So you're secretly jealous again

"So nervous and thinking so much about what to do, isn't it just to meet someone?" Shu Jinshi lowered his head and took a bite of toast, making it impossible to see the expression on his face.

She acts very calm, even though in fact she is not at all.

It's hard to describe what it's like to feel at the moment, it's like being locked in a cramped elevator with a lot of people at the same time, it's crowded and narrow, and we have to fight for the already thin oxygen resources together.

Anyway, as soon as she heard about that senior sister, she instantly became in a bad mood.

Xu Fengyi only thought that Shu Jinshi was simply complaining, and nodded following her words: "It's also..."

But she will be nervous, not without reason.

After all, that senior has always been an idol in her life since she was studying.

The reason is simple.

That senior sister is an activist who works hard no matter what she does.

The name of the senior is Chen Siqi. She is hard-working and serious, beautiful and self-disciplined. She has made some small achievements during school.

While everyone is still worrying about what to do when they leave the society and whether they can break the curse of "unemployment after graduation", many companies outside have offered her olive branches.

Probably in Xu Fengyi's sophomore year.

Chen Siqi was so outstanding and brilliant that she stepped out of school and stepped into the society, and was invited back by the school to give a lecture on entrepreneurship and self.

At that time, Chen Siqi was wearing a neat small suit and a high ponytail. She stood on the podium and pointed to the slides behind her to tell everyone her story and ideas. She was full of energy and high spirits throughout the process, just like a future entrepreneur, shining brightly.

At that time, Xu Fengyi was still a person whose future planning was like a mess, he was confused about the future, and was deeply anxious and unable to extricate himself.

So Chen Siqi's arrival is like a guiding light for Zhengchou who doesn't know what to do.

Under Chen Siqi's self-confidence and publicity, Xu Fengyi's gaze was naturally caught.

After class, when everyone was leaving the table, Xu Fengyi barely made any hesitation or pause. Standing up, she ran out of the crowd with a small notebook in her arms, stood in front of Chen Siqi, and said loudly: "Senior sister, you Okay, my name is Xu Fengyi, and I want to be like you in the future."

then……

To this day, Xu Fengyi still remembers all the details of that scene that day.

Chen Siqi raised her hand and put it on her shoulder: "You are the first one who dares to rush up and say this to me, you will definitely be able to."

After that, they went out to have a meal together.

Yes, no one else has this kind of treatment, but Xu Fengyi is getting it, not to mention how exciting it is.

It was this meal that allowed them to exchange WeChat and get closer.In addition, Xu Fengyi at that time was quite fond of asking her for advice when nothing happened. In the long run, Xu Fengyi regarded her as her elder sister, and she regarded Xu Fengyi as her younger sister. .

It's just that after graduation, the two have been separated in two places, and the span is far away, and they haven't seen each other again. They only chat a few words on WeChat occasionally, but not many.

In addition, it is better to send messages to each other during the New Year and holidays to ask.

Chen Siqi, as a very respected person in Xu Fengyi's life, hadn't seen her for a long time, and when they met again, it was impossible for her not to be excited or drumming.

Since Xu Fengyi and Shu Jinshi were both thinking about something, no one spoke, and there was nothing else in the air except the sound of chewing food and the sound of tableware colliding, and it became quiet all of a sudden, even the sound of breathing was exceptionally loud. obvious.

Shu Jinshi couldn't bear this feeling very much, so he broke the silence first: "Then will you come back then?"

"Huh?" Xu Fengyi, as if waking up from a dream, pulled away from the big memory and turned to look at her.

Shu Jinshi picked up his hair and stroked it back, changed his sitting position, and ate the last mouthful of the thick, tender and smooth fried egg: "I mean, don't you have to play with her on Saturdays and Sundays? , do you want to come back to live at night?"

Xu Fengyi shrugged: "I'll be back, she didn't let me stay in the hotel with her."

Because she didn't let her stay in the hotel with her, so she will come back?

Then, looking at it from another angle, can this sentence also be understood as, as long as the senior sister asks her to stay in a hotel outside, she will go?

