mistakenly compared you to a star

Chu Zichen returned to the box in a daze, and drank wine with everyone as if giving up on himself.Can this sour and cold liquid really help people eliminate their troubles?But despite drinking a glass of wine, the conversation during the dinner seems to be getting more and more distant, only the voice in the bottom of my heart keeps getting louder, repeating anxiously and painfully, why, why, why...

After not knowing how many times he missed other people's questions, he finally couldn't bear it and ran out of the restaurant.

In the dark night, there was only one street lamp emitting a soft and lonely light. He leaned unsteadily on the lamppost and dialed Yan Ke's phone.

The inorganic beeping sound made him wake up a bit.Let's calm down and ask the matter clearly, he began to plan in his heart.But as soon as the cold voice from the receiver sounded, a sense of grievance that was more pungent than wine suddenly exploded in his stomach:

"Why did you let Xue Shengqian go to "The Sound of Music"? That was my announcement?!? You didn't even tell me! Why did you give it to him, why did you give it to someone like him?!"

Chu Zichen was trembling, and when he opened his mouth, it sounded like a desolate accusation, but he didn't want to sound so small and pitiful, so he mixed it with anger, and in the end it completely turned into a roar.

The person on the other side of the receiver didn't even breathe. Yu Yanzheng heaved: "You know. Where are you now? Are you not afraid that other people will hear you if you yell?"

"You answer me!! Why!"

"You don't need to be so excited. He is the strongest singer in our company. If you give him this opportunity, he will play a greater role. Not only this matter, but also the singing episode. You just need to do A good actor is enough, you are an actor and you are half a catty, you have to spread your energy to other fields, what are you thinking?"

The calmer the voice was at the moment, the more hateful Chu Zichen listened to it. If Yan Ke was in front of him, he could not wait to pounce on him and tear off the other party's mask: "I don't want to disperse my energy to other fields. I have made up my mind. I want to transform We've been working together for so long, Yan Ke, you never asked me what I wanted to do, did you? You don't bother to listen!"

Yan Ke snorted lightly: "Stop messing around, is transformation that simple?" He paused, his voice suddenly sank, "I didn't want to argue with you, how did you get this opportunity, do you think I don't care about it?" Do you know? Lu Kuan gave you such a big gift, what does he think of you, do you need me to remind you? That producer Qin is a relative of Lu Kuan! Do you really think you earned it by your own efforts? "

Chu Zichen trembled all over when he heard that, his blood was surging under the influence of alcohol, his face was burning hot, as if someone had slapped him across the face.

"That's right! I didn't fight for it. It all depended on other people. I'm just a waste——I said that, are you satisfied? All of you think I'm just a vase. It's because of you that I have achieved today's results , but have you ever given me space to prove myself in my own way? In other words, you are actually happy to see me look like I have no one to rely on but you, and you are willing to see me fail. You always know what you say about me behind your back, but you don't care at all?!"

The grievances he had accumulated for a long time vented out while he was drunk. At this moment, he felt that those scenes of being dominated and underestimated had never been truly forgotten. It turned out that it was such a joy to shout out all the deepest words in one breath. .

It turns out how happy it is not to have to swallow your anger, not to deceive yourself and others.

He was so hysterical that he couldn't stand up, slid down the lamppost to the ground, and sobbed hoarsely.

He was sobbing, but there was a long silence on Yan Ke's side. He couldn't imagine whether Yan Ke's current expression was furious, shocked, disgusted...or even a little shaken?He really wanted to see it.

After a long time, with a deep breath, Yan Ke's tone became a little weird: "Failure? Who did you listen to? Are you a failure? Whether Lu Kuan or Gu Yinan, they all looked down on you at the beginning People, don't they all revolve around you now? I just heard that you and Gu Yinan were flirting in the bathroom just now? How did he cheat you before, and you can get in touch with him? You are really cute People love, flowers are blooming, let me tell you, if you terminate the contract with me today, and someone will rush to sign you tomorrow, you are also called a failure? I am the one who failed!"

Chu Zichen's tears suddenly seemed to forget to flow.Now he really wants to laugh at himself a minute ago, the self who had a little expectation of "Yan Ke, he might be shaken".

