Inertia Dependence of Rebirth

Duan Ling is just extreme, but he is not an indulgent person, on the contrary, he is very patient, and he is ruthless to himself.In order to achieve the result he wants, sometimes the result may be just a slight sense of security and being cared about, and he will force himself to endure until he can no longer hold on.

once.When Duan Ling was ten years old, he had a stomachache.At that time, my father was busy outside, and it took a while to come home, and my brother was at school and only came back on weekends, and his relatives were not at home.No matter what, Duan Ling didn't want to go to the hospital alone, so that no one would know about it.He just wanted his relatives to be by his side, and wanted them to take him to the hospital; he could lean in their arms unscrupulously, and watch them worry and panic about him.So Duan Ling endured the pain silently, without telling the housekeeper and servants, and no one even noticed.

Two days later, my father finally came back.Duan Ling threw himself into his arms, then grabbed his hand and said, Dad, it hurts, I probably need to go to the hospital.Immediately went to the hospital for a check, it turned out to be acute appendicitis.But the illness was delayed for two full days, which had already caused internal bleeding, perforated cecum and persistent stomach cramps.Emergency rescue, and recuperation in the hospital for a month before slowly recovering.

He just wanted the feeling of being cared about and worried about.

besides.In the year when his mother died tragically, if he had received psychological treatment early in the morning, perhaps he could have avoided the mental problems of sequelae to a certain extent.But Duan Ling insisted that he was fine, and that he was indeed acting perfectly normal in every aspect.Even when I went to the hospital for an examination, the doctor said that there was nothing wrong with the child, and the ability to recover from psychological trauma was simply amazing.

In fact, he was just holding on, and no one could see his holding on.

He kept hypnotizing himself, telling himself that his mother was still there, and thus slowly developed a persistent subconscious (illusion)—she was actually still by my side.Therefore, Duan Ling lived as usual without any abnormality.Until one day, he jumped out of the bedroom window and was sent to the hospital with a broken head and blood.Serious mental problems were detected only then, and it was already late at that time.Later, the psychiatrist asked him why he jumped off the building, and he replied that it was because my mother followed me below.

He's just there for this self-defeating sense of company.

From a certain point of view, Duan Ling is indeed a dangerous person.No one knew what he was thinking, and even if they knew, they would not be able to understand him.Then, let alone know where the limit of his collapse lies.

Many times, he is actually the only one in his world.

The reason why people do this is probably because they are extremely afraid and insecure in their hearts.

Duan Ling longed for Qi Jingrui to show that he couldn't leave him.So he could only wait, he kept suppressing his anxiety and restlessness, forcing himself to settle down.Only occasionally, some crazy thoughts pop up out of nowhere.For example, he wanted to embed the bodies of the two of them together, and they could only grow by absorbing each other's flesh and blood, just like conjoined twins, they would die if they were separated.

Later, during that period of time, Duan Ling became a little abnormal.This abnormality is manifested in some small details.

He would repeatedly boil the same pot of water, and when the water in it boiled dry, he would continue to press until the kettle sounded an alarm.After Qi Jingrui found out once, he was never allowed to touch these electrical appliances again.

Sometimes, when Duan Ling was pruning the flowers on their big balcony, he would stop suddenly.He couldn't hear Qi Jingrui calling his name.Qi Jingrui immediately came over to take a look, only to find that Duan Ling was pointing at him with such a dangerous pair of scissors.He hurriedly took the scissors out of Duan Ling's hands carefully, and patted his face again, Duan Ling just woke up like a dream.After this situation was discovered, all slightly sharp tools such as knives, forks, and pliers in the room were locked up.

Qi Jingrui wanted to wait for Duan Ling to take the initiative to talk to him, but Duan Ling never mentioned it, and he didn't even intend to talk about it.He couldn't wait any longer, so he found a time when Duan Ling was in a good mood, and asked, "What's the matter with you recently?"

