So you're secretly jealous again

The voice right now is indeed Shu Jinshi's voice.

"You, are you back?" Xu Fengyi looked at the figure that had almost merged with the darkness in front of him, as if waking up from a dream.

The originally procrastinated and ambiguous voice due to sleepiness also returned to normal in a second.

"I've been back for quite a while." Shu Jinshi looked at her like a fool: "Then when I passed by your room, I heard you talking in your sleep, so I came in. Unexpectedly, when I got to your bedside, Just grabbed your hand."

After Shu Jinshi finished speaking, he leaned over and stretched out his hand to the switch next to Xu Fengyi's bed.

She hadn't turned on the light before, because she was afraid that the light would be too stimulating and affect Xu Fengyi's sleep quality, so she stayed with her in the dark.

Now that Xu Fengyi has woken up, it doesn't matter.

There was a crisp "click", and the soft beige light instantly spread around and filled every corner of the room, and Shu Jinshi's appearance also became clear.

Sitting on the side of the bed against the light, the halo outlined a shallow, fluffy outline on her body, which looked extraordinarily soft.

With the light, Xu Fengyi noticed that he was indeed holding her wrist tightly.

"I'm sorry!" Xu Fengyi hurriedly let go of his hand to apologize, and then noticed that on Shu Jinshi's thin wrist, there were a few red marks pressed by his fingers. It should be that he accidentally pinched it while dreaming. from.

Xu Fengyi suddenly had mixed feelings in his heart, and looked at her with the eyes of a dog who blamed himself: "Does it hurt?"

Shu Jinshi shook his head, and the corners of his lips rose up because of her small eyes: "It doesn't hurt, but my skin is prone to bruises. It will disappear after a while."

Xu Fengyi breathed a sigh of relief, and patted his chest: "That's good, that's good..."

Shu Jinshi remembered that she had caught a cold, and asked again: "Did you feel better after taking the medicine?"

Xu Fengyi: "It's much better. I have a characteristic of this person, that is, I catch a cold quickly and recover quickly..."

Shu Jinshi nodded: "However, what did you dream about? You feel very uncomfortable."

Xu Fengyi stopped patting her chest, bit her lower lip and looked at her in thought, her brows furrowed slightly.

Then she loosened her brows slightly, put down her hands and sighed, pretending to be cheerful and said: "It's nothing..."

"that is……"

"Huh?" Shu Jinshi put his left leg on his right leg, crossed his hands on his knees, and waited to listen.

After a long time, Xu Fengyi let out a deep breath in his chest, and said, "Actually, I don't think it's anything now, but maybe it's because it's a shadow from my childhood, it's deeply rooted, so I always dream about it."

"At that time, I was quite young, about ten years old. My dad never came home, and when he came back occasionally, he would just quarrel with my mom and make a fuss at home all day long, so I was very speechless .It's better not to come back."

"Then there was a power outage at home, and I was doing my homework in the house, and they were still arguing, arguing with candles in the living room, throwing things while arguing... I don't know who knocked over the candle, and the fire spread like that opened……"

"But they were still arguing, arguing standing in the fire. I even touched 119 and called. After the call, I wanted to run out, but something burned out and blocked the door. I went out don't go."

"My legs were weak at the time, but they were still arguing. They used to love each other so much, but that day, they seemed to want to die with each other. In fact, I often wonder if my childhood memories are all fake. It’s not all my own making up.”

Obviously when she was a child, her father only saw her mother.

Xu Fengyi clearly remembers that when she was seven or eight years old, her mother was sick and lying on the bed talking nonsense, saying that she wanted to eat Chen Ji’s white-cut chicken, and her father ran half a city to buy it without saying a word. .

At that time, those two people were still so concerned about each other, they regarded each other as a treasure, they were afraid of melting in their mouths, and they were afraid of falling in their hands. Even the neighbors were very envious of their relationship, but later they changed as they said. up.

Xu Fengyi pursed her lips tightly, and her eyes were filled with mist, which made her look extraordinarily bright: "Fortunately, the fire alarm uncle came quickly, and our family is safe and sound. Otherwise..."

Then, she raised her little finger and tickled a small piece of water stain from the corner of her eye: "You won't meet me either."

Until now, when Xu Fengyi occasionally thinks about the grand occasion of that night, he still feels very scared.

After that incident, for at least five full years, she was very afraid of flames.

Even for stir-frying and cooking, they only use induction cookers and dare not use open flames.

It is only in recent years that I am not so afraid of fire.

But she was still afraid of candles.Even if there is a sudden power outage at home, she will not light candles.

Because I always feel that no matter where it is placed, it is a symbol of insecurity, and I am very afraid that it will suddenly fall down when I can't see it, and then ignite everything.

Later, she lived by herself, and she would never buy candles and store them at home.

There is no way, she just draws an absolute equal sign between candles and danger, and it is very difficult not to draw an equal sign.

