eat, dance, love

On an ordinary early summer afternoon, I sent Zheng Xing and Zheng Hao to school and returned to the new branch of Zheng Hao Restaurant.He saw an old acquaintance, Mi Jue.This made my heart jump suddenly, but then returned to nature.

I went up to say hello: "Finally have a vacation?"

With her hands behind her back, she was wearing a flowery skirt, a big straw hat, and big braids. She smiled beautifully: "I'm ready to quit!"

I was surprised: "What's wrong? Don't you like the entertainment industry?"

"I like it if I say it, and I don't like it even if I don't. The main thing is that it's not my affiliation." She spoke seriously, but her expression was not the same. I couldn't tell the truth of her words for a while.

She didn't give me time to distinguish, and waved at me anxiously: "Oh, come and get me something to eat first. I came to look for you as soon as I came back from the dusty world. I haven't eaten since morning."

"Okay." I agreed and went into the shop with her.

"This new restaurant of yours specializes in Beijing dishes, right?" she asked.

She was born and grew up by the sea, and she also studied abroad in a seaside city. Her taste is still light seafood, and Beijing cuisine is not her interest.I turned around and said, "Why don't I come back to the main store and give you a meal?"

"No, no, just watch it." She shook her hand, "I'm easy to support."

I went into the back kitchen, and she followed.In the afternoon, there were no customers in the store, so I chatted with her while cooking.

Talk about the old things of the student days, talk about each other's later life, talk about the gossip and whereabouts of other classmates-these are all old things that I didn't have time to recount because a Gu Yu was inserted in the last reunion.

I simply made her two home-cooked dishes that Haibao people like, cooked a pot of fresh fish soup, and then transferred it to the restaurant hall.

"Over there." She pointed to a seat by the window.

We sat down, and she tasted the two dishes on the table with great interest, looking very satisfied.

"How have you been?" she finally asked "Recently," sounding casual.

I listened, raised my eyes to look at her, and smiled: "I'm fine, the business in the new store is good, and I, Uncle Zheng, still have vision."

"You..." She sighed, feeling a little helpless, "How long are you going to hide?"

I still smiled: "I thought we had a tacit agreement not to mention it."

"Is this necessary?" She glanced at me contemptuously, and then chattered, "Your phone has been turned off, and then it started to stop due to arrears, and I couldn't find you on WeChat or Weibo. If I hadn't been witty before If you call Abao, I really can’t ask you about your situation.”

"Thank you for your concern. I am doing low-carbon social networking, energy saving and environmental protection." I said.

"He's mad, you know?"

My heart skipped a beat again, as if I just saw Mi Jue outside the door.It turned out that my heartbeat at that time was not because of seeing her.It was because of the person behind her.

Thinking of Gu Yu, I couldn't help but laugh.

The feeling of sadness, the feeling of missing, is thicker and more haunting than I imagined.I'm having a hard time.

Mi Jue said: "He told me, you just left like that. The computer browser is full of your search records, the movie in the movie room still has the end credits, and there are dishes on the table, but you are not at home. gone."

I bowed my head, unable to restrain my heartache.Every word of Mi Jue's words dug into my heart, digging small holes.I clasped my hands together to keep myself from shaking.

She was still saying: "He still can't find you. He's different from me. I'll ask A Bao, and I'll rest assured knowing you're fine. He doesn't hear you talking to him, doesn't see you in person. It doesn't count that I found you." After a pause, she lowered her tone, "Zixu, he will find you, have you thought about it?"

I thought about it, how could I not think about it.

I have hoped, hoped selfishly, hoped madly.

"He," I took a breath to make myself look calmer, and asked, "He's done getting angry, what's next?"

"After what?"

"Is he... and Huaxi married?" Asking this question, I felt like I had been relieved of some burden, and I felt refreshed. He heard the news, does he count as popular?"

Hearing this, Mi Jue put down his chopsticks with an expression of "Are you sick?" "Zheng Zixu, is your brain squeezed by the door?"

Similar to "Are you sick?"

"What do you mean by that? I was telling you about your relationship, and you asked him if he was red. I said," she frowned, her expression became fierce, "Are you blaming me for what I said back then? Do you think that I told you to keep a low profile because I want you to break up and to blame you for hindering his stardom?"

I:"……"

I don't really understand girls' thinking, this is obviously not my idea.

She didn't care about my reaction, and continued: "With or without you, he should be popular or not. You don't know his conditions. As long as he is willing to be a star, someone is willing to package him, and he will be popular. It’s nothing more than a matter of how long it’s been popular.”

"Yeah." I nodded in agreement, looked directly at her, and my mentality was much more stable than before, "Who is packaging him now? Huaxi?"

She opened her mouth, then vented, sighed, and stopped talking.

The topic was off topic, and we all fell silent.The silence lasted for more than half a minute, and she said: "I don't want to pass on this part of the matter, you can ask him yourself."

what?

