you are unspeakable

What is the process of growing up?Is it like the succulents planted on the windowsill that will sprout and grow in the spring and fill the small pots?

Liu Mo didn't know, he just grew up in a trance, and he had to take responsibility in a trance.

Take responsibility, stand upright, act like a grown-up, and handle your emotions well.

Those who grew up first said so.

Liu Mo felt that what they said made sense.

Coming out of the office, the sky outside the window was extremely dark, and there was a sound of knocking on the window, as if it was raining.

Liu Mo took out a folded black umbrella from his backpack and put it aside, then put the laptop and documents into the bag, closed the zipper, took the umbrella, turned off the company lights and left.

He was the last one to leave the company.

He is often the last to leave the company.

It's not that he likes to work overtime, it's just that there is overtime pay for overtime work, and he needs this overtime pay very much.

It was indeed raining outside, and the patter was getting bigger and bigger. Liu Mo opened his umbrella and looked at the rain screen.

Under the illumination of the surrounding neon lights, the raindrops seemed to be dyed with light, with shimmering colors. Liu Mo lowered his eyelids and walked into the night holding an umbrella.

There were very few people on the street at eleven o'clock at night, let alone such a rainy night, Liu Mo and the traffic flowed in opposite directions, listening to the sound of them passing by in a hurry.

He remembered the phone call he picked up when he was about to take a lunch break.

After six years, the man asked him to meet.

Liu Mo still remembered how he felt when he saw the number that was so familiar to him that it was engraved in his bones. That feeling was like the limbs passing by like electric currents, and finally gathered in his heart and turned into a thud-thump-thump.

The memory that was thought to have been buried in dust gushed out like a spring under high pressure, and Liu Mo picked it up with trembling hands.

The man's voice was still so pleasant, clear and mellow, every time it sounded in his ears, Liu Mo was intoxicated.

"Hi," he said, "remember me? Old school."

Liu Mo's Adam's apple moved quickly, and his thinking seemed to be stagnant at that moment. Soon, Liu Mo found his voice. He quickly stood up and rushed to the bathroom, trying to reply him with a calm voice: "Of course I remember, Xu Zhi."

Xu Zhi chuckled: "I just said that you will never forget me, after all, I haven't repaid your life-saving grace yet."

Liu Mo felt that he should have smiled: "Well, I can't forget."

"Tsk, it's not like I can't forget anything." Xu Zhi's voice sounded very happy, and Liu Mo thought that he must have encountered something happy: "I can't forget me, or I can't forget that I didn't repay your life-saving grace." ah?"

Liu Mo didn't speak, he just laughed.

Xu Zhi didn't wait for Liu Mo's reply, and he wasn't annoyed. He talked more than Liu Mo. He smiled and explained the reason for making this call: "I'm coming to Liangcheng next week, and I haven't been home for a long time. My mother said that the old city of Liangcheng has been demolished? I just received news from the class monitor that a class reunion is going to be held, and Liu Yunxi and I are planning to go, are you going?"

Hearing Liu Yunxi's name, Liu Mo's smile froze on his face. The joyful emotions and fast beating heart seemed to be overwhelmed by the negative emotions brought about by this name. Liu Mo felt his throat was very dry.

"Hello? Did you have no signal or didn't speak?" After waiting for a long time without hearing Liu Mo's voice, Xu Zhi was surprised, picked up his phone and looked at it: "It shows that the signal is full..."

"I'll think about it," Liu Mo said, "I'll give you an answer when I think about it."

"Oh, yes," Xu Zhi agreed, "There's no rush, the party will have to wait until I come to Liangcheng. Speaking of which, we haven't seen each other for six years, so you have to find some time when I go back this time." pick me up."

"Okay," Liu Mo swallowed, he was a little nervous, but tried his best not to show his voice: "You send me the flight in advance, and I will pick you up."

"Yes," Xu Zhi happily hung up the phone when he heard his promise.

After hanging up the phone, Liu Mo stayed in the bathroom for a long time, until his colleague called him and Liu Mo left the bathroom in a hurry.

He was busy in the afternoon, until he was the last one to leave the company and walked in the rain with an umbrella, his tense brain slowly relaxed, and Xu Zhi's figure was in his mind at this time.

His smile and his anger are vivid as if he just appeared by his side yesterday, but in fact, six years have passed between them.

He and Xu Zhi used to be so close, so sweet.

It was not long before they separated that Liu Mo realized that the beauty between him and Xu Zhi was separated by Liu Yunxi.

The disadvantage of walking home in the rain was that the shoes and trousers were almost completely soaked. Liu Mo put his umbrella and walked into the elevator, and returned home at 12:30 in the morning.

The house was empty and deserted.

Liu Mo put down the umbrella, took off his shoes and socks, rolled up his trousers, changed into slippers and carried the wet shoes and socks into the bathroom.

