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Si Xia kept shedding tears, and there was no anger or resentment in her heart, just sad, almost suffocating.

He didn't understand, since when did Luo Can's words and deeds actually resemble the feelings Lin Wan gave him?

But he doesn't need to delve into this issue, because his sadness has already explained many problems.

Hearing that he didn't answer, Luo Can only felt the hot air on her neck getting hotter, so she slowly let go of her hand and looked at him at a distance from him.

The cheeks of the two brushed lightly, and Luo Can felt the wetness, so she hurriedly looked at his face carefully.

The light shone on Si Xia's snow-white face, and the two tear marks were very clear. She raised her green eyes and looked at Luo Can. When she blinked, the tears became a stream flowing out of the blue lake.

Luo Can's voice dropped all of a sudden: "Sixia, don't cry...I'm sorry, I was too loud...I, I..."

He fumbled in his pocket while talking, but found that the tissue seemed to be left in the car, so he had to wipe Si Xia's tears with his hands.

Sixia's body temperature is low all year round, like a cold-blooded animal, but at this time he cried until his face was hot and white, and the touch was no longer warm and cool, but a hot and vivid existence.

This was the second time Luo Can saw Sixia cry, and the first time Sixia was drunk, and while crying so distressingly, the childish words made him feel a little more relaxed, and he was able to coax Sixia more calmly.

But Si Xia was not drunk this time.The crying when he was awake broke Luo Can's heart so much that she dared not look at it.

Those dripping tears rolled down the small jaw, each drop was like a corrosive potion, burning out scorched black holes in Luo Can's heart.

He didn't know what to say or what to do.Si Xia didn't make a sound, but couldn't stop crying. Wiping the tears with his fingers had already wiped out the dynamic effect of the wiper.He was very anxious, but forcibly suppressed his sadness and anxiety, and said in a gentle tone and slow speed: "Sixia, I know you are sad, otherwise how can a strong person like you cry? Crying is It doesn't matter, it's better than holding it in your heart, but since you have chosen to release it in front of me, you can tell all your thoughts. It's not like there is a saying that if you share your happiness, you will get double the happiness, and you will get double the sadness If you share it, will the sadness be halved? Say it, even if it’s just a sentence, a word, or even a hint, and I will definitely help you find a way, okay?”

Si Xia cried until his lips were red, and he pursed them lightly. He bit his lips and swallowed a slight sob from his throat, and remained silent for a while before finally opening his mouth.

"I'm afraid..."

His voice was like a gust of illusory wind, but Luo Can caught it very accurately in his ears.

afraid?What are you afraid of?

Afraid that one day I will leave him, so I would rather let go first?

Therefore, for him, if he finally abandoned him and chose Rockwell or someone else, the pain would be unbearable for him.

Luo Can remembered that jump in the sea again.

He didn't see Sixia's expression and back when he jumped into the sea, but he could fully imagine how sad Sixia was at that time.He turned his back and walked for only a few steps, and during these few steps, Si Xia jumped down, so resolute, almost without any hesitation.

At that time, his soul exploded, the world was full of endless roar, and he didn't think deeply about that leap, but now...

What Si Xia said just now broke into his mind——

"I knew before I was in elementary school that there is no such thing as a free lunch in the world. The weaker the people, the more they have to rely on themselves, because the poor can only trade with chastity, conscience, dignity and life." Yu Xi read good"

...Ah, so it is.

That might be the first time Sixia bowed her head to others, the first time she wanted to rely on someone who had feelings for her.When the two were silent side by side, Sixia probably wanted to keep him and repair the relationship between the two, but because he had never done this before, he didn't know how to speak, but he used "never trust Sixia" Because of this, all Sixia's hopes were shattered.

There was not even a transition of disappointment, his words sent Si Xia directly to complete despair.

Probably from then on, Sixia really couldn't believe anything, even after he tried to persuade him to stay several times later, Sixia was no longer moved, and even tried to drive him away with verbal abuse, humiliation, and beating... or It was testing his feelings almost morbidly and frantically over and over again.

He thinks that Sixia doesn't really hate him, sometimes he can even see the unbearable flash in Sixia's eyes, and sometimes Sixia treats him better after torturing him, as if recovering what was lost to him Lose trust.

But does Si Xia really not trust him?A person like Sixia who wants face like that, will show his most vulnerable appearance in front of a person he doesn't trust?

Si Xia still believed in him, but she couldn't overcome the hurdle in her heart.

Luo Can took a deep breath—it was time to confess, so that Si Xia could really feel at ease.

