mistakenly compared you to a star

Chu Zichen was startled, and subconsciously stepped back a few steps: "Brother, you—"

"Stop it." Yan Ke's tone was as cold as ice.Chu Zichen was too familiar with that feeling, and immediately said nothing, pursing his lips and waiting for the trial.

"I told you a long time ago that no one will help you for no reason. Do you see what Zheng Ru introduced to you?"

"At the beginning, I helped you publicize about your amnesia. It was a last resort! It was because I was afraid that you would not be able to communicate normally with people in the circle, and I needed to have an explanation with everyone, instead of asking you to publicize it and sell it badly. , to explain those damn mental illnesses to others! If someone has a brain problem, they are too embarrassed to tell others, for fear that others will find out, but you are fine, do you think this is something to be proud of?"

Chu Zichen was in a daze. He could hardly understand what Yan Ke said. All he felt was one thing, and that was Yan Ke's undisguised disgust.

"I didn't! But I don't think it's such a shameful thing..." He raised his voice aggrievedly, desperately pleading, but his heart seemed to be slowly falling into a black hole, very, very powerless.

"Whether you lose face is not up to me, nor is it up to you. Yes, people in our circle know that you have nothing but amnesia, but what do others think of you? If you don't believe me, just spread the word everywhere and see what everyone thinks." I won't treat you as a psychopath, dare to get along with you, dare to believe your words!"

Chu Zichen couldn't speak a word, his breathing was tightly blocked.Obviously what Yan Ke said seemed to make sense, and what he said was "others", it sounded as if he wanted to protect him.But he just wanted to ask Yan Ke, what about you?You're familiar with that thought too, aren't you?

Is this the reason why you are hot and cold and impatient with me?

"Thank you for reminding me that I am a mental patient." Chu Zichen's breath was full of struggle and trembling, "I almost forgot."

Yan Ke choked hard at his words, stared and said nothing, quickly picked up the iron box and walked into the bedroom of the two, and slammed the door hard.

Yan Ke sat on the bed, looked down at the things in the tin box, and gradually calmed himself down.

When he heard the word "dissociative disorder" from the other party's mouth, he seemed to be hit by a violent electric current all over his body, and all kinds of fear and doubt occupied his mind for a while.How could there be such a coincidence?Was the news leaked to whom?God can't stand it anymore?Or was Chu Zichen hearing the wind and testing himself?

At that time, he only knew to fight back even more fiercely, to let the other party remember that this matter should not even be considered.He knew that Chu Zichen was a good person who would repay his kindness, so it would be difficult for him to reject Zheng Ru, but seeing that his attitude was so tough, the young man who had always been obedient would no longer struggle.

Everything was handled as he wished, but Chu Zichen's eyes made him a little bit hard to guard against.Seeing the other party's dimming eyes and lips hesitant to speak, for some reason, he actually felt uneasy.

He has seen many expressions of grievance, injury, and tears on the other side, but today he feels a little different from the past.

After carefully putting away the tin box, he paced around the house anxiously, not knowing what he was worried about.Heaven and man had been at war for an unknown amount of time, but he finally made up his mind to slowly open the bedroom door, trying to tell him to go back to the bedroom to sleep.

However, when he came to the living room with mixed feelings, he found that Chu Zichen was not on the sofa. Where is the guest room?Not there... He searched around, but couldn't find anyone.

Chu Zichen left?when?How could I not hear it? !The sense of instability in his heart became more intense, and he couldn't help but quicken his pace.

When he passed the balcony, a group of small figures suddenly came into view. He took a closer look, heard the sound of a stone falling to the ground in his heart, and almost trotted to the other party.

Chu Zichen sat on the ground wrapped in a blanket, with his snow-white toes sticking out of the blanket, leaning against the French window and fell asleep.

"If you have a bed, you can't sleep. What are you doing here? You're not afraid of catching cold." Yan Ke bent down and held his feet, it was really cold.He looked out of the window in puzzlement, the night scene of this city is similar every day, what's there to see?What an ignorant little guy.

Seeing the other party huddled in the corner like an abandoned little beast, the uneasiness in Yan Ke's heart was replaced by softness, silently bent down to pick him up, and walked to the bedroom.

Chu Zichen woke up as soon as he left the ground. The tip of his nose was filled with the familiar smell of skin, but he didn't want to open his eyes, feeling a strange calmness like being in the eye of a typhoon.He couldn't figure out how Yan Ke could stab himself again and again and then lightly expose it, but there seemed to be a voice in his heart instigating, maybe this is love, the world says love is crazy and full of pain , Yan Ke has been teaching him this with his actions.

When he woke up the next day, Yan Ke's arm was on his waist, just like when they first started living together.

No matter how much I don’t want to recall it, the first thing that comes to my mind is the quarrel last night, but the burning pain like being torn off the skin at that time is no longer so real, and it is replaced by deep fatigue, like a layer of pain. Fog covered all the pictures at that time.

At this time, the arms on his body moved, and Yan Ke also woke up. He said "Morning" to him vaguely, and rubbed against the back of his neck lightly, as if the unhappiness of last night never happened at all.

He pursed his lips uncomfortably, wondering if he should turn around.After a short stalemate like this, the other party persistently asked: "Okay, are you still angry?"

