I just want to be a vegetable

Looking forward to flipping through Cheng Zhiyuan's diary page by page, his eyes gradually blurred, he quickly blocked it with his hands, for fear that tears would fall onto the notebook and Cheng Zhiyuan would find out.

Every single word in the book outlines the image of a lonely man in front of his eyes. This man named Cheng Zhiyuan seems to be sitting beside him, looking at him with empty eyes, telling their past over and over again, and changing over and over again. He woke up, disappointed again and again...

Longing can't imagine how Cheng Zhiyuan survived the past six years facing his silent body.

Although he himself has fallen asleep for the past six years, he still has those dreams, and in the dreams, whether it is joy or sorrow, Cheng Zhiyuan is always by his side.As for Cheng Zhiyuan, he could only endure the pain and suffer in silence.

Yearning found the new book in the bottom drawer, opened it, picked up the pen on the table, and wrote a line on the front page: To the person I love the most.

He wanted to write down all the dreams he had in the past six years, make a notebook, and give it to Cheng Zhiyuan, as compensation for Cheng Zhiyuan's absence in the past six years.

In the following days, I yearn to go out with Cheng Zhiyuan to do errands during the day, and shut myself in the study when I come back at night, read Cheng Zhiyuan's diary for a while, and then write some of my dreams.

Cheng Zhiyuan had already figured out his routine, as long as he yearned to enter the study, he would quietly go about his own business outside and never go in to disturb him.

He also has a lot of things to be busy with, and he needs to yearn not to be by his side.

After reading it day by day, I longed to find a problem. In Cheng Zhiyuan's diary, every time he wanted to talk about the cause of his illness, he would deliberately bypass it and say something else.

This makes Xiangxiang more eager to know how he became a vegetable.

From Cheng Zhiyuan's words, yearning read his full self-blame for becoming a vegetable.

Yearning can understand this feeling very well, just like the feeling in the dream when he knew Cheng Zhiyuan had liver cancer.Thinking of this, I yearn to take out a piece of manuscript paper from the bookshelf beside me and write down:

——Daily regimen——

1. Exercise for more than one hour a day, you can jog or play ball, depending on the specific situation;

2. Try not to work overtime at night. If it is unavoidable, it must be completed before twelve o'clock, and you must fall asleep if you cannot finish it;

3. Try to cook at home and eat less outside, and try not to drink or drink less when socializing;

……

Yearning tore off almost the entire page of paper, got up and walked towards the living room.Cheng Zhiyuan looked up at him, happened to see the paper in his hand, and said with a smile, "Are you going to reveal your secret?"

Yearning cut it, and raised the paper in his hand: "Come here to read the announcement. This is a family rule, and every family member must abide by it. If you have any comments or suggestions, you can still mention it now. I will post it on the wall." Here's the chance—"

Cheng Zhiyuan walked over, took the paper in Xiangxiang's hand, read it carefully, and looked at him with a wicked smile: "I only have one——"

"Say."

"Well, add one."

Yearning to pick up a pen and wait for Cheng Zhiyuan's next words, Cheng Zhiyuan leaned into his ear and blew, "Spent no less than five days alone with Cheng Zhiyuan every week—"

The pen in Xiangxiang's hand was almost shaken off by himself, and his face was flushed from the ears to his face. He held his breath and said, "Get lost!"

Cheng Zhiyuan let go of him, fell back on the sofa, crossed his legs, and shook his legs like an old man.

Yearning was so angry that he kicked his pretentious posture to pieces.Cheng Zhiyuan took advantage of the situation and grabbed his leg, yearning for his feet to be unsteady, and fell to sit on Cheng Zhiyuan's lap.

"How is it? Do you want to add this suggestion?"

"I'm serious, don't give me a hippie smile."

"I'm serious too."

Yearning twisted Cheng Zhiyuan's ear: "False!"

Cheng Zhiyuan let him twist, and his hands restlessly touched Xiang Xiang's waist, and Xiang Xiang let go of his hands because of the itching.

"No overtime in the future! Smoking less, drinking less, exercising more! Me too, we supervise each other."

"Obey, my wife!"

"Tsk..." Xiang Xiang squeezed Cheng Zhiyuan's other ear again, "It seems that the strength is not enough."

"Hey, hey, it hurts, this time it really hurts, ha, please forgive me..."

Since the yearning recovered, Yu Su came to their house less frequently, sometimes only once a week.

This day, Xiangqian planned to visit his mother himself, and Cheng Zhiyuan wanted to go there with him, but Xiangyang didn't let him, he wanted to talk to his mother alone.

On the way here, Yearning has been doing psychological construction, thinking about what to say to Xiang Jun when he sees him again, until he reaches the door, he still doesn't have the courage to face him.

Xiang Xiang took a deep breath, rang the doorbell, Yu Su opened the door quickly, and was pleasantly surprised when he saw Xiang Xiang at the door.

"Why did you come here by yourself? I will go to see you in two days, don't come here by yourself in the future, take good care of your body." Yu Su said while looking behind Xiang Xiang.

"Cheng Zhiyuan didn't come..." Xiang Xiang said and stepped into the door, "He... isn't dad here?"

"Ah..." Yu Su closed the door, went into the kitchen and poured a cup of scented tea out and handed it to Xiang Xiang.

