What about my brother?

The hand around his waist was getting tighter and tighter, and he was groping restlessly.

Can the fuck sleep?

"Baby, can we be more honest when we sleep." Yan Dongqi didn't look back, and said in a low voice helplessly. Han Yinuo's body stuck to his body from behind him again, and then the very obvious foreign body sensation made him His whole body tensed up.

Han Yinuo obviously felt the stiffness of the person in his arms, and with a low smile, he gently licked and kissed Yan Dongqi's neck with his lips: "I'm stiff."

Yan Dongqi's scalp exploded, he gritted his teeth and said: "Nonsense, you don't need to say it, I'm not paralyzed in the lower body and unconscious, I can feel it."

Han Yinuo laughed softly after hearing this.

The young man's voice is full of magnetism, and when he lowers his voice, it comes with 360-degree stereo surround sound, which makes Yan Dongqi a little overwhelmed. He sighed depressedly: "What's the matter, should I make room for you?"

"Help me." Han Yinuo smiled again, and then tried to turn Yan Dongqi's body around.

Yan Dongqi was stunned for a moment, then tried his best to suppress his voice and cursed: "I'll help you ass, it's okay if I chop it up for you."

Then he felt that Han Yinuo seemed to be pushing against him with his lower body, and he almost jumped off the bed: "Han Yinuo, you must have become a genius."

"I don't care, you help me." Han Yinuo's voice sounded a bit domineering at the moment, he forcibly turned Yan Dongqi around, kissed him lightly on the mouth, and repeated, "Help me. "

Yan Dongqi cursed again in a low voice: "Damn it, there are a few big living people living next to it, okay?"

Han Yinuo smiled softly, and simply grabbed Yan Dongqi's hand and placed it on his body.

"Uncle Han, what on earth are you trying to do?" Yan Dongqi was about to cry.

Han Yinuo answered as a matter of course: "We are together now, won't you help me?"

Yan Dongqi was at a loss for words, and after half a minute of fighting between heaven and man, he gritted his teeth and sent his hand along the elastic waistband of Han Yinuo's hospital gown.

As soon as he took his hand up, Han Yinuo hummed in a low voice, and Yan Dongqi's cheeks felt hot from the sound, so he could only curse in a low voice: "Why haven't I done it yet? How many people are there, baby, can you restrain yourself a bit?"

Han Yinuo leaned his body to this side again, then lowered his head to find Yan Dongqi's lips in the dark, and kissed them.

Yan Dongqi went through it up and down first, and felt that holding other people's things was not as smooth as holding his own, but there was no other way, so he had no choice but to bite the bullet and continue.

Han Yinuo unscrupulously rummaged in his mouth with his tongue, while reaching out his hand along the hem of Yan Dongqi's clothes, stroking his waist and back back and forth.

The fact that the person he likes is in his arms made every cell in Han Yinuo's body scream uncontrollably. The feeling at this time merged with the beautiful dream a few years ago, but it was more real and burning.

The skin under his hands was smooth and warm, and the desire in his body fluctuated with the man's movements, chaotic and comfortable.The only thing he wanted to do was to hold the person in his arms tighter, and tighter, if only he could melt into his own blood and bones.

The first time Yan Dong's chess head was touched by a man like this, he felt a little uncomfortable, but he felt surprisingly good. The man's palm was broad and strong, and as soon as it passed over his body, a string of electric currents rushed into his body.

The young man's kiss rolled along Yan Dongqi's lips to the ears and the side of the neck, and his hands restlessly pulled to the man's chest, pinching them once and for all.

Yan Dongqi felt hot all over his body, but the movements under his hands did not stop.It wasn't until Han Yinuo suddenly hugged him forcefully, buried his face in his shoulder, and after a while, he let out a long breath.

"Move over there." Yan Dongqi breathed a sigh of relief, took his hand out of Han Yinuo's hospital gown, turned around and pulled out two pieces of paper from the bedside, first wiped his hand carelessly, and then He took two more pieces of paper and threw them to Han Yinuo.

"Wipe it."

Han Yinuo didn't move, he squinted at Yan Dongqi, then pulled him into his arms and kissed him tenderly.

Yan Dongqi barely got up from the young man's chest.This kind of strength and possessiveness of Han Yinuo from the beginning to the end made him a little awkward, but he seemed to feel that there was nothing wrong with it.