If the conversation continues like this, he will definitely collapse... He hung up the phone directly with a feeling almost frightened.

The drinking party ended soon after, and everyone was noisy, except for Wang Jing, no one noticed anything strange about her.On the way they got in the car and returned to the hotel, Yan Ke called again, he hung up directly, and the other party called again immediately, and he turned off the phone directly.

Wang Jing looked at him in shock: "What's wrong with you? I've never seen you hang up the phone of President Yan."

"From now on, you will see each other often." Chu Zichen said with a wry smile, "It's not like I can't do without him."

After returning to the hotel room, as soon as the door was closed, he immediately threw himself into the bed, letting the heart-pounding pain occupy his body wantonly. The sad thing has not been forgotten, but the wine has already woken up. He was at a loss, turned on his mobile phone and logged in to the Weibo account that he opened after dating Yan Ke, and looked at the moments that he had carefully recorded. The heart seems to be constantly tearing and healing.

This photo is the dish that Yan Ke cooked for himself, this is the flower that Yan Ke gave him for the first time, this is his shirt that he put on by mistake... Sure enough, I still can't bear to part with this person.Sure enough, I still love this person.Xue Shengqian's low-level provocation really shouldn't be taken to heart. He was too tempered today, and he didn't even dare to recall the words Yan Ke yelled, for fear that he would be overwhelmed by regret...

He struggled with these odd thoughts, tossing and turning until midnight.

"Well, who are you...why are you on my balcony?"

The last dream seemed to be continuing, Chu Zichen opened the balcony, finally stood behind the man in the white shirt who made him so curious, and firmly held his shoulder.

The man turned around slowly, and even the posture of turning around was so elegant that it was not like ordinary people, with a kind of cold breath that did not eat the fireworks of the world.

And when Chu Zichen saw the man's face clearly, he let go of his hand in fright, and took several steps back——

It was a face that was exactly the same as my own. Looking at this face that was close at hand, blinked, breathed, and smiled at myself, the feeling was really terrifying!He staggered backwards, but tripped over the door frame, fell firmly backwards, and couldn't help screaming——

Chu Zichen woke up from his dream screaming, and within half a minute, someone slammed on the door of the hotel.

"Brother Chen, what's wrong with you? Are you okay!"

It was Wang Jing's voice.The familiar voice brought his thoughts back to reality and calmed his nervous nerves. He quickly got up and opened the door to let people in.

"Xiao Jing, I had a terrible dream... I dreamed of a man who looked exactly like me, but he didn't look like me... It was on the balcony of my former home."

Wang Jing seemed to be woken up by him, and at first he just comforted him casually, but when he repeatedly emphasized that this dream had troubled him for several months, Wang Jing's brows slowly frowned.

"Brother, I definitely don't mean anything else, but...it's too abnormal to keep repeating such a weird dream.? Should you find a psychiatrist or a psychiatrist to talk about this matter..."

Hearing Wang Jing's words, Chu Zichen's mind flashed brightly.

"I see.?"

"what?"

"You reminded me before, recall when Yan Ke changed his attitude towards me. At that time, I was wrong..."

Not from the first time I went to his house, but from when he took me to see a doctor in Singapore... after the diagnosis. "

Wang Jing stared at him fixedly, so surprised that he didn't know what to say.

It was now sunrise, and the thin light of the sky was struggling to pass through the gap in the curtains and shine into the stuffy space.Chu Zichen tightly clutched his sweaty palms, but his mind was terribly clear: "I suddenly thought, did I really suffer from some unspeakable illness. The other day I mentioned a mental illness-related incident to Yan Ke. He is very repulsed by public welfare programs. He controls me so much, maybe there is a special reason? He is unwilling to tell me, maybe because he is worried that I cannot accept it, or because he is afraid that it will stimulate me and make my condition worse , maybe even because that part of my brain just can't figure it out...but whatever his reasons are, I have to figure it out."

His eyes were fixed: "I need to contact Dr. He."

But Dr. He has always been in contact with Yan Ke, and he has no contact information of the other party.Do you want to find it from Yan Ke's mobile phone?

