Long Island High School

In the dark place of the light, there is the sound of summer sea waves coming, and Liu Pei sits over.

"Are your feet okay?" The old teacher in his 40s rarely came out to relax.

"It's okay, teacher."

Song Jing tried to stand up, but Liu Pei motioned him not to.

She looked at her favorite student, Song Jing was so perfect and so obedient.So much so that she also felt that Song Jing should be perfect, but when she saw that he was not what she imagined, she would be shocked.

"Go back that day... did grandma and mother make things difficult for you?"

Song Jing suddenly became very nervous, his back straightened, and his whole body was tense.He bowed his head and did not speak.

"If you have any difficulties, you can tell the teacher..."

"No, no."

The young man's voice was dry, it was a dull pain in his heart, he was resisting and resisting all over his body, for fear of being mentioned and discovered by others.When he was in elementary school, Xu Hui told him that his parents were there to save lives.Many children are sick and suffering, waiting for their parents to rescue them. Song Jing is so obedient and sensible, so she will definitely support her mother, right?

Song Jing was only seven years old at the time, but he understood this truth.It's not that mom and dad don't want him, but they have more important things to do.To save people, to save other children, it doesn't matter if he is missing his parents for a while.

Xu Hui thought he had made it clear to him, and he also understood his parents' decision.

It's just that the absence lasted ten years, until he went to junior high school, and Song Yuxuan, and they didn't come back.

At the beginning, he would wait. Every time Xu Hui and the others came back to visit him, he would be very excited and looking forward to it.After Xu Hui left, he would secretly hide and cry for a long time, and then continued to look forward to it, waiting for them to come back from two days off.

Later, he gradually understood that Xu Hui would not come back.Until now, he can understand his parents' career and their original choices.

But what he doesn't understand is, doesn't he have the right to spend time with them?

He doesn't even need to be accompanied, cooks by himself, goes to school by himself, and is well-behaved and independent, as long as he can have a place in that family.

However, no.

And why Song Yuxuan can?

Why the one who sacrificed, the one without parents is not Song Yuxuan, but him?

Many things that I can't figure out, I no longer think about them when I grow up, and become Shen Bing sealed in my heart.Over the years, it was just a layer of snow piled up, and finally turned into a lump of ice, which fell heavily into the deep sea.

Every time I think about it, it brings out the deepest pain.

It turns out that love will disappear.

It turns out that nothing is inherently possessed, and neither is the love of parents.

It turns out that Mom and Dad really just don't want him.

As a young man, he could only think of this, and could only accept this most unacceptable and unwilling result.

And this was what he felt most ashamed and painful about.

He frowned, feeling that the evil that had been shaken by him in the deep sea was about to surge up again.He bit his lips tightly, for fear of being discovered by others, he was hiding evil spirits, he was not obedient and ignorant, he had hatred and jealousy, and the most embarrassing thing was that he was just an abandoned child.

At this moment, the pain, shame, and evil in his heart run counter to his education and drive him to death again.

Liu Pei saw it, held his shoulder and said, "Relax."

She had long ago discovered that Song Jing had a very strong self-esteem and was used to being patient. If she didn't talk to him, he would bury all the pain in his heart and eventually push himself to a dead end.

"Take a deep breath."

She waited for Song Jing to slowly relax and calm down.

Song Jing took a few breaths, he was ashamed and indignant in front of this teacher who was optimistic about him.

Liu Pei said: "Song Jing, sometimes I wonder if we teachers think too highly of you. Every time we praise you, maybe it's not being kind to you, but putting you on fire. No such thing. What about being human?"

"Ok?"

"Being a good student, you do a great job. No one does it better than you. But we are just human beings in the end. You are human, and teachers are human, and we are all just ordinary people."

Song Jing didn't understand.

Liu Pei chuckled lightly: "Sometimes, allowing yourself to make mistakes and not being perfect is not a very shameful thing to say."

"Do you have a problem set?"

Song Jing said: "Yes."

"Will you show the wrong set of questions to other students?"

"I……"

Liu Pei had expected it a long time ago: "You will only secretly remember and read secretly, and then you will not make mistakes next time, right?"

Song Jing nodded slowly.

"Next time, at the class meeting, you can talk about your mistakes, okay?"

"teacher……"

No, he must not, and the thought of that scene filled him with terror.

"Actually, I told Cheng Jiajia and the others about Yuanyuan's illness. Have you noticed that everyone was very good during the final period and didn't make trouble for me?"

Song Jing nodded.

Liu Pei smiled and said: "The teacher's home is not perfect. I am busy with work, so I bring you to the third year of high school. I have to wake up at [-] o'clock in the morning and return at [-] o'clock in the evening. Sometimes I can't see Yuanyuan. Her father quarreled with me. Yuanyuan Yuan was sick again, and I carried her to the hospital alone in the middle of the night. In the hospital, she was almost in a state of fever, and held my hand and refused to let me go. Crying. The boss can’t take care of her, so she can only stay in the same room as you. The time I saw her the most was actually in the class I taught, and every time I went home, she would argue with me..."

"I tell you this, just to say, sometimes it's okay to say it. If you don't take it as a shame, then it's not a shame. If you don't care, others can't take it making fun of you."

"No one is perfect, Song Jing, you have to allow yourself to make mistakes and accept that you are not perfect. Life is very long, don't take these things as a big thing right now, don't put pressure and burden on yourself, many things, you feel now You can’t get through it, and after a while, you will find that it’s nothing more than that. It’s very small, and it doesn’t matter. It’s like a rain, and when the rain is over, everything will return to normal.”

"Appropriately show weakness and ask for help. Before being a good student, I hope you are just a simple and happy person. Like those mischievous people, cry when you want to, laugh when you want to laugh, stick out your tongue when you say something wrong, and do something wrong It’s a big deal and I apologize, it’s not a big deal if people know what’s going on at home, isn’t the teacher’s family also suffering from all kinds of disasters, why don’t you ask Cheng Jiajia to let them not make trouble for me?”

Song Jing smiled lightly.

Liu Pei said: "That's right, there's no need to strain yourself. Look at He Wenzhou, get in touch with him more when you have time, he's heartless, how happy he is."

Yes, he looked at He Wenzhou in the crowd from a distance, everyone asked for a show, and he seemed to be dancing in it.

He was wearing a white shirt, You Xing was wearing a white T-shirt, and the light from the flashlight shone on both of them.The two twisted the disco at each other, making everyone around laugh.

If the crying in front of He Wenzhou was a way of venting, then the conversation between Liu Pei and him this time was to find an outlet for the "unreasonable" that had been stuck in his heart.

He suddenly relaxed in his heart, it turned out that he can make mistakes and be ashamed.

It may not be as difficult as you think to expose your unbearableness to others.Although he still didn't want to be seen, but if he was seen, he didn't have to blame himself.

Shame is shame, pain is pain.

Let all emotions be exposed, no need to hold back, no need to suppress.

It turned out to be so good, so calm and peaceful.

He is very grateful to Liu Pei, and is grateful that he met a teacher when he was a teenager. He didn't blindly pursue the promotion rate, and didn't ask him to be a good student. He just hoped that he could be a person, an ordinary person who can cry and laugh. people.

He will be forever grateful to her.