Shu Jinshi really wanted to ask this question, but he still restrained himself.

With his eyes downcast, Shu Jinshi laughed at himself and just wanted to shake his head.

Interesting, why didn't she realize that she was so good at picking words before?Really awesome.

Swallowing those messy thoughts, Shu Jinshi looked down at the rounded and smooth fingers, raised his eyebrows and inhaled, relaxed his chest, put a smile on his face again, and tried to make himself look more natural: "Then you have already thought about what to do." How did you play with her?"

Xu Fengyi said "hmm", raised her chin lightly with one hand, and thought about it: "Thought it out."

"On the first day..."

"I'm going to take her to Congee Ji Congee Shop for a meal first. She likes to drink congee, and that place feels pretty good, and the stewed meat platter is also a highlight. Hey, I suddenly realized that I haven't eaten that for a long time. Just thinking about it makes me feel hungry." .She likes to drink porridge, and I like to eat lo-mei, which is just right."

"Then, let's take her to the pedestrian street. Although it's not very interesting, it is located in the center of a city after all. Even if you go through the process, you still have to understand it. Besides, I don't think it's interesting. People also find it boring.”

"In the future, I might take her to Yucheng Twin Star Tower to see at night. I haven't been there yet. I heard that you can overlook the entire Yucheng and have a panoramic view of the night view of Yucheng. Well, I still have a look at that place. Looking forward to it."

"After seeing the tower, I plan to take her to take a night tour 888 for half a circle around the city, and then go to Nan'an Street. Well... that's about it. I think it should be quite appropriate, right? As for Where will I go the next day... I'm still thinking about it, let's talk about it in due time."

Shu Jinshi nodded, still smiling.

Okay, there are quite a lot of travel items, and it seems to be very attentive.

Not to mention, she has never played many of the projects here.

Yes, in fact, she is quite nerdy.The relaxation activities after work are just going to various restaurants to eat in various ways.

Other than that, she didn't bother to experience it.

Who would have known, she was such a lazy person, totally different from her mother.

But, who knows, when she heard that Xu Fengyi was going to take her senior sister to play, she, who was originally not interested in those mentally handicapped projects, felt a vague jealousy.

To tell the truth, she felt that she was inexplicable and crazy.

Xu Fengyi didn't know what the smiling person next to him was thinking, so he just smiled at her and continued to eat breakfast.

Then, as she was finishing her rockyaki toast, her phone vibrated.

Xu Fengyi picked it up and took a look, only to see that Gu Yanyu had sent a WeChat message, saying that a certain dessert shop had recently released a new product, which was delicious.

After Xu Fengyi clicked on the picture, she sighed: "Unexpectedly, the new dessert bear cup recently released by Abby Dessert Shop looks so cute."

Shu Jinshi ate another mouthful of fried eggs, and although he wasn't too interested, he still spoke up: "Is that so?"

"Well, look!" Xu Fengyi nodded with a smile, then turned the phone screen to Shu Jinshi, and showed her.

It was a transparent plastic dessert cup, which looked quite big. It contained not only sponge cake and cream, but also fruits such as blueberries and strawberries as decorations. There was even a bowknot on the top. Chocolate Bears.

It's gaudy, it looks like a kind of sweet and greasy food, but it is the most able to capture the hearts of girls.

"It's pretty," Shu Jinshi nodded, "Do you like this?"

Xu Fengyi continued to smile: "Yes, I quite like the taste of it, but it's a little expensive. Hmm... But, it's expensive, and I don't eat it often. I still want to support new products. Hey, it's this store Well, it's too far away from my company, hey, it seems that there is no way to eat these two days."

Shu Jinshi nodded: "Then go when you are free."

Then she put down the dishes and stood up from the dining table: "I'm going back to my room to change. Thank you for your breakfast. It's delicious."

After finishing speaking, Shu Jinshi walked upstairs without saying a word.

Well, to be honest, in fact, she didn't really want to discuss with Xu Fengyi how to take her senior sister to play, nor did she really want to know what they were going to do together.

