power over

36 (2019)

Yu Zhinian went back to the apartment next to the school in despair.

The apartment was cleaned very clean by Ren Heng and Chu Sifan, just like a model room, all the furniture was neatly arranged, and even the marble countertop of the island in the open kitchen was as clean as new.Yu Zhinian sat on the sofa, recalling what he had experienced since returning to Heshi.

Smith kept urging him to move things, the broken door lock in the basement, the locksmith who couldn't open the lock, the rented house with broken water pipes, the plight of Yang Ke's company, the hasty marriage registration, and the trip to Hawaii that didn't take place. OK.There are also Yang Ke's dinner invitations, hugs that seem like nothing, a trip to Mengshi, care in the twilight, and lingering kisses.

Everything happened so fast that he didn't have time to think about anything.

When Yang Ke was there, he was dizzy and lost his mind.

Yu Zhinian thought about what was said in the report, the real reason why Yang Zhongyun brought him from Sanwen to Ningshi, and found that from the age of 14 to 24, he didn't seem to have a day of sobriety.

He felt like a puppy on the verge of wandering. Because of a quarter of his special blood, he was pulled out by Yang Zhongyun to do one thing after another that he had never done before.

He lived blindly, chasing after Yang Ke, thinking that being selected was just luck.

Thinking back again, Yu Zhinian found a reasonable explanation for Yang Ke's behavior - Yang Ke already knew the secret of the relationship between Yu Zhinian's grandmother and Yang Zhongyun, so he felt more pity for him than he thought, and wanted to help him get He did not want to tell him the truth, so he did many unexplainable actions, which made the media and Deqin shareholders make a big fuss and write some funny things.

Because Yang Ke has always been a hard-spoken and soft-hearted person, he does things straightforwardly and has a clear purpose, which is completely different from Yang Zhongyun.

It's just that Yu Zhinian's so-called love is more and more superfluous in the revealed truth.

Yu Zhinian wanted to understand, and felt empty in his heart, hugging the pillow on the sofa and closing his eyes in a daze.

When Yang Ke's call brought him back to his senses, the sky outside the window was completely dark.There was no light in the room, and he was in the dark without natural light.

The phone rang for a while before Yu Zhinian answered it.

Yang Ke didn't blame him for being slow, but just asked, "Where are you?"

When Yu Zhinian heard Yang Ke's voice, he suddenly no longer felt irrational, and said to Yang Ke: "I just watched an interview with Fang Liang."

Yang Ke was silent.

"Yang Ke," Yu Zhinian leaned his back against the soft sofa cushions and asked, "Is your company short of money?"

Yang Ke didn't think about it for a long time, and said to Yu Zhinian, "There is no shortage". I don't know if he was too lazy to make up a reason, or he couldn't make it up.

"Are the door locks and renters in the report true?" Yu Zhinian asked him.

Yang Ke then said "yes".

Both ends of the phone suddenly fell into silence. Yang Ke suddenly changed the subject and asked Yu Zhinian, "Are you in the apartment next to the school? Let me pick you up."

Yu Zhinian didn't answer.

"I'm already downstairs in your apartment," Yang Ke seemed to be driving. Yu Zhinian heard the sound of the turn signal, and Yang Ke asked in a low voice, "Can we meet and talk? You can talk to the security downstairs."

"..." Yu Zhinian found it difficult, but rejected Yang Ke, "I don't really want to meet."

Yang Ke seemed to get out of the car, and the surrounding voices became a little noisy. He asked Yu Zhinian "why".

"I did that because half a year of separation is approaching, and it will be very troublesome to delay and register for marriage," Yang Ke explained to Yu Zhinian with some difficulty, "I wanted to stop you the night you were leaving. "

"You asked me if I was short of money," he told Yu Zhinian in a low voice, "I thought that as long as you admit it, you won't leave, so I admit it."

"Yang Ke," Yu Zhinian looked out the window, thought for a while, and said to him, "I don't think you should care so much about your marriage."

"Marriage is very sacred," Yu Zhinian recalled Zhao Sibei's words at that time, and persuaded Yang Ke, "I really don't want grandpa's shares and money, and I don't want you to marry me just because you pity me. If I want If I want money, I won’t go back to China to do projects. I don’t think I’m that pitiful.”

"Yu Zhinian," Yang Ke's voice became a little colder, "I don't feel sorry for you."

Hearing Yang Ke's easy and thoughtless denial, Yu Zhinian grabbed the phone and couldn't help gritting his teeth: "Aren't you pity me?"

He didn't feel humiliated, more just sad, breathing depressedly, and asked Yang Ke: "Don't you pity me, don't you still like me? Do you know what it feels like to like?"

"Yang Ke, it's not that you want to be kissed by me, and then kissed back, or you like me," Yu Zhinian said slowly, his ears began to tingle from the top of his head, his stomach was as cold as if being stirred by icicles, "You If you like someone, you can just give me alms—"

"Yu Zhinian." Yang Ke called him over there, as if hoping he would stop talking.

