wake up with pillow

After receiving the notice to the parents, the winter vacation began.

He Chan was still talking at length on it, and Ruan Qingju, who had already packed her things, was scribbling on the back of the parent letter with a pen bored.

Originally, it was a random stroke without any rules, but somehow it started to write Ruan Ke's name.Fifteen strokes were left and right, and it seemed as if I was not tired of writing. I wrote one after another, and Ruan Ke didn't even notice when he came over.

"What are you writing!" Ruan Ke happily leaned on her shoulder.

Ruan Qingju hurriedly shook her off, "What are you doing?"

"What's wrong?" Ruan Ke felt weird, and wanted to come up to see, Ruan Qingju quickly covered it with her elbow, "Go, go."

Ruan Ke had no choice but to back away.

Ruan Qingju quickly folded the letter to the parents and stuffed it into her schoolbag.

"Hey, can you give me your school uniform?"

"What?" Ruan Qingju was confused.

"We won't be able to see each other for another winter vacation." Ruan Ke blinked, "You smell on the school uniform, I took it back to my house, just like we met every day."

Ruan Qingju was stunned, Ruan Ke thought she disagreed, and also felt that her request was a little perverted, just about to say "Forget it, I'm joking", but before she could say it, Ruan Qingju said,

"Give me yours and we'll exchange."

Ruan Ke was very happy, "Okay."

They exchanged school jackets and went home wearing each other's school uniforms.

Ruan Qingju wore Ruan Ke a little too small, but fortunately, it was her grandfather who came to pick her up, so she couldn't see these details.

Grandpa and grandma looked a little tired. Ruan Qingju found out after asking. It turned out that because Chi Yang was a minor, he had to be supervised to accompany the bed when he was hospitalized, so his grandpa and grandma usually went to accompany him in the bed. Only on this weekend did Ruan's mother go Shift watch.

"What's wrong with him? Is it serious?"

Grandpa looked secretive, and tapped his temple with his fingers, "There is something wrong with my brain."

"Ah?" Ruan Qingju was puzzled, "I think he's quite normal."

Grandpa sighed heavily, "Yeah, what a normal-looking child, how could it be like this!"

Grandma snorted coldly from the side, "Yangyang has been following his father, what can he do?" After she finished speaking, she turned around and told Ruan Qingju, "Stop making your mother angry anymore, taking care of the two children, she is upset It's on."

Ruan Qingju felt that her words were biased, "How dare I make her angry."

Mother Ruan hurried back on Sunday night.

If it was true as what grandma said, she was so upset that she would be picky and picky as soon as she came back.Until Ruan's father was upset too, he slammed the door and left.

She pushed open Ruan Qingju's door to torture Ruan Qingju.

She kept silent about Chi Yang's condition. She went from being picky about Ruan Qingju's grades to Ruan Qingju's figure, and finally even made irresponsible remarks about Ruan Qingju's loose hair after returning home.

Ruan Qingju was so irritable that she decided to find something for her to interrupt her rhythm, so she took out the parents' notice from her schoolbag and threw it to her, "Just sign it and go out, I have to do my homework."

Ruan's mother is very cautious about school affairs, no matter how big or small.Hearing this, he shut his mouth as expected, and took the letter to the parents.

Ruan Qingju just breathed a sigh of relief, turned around, and heard Ruan's mother's shrill voice behind her, "Ruan Qingju."

She had no choice but to turn her head. When she met Ruan's mother's cold eyes, she felt a thump in her heart. Before she could figure out what was going on, Ruan's mother raised her hand and shook the letter to the parents, "What is this?"

At this moment, she had already remembered what was on the back of the letter to the parents, and she was thinking about damn it in her heart, but she could only pretend to be stupid, "What what?"

Ruan's mother turned the other side, and Ruan Ke's name written horizontally and vertically told the girl's heart, Ruan Qingju's heart was pounding, "What's wrong?" It seemed that this was just a very common thing.

Seeing this, Ruan's mother took a breather, "Why did you write so many Ruan Ke's names?"

Ruan Qingju felt that this matter was easy to explain, and there was no need to feel guilty, but she didn't know whether it was Mother Ruan's instinct as a mother or something. She always felt that Mother Ruan was overreacting, "When the teacher was talking, I was bored, so I practiced calligraphy."

