power over

On May [-]rd, the last day of the long holiday, Yu Zhinian went to Xinshi.

From Ningshi to Xinshi, the high-speed train only takes one hour, and there are many trains. However, due to the holiday, Yu Zhinian was more than a week in advance, and he still only bought a ticket for No. [-].

At twelve noon, he arrived at the train station in Xinshi, and Professor Zhao came to pick him up.

The academic circle of sociology is not that big. After Yu Zhinian returned to China at the end of last year, Professor Zhao quickly called him and asked him to meet him. He said that both Ningshi and Xinshi are fine, and the time and place are up to him. pick.

Professor Zhao made appointments with Yu Zhinian three or four times, but they were not at the right time. Yu Zhinian was too busy with his studies, had different schedules every day, and was under a lot of pressure for thesis, so he never took time out.

Now that Yu Zhinian is about to go back to school, he finally found the time and took the initiative to visit.

Xinshi's railway station is newly built and very spacious.Yu Zhinian got out of the car, walked to the exit, and saw Professor Zhao standing not far away.

Professor Zhao and Yang Ke look alike, and stand out in the crowd.He was wearing a shirt and trousers, and was only a little shorter than Yang Ke, but compared to the last time Yu Zhinian saw him, he had aged a lot.

Seeing Yu Zhinian, Professor Zhao greeted him with a smile, and led Yu Zhinian to the underground garage.

"It's the first time I came to pick up people at the new station," he said, "I walked around the garage for a long time, and even called my student to ask him which door is closest."

Yu Zhinian saw that the car key he was holding in his hand still belonged to the Nissan car ten years ago, and he hadn't even changed the small green Lego pod pendant on the key.

The pendant has signs of wear and tear and is quite old, but it was cleaned very well.The same goes for Professor Zhao's car.

Yu Zhinian sat in the co-pilot that Yang Ke would sit in before, and waited quietly for Professor Zhao to start the car.

"Is there any place you want to go?" Professor Zhao asked him, "You haven't had lunch yet, what do you want to eat?"

Yu Zhinian didn't want him to spend money, so he said: "Go to your school." A friend who lied that he was in Xinda University told him that the canteen in their new campus was delicious and cheap.

Professor Zhao turned his head slightly, not knowing whether he was looking at him or the rearview mirror, paused for a while, and said yes.

"But the new campus is a bit far away," he said.

Xinshi is a city near the sea, famous for its strong winds.

Professor Zhao drove onto the high-speed road of the cross-sea bridge leading to the school, and drove to more than 100 yards. With the windows of the car closed, Yu Zhinian could still hear the huge sound of the wind, like waves hitting the car body.

On both sides of the bridge is the light blue sea, and there is an entire continent behind.

The music in the car was mostly covered by the sound of the gust of wind, as if the car would be swept up by the wind and sent into the sea in the next second.

The two were silent for a long time, Professor Zhao spoke first, and said, "Zhi Nian, you have worked hard for the past two years."

Yu Zhinian looked at the land in the distance, but did not speak.

It wasn't that he didn't want to say it, it was that he didn't know what to say.

If you say it's not hard, it's a lie

In the middle of the night alone in the dormitory, Yu Zhinian often thought that if he insisted on going his own way before coming to the project and insisted on marrying Yang Ke, and the two of them were tied together, at least he would be able to be happy himself, and would not be as uncomfortable as he is now.

But to say that it is really hard, seems to be too delicate, there is no need for this.

And it's wrong to be selfish.Yu Zhinian understood this truth.

Professor Zhao also told him once.

Without Yu Zhinian's answer, Professor Zhao asked him again: "Have you contacted Yang Ke?"

Yu Zhinian said "no".

He paused for a few seconds, and told Yu Zhinian that Yang Ke's recent career development was not bad, saying that they had talked on the phone a few days ago.

"Very good," Yu Zhinian dryly cheered, "My thesis is almost finished."

Professor Zhao said that he knew Yu Zhinian's subject: "Wilson and I praised you. He came to our school for an exchange in February and brought two students with him, but you seemed to be doing field research at the time, and you were not in school."