Yearning took the scented tea and took a sip, it was sweet and moisturised her throat.

Yu Su watched him take a sip of tea, put down the cup, and then said slowly, "We're divorced."

"Uh..." Yearning raised her head abruptly, looked at Yu Su who was peaceful and peaceful, and said involuntarily, "Why?"

Of course he knew why, this result was what he had been trying to get Yu Su to choose many years ago, and now that it finally came true, he couldn't believe it.

Yu Su stared at the tea in the cup, and said slowly: "All this time, I have been lucky and deceived myself to live with him day by day, and it has only been so many years to live with him. With you, you I grew up again, thinking that he would slowly get better...but I found out that I was very wrong."

"Until that day, he picked up the ashtray and smashed it hard on your head like this. The bright red blood flowed down your scalp and down your cheeks, and you fell down suddenly, and your clothes were stained red... I knew it, I really, really, will never forgive myself in this life."

Longing for a bang in my head, memories flooding in...

"My mother said a few days ago that she would come to see me, saying that I haven't been back for a long time, and she misses me. Sigh..."

"Why are you sighing? If you are happy today, don't think about it. When she comes someday, let's take him to have fun for a few days."

"Well... Come on, give me another cup! From now on, I will be a member of the office worker! When I make money, how about supporting you?"

"Okay... I'm waiting for you to raise me. I'll be a househusband and take care of you every day."

Yearning laughed, picked up the wine glass, glanced at it, and said dissatisfied: "Why are there so few, fill it up!"

"Didn't you say you were unwell in the morning? Drink less, and you will have a headache and feel uncomfortable later."

"It's just a small cold, what's the big deal, pour it for me, I'm the protagonist today, you have to listen to me!"

Cheng Zhiyuan rubbed Yearning's head, shook his head, and filled him with wine.The two drank while chatting, and they drank a lot without knowing it. Although Cheng Zhiyuan was better at drinking than he wanted, this meeting was a bit too much.He hurriedly snatched the cup from Xiangxiang's hand and collected the wine on the table.

Yearning yelled to drink after him, but Cheng Zhiyuan ignored him.Yearning's cell phone vibrated in his pocket, he took it out irritably, and saw a text message from Yu Su.

He glanced randomly, Yu Su seemed to ask him for the address, he typed the address in a daze and sent it, then threw the phone aside.

After Cheng Zhiyuan put away the wine, he carried Yearning into the bathroom to take a bath.Both of them were more sensitive when they were drunk, and Xiang Xiang was in a state of erratic that night. When Cheng Zhiyuan looked up at him, Xiang Xiang suddenly felt that he looked like some kind of beast, and he closed his eyes in fear...

The next day, Xiangqian was woken up by rapid knocks on the door, Cheng Zhiyuan also woke up, touched Xiangqian's face, and frowned: "Why is it so hot?"

Yearning moved his body in discomfort, and muttered, "Go... and open the door."

Cheng Zhiyuan put on a pair of big underpants, went to the door bare-chested, and opened it.

Outside the door, Xiang Jun and Yu Su looked at Cheng Zhiyuan in astonishment, thinking they had gone to the wrong door.

At this time, Xiangxiang walked over with heavy steps, rubbed his eyes and said lazily: "Who? What door is knocking so early——"

It was only halfway through, and the yearning for the whole person froze.Xiang Jun and Yu Su looked at the red marks on Xiangxiang's body, the clothes scattered on the ground, and a few used... condoms, and immediately realized what was going on.

The space between the four of them was terribly quiet all of a sudden, and Cheng Zhiyuan was about to speak to break the deadlock, when he saw Xiang Jun rushing to the living room, grabbed the ashtray on the coffee table, and slammed it hard at the temple, Xiang Jun said "animal "With the shaking of the cigarette butt and ash, it froze in the small space...

Xiang Xiang didn't even have time to snort, and fell down with a bang, the sound of his head hitting the ground was so loud that Cheng Zhiyuan finally woke up, and his entire chest was filled with anger.

He rushed over and pushed Xiang Jun to the ground, picked up Xiang Xiang on the ground, and blocked his bleeding wound with his hands.

"Baby, wake up! Baby! Answer me!" Cheng Zhiyuan kept calling Xiangqian, and kept patting his face with the other hand, but Xiangxiang lay motionless in his arms without any response.

Cheng Zhiyuan caressed his chest, feeling the ups and downs of his chest, and put his fingers under his nose, breathing a little weakly.

Cheng Zhiyuan froze for a moment, then used his remaining hand to fumble in his pants pocket, but couldn't find anything.

"Mobile phone! Bring it!" Cheng Zhiyuan yelled at Yu Su who was leaning against the door paralyzed.After being yelled at by him, Yu Su took out her mobile phone from her pocket with shaking hands and handed it over.

Cheng Zhiyuan grabbed the phone and dialed 120.

While waiting for the ambulance, Cheng Zhiyuan kept his head down, as if it would save him the pain.

"Move... are you alright?" Xiang Jun's voice came from above his head, Cheng Zhiyuan slowly raised his head, a pair of blood red eyes slashed at Xiang Jun, Xiang Jun was startled, and unconsciously took a step back.