"You don't practice calligraphy with your own name? You don't practice with other things? You practice with Ruan Ke's name?"

Ruan Qingju made a helpless look, "She is my deskmate, she is sitting next to me, and I will write when I see it."

"That's it?"

"That's it."

Ruan's mother sneered, "I hope." She shook the parental notice, "Then can you still hand it in?"

"Do you like to sign or not?" Ruan Qingju turned against customers and pretended to start doing homework.

Ruan's mother finally signed and closed the door heavily.

Ruan Qingju originally thought that the matter would pass without incident, but unexpectedly it became a seed, leading her into the boundless abyss.

The winter vacation is less than a month away, so it goes by quickly.The day before school started, Ruan Ke complained to her on her mobile phone, saying that her mother was washing clothes at home and almost washed all her clothes.

When Ruan Qingju heard this, she was a little nervous, "Then what about my school uniform?"

Ruan Ke comforted her, saying that she would hide the dress.

Ruan Qingju felt relieved and started to do her homework again.

Chi Yang lived in the hospital for a winter vacation and finally came back at the end of the winter vacation.Ruan Qingju went to see her curiously, except that she seemed to be getting thinner, she couldn't tell anything from her words.It is said that after school started, he still continued to study with Ruan Qingju and the others in the second year of high school. Ruan Qingju was a little surprised, "The classes in high school are different from those in junior high school and elementary school. They look the same in one day, can you keep up?"

Chi Yang smiled wryly, "Do you think mom will agree with me repeating the grade? I dare not even mention it."

Ruan Qingju deeply sympathized with him on this point.

Just as she was doing this, Ruan's mother's cell phone rang suddenly, waking Ruan Qingju awake, and continued her homework to make up for the cold.

Ruan's mother didn't answer the phone for a long time, she walked to the door of Ruan Qingju's room with her mobile phone, and turned on the screen at Ruan Qingju, "It's Teacher He's call. What did you do again?"

Ruan Qingju is so innocent, "I'm always at home, what can I do?"

"That's right." Mother Ruan frowned, and picked up the phone in front of Ruan Qingju.

Ruan Qingju looked at her.

They exchanged polite greetings for a while, and then He Chan took the lead in asking Mother Ruan if she had time and wanted to talk to her.Mother Ruan heard the tone as if she wanted to have a deep talk, so she glanced at Ruan Qingju worriedly, then turned around and went to the hallway, stomping on her shoes and going downstairs.

Ruan Qingju felt a little uneasy for some reason, and picked up the mobile phone that was set aside to tell Ruan Ke about it, but just turned on the screen, and found an unread message from half an hour ago.

She clicked on it, it was from Ruan Ke.

Those few short words made her feel as if she had fallen into an ice cellar.

"My mother found out that dress is yours."

She typed in a hurry, "How come? Even if she finds out that the dress is not yours, she can't guess it is me?"

But the news fell like stone and disappeared, and there was no reply.

Ruan Qingju couldn't sit still, she stood up and walked to the balcony.

Wearing glasses, she could see Ruan's mother standing under an old pagoda tree downstairs holding her mobile phone from a distance.Somehow, she felt that He Chan's phone call by chance must have something to do with this matter.For a while, some pictures flashed in her mind like lightning.That time when she and Ruan Ke were holding hands under the table, He Chan once walked past them and bent down to talk to them; Ruan Ke always came to talk to her in class, and several teachers told He Chan that He Chan was still joking. I asked them if their "same surname" attracts each other, so the relationship is so good.Also, there was another time when the evening self-study discipline was not good, and He Chan was furious. The evening self-study class was over and they were forced to sit for an extra hour until 10:30.

Originally, the boarding students had to study late at night in the second year of high school, so it was not a big deal until 10:30.But the students in the school were miserable. He Chan asked them to call their parents one by one and ask them to pick them up at 1:[-]. Each person only had [-] minute of phone time.