Once the door of doubt was opened, many details poured out of my mind uncontrollably.Yes, Yan Ke never left his mobile phone when he was at home. There were a few times when Chu Zichen was too lazy to take his own mobile phone and wanted to use the other party's, but Yan Ke refused.Chu Zichen thought about it before, is this also a habit of obsessive-compulsive disorder?But now he felt more and more that there was a reason for this.

Chu Zichen's heart beat faster and faster, and subconsciously said while thinking: "Xiaojing, I suddenly thought, maybe you can..."

He suddenly came back to his senses in the middle of speaking, and shook his head vigorously: "No. After all, he is your boss. You let me think again."

But Wang Jing grabbed his arm eagerly: "What should I do? Brother Chen, tell me! Mr. Yan is just the one who pays me, and you are my friend."

Chu Zichen was stunned by Chicheng's words, and his nose suddenly became sour.Wang Jing patted him comfortingly: "Brother, if you don't even stand on your side, what should you do? No matter what, you can talk about it first. If it is difficult, I will never force it, okay?" ?”

The room was still dark and silent, only the eyes of the two were staring at each other.After a long time, Chu Zichen nodded slowly and lowered his voice involuntarily.

"I used to observe that when Yan Ke was in his office, he didn't pay much attention to locking his phone. Sometimes the phone just turned on and the screen was placed on the table, and he went out. You have more chances to go to the company than me, you Play by ear... Maybe you can get Dr. He's phone number."

His voice trailed off, as if guilt was taking the air out of him.He actually wanted to steal something from Yan Ke.He couldn't believe that such a dirty thought could come to his mind.

Maybe once he made this determination, he would never be able to change back to the old Chu Zichen.

Inspired by him, Wang Jing became eager to try, and did not notice his loss: "I thought it was a big deal! Don't worry, just leave this matter to me. I really want to help you all the time. In fact, last time After you told me about the past between you and Yan Ke, I also asked someone to check it out, and it is true that your father fell into the manhole and died, and he did not lie to you about these things."

"Xiaojing, thank you..." Chu Zichen looked at him gratefully, "You just do your best in this matter, don't take any risks. If something really happens, I will explain it to Yan Ke— —”

"Brother, you don't have to say these things about who we are with."

Sunlight began to seep through the gaps in the curtains, Chu Zichen looked at the alarm clock by the bed, it was just past 6 o'clock. "Xiao Jing, did I wake you up just now? Do you want to go back and sleep again?"

Wang Jing shook his head.Chu Zichen could see that he was a little frustrated: "What's wrong with you? You have dark circles under your eyes... Did you not get a good rest last night? Did you quarrel with your girlfriend again?"

Wang Jing's eyes dodged: "Well... so it is."

"Why? By the way, you didn't go back to your girlfriend's hometown during the Chinese New Year. Could it be that your girlfriend's family disagrees with your affairs? Ah, could it be an economic problem..."

Wang Jing pursed his lips and said nothing, which was his default.

Chu Zichen moved forward excitedly: "How much money do you still need, I will help you! You have been helping me all this time, you have to tell me when you encounter difficulties, you know."

Wang Jing smiled wryly and waved his hand: "Brother, don't be brave, the gap on my side is not a small amount. You still owe the company money, how much can you lend me? I ask you to borrow, and in the end you will I still have to ask Mr. Yan for a loan, right? I have been working for Mr. Yan for a long time, and I can talk to him. I can just ask Mr. Yan for the salary advance, and there is no need to go around like this. "

What Wang Jing said was so well-founded that Chu Zichen couldn't refute it at all.He knew that Wang Jing was thinking of himself, and it was because of this that he felt doubly sad.As a star, he will be sheltered by his assistant in the end; as an ordinary person, he obviously only has Wang Jing as a friend, but he can't help at critical moments. He is tired of being so helpless.

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Yes, yes, yes, yes, sorry, I'm late for another day (Dogeza)

Work has been really busy recently, I'm so busy that I forgot to apply for the list this week... There are countless villains walking around in my mind... Please forgive me OTZ

Say to every little baby on the tail of 520, I love you! !

(ps I didn’t expect it to be sweet like this, it’s sweet, no matter how sweet it is, it’s not too sweet~~~