"Okay, go to sleep." Yan Dongqi patted the young man's chest lightly.

Han Yinuo obviously didn't have the idea of ​​calming things down like this. He was about to put his hand in his pants all the way along his waist, but he held him down: "What are you doing?"

"I'll help you." Han Yinuo leaned over and licked his ear lightly.

"Get rolling," Yan Dongqi's face was about to burn, and he pushed Han Yinuo's hand away. He felt that his blood was rushing against the current and he was very happy. "Uncle Han, can't you stop for a while?"

Han Yinuo smiled: "Isn't it uncomfortable to hold back? Courtesy is reciprocal."

"Don't you, I'll be fine later. I stayed with you all night last night and didn't sleep. If I do something tricky today, I'm sure I'll have to go into shock." Yan Dongqi flipped Standing tall, with his back to Han Yinuo, he felt that he was just a puff pastry, and he couldn't keep his expression on his face and his heart beating after stroking for Han Yinuo. Talking with your head on.

The hot touch just now still remained in the palm of his hand, very vivid, Yan Dongqi always wanted to use the fruit knife on the bedside to chop off his hand and throw it out of the window.

Han Yinuo hesitated for a moment, then asked again: "No need."

Yan Dongqi's fine hairs are almost standing up: "Uncle Han, there is a lesson to be learned from the world, really don't need it."

"Alright then." The young man's voice sounded a bit regretful, "Anyway, there will be opportunities in the future."

Yan Dongqi couldn't hold back: "Damn it, you still let me sleep."

"Sleep, sleep," Han Yinuo propped up half of his body and leaned over to kiss Yan Dongqi on the face, then fell back and hugged him from behind, "Good night."

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Asking for directions, if this level is not allowed, then I guess the clips you want to watch are hanging.

If possible, I'll try my best.

☆, back to school

After being hospitalized for observation for two days, Han Yinuo found that Han Yinuo was fine, he ate deliciously, and he was particularly active in playing hooligans.So after Yan Dongqi followed the doctor's advice and took the medicine prescribed by the doctor, he couldn't wait to pack this kid up and send him to the high-speed rail station.

These two days, Han Yinuo is in the heat of the two of them just getting together, and they have to stick together wherever they go, as if they feel uncomfortable all over if they are not together.

In fact, Yan Dongqi also knows that this kid lacks love and cares about him, so he must have been bored for a while just letting go of his promise, and he himself quite enjoys the feeling of being cherished.The problem is that after all, it's too exaggerated for the two old men to stick together like positive and negative magnets.

The three uncles and the two middle-aged uncles in the ward with the perfect atmosphere looked at them as if they were watching a ghost.If it weren't for the old man who was next to them on the fifth bed, he really couldn't get out of bed, Yan Dongqi looked at him as if he wanted to use the chainsaw to cut him and Han Yinuo apart in minutes.

Han Yinuo was very unhappy sitting in the car, first he was silent for half of the way with a sullen face, and then suddenly let out an "ouch".

Yan Dongqi squinted at him: "What are you doing?"

"Head hurts." Han Yinuo covered the wound on the top of his head and frowned.

Ever since he met Han Yinuo, Yan Dongqi didn't know if it was because his childhood experience was a bit rough or because this kid had been so cold and stable since he was pregnant. For a while, he still felt that his personality was very painful, but now he is used to it, but it's okay, but this is the first time he sees Han Yinuo so... How should I put it, willful look.

Damn, how dare you be so willful without money.

Yan Dongqi was amused by his appearance, but he tried his best to suppress his laughter, and said solemnly: "Is it serious or not, what are you going to do?"

"I have to rest at home for a few days." Han Yinuo glanced sideways at the man's uncontrollably smiling face, and simply put his hands down, looking at him generously.

Yan Dongqi smiled with the corners of his mouth curled up: "Uncle Han, all the doctors say that you can work and study normally, as long as you don't do strenuous exercise, you will be fine, why come to you, you have to rest after you have diagnosed yourself."

Han Yinuo remained silent, and after a while he seemed a little discouraged and said to himself, "It's really boring."

"Why is it boring again?" Yan Dongqi glanced at the red light in front of him, and it would take a long time before he stopped the car behind a car that said champagne or champagne, shit yellow and not shit yellow, and turned sideways He glanced at Han Yinuo and smiled.

