eat, dance, love

For several consecutive years, Beijing has been waiting for the first snow in winter.

The first snow this year also came very late.On the morning of the New Year's Eve, I woke up, and when I was brushing my teeth, I suddenly found some white things floating in the haze outside the window.Opening a gap, the cold wind came in immediately, and the air was slightly damp.

I went back to the room and shook Gu Yu: "It's snowing."

Gu Yu is a person who is used to getting up quickly, and immediately opened his eyes when he heard my words.We opened the curtains and looked at Chuxue stupidly for a while.In fact, it is not a special scene, but I don’t know why the atmosphere is particularly good, so we did it.

The quilt in winter is very comfortable, and being trapped in his body makes me feel ignorant of the passage of time.I was on the afternoon shift that day, and I was supposed to arrive at work at nine o'clock, but at nine o'clock I was still pinching Gu Yu's waist.After the silence, there were a bunch of missed calls in their mobile phones.

Gu Yu called back Xu Ran's call, who immediately roared, "Where did you go?"

Gu Yu said: "Live a family life."

Xu Ran: "..."

He has a shooting task, and it is a concept film for a whole series of new products of a certain brand.Xu Ran seems to attach great importance to this cooperation. Earlier, I often heard them communicate on the phone.

At this moment, I can still hear Xu Ranyu's earnest lesson: "Do you think this cooperation is so easy to come? If Mr. Gu helped you convince Mr. Hua, you would just wait to be stepped on by your good apprentice..."

Gu Yu was a little impatient, lowered her head and pulled the clothes over her body, then walked out of the bedroom.The clothes were not long enough to cover his long legs, and he left in the spring.

"You know, don't talk about it, send a car, I will go downstairs in 10 minutes."

After 10 minutes, we went downstairs together.Sure enough, there was already a car waiting downstairs, but it was not the nanny car I was familiar with, but a Bentley.Before I had time to wonder too much, the car door had already opened, and Mi Jue ran down.

"Teacher Gu, hurry up, the shooting scene is almost ready." She looked anxious, and when she was talking to Gu Yu, she gave me a hasty glance as a compliment.

Gu Yu was not moved by Mi Jue's eagerness, but frowned and looked at the car in front of him.

At this time, the rear window was lowered, and a man was sitting inside.Not young, but the exact age cannot be discerned at a glance.She has an outstanding temperament and a straight face. When you look closely, the corners of her eyes are upturned, which is actually somewhat seductive.If you want to find a perfect real-life example of a character like the president in an idol drama, it is probably him.

There are dragons and phoenixes among people.I wonder.

Gu Yu stood where he was, and said, "Uncle Hua."

"Come on, don't be late." The man smiled at him and pushed open the door.

Gu Yu still didn't move, but I felt his hesitation.

He turned his head and looked at me: "Brother Xu, I may not come back these two days. Be well, I will go back to Haibao with you after the filming."

"Well, you too, eat seriously." When I said this, the man in the car chuckled.My heart suddenly twitched for no reason, as if it was a feeling of panic.

After Gu Yu finished speaking, he got into the car.

The panic in my heart seemed to be alive, and suddenly I became clamorous and agitated.I have never felt this way before, it was strange and shocking, and it made my breathing tight.

"Zixu..." Mi Jue called me, "Let's go."

"Yeah." I replied absent-mindedly.

She went back to the car, closed the door, closed the window.The car drove away.

After that two days, Gu Yu did not come back as expected.As usual, during his working period, we didn't have many contacts, and some of them were morning and evening greetings.On the third day after he went out, Zheng Zhiming called and asked if I had set a date to go home.

I said no, I didn't say I was waiting for news from Gu Yu.

I was waiting, but I didn't ask.

After Gu Yu left that day, I always felt an inexplicable sadness.Nothing happened, but I just felt like I lost something.The sadness is beyond words. I can't relax, and I can't be optimistic.

To not ask is to resist the cause of this grief.

The year is getting closer and closer, and the city is getting deserted.Unexpectedly, I waited until Mi Jue persuaded me to quit.

That was the fourth day, she came to me in private, her attitude and stand were different from any time she had faced me before.She came to persuade me to give up my plan to take Gu Yu back.

"What's wrong?" I fixed my eyes on her, "Did he ask you to tell me?"

"Not really." She lowered her gaze, paused, and said somewhat officially, "Zixu, Mr. Gu's current state is crucial to his career development. Shouldn't you keep a low profile on your affairs?"

I knew she didn't finish her sentence, so I acted as if she was listening attentively.

She didn't meet my gaze, she looked hesitant, as if she didn't know where to start.It took a while before he raised his head and said, "Zixu, do you know Mr. Gu?"

There are so many people asking me this question, some of them seem to be asking it for granted.Some people asked, so I don't know how to respond.Mi Jue has only known Gu Yu for a few months, and it is only recently that he has come to work with him, so he seems to regard Gu Yu as his own.