Yu Zhinian let out a "hmm", he paused, and changed the subject again: "Zhi Nian, where do you live when you go back to Heshi?"

"I rented a house," Yu Zhinian said, "The apartment my grandfather gave me is currently being lived in, so I can't move out immediately."

Yu Zhinian didn't really want Professor Zhao to continue to expand the topic. He was afraid that the chat would eventually extend to the relationship between Yang Ke and him, so he cheekily pretended to complain, and told the whole story of his house search. After receiving the professor's notice, I contacted the real estate agent, and finally watched the house via video, and paid the rent.

By the time they finished speaking, they had already got off the sea-crossing bridge and headed up the mountain along the road.

"It's really not easy to rent a house by yourself," Professor Zhao said with emotion, "Zhi Nian, if you have any financial problems, you must tell uncle."

"I'm in school by myself, I don't spend money on board and lodging, I still have some savings," he said, "If you have difficulties, don't be polite to me."

The winding mountain road leading to Xinda University is very beautiful along the way.

The sun was neither too big nor too small, and the sky was almost white with a slight blue tinge.

If Yu Zhinian were to describe it, he would think it was a color representing innocence.A color that wouldn't be judged wrong, the color he wanted to be.

Yu Zhinian stared at the sky like this, said "no need" to Professor Zhao, and told him "my grandfather left me a monthly daily expense, which is enough", and then feared that he would misunderstand, he added "I don't want to get married You can get it too, but not as much.”

Although in fact Yu Zhinian never used the money, he has only used his own scholarship for several years, so he was a little tight.

Professor Zhao remained silent for a while, and said "yes" to Yu Zhinian.

If the silence and conversation all the way made Yu Zhinian feel overwhelmed, then the unexpected call that followed made him even more embarrassed.

When approaching the gate of Xinda University, Professor Zhao's cell phone rang.

His mobile phone was connected to the car's stereo via Bluetooth, and he probably subconsciously pressed the buttons on the steering wheel to connect, and Yang Ke's voice rang in the car.

"Dad," Yang Ke said, "it's me. Are you in class?" His voice was calm and casual, with the secret intimacy that Yu Zhinian couldn't ask for.

Professor Zhao glanced at Yu Zhinian, maybe after thinking about it, out of politeness, he did not switch back to the phone to answer the call, and said to Yang Ke: "There is no class, today is a holiday." Then he paused as if hesitating, and told Yang Ke: "I'm with Zhinian now, we haven't seen each other for a long time, let's get together to catch up."

Yang Ke was silent for a second or two, said "Oh", and said slowly, "Where is it?"

"My school," said Professor Zhao, "come to visit the new campus."

"New home?" Yang Ke asked.

Professor Zhao said "yes".In the car stereo, Yu Zhinian heard Yang Ke whisper, "I haven't been there either."

They drove into the school gate, Professor Zhao slowed down the car, drove slowly, and chatted with his son relaxedly: "Didn't you show you a lot of photos, and you gave me the highest evaluation that it looks like an old house."

"Really," Yang Ke said, "I can't remember, I've been very busy recently."

Yu Zhinian sat quietly by the side, feeling embarrassed and a little suffocated.

"So busy," Professor Zhao asked Yang Ke, "What can I do with my father?"

Yang Ke paused for a while and said, "I'm a little tired after working too late."

His voice was indeed a little tired, Yu Zhinian couldn't help but glanced at the time, it was already two o'clock in the morning in Heshi City, and a little unknown sadness filled his heart, he looked out the car window at the students walking on the sidewalk, Divert yourself.

Professor Zhao said with some distress: "You still have to pay attention to your body."

Yang Ke let out a "hmm".

The two ends of the phone were silent for a few seconds, and Professor Zhao suddenly said, "By the way, I met Wei Chi's father a few days ago, and he said that Wei Chi told him that you are in a relationship?"

Yu Zhinian was distracted, and was taken aback when he heard the words, but before he could react, he heard Yang Ke's resolute denial: "No."

I don't know if it was a signal problem, but Yang Ke's voice suddenly became a little louder, which startled Yu Zhinian.

"...Okay," Professor Zhao said, "I thought it was true what he said. But it's time for you to think about your relationship."