"It feels like you agreed to be with me as if you were teasing me. From the beginning until now, I am on the sidelines to get excited, foolishly approaching you, and you don't care about it at all. "Han Yinuo turned his head to look out the window, then straightened his two long legs, and kicked the truck body lightly and hard.

Yan Dongqi saw Han Yinuo's gloomy expression when he said this from the reflection of the glass window, sighed in his heart, leaned over and pulled Han Yinuo's arm to pull him over, and then leaned forward The young man kissed lightly on his warm and soft lips.

Han Yinuo still lowered his eyes and remained silent.

Yan Dongqi hooked the corner of his mouth lightly with the tip of his tongue again, and then licked lightly along the lines of the young man's lips, and as expected, Han Yinuo snorted and leaned over again within a few moments of effort. Son.

The tongues of the two were quickly entangled. This was the first time Yan Dongqi gave Han Yinuo a deep kiss. I couldn't tell what it felt like, but I felt as if my whole body had been fried three times in an oil pan. It was almost swollen. It's crunchy and crunchy when you touch it, and then it's warmed up with a tickle inside.

Han Yinuo's previous kisses were all based on his impulsive liking for Yan Dongqi, and relying on instinct to come up with a messy kiss.But Yan Dongqi is different, his experience is enough for this kid to come over panting after kissing for half a minute, wanting to wrap his arms around his waist to deepen the kiss.

Then a series of horns sounded from behind.

Yan Dongqi immediately pulled Han Yinuo away, turned around and gave the gas pedal a kick.It's really crazy, the color of the rear glass of this car is not dark, and I don't know if it was a big show for the buddies behind through the window.

Alas, beauty deceives people, mother, Yan Dongqi slapped himself eighteen times in a row in his heart.

The young man looked at him with dissatisfaction: "What do you mean?"

"It's nothing interesting," the man lowered the car window a little, "Is your head feeling better now?"

Han Yinuo remained silent again.

"Whatever it is, it's making your head hot. Don't I really like you? What are you thinking about all day long? I think you're just too busy. You need to study hard for two days." Yan Dongqi rushed He smiled.

The young man whispered: "Anyway, you just don't like me as much as I like you."

Yan Dongqi had to drive and look at the fucking road conditions at the moment, and at the same time was distracted to appease his first and presumably last boyfriend in his life. He was quite tired, so he analyzed it for a long time before figuring it out. What does Shun Han Yinuo mean by these words.

He was a little helpless at Han Yinuo's thoughts of worrying about gain and loss at the moment, but he felt a little distressed, so he raised his eyebrows a little: "Baby, darling, why don't I like you anymore, look, I love you so much It’s just about dedicating yourself, okay, what do you think I have to love you.”

"Then why don't you dedicate yourself, so that I can feel at ease." Han Yinuo looked at him sideways, with the strong aura of an adult male exuding from all over his body and the naked/naked possessiveness in his eyes, which made Yan Dongqi feel like slipping away Jump out of the window.

Yan Dongqi coughed a little bit before cursing: "I'm offering you an egg, can you still have a good chat."

Han Yinuo narrowed his eyes and laughed: "It's okay to offer my eggs."

"Fuck, you're enough, okay? If you do this again, I'll throw you out the car window." Yan Dongqi looked straight ahead.

"Can you throw it?" Han Yinuo looked up and down three times along Yan Dongqi's thin physique, and said with a narrow smile.

"Fuck, you're really good at it now." Yan Dongqi was about to collapse, so he simply started another topic, "Let me tell you, when you get to school, give the doctor in your school hospital the list of medicines, and let them go there at a designated time every day." I'll change your medicine, it's hot now, don't get inflamed and you'll be in trouble."

Han Yinuo gave a "hmm" and agreed.

When it comes to school, Yan Dongqi unconsciously thinks of the gay kid jumping off the building mentioned by his mother, combined with Luffy's reaction, it is estimated that [-]/[-] out of [-] must be their family's business.

Yan Dongqi paused, tapped his finger on the steering wheel lightly, and after deliberating for a while, he hesitated and briefly told Han Yinuo about these things.

The young man beside him was silent for a long time, until the two of them arrived at their destination and the car stopped. During this period, they didn't say a word.

Han Yinuo didn't say to get off the train, and Yan Dongqi didn't urge him, instead he narrowed his eyes and stared at the travelers passing in and out of the gate of the high-speed railway station.