She would ask such a question during the meal just because she felt that since she and Xu Fengyi were in a state of chatting and kept silent or put on a bad face, no matter how you say it, she should at least ask, otherwise she would It seems too cold.

A formal marriage is also a marriage, and a life with a partner is also a life. As the other half, she feels that she should be more considerate.

Maybe this is a businessman. Even if she feels uncomfortable, she still analyzes specific issues in detail, so that the face project is done in place, and no one leaks. No one will find out what she is thinking.

In other words, her life experience does not allow her to do childish things, even if it is just thinking.

This is probably also a shackle she put on herself unconsciously.

Therefore, even if the sky is falling, she will make herself look calm, as if she doesn't care about anything.

"Oh..." Seeing her get up, Xu Fengyi stopped thinking and smiled, "Okay, let's go."

"En." Shu Jinshi didn't look back, and walked quickly towards the stairwell.

She was tall and thin, with straight and sharp shoulders. Even if she walked slowly, she seemed to be carrying a gust of wind.

I don't know if it's an illusion, although Shu Jinshi is always smiling, but Xu Fengyi always feels that she seems to have something on her mind.

But if the other party didn't intend to take the initiative to mention it, she couldn't take the initiative to provoke the topic, so she swallowed the question and watched her go upstairs.

Besides, maybe it's just my own illusion, and asking questions rashly may make people irritated.

After all, everyone's temperament is different. In these matters, you must never judge others by yourself.

Afterwards, Xu Fengyi also stood up from the dining table, packed the tableware and washed it.

Shu Jinshi raised his brows when he heard the tinkling sound from the kitchen.

It turns out that my five senses are so sensitive that I can pick up any small movement outside.

She felt that she discovered a lot of things today that she hadn't noticed before, and she really re-recognized herself.

Afterwards, she went up the last step and entered her room.

The blackout curtains were drawn in the room, which directly blocked the not-so-bright light outside, and because her mother didn't turn off the bedside lamp when she left, it didn't look too cramped.

The color temperature of the bedside lamp is dim yellow, but the range of illumination is not large, and it is cut softly and quietly, so that many dark corners of the room are hidden in the darkness, which is very comfortable.

This lamp was carefully selected by her. It is said that such a light can be just right, and if one stays in it for a long time, one can obtain tranquility.

She also felt this way in the past, as long as she was placed in such a gentle environment, no matter how irritable her mood was, she would soon become calm and soft, but today she did not become calm, on the contrary, the dark tide was raging, and Messy and scattered, it seems that it is not well put together.

She really felt a little nervous.

The nervousness made her suddenly think of a youth novel she read when she was sixteen or seventeen.

In the novel, the adolescent heroine is portrayed as sensitive, slender, possessive and thorny.

The heroine is always jealous when facing friends, and she can't see that friends are more enthusiastic about others than herself. If she makes an appointment to go out for dinner, and the other party wants to add another person in the middle, she will be unhappy.

Even if a friend falls in love, she will start to feel disappointed, and she will be hostile to the other person, because she feels that the wild man has robbed her good friend and stole her life.

Because Shu Jinshi never had that kind of feeling and experience at that time - she never lacked friends, and the communication with friends has always been generous and relaxed, giving each other enough freedom.

When going out for a dinner together, if the other party wants to bring a new friend over temporarily, she will not feel anything, she will only feel that one more person will be more lively, and it is good to know one more friend.

So at that time, she couldn't empathize with the heroine.

Not only can't empathize, but even feel that the heroine is very hypocritical, even jealous of friends, tossing around all day long, isn't it tiring to look like that.

She once thought that she would never be able to understand that kind of person until she was old and dead, but who would have thought that now that she had passed puberty, she seemed to be able to understand it?

Is it because her puberty came too late, or did she get younger as she lived, and went back as she grew older?

It is said that people will be old and young.Old is still small means that when you get old, you will become like a child who loves to mess around all day long, and your mind is as small as a pinhole.

But she is only so old, and she is still several decades away from seventy or eighty, so she will not be there anyway.

What a mess.