At this time, a tissue was handed to her.

The hand holding the tissue is very beautiful.Slender white, short manicured nails, clean and matte.

Xu Fengyi looked up along the hand and saw Shu Jinshi's face.

On that face, the eyebrows were slightly frowned, as if worried about something.

Xu Fengyi laughed suddenly, took the tissue and covered his mouth and nose: "It's okay, I'm fine! It's all happened a long time ago, in fact, I don't care at all now."

Shu Jinshi just stared straight into her eyes: "Actually, I still care."

"If you really don't care, you won't be afraid of falling in love. You won't be looking for a humanoid marriage non-stop after a round of dating and being betrayed to prevent yourself from falling in love again."

Xu Fengyi rolled his eyes to look at her, and swallowed.

Yes, the reason why she is afraid of falling in love is because the shadow cast by her parents is too deep.It would be fine without that fire.But that fire was really terrible.

It was the fire that made her know that no matter how beautiful the love is, it may be fake and cannot stand the test of time.

No matter how much the person who once treasured the other party, he may have the idea of ​​killing the other party in the end, which is very crazy.

In addition, although she had thought about physical marriage before, and thought about grabbing a like-minded person who didn't want to fall in love and just live together as a partner, but it was just thinking about it.It was because of Yi Zhiya's cheating that he really made up his mind.

After Yi Zhiya cheated, she was very afraid that she would repeat the same mistakes in the future, so she thought about taking the alternative path ahead of time and trying it out.

If it's not bad, I should never fall in love with others at all.

So in fact, to be precise, it's not that she doesn't want to fall in love, but she's afraid of falling in love, so she's trying to stop herself from falling in love.

Lowering his head, Xu Fengyi scratched his hand and nodded.

After a while, she looked at Shu Jinshi again: "What about you? Why don't you want to fall in love?"

"People who are against falling in love usually have some stories that belong to her, right?"

Shu Jinshi smiled: "No."

"Huh?" Xu Fengyi was confused.

"I simply like freedom and don't like being bound."

ok, ok.Xu Fengyi nodded: "Then what if you fall in love with someone you really love?"

Shu Jinshi continued to laugh: "All I know is that so far, I haven't had the kind of feelings you mentioned for anyone."

What Shu Jinshi said was true.

She really hasn't liked anyone yet.

One is because she has been instilled in her since she was a child that "nothing is more practical and loyal than money, so even for the person next to your pillow, you must be careful and be careful. It is best to make a ten-page prenuptial agreement to prevent future emotional conflicts. Confused and cheated by the other party, because the person next to the pillow is the best at cheating money under the guise of love, and maybe even his original intention of contacting you is to cheat you" values.

At first, Shu Jin didn't understand why the second elder in the family said that, and even thought it was a bit exaggerated.

Until later, when Shu Jinshi was tricked by several friends whom she thought she had a good relationship with, she understood.

Maybe it's just human nature.

After a long time, Shu Jinshi felt that feelings really cannot stand the test, which directly lowered her expectations for love.

The second reason is that Shu Jinshi really loves freedom and hates losing it.

Although she has never been in love, she has been chased by many people.

Among these people, there are men and women.

A man once threatened to jump off the fourth floor of the teaching building because he could not catch up with her.

There is also a woman who is also amazing.

Shu Jinshi used to take her with her for everything because she couldn't see her being bullied. As a result, she seemed to have misunderstood something. She thought that Shu Jinshi must have liked her because she was so good to her, so she imagined their relationship as being in love, and made Shu Jinshi Be your only one.

Afterwards, as soon as Shu Jinshi made friends with others, the girl would get jealous, get angry, and make a big fuss.

It's like this before these people chased her. If they really fell in love, wouldn't it be more terrifying?The other party still has to take out all kinds of shackles and handcuff you tightly?

Xu Fengyi sighed: "However, it is the best to have no one you like, easy. Long live freedom!"

In fact, she has only tried one relationship, that is, talking with Yi Zhiya.

It was only when Yi Zhiya persisted in chasing her for half a year that he slowly felt it.

The main reason is that apart from being a bit of a hindrance, she is also quite slow in love.

She usually likes to look at beautiful women, yes, every time she sees a very beautiful girl, her eyes light up, she is very excited and excited.

But that kind of excitement is just because the eyes can't help but jump for joy when they see beautiful things, and it's not even enough to move the heart.

But it is still difficult for her to really like, or even fall in love with, someone.She has many things to consider.

For example, what is the character of this person, whether he is practical in doing things, whether he is sincere to others, etc.

Let alone falling in love, even making friends is the same.

She, Gu Yanyu and Liang Xian have known each other for a long time.Then I dare to really open my heart.Usually when dealing with some new people, although she looks like she can chat with everyone and is very familiar with them, but in fact she hardly takes the initiative to contact them in private.