Coincidentally, it happened that Ruan Qingju had to go home that day because she had something to do.She and Ruan's mother were not speculative at first, but Ruan's mother didn't understand what she meant, thinking that she was left alone until 10:30 because of bad discipline, and told her to go home by herself on the phone.When she was standing on the podium and making a call, He Chan's phone leaked again, and the whole class heard Ruan's mother's words clearly.But He Chan was cruel when he was ruthless, and cut off the phone on time at 1 minute.

Ruan Qingju really felt ashamed beyond measure, as soon as she sat back in her seat, tears fell down her cheeks.

That was the first time she cried in front of Ruan Ke.

After that, it was also the first time she saw Ruan Ke get angry.Ruan Ke ran to He Chan's place, talking about everything, but in the end, she almost let He Chan let go with the look of getting angry, and gave Ruan Qingju another chance to make a phone call.

Ruan Qingju still remembers the way He Chan looked at the two of them at that time.

No, no, He Chan must have been suspicious since then.

Just thinking about it, the door opened.

Ruan Qingju was startled, and then looked under the old locust tree, but there was no one to be seen.

She turned around, and it was Ruan's mother who came back.She took a deep breath, walked over slowly with her slippers on, "Mom, what did Teacher He say?"

Mother Ruan lowered her head to change her shoes, and then looked up at her.

From childhood to adulthood, Ruan Qingju has been beaten by Ruan's mother many times, and she has heard countless insults from Ruan's mother, but she has never seen Ruan's eyes like this.

It's not like looking at a person, it's like... looking at an extremely disgusting, disgusting monster.

With a "bang", Mother Ruan smashed her favorite porcelain cup at Ruan Qingju's feet, and the shattered dregs almost splashed into Ruan Qingju's eyes.

"Why is your school uniform at Ruan Ke's place?"

Sure enough, it was this matter.Ruan Qingju closed her eyes, "On the day after school was over during the winter vacation, she said she was cold, so I lent her the clothes." She said the words that she just made up.

Mother Ruan looked at her mockingly, let out an unknown laugh, rushed to her room suddenly, opened the closet, and frantically pulled all the school uniforms and trousers in the compartment where she put her school uniforms, ripping out all the things in winter and summer. Come out, spread it out on the bed, and compare one by one.Soon, she found the school uniform jacket that was one size smaller, rolled it up, and threw it at Ruan Qingju,

"What the fuck is this? Tell me what the fuck is this?!" Her veins bulged and her face flushed, "Are you cold too? She lent you her school uniform again?!"

"What's your relationship??! What's your relationship??!" Mother Ruan yelled hoarsely, piercing her heart.

Father Ruan came over from the study, "What's wrong?"

"Don't care about your business, you go away." Ruan's mother said.

She walked over, pulled Ruan Qingju who was standing stiffly at the door into the room, and closed the door.

"You talk," she said.

Ruan Qingju hung her head and said nothing.

She slapped her, making Ruan Qingju's head and ears buzzing, "Speak!" She clenched her fist and slammed it against the wall on one side, as if she couldn't feel any pain, "Speak! Talk to me! You Isn't his mother very good at talking? Now he's dumb?!"

Ruan Qingju's lips trembled, "I don't know." She raised her eyes, only to realize that her vision had blurred at some point, she quickly held her breath, determined not to let any tears fall out to declare her weakness.

"You don't get good grades, you don't study hard, you contradict your parents and teachers, all of this can be forgotten. You should at least be an individual? Be an individual? Can't you be an individual??!" Mother Ruan said, He became excited again, shaking Ruan Qingju's shoulders with both hands, as if shaking her first.

"Why am I not human anymore?" She couldn't help retorting.

"Slap", Ruan's mother raised her hand and slapped her again, then put her hand close to her ear, panting, "Does homosexuality count as a person? Homosexuality is the most nondescript monster in the world." Every time Every word seemed to be poisoned, pouring directly into Ruan Qingju's heart.

"Do you think society can tolerate a monster like you? It's disgusting! It's really fucking disgusting!"

Ruan Qingju leaned against the door, and managed to force herself to stand still.She opened her mouth, but couldn't utter a word.

She is too young, and the knowledge about this is too little, even she is not sure, not sure about everything Ruan's mother said.She felt as if she was walking in a thick fog, unable to see where she came from or where she was going.