"Sixia, don't be afraid." Luo Can gently kissed the tears on his face, "Listen to me, I will not abandon you to choose Luo's, because Luo Yinchuan is not my father... no , It should be said that I have no blood relationship with everyone in the Luo family."

"What?" Si Xia was stunned by his sudden speech, she didn't know whether she was surprised or didn't know why.

Luo Can stared into his eyes, and continued solemnly: "Luo Yinchuan lied to the media, and the rumors in the market are also false. I am just an orphan adopted by him. Before I split up, I never even visited this place. City."

Si Xia looked at him without blinking, as if she still hadn't slowed down.After a long time, I finally asked, "Are you really an orphan?"

Luo Can nodded, trying to find a reason for him to believe: "Don't look at the clothes, hairstyle and figure, just talk about the facial features, do you think I have similarities with the Luo family?" He said, pulling his bangs Leaving aside the exposed forehead, let the other party take a closer look.

Si Xia had read all the relevant TV reports for Cha Luo's family before, and also read the exclusive interviews of Rock's magazines. Now she can describe the appearances of several people who often show up in Rock's family with her eyes closed, so she quickly Made a comparison: "It's not very similar."

"Do you still remember that I told you about him beating me?" Luo Can knew that it was not enough for Si Xia to fully believe it because of her appearance. After all, it is possible for a child to resemble one of the parents, and it must be strong. Evidence to support this truth, "Actually, being beaten is tolerable for me. What I am afraid of is that he will shut me down in the basement without the lights on."

Si Xia seems to understand a bit: "You are afraid of the dark, is it because of this reason?"

Luo Can shook her head, and the light in her eyes dimmed: "No, I was afraid of the dark when I was a child. I used to live in an orphanage in a remote county. Although it was called an orphanage, it was not formal, and the environment was dirty and poor. , the food is not only scarce, but also unhygienic, because the chef withheld the vegetables, rice, oil and salt from the orphanage and took them home; as for the people who control us, they will beat up anyone who dislikes them and shut them up in a small black room without food. The small black room is not just a dark room, there are many light-sensitive insects and voles inhabiting it. It doesn't matter if the insects are brushed away, the mice will crawl on people, so fast that people can't catch them, they can only shake them. And everyone said that if you are bitten by a wild rat, you will contract the plague and die, so I was very afraid at the time, but I couldn't avoid it, because when I got older, I was always hungry, and when I couldn't bear it, I would steal it. I eat food in the kitchen, if I steal too much, I will always be found out, and if I am found out, I will be locked up. I have been locked up too many times, and I am not used to the environment, but I have a psychological shadow. Those quiet and dark places, such as the basement , it will cause my heart palpitations, it will make me sweat, and my heartbeat will be irregular, and I will relax a little bit unless someone is around. So I like crowded, clean and bright places. Only on that occasion, I will Feel safe and comfortable.”

After hearing his words, Si Xia couldn't help but recall the experience of that night in the storage room. At that time, it was because Luo Can kept knocking on the door that the bracelet broke, the liquid medicine leaked out, and she fell into a vulnerable state.

When Luo Can stayed on the top floor for a while, she seemed to be tossing and turning and couldn't sleep.At that time, Si Xia had doubted whether he was going to touch her, so she simply hugged him to sleep with her throat locked...

There is no end to such a memory, and all the questions buried in his heart about Luo Can's "incompatibility with the rich young master" have all been explained——

He bandages wounds and takes care of the sick.

When they quarrel, they are not domineering, but arrogant, and they will say hurtful words.

He loves snacks like a child.

He is very good at fighting, and he is very good at enduring pain.

…………

Thinking of this, the tears on Si Xia's face had already dried up, but there was a slight sourness in her heart.He raised his hand to touch Luo Can's ears that were red from the cold, and his tone softened, with concern: "Then is he still treating you like this now?"

Luo Can smiled reluctantly: "Now...it's okay. Probably because he was afraid that I would lose my temper in public, so after going to public school, I was locked up in the basement by him much less frequently, and I didn't get beaten. Actually, you Don't worry, because I've been sleeping with you for a long time, and now I'm almost used to the darkness, although it's still a little uncomfortable, but it's not serious enough to affect my normal life."

When he said this, he turned his face and kissed Si Xia's palm: "Look, how important you are to me."

Soft lips and slender eyelashes touched the skin, as if a piece of lark's feathers had just shaken off Si Xia's heart, warm and sudden, making his cheeks pink.

He quickly lowered his head and asked another question: "Then...why did Luo Yinchuan go to a remote county to adopt you?"

It stands to reason that Luo Yinchuan is a person with head and face, even if he loses his wife and refuses to marry, he will not go to that dirty corner to find a child to raise.

"Because I'm the only Alpha who can be adopted."

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