For a girl like this, it would be very difficult for her to fall in love with someone from the bottom of her heart in a short period of time.

But she is like this, she is so cautious, and she can still be cheated by Yi Zhiya, so she is naturally even more disappointed in the word love.

"Yes, long live freedom." Shu Jinshi bent his lips.

Xu Fengyi laughed.

However, just when she was about to say something, her stomach suddenly rumbled.

Shu Jinshi: "Hungry?"

Xu Fengyi nodded while clutching her abdomen.

It has been several hours since the meal at noon.

It was unbelievable that she had slept for so long.Maybe this is the power of cold medicine.

Rubbing her stomach, Xu Fengyi quickly picked up the phone from the side: "It's okay, I'm small, I'll order a takeaway!"

As a result, as soon as she finished speaking, a slender hand waved in front of her and took away her mobile phone.

"I'm afraid it's not good to eat takeaway in an emergency?" Shu Jinshi turned his wrist and pressed the phone screen down to the side of the bed.

Xu Fengyi's hands were still in the air, staring at the mobile phone that was taken away from him, not quite understanding: "Then what should I eat?"

"Wait a minute." Shu Jinshi got up and went to the door, opened it and walked out.

After a while, Shu Jinshi returned to the room with a dinner plate, put it on a small round table in Xu Fengyi's room, took out the food one by one, and greeted her: "Come and eat."

Xu Fengyi immediately lifted the quilt and stuffed her feet into her shoes, then ran over with her mobile phone and stopped beside her.

There is already food on top, there is a bowl of vegetable porridge, and some meat that is prepared in a light way, and the visual effect is unhealthy.

Xu Fengyi rubbed her hands: "It looks good, looks good, but, these... are you doing it?"

Shu Jinshi saw that she was sick, so he made a special meal for her?

If so, this person is really good.

Thinking of this, Xu Fengyi naturally felt a little warmth in his heart.

Unexpectedly, just when Xu Fengyi was moved by this, Shu Jinshi replied: "Well... I've been a little tired of eating outside recently, and thinking that you are still sick, you should eat cleaner food, so let's go together Done."

Xu Fengyi's expression froze subtly for a while, and then he started to laugh: "So that's how it is!"

Well, she thought that Shu Jinshi made it specially for herself, and she was overthinking it for a long time.

Fortunately, she didn't directly ask "Did you make these for me", but thought about it before asking, and changed the question to "Did you do all of these".

Otherwise it would be a fool.

But what she didn't know was that, in fact, what Shu Jinshi said was half-spoken and half-hidden.

In fact, it is not "by the way", but deliberately.

As early as the moment she went out to do errands, she made up her mind to go to the supermarket to buy some ingredients and come back to make something nutritious for Xu Fengyi to eat.

You know, in many cases, as long as the nutrition is balanced and the immunity is improved, the disease can be cured quickly.

The reason why she didn't tell Xu Fengyi this was because she was afraid that Xu Fengyi would feel that she was too nice to her when she came here because she had plots against her, which made the trial marriage relationship shaky, so she deliberately created a sense of distance.

"Okay, let's eat while it's hot." Shu Jinshi handed a pair of chopsticks to Xu Fengyi.

Xu Fengyi said "hmm", took the chopsticks and sat down, and ate the food Shu Jinshi cooked.

The taste is indeed bland, even a bit too bland, but Xu Fengyi can still tell that these ingredients are very fresh.

And fresh ingredients, in fact, don't need much seasoning to make it delicious.

This table was quite delicious, even if Xu Fengyi was sick, he still ate a lot.

Shu Jinshi watched her eating, and couldn't help laughing.

Actually, Xu Fengyi is really cute.The way he eats is cute, the way he smiles is also cute, everything is cute.

Just when Xu Fengyi finished the last mouthful of porridge, her phone vibrated.

Wiping her mouth, Xu Fengyi picked up her phone and looked at it, and saw that it was Lu Yuan who sent a message, probably asking if she was free to accompany her to a certain band's concert in the first ten days of next month, and she had two VIP tickets .

When Xu Fengyi heard the name of the band, his eyes lit up, and he chatted with her.

I don't know how long we chatted before returning to the WeChat interface.

Coincidentally, at this moment, Shu Jinshi accidentally glanced at Xu Fengyi's WeChat list.

As a result, with just one glance, Shu Jinshi's eyelids twitched, and the line of his lips straightened, instantly lowering the air pressure in the whole room a lot.

Because she found out that Xu Fengyi's name for Lu Yuan was: super cute little fairy.

And the name she gave herself was a cold full name: Shu Jinshi.

Oh, this woman is really not cute at all.

What's the matter, it's because her name, Shu Jinshi, is so nice, so do you have to type out her full name and frame it?

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The author has something to say:

Mr. Shu can change his name to Mr. Suan!