He didn't know it himself, so he could only answer in a low voice: "...You don't need to say it, I just refuse Zheng Ru."

Yan Ke seemed to be relieved, and leaned closer to his back: "Well. You have received so many invitations recently, I have to talk to you later to make you happy. Chen, this time you It’s really about to take off again. There are countless good opportunities, and I’m still worrying about how to help you choose, I wish I could divide you into two. That kind of public welfare is not worthy of your time now.”

He couldn't help talking a lot when it came to work, and soon realized that the occasion was wrong, so he changed the topic in a soft voice: "I was a little tired last night, and I may have said some bad things, but I think those words It's not enough to shake the trust between us. How we have come together for so many years, you don't remember, but I still remember. Even if one day you become a little fool, I will not abandon you ...Because you never disliked me."

Chu Zichen quietly turned his back to the other party.Yan Ke tightened the arms around his waist, and lost himself in the memories: "I remember one thing very clearly. It was the autumn when you first entered my junior high school. We often met in the alley. , and I’m more familiar with it. At that time, it may be because of my grandfather’s paralysis. I was like a wild dog that no one cares about. I have a violent temper and don’t know how to get along with people. I always fight with people because of a little friction. Then I finally I offended the popular people on campus, and he took the lead to isolate me. Now that I think about it, it's my own fault."

Chu Zichen closed his eyes and listened, which made his hearing a little more sensitive than usual.Yan Ke's voice at this time is extraordinarily gentle and tactful, this is the tone he only appears when recalling the past.

"One day when school was over, I was pushed into the stinky ditch by his little followers. When I was covered in mud and climbed up the slope on the side of the stinky ditch, almost all the students in the school passed by the embankment, but Everyone pretends not to see. Only you...

"Stop and pull me up the embankment. You didn't dislike my filth at all. I was much bigger than you at that time, and I almost dragged you down. By the time we both climbed up the embankment, it was already dark It's terrible, but I don't want to go home, so I sit on the edge of the embankment. I don't say a word, and you don't ask, just sit there with me. I have a lot of questions to ask you, why you pull me, don't be afraid because I Are you also isolated by everyone... But when I opened my mouth, I asked 'Why don't you leave'.

Yan Ke smiled bitterly: "As soon as I opened my mouth, I felt regretful. I was afraid that you would really leave. In that case, I would be no different from being abandoned by the whole world. But guess what you said?"

"You say, 'Thank you for watching the moon with me.' You say you've always wanted to sit on the side of the road with someone and do nothing but look at the moon."

"The moon was reflected in your eyes that day, very round and bright. The way you looked at me made my heart beat fast, and I suddenly had the urge to hug you."

Yan Ke's tone was very touching, as if he was reciting a love poem, and the deep affection surging in his breath almost sucked people in.Chu Zichen couldn't help being fascinated, and let his imagination follow his feelings.

Suddenly a familiar feeling flashed by, and he couldn't help saying: "...I seem to have a little impression of this incident."

Unexpectedly, when Yan Ke heard this, he suddenly sat up from the bed, propped himself on top of him and asked excitedly: "You remember? What did you remember!"

Chu Zichen faltered, but the picture that appeared vaguely in his mind just now couldn't make out the complete shape: "I just feel a little familiar..."

Yan Ke stared at him persistently for a while, seeing that his expression was still blank, he sighed heavily discouraged: "You don't have to pretend to remember. I won't blame you."

Chu Zichen shook his head and wanted to refute, but he didn't say anything after all.Putting his hands on his ears, Yan Ke bowed down and kissed him. The delicate and lingering kiss fell from his hair to his face, and then meandered downwards.The two soon became entangled...

It was close to noon when he got up, and while Yan Ke was taking a shower, Chu Zichen came to the balcony, summoned up the courage to call Zheng Ru, and told her euphemistically that he could not participate in this charity project.

Zheng Ru has a straight temper, and he insisted on asking why, but Chu Zichen was inconvenient to say so, Zheng Ru also said that he wanted to call Yan Ke, and Chu Zichen hurriedly stopped him.In fact, it is best for her to communicate with Yan Ke, but he doesn't want to make Yan Ke uncomfortable again.

After refusing and covering up, even he himself felt that it sounded particularly insincere, and he was extremely embarrassed.In the end, Zheng Ru finally stopped hiding her disappointment, and replied coldly: "All right, I understand." Then she hung up the phone without waiting for him to apologize.

Chu Zichen put down his phone, and felt a little unbelievable when he saw that such a long call lasted less than 2 minutes.Looking at the outline of the city extending in all directions through the floor-to-ceiling windows, a strong sense of loss rose from the bottom of his heart.He originally thought that he could become friends with Zheng Ru, after all, he liked Zheng Ru's character very much, and the two could chat.But now not only did she have nothing to be friends with, but maybe from now on, she would treat her as an ungrateful or profit-seeking mediocre person.

The balcony at noon is different from that at night. The sun shines straight through the glass, making it warm and suffocating.He couldn't figure out what was wrong with him being so lonely and speechless.

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Ah - I'm sorry, it's still late after all!

Recently, I started 996 again, as if my body has been hollowed out, but I still have to work hard... I can only try to maintain the current frequency OTZ