When Yu Zhinian heard his name spit out from Yang Ke's mouth, he suddenly couldn't bear it and wanted to resist.

"I don't want to be so pitiful," perhaps because the pressure and depression these days have accumulated to an unbearable level, Yu Zhinian has become unable to control his emotions, and can't help venting, "I'd rather you go and other people When it comes to falling in love and getting married, I don't want your sympathy at all."

"You know you like it—do you know what I am like?" He asked Yang Ke, "I miss you every day. When I lived there, when I went back to China to work on a project, I wanted to contact you every day, and I regretted it every day. Every time I thought of you, I was very nervous-as long as I thought of you, I was both happy and sad. I can't miss you."

He felt like he was taking out the trash, pouring out his feelings on his own.He said what he didn't say when Yang Ke forced him to wear the ring, wanted to take him to Hawaii, and wanted him to stay in the villa for a few more days.

"It's like——a part of me is not myself, and it will float around with you. Like this, do you understand? You don't understand, why do you insist on marrying me?"

"I went to buy a ring with you. I was sad. I went to register, and I was also sad, because those were all fake. I thought I was helping you, so I did it. I didn't expect that you were pitying me in the end."

His room was too dark, with no light at all.

Yu Zhinian cried for the first time since he was sensible. He didn't dare to touch his face for fear of touching too many tears with his palm.

"I like you very much, and I don't want you to sympathize with me." Yu Zhinian shook his hands uncontrollably, and said to Yang Ke, "Yang Ke, I want a little dignity."

Yang Ke didn't say a word, Yu Zhinian felt that Yang Ke might have been frightened by him.In front of Yang Ke, Yu Zhinian seems to never be able to control his words and deeds, and can't put on a good face. He always does wrong things, says wrong words, breaks down at inappropriate times, and even his voice is ugly.

"I'm sorry," Yu Zhinian slowly recovered, and apologized to Yang Ke, "I know your intentions are good."

"But after I returned to China to work on the project, I thought about the person you fell in love with. In fact," he curled up, closed his eyes, and confessed to Yang Ke, "I think you might like someone with a fierce personality, who is especially beautiful. You have a good family background and a rich life... I think you may be suitable for that kind of person, who is more able to chat with you, and who is more proud, unlike me who goes to the library every day, you will quarrel with him, and you will also fight with him Make peace, he is not happy, you will be unhappy, you will want him to be the happiest person in the world. If you marry me, there is no way to be with him right away."

"Do you understand?" He asked Yang Ke.

Yang Ke breathed quietly on the other end, and after a few seconds, his voice suddenly disappeared.Yu Zhinian's cell phone ran out of battery.

Yu Zhinian walked around the house and found a charging cable after searching for a long time. He plugged in the phone, and after a while, after the phone restarted, more than ten missed calls from Yang Ke were displayed.Yang Ke also sent him a message, asking him: "Is the phone running out of battery? Can you answer the phone when it has power?"

"The security won't let me come up." Yang Ke said.

Yu Zhinian looked at the text message screen, feeling very confused by Yang Ke's gesture of still wanting to communicate.

For the first 24 years, he faced it seriously every day, facing the birth, old age, sickness and death of his parents and elders, facing everything that Yang Zhongyun imposed on and bestowed on him, facing his own bad love, and facing Zhao Sibei's heavy concerns.

He's never been a lucky man, but never once in his life has he been a deserter.

But on this day, Yu Zhinian really didn't want to face it anymore.He felt that he couldn't try to communicate with Yang Ke again, and he didn't want to communicate again.

He sent Yang Ke: "Can I stay by myself for a few days?"

Yang Ke showed that he was typing for a long time, and said "yes" to Yu Zhinian.

After a few seconds, he asked, "How many days?"

"I don't know." Yu Zhinian replied.

Yu Zhinian turned off his mobile phone, feeling dizzy and hungry, but there was no food at home, so he just drank some water in the end.

He took out the computer from his schoolbag and mechanically read the thesis several times. The street scene of Sanwen in his childhood was lingering in his mind. He suddenly wanted to go back and look at it. He sent an email to his supervisor to ask about the independent investigation project.

That day Yang Ke stayed downstairs in Yu Zhinian's apartment until nine o'clock, until Li Lu called and wanted to meet with him to discuss the response to the lawsuit.

He couldn't make a call to Yu Zhinian, and he still couldn't think of how to make Yu Zhinian understand that he didn't want the beautiful and good-looking people Yu Zhinian said at all. Never thought of other possibilities.

The apartment building was beautifully decorated, and Yu Zhinian was behind one of the lit windows, at most no more than a hundred meters away from Yang Ke, which was much closer than the distance between Ningshi and Heshi in half a year.

On a rainless night in May, the air is filled with green leaves and the smell of early summer, and pedestrians and cars come and go on the street.

Yang Ke stood where he was, raised his head and counted to the seventeenth floor several times, before Yu Zhinian turned on the machine.

It feels like Yu Zhinian is really going to leave him this time.