"I see. I'll talk to him later." Han Yinuo finally spoke with a heavy voice.

Yan Dongqi was most afraid of hearing him say this, so he quickly stopped him and said, "You mustn't. I told you this to give you a sense of confidence. You still don't know whether he is dead or not. I don’t change my sex, I still have the idea of ​​burning all the homosexuals to death, but I still feel guilty, thinking about finding two people to bury his poor brother with him. You can talk about the pain of life with him without saying a word, in case he is directly stimulated Dafa, what can I do if I mess with you."

"It's okay, it's not so serious. And what can he do to me, he can't beat me." Han Yinuo forced a smile.

"Don't say that, I now know that you fought twice. The first time you broke the ball case, it was a collective credit, but you hit a big piece on your back; this time it was even better. It’s not a big deal to get three stitches first. I guess your combat power is at the level of Kojiro Musashi.”

Han Yinuo froze for a moment: "Who is Kojiro Musashi?"

"This is not important." Yan Dongqi was also stunned for a moment, and then continued, "Anyway, don't think about it, clap your hands without saying a word, 'oh, brother, I heard that your brother is dead', then I guess it will be a thousand miles away I sent you a wreath from afar."

Han Yinuo finally laughed: "No, I will think about it."

"That's fine, as long as you know how to do it, I don't care about you." Yan Dongqi nodded, and then waved at him, "Hurry up and withdraw, it's time to check the ticket."

The two got out of the car and walked towards the waiting hall, Han Yinuo frowned: "I just grabbed it in my hand and haven't warmed it up yet, so I have to go to another place, it's so annoying."

Yan Dongqi laughed: "This is considered a different place. You will be on summer vacation in another month. When you come back, you can cover it up. If you don't cover it up, you are not allowed to let go."

Han Yinuo reached out and rubbed Yan Dongqi's head, but said nothing.

The man was nailed to the spot by this action, and he didn't realize what was going on for a long time. It took him a long time to say: "Fuck!"

He chased after him in two steps and twitched Han Yinuo's back shoulder: "What were you doing just now? It's not big or small."

Han Yinuo glanced sideways at Yan Dongqi with a smile in his eyes, a little slyly: "What is neither big nor small, are you still talking about this now, I'm your boyfriend, do you understand, but I'm here for you. "

"You're talking nonsense, I'm your brother first and then you...then what." Yan Dongqi was a little embarrassed at the end, and couldn't help suppressing his voice.

Han Yinuo stood still beside the ticket gate, turned around and looked at Yan Dongqi with a serious face: "After arriving at school, we both have to call every night."

"No," Yan Dongqi scratched his hair, "it's not possible, the two elders are still so tired."

Han Yinuo pursed his lips and remained silent.

"Fight, fight, fight!" Yan Dongqi couldn't see Han Yinuo's expression, and knew that Han Yinuo would catch his weakness, but he had no choice but to compromise, "We must fight, if you don't Call me all night, I have to cry and cry at the door of Wo's house and can't sleep, do you think this will work, Uncle Han?"

Yan Dongqi felt a little bit of happiness and pain.Damn, if you want to have a good relationship, why do you have to go through such a bunch of procedures, it can kill people.

Then Han Yinuo suddenly moved closer to Yan Dongqi's ear, and whispered something: "I will come back in a month, and you will have to dedicate yourself. Be mentally prepared to wait for me."

After the young man said this, he rushed into the crowd at the ticket gate in two steps.

Yan Dongqi was stunned for a moment, and then the warmth of Han Yinuo's breath from speaking just now steamed along his ears and directly onto his face.

"Damn it, I can't live like this. Is there any law left?" Yan Dongqi turned half a circle on the spot, and then looked back at Han Yinuo, who was very tall and handsome among the crowd, and whispered He cursed again, "Damn it."

Han Yinuo felt that he was floating all the way back to school.Before, he was with Yan Dongqi all the time and only cared about being happy, but now he calmed down and realized that he was really with Yan Dongqi, and this person really belonged to him.

Just thinking about it makes me a little excited.

It was as if he had always wanted to fly into the sky, but a [-]-kilogram weight fell under his buttocks. Now the small rope tied to the weight broke, and the whole person flung lightly out of the atmosphere.It was like falling into a bottomless hole, being afraid for a long time, and then plopped down in a large piece of soft feathers.