"No time," Yang Ke's attitude became cold, "I don't have that much time."

Professor Zhao said helplessly, "Okay, okay."

Next, Yang Ke still didn't hang up the phone, but Yu Zhinian was a little depressed, and his body seemed to have a defense mechanism. He could hear Yang Ke talking to his father, but he didn't listen to anything.

In the end, Professor Zhao parked the car in the parking space next to the cafeteria, the two talked a few more words, and finally hung up the phone.

Yu Zhinian watched the Lego pods swaying on the key, he was relieved, he opened the car door, and the cold wind hit his face.

He stayed in Xinda University for most of the afternoon and evening, walked around the campus, looked at Professor Zhao's office, and the two chatted about the projects they were working on.In the end, Yu Zhinian stayed overnight in the school guest house, and Professor Zhao insisted on paying for him.

The next morning, Professor Zhao sent him back to the train station.After meeting for more than 20 hours, Yu Zhinian felt as if he had a dream that he had no impression of but had to do.This dream is not refreshing, but when I wake up, it will be fine.

When saying goodbye, Yu Zhinian turned around and left, but Professor Zhao stopped him again.

"Zhi Nian," Professor Zhao said to Yu Zhinian with guilt in his eyes, "I know you really don't want to see me, I'm sorry.

"I've always wanted to tell you that what I said the year before last was wrong, not you, but Yang Ke's grandfather.

"It is very selfless of you to choose to end this mistake, but if it were me, I might not be as selfless as you.

"I want to thank you for my son, and I want to apologize to you again, Zhinian, I'm sorry."

People come and go at the high-speed rail station, and travelers at the entrance of the station pack a lot of bags and put the boxes on the conveyor belt.

Yu Zhinian watched the flickering lights at the security check gate for a while, but still didn't know what to say to Professor Zhao, and finally said no thanks, and walked towards the security check gate.

The little holiday is over.The compartment of the car returning to Ning City was not as crowded as when it came. Yu Zhinian sat in his seat and finally dared to sum up the visit this time, thinking about what Zhao Sibei had said to him.

He thought Zhao Sibei's last words were wrong, and he was not without fault.

Yu Zhinian made a mistake in liking Yang Ke out of time, with a ferocious face, and a feeling that no one welcomes. This feeling is the mistake itself.

Back at school, Yu Zhinian packed his luggage and fell asleep for a long time. On May [-]th at [-] o'clock in the morning, he got up, checked his luggage for the last time, checked the network backup of the computer and papers, and then went downstairs , go to the east gate of Ningda.

The campus is still very quiet, the sky is not fully bright, the air is still cold, and there is a very light morning fog.

Yu Zhinian was wearing a windbreaker, walking on the deserted asphalt road, listening to the slight sound of the rollers of the suitcase rubbing against the ground.

Looking beyond the blurred white mist, beyond the iron gate, he caught the light of the flashing orange-yellow double-jump lights of the taxi he had booked, and realized that he was going to leave somewhere alone again.

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Observation and Analysis Notes ([-])

Theme: A thing that made Yang Ke laugh

(Recorder: Yu Zhinian Time: 2016.09.29)

Mathematical Modeling for Management Course, the first class is the introduction to the course.

Yang Ke and other students arrived earlier and sat at the front.

Looking forward from the middle of the third row, students from the Department of Finance can be seen in front of them.Almost all of them have laptops, and some have voice recorders.Yang Ke only brought a computer.

After listing all kinds of basic knowledge required for the course, the professor proposed the simplest model.

He invited Yang Ke as an interactive object, and asked Yang Ke to stand in front of the podium to conduct the simplest analysis and demonstration of this model. (model attached)

At the end of the analysis, the professor praised Yang Ke. He said that Yang Ke's performance was very good, and he expected him to get the same high score as in the comparative law course.

"But I'm not as tolerant as Allen," he said to Yang Ke, and then looked at all the students, "You know, my grading standards have always been harsh. Students who can't accept my standards can choose after the trial class Drop this course. Professor Allen welcomes you."

Yang Ke showed a faint smile.

But when he stepped off the stage, Yang Ke's smile disappeared after seeing the face of a student in the middle of the three rows behind him.