I asked back, "What do you think I'm missing about him?"

This sentence has emotion, and when I say it, the emotion is particularly obvious.

She glanced at me and was unwilling to set me on fire, so they fell into a short silence.

"Zixu, I give up on you." After a long while, she raised her head, "But I hope you are happy and have someone who can truly support you by your side. Do you know that you have always been that kind of..."

She smiled: "That kind, looks cold and indifferent, as if full of rebellion, but in fact, what I yearn for in my heart is simple and ordinary happiness. Tossing, rebellion, you don't like it. I just found out that you and Teacher Gu When things happened, I was more surprised than disappointed, saying that I still want to fight for you, and I still want to see how far you can deviate from the past. But I soon felt distressed..."

"I'm afraid of you, this trip was in vain."

I really want to ask her something, but there are so many things I want to ask, I don't know where to start.Moreover, I want to ask Gu Yu himself more than anyone else.

So, I didn't say anything in the end, just said: "If he is sure that he has no time to go back with me, I won't wait. Please tell him what I mean."

Do I know Gu Yu?Finally, I also started to ask myself.

He doesn't come home, I'm at his house, on his bed, on his computer, searching endlessly for his name.I re-watched everything I saw about him in the years before I actually met him.

I have followed him secretly for more than ten years, and I thought I knew him well through the Internet.

But how do you say that?What people show on the Internet is the side they want to show.Good, bad, happy, sad, beautiful, ugly...Only what he wants and what he can send out can be seen by me.

I looked at those fragments repeatedly, and then I picked out the sentence "Hua Xi is a big fool" in his age-old blog.It was a diary with no specific content. It was written about a day in his junior high school. The content was very ordinary, except for that sentence at the end.

"PS: Huaxi is a big idiot."

There is no beginning and no end, and I can't even see the reason for this sentence. Even if I have read this diary, I will not remember this vague sentence.But now, I'm struck by it.

I searched for this name, and it really is a dragon and a phoenix among people.

In a news photo, he was younger than in the car that day, cutting the ribbon with a top male star today.The gossip forum was full of high-rises discussing their scandal, saying that he had already naturalized in another country, and the male star's name was hidden in the golden house.

I don't know what the relationship between Gu Yu and him is, I only know that it's probably a relationship that I can't compare.

"Big idiot", Gu Yu has never treated me so coquettishly before.

Looking at this sentence and Huaxi's photo, I felt inferiority for the first time in my life, which made me unable to even be jealous.

But since I followed him to Beijing, even if it was a waste of time like what Mi Jue said, I still have to die to understand.So, I sent him a message on the fifth day and offered to meet.He goes home, or I go to him.

"I'm going home," he said.

So I waited for him at home.

There are not many tense moments in my life. The day when Pei Yanya and Zheng Zhiming got married was counted as one, the day when Pei Yanya gave birth to Zheng Xingzheng was counted as once, and the day when Chuxia met Gu Yu in Haibao was counted as one... But none of those days were like this day .

I made a lot of dishes and filled the table.

When night fell, the door lock moved.I actually held my breath and stared at the door opening.

"Yo, Xiao Guan." Following Gu Jia's greeting with a smile on his face, my heart dropped heavily.

She changed her shoes at the door and came in. After seeing the scene of the restaurant, she had a complicated expression: "Why did you cook so many dishes? I was just about to tell you that Xiao Yu had dinner at home and drank a few more drinks with Lao Guan and his uncle." , got drunk, and will stay at home tonight."

"His uncle?" I blurted out with a sharp pain in my heart, "Huaxi?"

Hearing this, she showed a surprised expression: "You even know Huaxi?"

"I don't know." I subconsciously looked back, Pei Yanya still has some influence on my long-term teaching, I don't want to lose my composure in front of Gu Jia.

"Oh." She replied lightly, without asking any further questions, she put down the bag in her hand, and the smell of roasted sweet potatoes filled the room.

She didn't intend to go any further, and said, "He's really drunk. I usually don't expect him to go home for a night all year round. If he didn't let him go, please forgive me. This is for you, He baked it himself, and I brought it over for him."

"Thank you."

"Then I'm leaving. You haven't had dinner yet, have you? Eat quickly." She said, turned and went out.

I didn't send it and watched her go out.

The door was half closed, she stopped, looked back, with a bit of unbearable meaning in her eyes, and sighed: "Guan Zixu, you go back, don't waste your time. Huaxi is in front of me and your father tonight. , proposed to Xiao Yu, and he will take him abroad to get married."

I felt as if I had been slapped in the face, and all the words she said later were scattered in my ears, and I couldn't hear them clearly.

Inexplicably, a regretful sigh floated in my mind.

A table of dishes is useless.