My heart tightened, and my hands that had just relaxed clenched again.

"He's still staying at Abao's house, and he should be ready to move in now, so go find him," Mi Jue said.

When I returned to the main store, there were already several layers of people around the door.They are all neighbors nearby, and I have never seen them so tidy during the big festivals.

My heart was beating wildly, and I looked through the crowd, and I saw that figure without too much effort.He was surrounded by crowds, some wanted to sign autographs, and some wanted to take photos.Outside the crowd, there were a few girls who gathered together and kept taking pictures of him.

He is indeed red.

This time, the real big star came.

I stood in the distance, looking at the scene in front of me, feeling very moved.Some are gratified, some are happy for him, and there are also lingering regrets and sadness. The complex emotions are difficult to sum up.I don't know what to do, but stare at him quietly through the crowd.

A few minutes later, the signing and group photo were almost done, and some people stepped forward to persuade them to leave, and the crowd finally dispersed.

He left there, waved to the girls who had been patting him, and walked towards me.He knows I'm here.Knowing this, I felt another thorn in my heart.

In just over half an hour, my heart has been pitted several times for him.

"Go down for a walk?" He came to me and said.

The voice seems to be a little lower, or not?I made a vague distinction, and answered "yes" purely instinctively.After answering, I remembered the fans over there cheering him on.

"Won't it be photographed?"

"Are they?" He glanced at the girls, there was a low commotion immediately, he smiled, then turned around, "They are very good, if you tell them not to shoot, they won't shoot. Shoot I won’t let them out unless I let them down, they turn black on me, and don’t want me at all.”

"How can you be completely disappointed?" I asked subconsciously, we were already walking to the beach.

"What about it... For example, I took drugs, went to whoring, domestic violence, and so on." He said lightly.

What about love?I asked in my heart.

"Falling in love may also disappoint them, but it's good if the object is not a woman. If it's a woman, they will think that I am planning to get married and have a problem with my character." He happened to hit the question in my heart.

However, the amount of information in the words surprised me: "Do they know who you are?"

"I know these few of them. They have worked hard with me for several months, and I don't want to lie to them. On a larger scale, I can't control it." He said this with an understatement, as if he was concerned about the consequences don't care.

From his words, I picked out a few pieces of information that I wanted to believe: he was not married, and he came out to his fans.He was alone with me under the eyelids of knowing fans, he...

"Gu Yu, who will they take me for?" I stopped, and at this moment, we were standing in front of the steps leading to the beach.

Gu Yu also stopped and turned to face me: "Who do you want to be regarded as?"

He is angry.

How can I answer this question to calm his anger?

"Sorry." I chose the answer that couldn't go wrong.

"Where did you go wrong?" He snorted softly.

"It's up to you."

"..." He snorted again, "Hmph."

Then down the steps, I followed.The narrow steps are not suitable for two people to walk side by side. I dare not squeeze up, and only pass after stepping on the beach.

"I'm sincere. I shouldn't just leave like that, and I shouldn't turn on the phone and deliberately refuse you to find me." I said sincerely.

He turned his face slightly to the other side, leaving me with a cold slanted face, and said, "I didn't look for you, so don't be so sentimental." He pointed to the embankment, "You think I'm going to Did I come to see you? I'm just here to record a show."

I can see that, with so many staff, it is natural that they will not simply come to me.

People are really strange. When I didn't see him, I was extremely pessimistic and negative. I always felt that the past was empty and I hurt myself when I looked back.All hopes, all thoughts, all dreams are also stained with sadness.

But once he stepped out of the dream again and stood in front of me, everything became clear to me and I relaxed.Why did he come, what mood did he come with, and even the past and present between him and Huaxi, I can temporarily put it aside.

Nothing is more important than watching him and listening to him.One day, one hour, one minute, one second, being able to truly face him is enough to make me happy.

"It's not you who came to me, it was I who came to see you, it was I who wanted to see you. I miss you so much that I don't dare to look back. I'm afraid that I will run away cowardly, and you won't wait for me there anymore. I'm afraid that I will The lack of confidence in you makes you heartbroken. I'm afraid that I don't trust you enough, and you are so disappointed that you have turned dark towards me..."

"Zheng Zixu." He stopped me, finally willing to face me again.

I clutched my heart and looked at him helplessly, waiting for his fate.

"Have you ever told anyone this love story?"

"How can I say such things with emotion to others?"

"Fuck..." He cursed in a low voice, gnashing his teeth.

My heart clenched even tighter for an instant, and for a moment I didn't know where I said the wrong thing.

He took a deep breath, backed away a little, licked the corner of his mouth, and said, "Forget that I have fallen into your evil spirit. Zheng Zixu, I will give you another chance. If you still have the same confidence and trust in me in the future, we will give you that little trust." It's really over."

I understand.

For his words, the sky and the earth are clear and open.

For his words, I was brought back to life.