Duan Ling blinked and looked confused, "Ah? What's wrong with me recently?"

Qi Jingrui said, "You've been absent-minded recently, do you have something on your mind?"

Duan Ling was silent for a while, then replied, "No."

"But you've been acting weird lately."

"Really?" Duan Ling smiled nonchalantly, and leaned over to lean on his shoulder, "Maybe it's because the company has been too busy recently, so I'm tired."

Of course Qi Jingrui would not believe this statement, but Duan Ling was obviously unwilling to tell him.Then he wouldn't force him to ask - he would never force Duan Ling to do anything.

But after that, he started to keep an eye on Duan Ling.

It is absolutely impossible for Duan Ling to tell the other party that he has mental problems, he is afraid that Qi Jingrui will be afraid of him and leave him.In order to relieve Duan Ling's pressure, the relatives will never mention this to outsiders.

Duan Ling has been hiding something from him.

That night, as soon as Qi Jingrui got off the plane, he went back to where they lived, but found that Duan Ling was not there.But the water in the bathroom is still running, and Duan Ling has become very forgetful recently, and this happens from time to time.Qi Jingrui turned off the water and called Duan Ling, but found that Duan Ling's cell phone was left in the bedroom and he didn't bring it with him.

Although they live together, Day Angel is busy with his own business and doesn't often stick together, and there is no servant in the house they live in.So, once Duan Ling left like this, Qi Jingrui didn't know where he was going, so he could only guess where Duan Ling might go.Fortunately, they have been together for a long time, he knows Duan Ling well, and can guess where he will go.

When Qi Jingrui took the keys and was about to go out, he saw a small note on the door.

This is also a habit he and Duan Ling share.

Because once, Duan Ling said to him: "You know, sometimes, I really want you to suddenly appear by my side." status.

"actually……"

"You can't call me, at least let me hear your voice."

"...I did."

Duan Ling couldn't help sighing, "You only do it once or twice a week, and it doesn't take more than 2 minutes each time, so that counts? Also, when I call, I can't get through." Sometimes Duan Ling is really very I envy those who are driven crazy by phone calls and text messages, but Qi Jingrui will never be like this.

"Sometimes your call is answered by someone else, or you can't get through."

"Huh? But except for the time when I was drunk and the store manager picked it up for me, I never let anyone touch my phone."

After hearing Duan Ling's answer, Qi Jingrui was silent for a while, and Duan Ling said again: "It would be better if you told me about this kind of thing earlier."

Qi Jingrui raised his eyes slightly, "What's there to say?"

Duan Ling: "...!"

Since then, Duan Ling has suspected that his mobile phone has been tampered with. This kind of thing is not uncommon in their upper circles. Families, factions, and companies are fighting openly and secretly, or in order to steal secrets, surveillance and wiretapping. Things like this are not surprising.Later, Duan Ling re-customized the phone, and even replaced Qi Jingrui's phone.So during the period when they didn't use their mobile phones, they developed the habit of leaving notes.

Dining tables, bedsides, bathroom mirrors, doors... you can often see these gadgets.

So in the end, the phone was useless instead.Even if they just go out to buy something, they will solemnly write down "go out for a while, and be back in 10 minutes".

But if he hasn't come back after 10 minutes, the other party will look for it anxiously, and even call the police.Duan Ling has never done this before, because the other party is always more punctual than a clock.But Qi Jingrui did this before, and that time he used a police car to drag Duan Ling back. As a result, Duan Ling just went for a walk and got lost accidentally.Later, they were strict and almost harsh in the concept of time.Even if Duan Ling has a party at night or wants to go out crazy, he will clearly write a time before he will be back, and then he will return obediently at that time.

Tonight, the note on the door said "I went to the entertainment club on Xizheng Street, I will be back later".

Replying these three words later made Qi Jingrui frowned.It was almost midnight now, but Duan Ling didn't come back.He put the note in his pocket, opened the door and left.