you are unspeakable

Jin Shi is very obsessed with eating, and he is very serious about one porridge and one meal. It will be lunch time soon. He glanced at Wang Qi, who was silently sitting on the chair by the window after washing his face, and nodded at a good porridge shop nearby. takeaway.

The takeaway came quickly, Jin Shi spread out the food on the table, and called Wang Qi, "Come and eat something."

Wang Qi didn't look back, he didn't have much appetite, he couldn't eat at all now, even the milk that Jin Shi gave him to drink just now was still in its original place.

Alcoholism, sexual indulgence, not eating on time, and those countless irregular and unhealthy living habits, Wang Qi's body has long been inferior to before. If a normal person may not be able to act normally because of this, but for Wang Qi It's nothing, he doesn't need too many bodily functions, as long as he can still move, pain is nothing to him. Compared with physical pain, it is much more difficult to deal with others' self-righteousness.

The second time Jin Shi asked him to eat, his tone was not as gentle as before. Wang Qin stared at the scenery outside 28 with his eyes open. He was really tired, and he really didn't want to move.

"I'm not hungry," Wang Qi's voice was very soft. After Jin Shi's words fell for a long time, he finally opened his mouth, as if he was squeezed out of his throat, "I'm not hungry."

"Eat as much as you want," Jin Shi frowned, carrying white porridge with just the right temperature, and walked over to him, "This is the minimum respect for food," Jin Shi said, his eyes fell on the scars on the inside of Wang Qi's wrist On the face, there are neatly arranged scars, some from several years ago, and some new wounds that are still red. These are the self-harm wounds that Wang Qi caught a glimpse of when he was dressing just now: "Sick If you're sick, go to the doctor, what can't be solved in this world? It's never advisable to hurt yourself, it's a coward's behavior, have you not been to Liu Wen's place recently?"

Wang Qi remained motionless, and didn't know if he had listened to Jinshi's words, but the temperature of the white porridge on the small table next to the chair passed through the air, and the heat was transmitted to the back of his hand, making him want to escape.

"Jinshi, don't force me, okay?" Wang Qi was very tired, he didn't want to move, and he didn't want to force himself to swallow the bowl of porridge in order to please Jinshi: "At least, I can still have the right to dispose of myself."

Jin Shi was taken aback when he heard this.

The porridge is cold.

Wang Qi didn't eat anything, so Jin Shi called the doctor he knew well and planned to take Wang Qi there.

Coincidentally, I saw Li Xinglu sending off customers in the hotel lobby.

In fact, it is not uncommon to meet Li Xinglu here. This hotel cooperates with Li Xinglu's company. Under normal circumstances, Li Xinglu will ask people to arrange customers to live here.And Jinshi and Li Xinglu have such an iron relationship, Jinshi basically brought people here to live here, after all, he is used to the familiar environment.

They have also met in such a situation, but usually, as long as Li Xinglu is busy, Jinshi will not go up to say hello, what should he do? At this moment, they saw each other, Jinshi led Wang Qi like before He went straight to the door, but what he didn't expect was that after Li Xinglu said goodbye to the customers in a hurry, he strode towards them.

Wang Qi did not see Li Xinglu.

His eyes and his gaze have long since ceased to rest on everything around him.

When Jinshi told him to go, he watched his footsteps, and when Jinshi wanted to stop, he stopped, mechanically like a cold, dull doll.

But he still remembered Li Xinglu's voice.

It was as cold as ice in my ears.

"How did you end up together?"

Wang Qi raised her head and saw Li Xinglu.

He was the same as a few months ago, handsome and imposing, with the light that he once yearned for so much.

Jin Shi didn't understand where Li Xinglu's anger came from, so he didn't speak.

Li Xinglu saw the bruises on Wang Qi's neck that couldn't be concealed in an instant, and his eyes lingered on him. The crumpled clothes and the smell of alcohol all showed what the two of them did last night.Li Xinglu felt as disgusted as if he had eaten a fly, all his gentleness and courtesy disappeared, and he said the most hurtful words indifferently.

"Wang Qi, you just can't bear it? You just got off my bed and you can't wait to climb into Jinshi's bed? Don't you feel sick? What excuse did you use to make Jinshi your guest of honor? Depression? What a mess Good excuse, you really know how to please others, yes, Jin Shi and I will feel pity for this disease, or your unscrupulous bed skills? I have to admit, it really makes people feel good, seeing you like this , you were very intense last night? Wang Qi, you are disgusting. Jin Shi doesn’t know about our relationship, so you can just pretend not to know.” The disgust on Li Xinglu’s face was undisguised: “You got it from him. What? Money? So the money I gave you is spent?"

Wang Qi forced herself to stabilize her figure.

He listened to Li Xinglu's words very seriously, and stared at Li Xinglu with wide eyes, thinking that he would cry, that he would shake, that he would make a lot of ugly appearances.

But he didn't have any, he was just cold all over, his eye sockets hurt like needles, and there was no tear in his eyes.