Seeing that she was as stiff as a log, Mother Ruan finally calmed down a little, and coldly sentenced them, "When the semester starts, Teacher He will transfer you and Ruan Ke away. From now on, you two, don't Any more dealings, remember, I'm talking about anything."

Ruan Qingju's eyes were red, and she stared at Ruan's mother. Ruan's mother never took her seriously, and continued, "If Teacher He tells me that you still have a relationship, you can directly transfer to another class, or transfer to another school." .”

She reached out to pinch Ruan Qingju's chin, forcing her to look at her, "Do you hear me clearly? Speak."

Ruan Qingju squeezed the mobile phone with her hands behind her back, and suddenly broke free from Ruan's mother's hand, turned around and rushed out, and ran all the way to the door of the house, before she even had time to change her shoes, she opened the door and left.

She heard Ruan's mother chasing her after her, so she gave up waiting for the elevator to come up, went directly to the stairs, and barely stopped all the way down to the tenth floor to press the elevator.

She waited for the elevator, panting.

She is going to find Ruan Ke.

No matter what Ruan's mother said, no matter what others said, she wanted to listen to what Ruan Ke said. The matter between her and Ruan Ke was just between her and Ruan Ke, and she wanted to get an accurate answer from Ruan Ke.This answer is very important to her. Only when she has this answer can she continue to turn around and face all the attacks and insults.

I didn't expect it to go so smoothly. After all, Ruan Ke's mother was the first to attack. It is estimated that Ruan Ke will find it difficult to get out at this time.Unexpectedly, Ruan Ke answered the first call not long after she made the first call.

Hearing that she ran out, Ruan Ke was silent for a long time, and only asked, "Are you wearing a coat? Is it cold?"

Ruan Qingju sniffed, "I ran in a hurry and didn't take my coat."

Ruan Ke said: "I'll get you a piece of clothing, you can wait for me at the gate of our community."

"Your mother..." Ruan Qingju asked tentatively.

"It's okay, don't worry about her."

Ruan Qingju stopped a three-wheeled car to go to Ruan Ke's community. The three-wheeled car was a bit old, and it shook violently along the way, just like her uneasy heart.

Ruan Ke said she was asked to wait for her at the gate of the community, but she was waiting at the gate of the community early.When Ruan Qingju got out of the car, she wrapped Ruan Qingju in her coat, "Don't freeze."

They walked along the fence outside Ruan Ke's community, and their shadows were stretched out.

"Didn't you say to hide your clothes?"

"...Xia Jing." Ruan Ke said two words, and Ruan Qingju instantly understood. "She came to me a few days ago and found out."

Ruan Qingju didn't know what to say, "Does she hate me so much?"

"She doesn't hate you, she just thinks I don't treat her as well as before."

"What did your mother say?"

Ruan Ke sighed, "What your mother said is what my mother said, but the words may be a little gentler."

Ruan Qingju pursed her lips, "Then we will..."

"It's still the same in the future. We will be secretive and will not be found."

"No, no, then what the hell are we," Ruan Qingju thought about her words, "What is the relationship between us?"

Ruan Ke stopped walking, and Ruan Qingju couldn't see her expression clearly in the darkness, "...don't worry about this problem, okay?"

Ruan Qingju's heart fell to the bottom instantly, "What do you mean don't get entangled, I want an answer, is it difficult?"

"No." Ruan Ke said with some difficulty, "There are too many facts that happened today, and my mind is very confused now. I don't know how to give you an answer."

Ruan Qingju stopped, squeezed her hands tightly in her pockets and let go, suddenly asked

"So are we gay?"

Ruan Ke was taken aback, and instantly looked tired and helpless, "Qingju." This was the first time she called Ruan Qingju like that, "Don't think about it, okay? We'll be the same as before, can't we? Why go to Stuck about these things?"

Ruan Qingju stared at her blankly, the tears she had suppressed just now fell down in the blink of an eye and hit the ground.

She was lonely and brave only once in her life, and she was buried in this night.

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The author has something to say:

The second volume ends here~

The ending is coming soon. Regarding the direction of the ending, it is actually a natural development. I am not sure if I can control it well. I hope everyone will lighten up

I originally wrote what the author had to say, but I didn’t send it out for some reason, so I’ll make it up now.

Thank you everyone! ! !