Han Yinuo felt a little sorry for his current mood if he didn't smile.

It was quite late when I returned to the dormitory, and the other three people in the room were there. As soon as he opened the door and said "I'm back", Lu Qinghong hugged him firmly: "Enuo, you are came back."

Han Yinuo barely struggled to get out of Team Lu's iron arms, and smiled: "Is it the night without me, you are very lonely."

Lu Qinghong was stunned for a moment, and took a step back to look at Han Yinuo in surprise: "Dude, did something good happen to you, and you smiled brightly, I can't accept it."

Xiang Yi also stood aside the whole time, looking at Han Yinuo with a little smile.

The young man threw the bag in his hand on the floor beside his table, then smiled and took off the hat on his head, and pointed to a piece of gauze on his finger: "Does it count?"

Team Lu and Xiang Yi both leaned over to look at his head: "It's okay, you, what did you do?"

"It's not a big deal. Addition and subtraction within [-] are barely worth it." Han Yinuo sat down on the stool and stretched his legs.

Lu Qinghong gave a "tsk" sound: "No, Han Yinuo, you must have encountered something good. It's okay to turn on your painting style once and for all."

Xiang Yi didn't speak, but frowned and looked at Han Yinuo with meaningful eyes.

Han Yinuo simply let him watch it carelessly.

Luffy, who lives in Han Yinuo, who is standing on the bed against the table, has not said a word, looking at Han Yinuo with a very complicated expression, as if asking him to calculate a compound electromagnetic field word problem.

He watched the interaction of the three people for a while, walked up and patted Han Yinuo on the shoulder, hesitated for a moment and said to the three people: "I'm going out, you can talk."

Han Yinuo stared at Lu Fei's back for a while, pursed his lips and decided to follow.

Now that some things are known, it may be better to speak out, for everyone.

He was late on his heels, and he didn't see Lu Fei's back until he went downstairs. Han Yinuo hesitated and said, "Brother Fei."

Lu Fei turned back and frowned at the young man, with a slightly surprised expression: "Is there something wrong?"

Han Yinuo shrugged and smiled easily: "Do you have time, let's chat."

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☆, the past

There is a ginkgo grove closest to the dormitory building, which is interspersed with tree-lined paths paved with white cobblestones.Han Yinuo didn't like walking on gravel roads very much, and felt that it was very awkward, but Lu Fei didn't say whether he wanted to talk or not, so he turned his face and walked towards the small woods, and Han Yinuo had to follow behind.

Luffy found a place to stand where he couldn't see the greasy and crooked couples around him, took out a pack of cigarettes from his pocket, and took one in his mouth.As a result, after searching for a long time, he didn't find the lighter, so he reached out to Han Yinuo.

"Is there a fire?"

Han Yinuo shook his head: "I don't smoke."

Luffy pulled the cigarette from his mouth irritably, and then let out a long sigh of relief: "What do you want to say?"

"Then what..." Han Yinuo hesitated, "Well, Brother Fei, I heard about your brother."

All the movements of the boy on the opposite side seemed to press the pause button for a moment, and he froze on the spot for a few seconds, then suddenly turned around violently and wanted to grab Han Yinuo's collar.

Han Yinuo hadn't fully grown up when he picked things up at Christmas.In "East", it was because his brain couldn't react for a while after seeing Yan Dongqi, so he was suppressed again and again.

Han Yinuo had estimated before that Brother Fei might be so angry when he heard his words, so he kept his mind on his guard, and now he was prepared, so he turned slightly to avoid Lu Fei's furious attack, and then stretched out his hand Pushing Luffy away.

The young man was tall and strong, and he stretched out his hand and pushed Lu Fei over.

"What the hell are you trying to say?" The boy barely stabilized his figure and looked up at Han Yinuo, with a very ugly expression on his face.

Han Yinuo pursed his lips, feeling that his beginning was rotten, but he couldn't think of an appropriate and gentle way to enter the question. As a result, he frowned in such a tense scene: "It was my mother's friend who mentioned you and me when we were chatting about our school. It was only later that I mentioned it. Don't think too much about it."

Although there were no violent movements from the beginning to the end, Luffy gasped heavily for some reason. After standing there for a while, he stretched out his hand and rubbed it back and forth along his forehead to the back of his head.