Shu Jinshi frowned, and pressed the button of the electric light beside the bed with a "snap", and the dim yellow light was instantly lost in the darkness.

Then she closed her eyes, turned on the light again, took a deep breath, turned and entered the cloakroom, and picked out a white silk pearl white shirt and a black overcoat as if nothing happened.

There are only a few combinations of work clothes and so on, and you don’t even need to think about it, and you don’t need to take the mirror to make gestures on your body.

After that, she put on a simple makeup for herself, focused on brightening her complexion, opened the door and walked out.

Then, she heard Xu Fengyi humming a little tune in the diagonally opposite room.

She was singing Doraemon's theme song, a bit broken and out of tune, but she seemed to be very happy.

Possibly looking forward to a Saturday-Sunday date?

Shu Jinshi's eyes darkened inexplicably.

Pausing for two seconds, she glanced at the doorknob of Xu Fengyi's door, and finally turned around and went downstairs without saying anything.

Entering the garage, after picking out a black car based on what to wear, what to do today, and who to meet, Shu Jinshi sat in it, drove away, and turned on the "FM102*" channel.

Generally speaking, when she is alone in the car, she will listen to the radio.

But in fact, she didn't like listening to the radio very much, she just listened to it loudly.

Therefore, I didn't like this channel very much, but I was too lazy to tune it, so I just listened to it.

Then, as usual, instead of going directly to the company, she went to a takeaway coffee window called "Vivi".

But instead of going through the gate, she ordered an Americano through the takeaway window.

Ice American style in summer and hot American style in winter. Unknowingly, she has maintained this unchanging habit for many years in many cities, and it has almost become a part of her life.

Because of this thing, it can keep her brain awake.

After seeing her, the little girl at the window smiled at her before she could speak: "A big cup of hot American style, right?"

Yes, because I come here often, the younger sister has already gotten to know her well.

"Yes." Shu Jinshi took out his mobile phone and scanned the QR code to pay.

The shopkeeper's sister smiled: "Okay, wait a moment."

Shu Jinshi nodded and looked down at the phone.

At this time, a tall and beautiful woman in a small business suit and a bright ponytail stood next to Shu Jinshi with her mobile phone and talked on the phone:

"I think I've been acting weird lately. Remember that new colleague I told you about who just came to the company two months ago?"

"It's the guy who is very handsome and tall, who often invites me to have staff lunches with him, and has a pretty good relationship with me."

"Didn't I go on a business trip for a while? When I came back, I found that he had expanded his interpersonal relationship and had a new dining partner. It was Ms. Li from the department next door to me. I wanted to ask him to have lunch with me yesterday, but I didn't. I saw Miss Li jogging all the way to his side, and the two talked and laughed all the way to the restaurant."

"Later, Mr. Huang still saw me and asked me to join him. But I didn't, because I felt so tired."

"Chasing him? Or not."

"I know, I might like him a little bit. But I also know that he can't like me. It's impossible for him to like me if he likes anyone."

"You ask me why? Because I can carry water and walk many stairs by myself, and no boy would like such a fierce woman. Besides, he also calls me brother, obviously he calls other women normally."

"So I thought, before I really like him, I should stay away."

……

At this time, outside the street, a piercing siren sound suddenly pierced the sky, shattering the silence of the smoggy day, startling the birds around and fluttering away, only returning to reality when listening to people talking on the phone and feeling refreshed.

Looking up again, I saw that at the window, the little girl had already handed out a hot American dish.

"Thank you." Shu Jinshi took the warm coffee cup, and when he turned around, he glanced sideways at the woman who was still talking on the phone. Somehow, he remembered something, and his expression was cloudy.

Then she turned around and got into the car, and opened the door to block out all the noise, including the voice of the woman talking on the phone.

Inside the car, the FM102* channel is still playing.

The host had a nice voice, and talked about a real-life story about a man complaining about a man complaining about a woman.

Shu Jinshi didn't listen and turned off the radio directly.

Then she put the coffee aside and started driving.