This bath took a long time, and the sound of brushing shoes was heard in the second half. Liu Mo brushed the shoes for a long time.

He didn't know what he was thinking when he was brushing his shoes, but by the time he realized it, the sides of the canvas shoes had been brushed and his feet were too numb to stand up.

He heard the sound of cocks crowing upstairs, and remembered that it was almost past the Dragon Boat Festival. The residents upstairs bought a native chicken and raised it on the balcony. They killed it during the Dragon Boat Festival, and there would be chickens crowing at [-]:[-] every morning. Sound, Liu Mo did not expect his bath to take such a long time.

It had been a long time since he had such repeated behavior. He thought that after leaving Xu Zhi, everything would be better after so many years, but just a phone call brought Liu Mo back to where he was.

Liu Mo lowered his head and looked at the turbid washing powder water in the basin and the shoes floating on it, and the depression in his heart was hard to dispel. He picked up the shoes and put them on the wall fiercely. The shoes hit the tiles in the bathroom There was a loud bang, and the gray-black foamy water slid down the wall, leaving a few lines of black water marks on the off-white wall in an instant, which looked particularly ridiculous.

Liu Mo rushed out of the bathroom, and originally wanted to lie on the bed and sleep, but he couldn't hold back the irritability in his heart, so he could only keep walking around the room, clipping his nails from time to time, or directly putting them in his mouth and tearing around them dead skin.

He didn't stop on his feet, and he walked for hours until the alarm clock rang.

Liu Mo likes to sleep late, but in order to go to work and earn money, he has to get up early, so he sets many alarm clocks and sets them for a long time, and the sound is very sharp.

So when the alarm clock rang, Liu Mo was almost taken aback. He was at a loss for a moment, then stopped, his eyes moved down, and landed on his hands.

The bleeding around the ten fingers was white from the bite, and the blood stains on the fingers with deep wounds continued to the back of the hand. Liu Mo's lips parted unconsciously.

Trembling, he walked to the bathroom and wanted to splash cold water on his face, but when he reached the door, he saw the mess in the bathroom.

Liu Mo finally realized that he hadn't slept all night.

And every sleepless night is a warning to Liu Mo.

A warning of an impending illness.

He almost rushed to the locker and frantically found the medicine box, took out the bottom few bottles of medicine, poured it in the palm of his hand, and threw it in his mouth with his head raised.

Liu Mo took the medicine for five years. For five years, he needed to take the medicine every morning and evening, so he didn't need to drink water, and he could directly swallow the dry tablets and capsules into his throat.

The medicine may not be effective immediately, but for Liu Mo, it seems to be a reassurance, allowing him to sit on the sofa and slowly calm down his shortness of breath.

"It's okay. After taking the medicine, I will be fine. I will be fine. No matter who comes back, I will be fine."

"Liu Mo, you have grown up, you can no longer drag your parents down, you have grown up, you have to be responsible for your family and yourself."

Liu Mo comforted himself by talking to himself over and over again.

Fortunately, he is a man who is extremely serious about his work. Even if he can't completely calm down, he still packs himself up and goes out on time according to the usual time.

Being busy is a good thing, only when you get busy and your head is full of work, Liu Mo feels that he doesn't need to distract himself from thinking about other things. Liu Mo quickly returned to his normal working state.

From the bottom of his heart, Liu Mo was grateful for this job.

The salary arrives at the end of the month, and the text message reminding the account rang. Liu Mo became happy when he saw the string of numbers. The first thing he did when he got the salary was to remit half of the salary to his family. The moment the transfer was completed, he Instantly relaxed, leaning back in the chair, his eyes narrowed.

Although the work is very hard, Liu Mo feels happy to support his parents.

"Mr. Liu, are you so happy every time you get paid?" The colleague next to him is a lovely girl named Chen Yi. Chen Yi and Liu Mo have worked together for more than three years. Every time they get paid, they always see Liu Mo. Chen Yi rarely saw Liu Mo showing such an expression, so he always teased him.

Liu Mo looked sideways at Chen Yi, and said softly, "I'm transferring money to my parents."

Chen Yi knew Liu Mo's habits, she propped her chin and looked at Liu Mo with burning eyes: "Gong Liu is so filial and handsome, it is really a blessing for her to marry any girl."

Liu Mo blinked and deliberately teased Chen Yi: "Then, give this blessing to you, do you want it?"

Chen Yi stuck out her tongue: "I don't want it, he has that friend, Liu Gong, don't seduce me."

Liu Mo opened the work software, smiled lightly and said, "Okay."

Yesterday's phone call seemed to be an accident, and Liu Mo seemed to have forgotten about it. His work became more and more busy, with endless projects, endless plans, endless overtime classes, and Liangcheng never tired of seeing the scenery at night.

It didn't rain today, and there was no moon in the sky. Liu Mo was still walking against the direction of the traffic, and the street lamps pulled his figure long.