Han Yinuo was secretly startled, feeling that the force almost pulled his scalp off.

"My brother is very good at studying, good-looking, and good-looking." Luffy said suddenly, his voice was quite calm.

But the expression looked like he was going to cry the next second when he was tired.

The boy turned his head and found a ginkgo tree, slipped down the trunk and sat next to each other, raised his head and licked the corner of his lower lip at Han Yinuo: "Uncle Han, your two words have drawn out my desire to talk, and I can listen to it Listen or not, you have to listen, find a place to sit down and listen to me."

After saying this, he lowered his head and rubbed his face twice: "I'm almost suffocating to death."

Han Yinuo suddenly felt that Lu Fei's lonely figure made people feel sad, so he also found a tree trunk and sat down.

There was a one-meter-wide gravel road between the two of them. Han Yinuo lowered his head and grabbed the grass leaves under his buttocks to play while listening to Luffy.

Lu Fei usually didn't talk much in the dormitory, and his day and night schedules were also reversed with them. It was only now that Han Yinuo noticed that Lu Fei's voice was actually quite nice.

But it was so desolate, and the hearts of those who listened were twitching.

The boy on the opposite side sighed, and seemed to smile, but it was not obvious: "My brother is three years behind me, and I went to school early, so when I was a freshman, he was a sophomore in high school. Teachers liked it from elementary school to sophomore year. He is a three-good student every semester and has a scholarship."

"I'm not as good as him. I don't like to study, but I like to play games. Later, when I play online games, my brother's scholarship will be given out, and he will put money into the games for me first, but I can't bear to spend it myself."

After Luffy said this, he was silent for a long time.

Probably a little sad.

"Our relationship has been good since we were young. He would tell me everything first. But just this time, just this time, he didn't tell me anything, and he didn't say hello in advance. He just had a showdown with my parents. This winter vacation."

"In fact, sometimes I find it quite strange. My family has no genetic inheritance, and the family is barely happy. Why does he have to like a man?"

Luffy reached out and scratched his hair, then took out the phone from his pocket, didn't know whether he was looking at the time or something, put the phone back and started talking.

"My parents' careers actually sound awesome. My father is a geologist. My mother is worse than him. She is a museum lecturer. She has been doing it all her life and is rated as a model every year. You point at these two people It must be impossible to accept that my brother is a homosexual. It is also this kid who is stupid, and somehow he suddenly threw this matter on me, my parents and my mother."

Han Yinuo asked, "How did you and your parents react?"

His throat tightened as he said this.

"How can there be a reaction?" Lu Fei laughed twice, "My mother passed out without saying a word, and I reached out to help my mother. My father shook the table with his hands, it was a family ethics The drama of the drama."

"Then the relationship at home became very, how to put it, tense. My mother didn't go to work anymore, she was crying at home all day, and the people who listened were so upset that she wanted to die. My father was an old pedant and had a bad temper. The two of us Because my brother always quarrels, the family is in a state of chaos."

"Didn't you talk to your brother?" Han Yinuo asked as he rubbed his arms while it was still cool in the summer evening.

Luffy seemed a little tired from talking, he raised his head and leaned against the tree trunk, looking at the green ginkgo leaves on the top of his head: "I want to talk, I want to beat you up the next day if I have a chance, I have to give it to me too." This opportunity is not. People are afraid that things will be too small. It was very cold that day, and I didn’t plan to go out at first. Later, I didn’t know what I planned to do. Then I saw my brother and a man hugging each other in a park dear."

"That feeling is so fucking clear. No matter what I say, I am a man who likes women. At first glance, the conditioned reflex felt that it was really shocking, but when I saw that it was my brother, I only felt that anger. Going up from the soles of my feet, I feel like I'm about to die from anger."

"At that time, I really wanted to shout at them, but I couldn't make a sound. I really wanted to go over and separate the two, but I couldn't move. It's almost like this feeling. It's a bit like a dream, and I can't feel it. Out of reach, especially powerless.”

Luffy put his arms over his eyes, but the voice didn't stop.

Han Yinuo wanted him to stop this kind of masochistic memory several times, but he seemed to feel that it would be better if he could speak out.

He knew very well the feeling of having a secret but not being able to tell anyone, that kind of aggrieved feeling that made him feel that even taking a breath was half less oxygen than others.

