowardly.If this kind of cowardice is known to the old man, I will at least be locked in a small dark room for a week.I am so cowardly that I am afraid that Ah Yun is really dead, what should I do then.

And that idiot Ah Yun is still comforting me not to cry, saying that he finally found me.

In fact, after thinking about Xiaoyun, I roughly guessed the reason why old man Wang kept me.Naturally, I also know that in the end he probably won't let me continue to live.

But it doesn't matter if I live or not.

The words that old man Wang said to the walkie-talkie played back slowly in my mind like a movie, and I seemed to have returned to that summer, thinking of my father’s beatings, the tears of regret in his eyes, and the Zhang shyly smiling face.

Xiaoyun...

All of a sudden, I just felt a little chaotic. All the memories of the past, the present, rolled up shocking waves like the sea, and finally all merged together. I no longer know who the person in front of me is.

When old man Wang jumped into the water with Ah Yun in his arms, he gave me a big jump.What everyone didn't know was that after that summer, the thing I was most afraid of was such deep pool water.

But, the person struggling in the water to lean in...

Is it Xiaoyun or Ayun?

My memory was confused, I couldn't distinguish their faces for a while, and I felt as if I went back to that summer, as long as I didn't hold those hands, I would regret it for the rest of my life.

Don't be afraid, Du Changyuan, you don't even have any fear of death, what do you do if you are afraid of water.If you let him sink to the bottom again, you will regret it and want to die.

Finally, I grabbed the hand that was handed over from afar, and held it tightly, never wanting to let go.But old man Wang, who wanted to drag me into the water, swung a knife at my arm at this moment.

Joke, how could I give up.

Xiaoyun, I have already given up once, and it is impossible to let go a second time...

Only after I pulled the person in front of me out of the water did I turn around and sink into the water with Old Man Wang in my arms.My weak body can no longer withstand this torment, but it seems that my luck is a little bit good.After scrambling randomly, a dagger was stuffed in my hand.

I felt as if someone grabbed my hand and stabbed Old Man Wang with the dagger.

Yes, that's how it should be.It doesn't matter whether it was Ayun or Xiaoyun he wanted to kill just now.

He deserves to die.

After the hand in my hand stabbed Old Man Wang, it stabbed Old Man Wang several times as if there was a deep hatred, and then let go of my hand.

I quickly clenched my hands and pushed the old man Wang who was blocking my way to surface.The dagger in my hand was firmly held in the palm of my hand, and the drenched person beside me was already protected behind me.

I glanced at him, feeling terrified in my heart.It's just that I can't remember his name for a while.

Xiaoyun, or Ayun?

No, Xiaoyun is dead.Then he is...

I trembled with fear, afraid that I would never remember his name again, and everything would disappear like the memory of my childhood.He didn't even care about being taken away and stuffed into an ambulance afterwards.

The wet man wanted to get close to me, but I also avoided it.I don't want him to see what I am now, as if I can't remember anything.

After that, I fell into a deep sleep, and all the exhaustion of these days disappeared.When I opened my eyes again, I only saw the young man outside the ward waving at me, his face seemed familiar.

After a series of inspections, I followed the policemen guarding the door to the police station.They said that Wang Changlin was killed by me, but I don't remember anything.

Immediately afterwards, there was another round of inspections, and their faces were all full of gloomy and angry expressions.After a lot of tossing, I finally reached the last place.

There, I saw the first person I saw when I opened my eyes again.He always calls my name softly, and will sit beside me and chat with me while talking to himself.

It's just that his eyes didn't have the gentle look in his tone at all, only a look of scrutiny with coolness.

Regardless of whether it is sunny or raining, he will always show up on time every afternoon, chat for a while, and then leave.Everyone said he was really kind to me, so that's naturally good.

However, what did he mean by what he said?

It's a pity that you have been by his side all the time, and you are nothing more than that.In vain I have regarded you as a thorn in my side for so many years.

The thorn in the flesh is the thorn in the flesh, and I naturally know that it should be eliminated quickly.

However, what does it mean to be a pity?

The nurse with a cute round face took the medicine bottle in her hand and delivered the medicine to my hand. After I took it, she handed me a glass of water. After I drank the water obediently, she smiled. It's a great compliment to me.

My mind was blank and clear, looking at the open-air parking lot downstairs from the window.The sun had already set in the sky, and the shadows cast by the towering buildings made the place look a bit cold.And under the clear light, the person who just left me is stepping away step by step.

(End of the book)

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