When I arrived at the company, I nodded with the person who came to say hello, went to the office to put away two documents and bags, took the secretary to finish the meeting, and went to the reception room to meet the cooperative customers, and it was 11:30 noon.

Then Shu Jinshi asked his assistant to go to the cafeteria to order a meal, then returned to the office, sat in the swivel chair behind the computer and fiddled with a gel pen.

Two minutes later, Shu Jinshi turned the swivel chair and looked at the world outside the huge floor-to-ceiling glass window behind him.

Today's weather is really bad, the tops of most tall buildings are submerged in haze, extremely gloomy.

Inadvertently, what the woman said on the phone in the morning echoed in her ears like a broadcast.

She wasn't sure if she was in the same situation as the other person, but she also began to think about whether she should learn from that woman.

For example, you still have to keep a distance from Xu Fengyi at ordinary times.

Otherwise, you may become more and more strange yourself.

She really didn't like that feeling, and she didn't like such a petty herself.

Being like that would make her feel sick, and besides, this is not an adjective.

What's more, although she didn't know whether she was belatedly sensitive, or she had already developed some abnormal feelings for Xu Fengyi just like that woman had for Mr. Huang.

But one thing is certain, just like Mr. Huang would not like that woman, Xu Fengyi would not like her either.

She just felt that he would not like her, so he agreed to live together and get married in the future.

If I really like her in the future, but she doesn't like me, then it will be embarrassing, in that case, it will 100% break up at once.

My brain suddenly felt a little dull.

I don't know if it's because I think too much, or I haven't had a good rest recently.

Shu Jinshi put down the gel pen in his hand, raised his hand and gently rubbed his forehead.

It may also be that she hasn't had a good rest recently, she really stayed up too many nights.

At this time, there was a knock on the office door, and the little assistant walked in with the bought meal, put it on her dining table, and then retreated respectfully.

Shu Jinshi stared at the rice for a while, let out a sigh of relief, took it over and untied it, and began to eat.

The moment she picked up the chopsticks, she made a decision.

From now on, she will keep a certain safe distance from Xu Fengyi.

Can't get too close, yes, no.

After finishing, Shu Jinshi began to eat.

In a blink of an eye, the day passed and the night fell.

At eight o'clock in the evening, Shu Jinshi finally finished all the matters at hand, got up and left the company.

After getting into the car, Shu Jinshi arrived at a tea shop and bought a cup of hot tea. He took a sip and was about to leave when his gaze was suddenly caught by a dessert shop next to him.

Because it has the words "Abi Abi" written on the plaque.

Inadvertently, what Xu Fengyi said during breakfast jumped into her mind.

Xu Fengyi said that Abby has released a new dessert, which is very beautiful and I want to eat it.

It's just too far.

But who would have thought that this shop, which is here now, was accidentally bumped into by her, Shu Jinshi.

If Xu Fengyi was here, he would be very happy, right?

Looking at the door of the store, Shu Jinshi could imagine her smiling like honey when holding that cup of dessert.

Immediately, Shu Jinshi lightly touched his back teeth with the tip of his tongue, and suddenly laughed at himself.

Didn't she want to keep a distance from Xu Fengyi?

So, so what if Abi Abi released a new product?

So what if Xu Fengyi really wants to eat?

What does it have to do with her Shu Jinshi?

Thinking in this way, Shu Jinshi raised his head and took another sip of tea, then screwed on the lid, got into the car, started the car, stepped on the accelerator in the northeast direction, and galloped away.

The black car carried a warm and shiny luster, like a shadow, it quickly disappeared at the end of the street.

However, after more than ten minutes.

The shadow slowly returned to the door of the dessert shop.

Then, the car door opened, and Shu Jinshi stepped out from inside.

Letting out a long breath, Shu Jinshi closed the car door, adjusted his clothes, and walked into the store. He pointed to the shop window in front of the clerk, and raised his eyebrows: "Give me a bear cup, wrap it up, thank you."

The clerk kept smiling: "Good lady."

"But miss, ours is a little bear, not a bear..."

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Shu Jinshi: ...I'm probably crazy