After hearing this, Jin Shi's face changed drastically, his eyes turned a few times between the two, and he said in a deep voice, "Xing Lv, what do you mean by that?"

Li Xinglu took a look at Jinshi and sneered: "It means that I have slept with this person too."

"You..." Just as Jin Shi was about to leave his mouth, Wang Qi suddenly smiled.

"Hehehe..."

He smiled faintly, but curled his lips. He was obviously smiling, but his eyes were lifeless and barren.

Li Xinglu's and Jin Shi's attention was instantly attracted by Wang Qi's laughter, they stared at his face, but felt flustered.

Especially Li Xinglu, the expression on his face was indifferent and angry, but there seemed to be a hole in his heart, as Wang Qi's laughter widened.

"Many people have slept with me," Wang Qi said, her voice unhurried: "Every day, different men, I can get everything from them."

Li Xinglu's pupils suddenly tightened.

He said and looked at Jin Shi: "Go to the hospital for an examination by yourself, I don't want to go, you are busy, I can't accompany you, so go first."

After he finished speaking, he turned around and pushed the door to leave without looking back.

Leaving Li Xinglu and Jin Shi standing there blankly.

"What the hell..." Jin Shi frowned, and squeezed out words from his lips: "What's going on."

"Go to the car and talk."

"You have been together for so long, when we met at Jinshi Restaurant, none of you said anything?" Jin Shi asked Li Xinglu after he finished speaking, "Why did you keep it from us?"

Li Xinglu was silent for a while, then said: "You never bring your lover to a restaurant."

Jinshi understood.

"Then why did you take him to eat the meal you cooked?"

This time Jinshi was silent.

"The first time I saw him in the bar, I felt that he and Liu Wen were very similar, and I was attracted to him unconsciously," Jin Shi said lightly, "But it was only for a certain moment that I felt that they were alike. Now that I think about it, they are actually There are not many similarities." Jin Shi sighed lightly, turned his head and glanced at Li Xinglu, his good brother was unpredictable at the moment, and the emotion in his eyes could not be seen in the dim light, but Jin Shi felt that he should be confused .

"I guess you are with him because he resembles Liu Wen, right?"

Li Xinglu found the cigarette from the car that he didn't know when he threw it there.

"Wang Qi is very popular in the circle now, he can play freely, doesn't talk much, and is pure and lustful," Jin Shi repeated what Modi said, recalling Wang Qi's pale face: "He has lost a lot of weight, and his hands It's full of wounds, do you know that he is Liu Wen's patient."

Li Xinglu's hand holding the lighter suddenly tightened.

He suddenly lost the mood to smoke, and threw the cigarettes and lighter into the car this time.

"Where are you going?"

Jin Shi thought for a while: "Go to the hospital, you don't need to send me," he said after he got out of the car, and when he closed the car door, he said, "Go and check it out, after all, he has slept with so many people."

The voice is full of self-deprecation.

Li Xinglu looked at Jinshi's back, and then he started the car.

Jinshi went to the hospital.

This is a private hospital with a very good service attitude. The doctor he knew told him that the results would not come out until the next morning.

He went home.

He went to the hospital early the next morning to wait for the results, and everything was normal.

Jin Shi breathed a sigh of relief, both for himself and for Wang Qi.If you are healthy, you can at least prove that the person is likely to be healthy as well.

Jin Shi went to the hospital where Liu Wen was. It had been a long time since he had this feeling of caring about someone. Although everything seemed late, he still wanted to do something for him.

Li Xinglu went back to the house he and Wang Qi rented.

Unlock the lock with your fingerprint.

Everything in the room is as old as before.

Cakes stink from discarded cakes in the trash, but the cold weather has killed off the mosquitoes and flies, leaving only the smell.

Unclosed windows, curtains almost torn by the wind.

The flimsy items that were blown away were scattered in the corner of the living room, and dust was everywhere.

Some have lived here, some have never been.

Open the drawer.

It was a card that originally belonged to me, but it should have been given to Wang Qi as compensation on the day they broke up.

He pushed open the bedroom door.

The quilt on the bed was not neatly folded, Li Xinglu's eyes fell there, as if he could vaguely see a small bulge in the quilt, there was a man with fair skin who always liked to wrap himself in the quilt, showing a pair of frightened eyes, looking at himself carefully.

Looking around, there seems to be his figure everywhere, restrained, cautious, scared, shrinking, and slightly trembling.

Li Xinglu tried hard to recall everything about Wang Qi.

His name is Wang Qi, he is 28 years old, and he suffers from depression.

Other than that, he knew nothing about him.

Where does this person work, what does he do, where is his hometown, where does he see a doctor, what he likes to eat, what he likes to drink, what hobbies he has...

Looking back carefully, Li Xinglu realized that they had been together for a year, but Wang Qi looked like a stranger in his memories.

It's not all strangers either.

He still remembers June [-]st of that year.

The kid with sparkling eyes laughing while holding a hydrogen balloon.