"I can see him now, so he can see me no matter how forgetful he is. Then my brother rushed up to pull me, with that expression," Luffy choked, "I've never seen him so scared The expression, as if I have burped my fart."

"It was only later that I realized that my brother was right to be so scared, because he felt that he had lost me. But I really lived up to the trust. For a moment, I wanted to gouge my eyes out, so I said something to him' Get out, don't let me see you again'."

The boy sighed for a long time: "It's easy to guess what happened next. There are four people in my family. My parents and I are very special when we see him... How should I put it? I don't care if I say I hate iron but I don't like it. Can you understand this feeling? It was the top of my family's heart, but it suddenly fell to the bottom. My dad scolded him when he saw him, and my mom could only cry. I... I don't know what to do, just I can always pretend I can’t see him.”

"He...that day..."

When Lu Fei said this, he seemed to be on the verge of collapse, and Han Yinuo could almost see that the blood groove on the top of his head had bottomed out.

He tried hard for a long time but still couldn't say the word "jump off the building".

"That day was really... I can't forget my mother's ashes. For a while, every day I dreamed of was the wronged voice of my brother when he called me."

The boy's voice began to tremble, with distinct choking, which made people feel very uncomfortable.

"I was in an Internet cafe, and I didn't actually play games. I was in the mood to play games at that time, and I just stared at the computer desktop in a daze. Then my brother called me."

"It's hard to say how I feel when I know my brother likes men. I want to speak for him like I loved him before, and I know how unacceptable this road is, and then I have to be forced by my parents , if I don't stand on their side, my parents will probably collapse to the point that I like men too."

"I know it's cowardly, but I could only avoid my brother at the time. I'm also an idiot. I didn't expect that as long as I avoided him, in the eyes of this kid, he would think that I hate him, hate him, and ignore him he."

"So when my brother called me, I kept hanging up, and then he continued to call me. The stalemate lasted for more than half an hour. His stamina is better than mine. I can't match him. There was nothing I could do, so I answered the phone.”

Luffy's voice was very unsteady, with intermittent sobs: "His voice is very tired... It sounds like he said 'Brother, do you hate me very much now'... Then he said, 'I thought you and Mom and Dad would because of If you love me, forgive me, and support me, I didn't expect that I am too stupid'..."

His voice was repeatedly interrupted by long and long sobs, and his speech was very vague. Han Yinuo listened carefully with his head lowered and frowning.

"I can't remember what I said," Luffy took a deep breath, "I didn't realize why his voice was trembling all the time, I thought he was sad...Actually...it was probably on...the roof... It's winter, he insisted on calling me...I was freezing for more than half an hour..."

"Then he also said...'Brother, since I was a child, I felt that the luckiest thing in my life is that you are my brother. It would be great if you could always treat me well, then I won't be afraid of anything'..."

"There will be no more after that." Lu Fei breathed a sigh of relief, and he could see the tears on his face through the faint light.

Han Yinuo was speechless.

"I never knew who I should blame for my brother's death. I blamed myself, hated my parents, and hated him for not living up to himself. As a result," Lu Fei pointed to Han Yinuo, "Your brother is still awesome, I'll understand right away."

"If there was someone in my family who could say even a word for my brother, this would not be the case. He doesn't care what others think of him at all, as long as the family is still there."

"That's why when I heard your brother scold me, I felt like I was the biggest idiot in the world." Luffy paused, and curled up the corners of his lips in a mocking smile.

He seemed to have taken a lot of effort to let himself continue to speak the last few words: "Now that the matter is over, the thing I fucking regret the most is why I didn't answer the phone earlier..."

"I think he might have had a little bit of hope at the time, and he didn't really want to...jump down, holding some hope that I would soften his heart...but that half an hour must have chilled him out."

"That kid is particularly afraid of the cold, but I let him blow the northwest wind for half an hour."

The two of them were silent for a long time. Han Yinuo couldn't sit still because of the dampness and coolness coming up from the grass. He stood up, looked silently at Luffy who had been staring at the ground, and said softly: " back?"

The boy opposite looked like a machine that hadn't been repaired for a long time, and he raised his head stiffly: "No, you go back first. You said it was cool, but I can't slow it down. I guess I have to cry for a while in the dead of night."

He gave an ugly smile when he said this.

Han Yinuo bit his lip: "Brother Fei, I'm sorry."